As I started the day in a rush because of over sleeping, I am hit with the thought of how far God has been carrying me and how I really must be getting heavy after all these years. I get the two little ones started on breakfast and hug the oldest as her and her grandma are on their way out the door for work and school. I ponder at the wonderful Lord who I worship and love. I am daily reminding my kids "use words that glorify Jesus", "Now would God want us to act like that?", and the all to famous "God commanded little children to obey their mommy's and daddy's". The whole time I am fussing at them i start to hear a small voice in my head specking the same words. "Jodi, now is that how I talk to you?", "Jodi, you your tones reflecting me?" and the all to famous, "Jodi, I have commanded you to protect these gifts and protect their heart and plant seeds of my wisdom in them". But the voice is so small most days I can raise my voice a little louder (plus the kids may even hear me this time) and then I won't hear Him speaking to me.
This morning though I was not fussing so me yelling was not going to drowned out the voice. And our conversation went like this......
"Jodi, I have been here this whole time and I am still here. Trust me, I have a plan for you. A plan to prosper you and your family."
"Today Lord is really not a good day. I have so much to do. I have to make thousands of phone calls and email to find a sitter so i can take this four week class."
"Jodi, I have a plan for you...................."
"OK, If you have a plan then I need a sitter who is not $125 a week per kid and that can take BOTH kids for only four week, and the ONLY four weeks is ok. And Lord while you are at it I would really love for this to be a Christ centered place close to my class."
"Jodi, trust me and All thing will work out for my glory."
"Lord I know this is to much for you so I will just get on line and look. Thank you though for helping I just need to get this done now since class starts like Monday morning."
"Jodi, my child, I have a plan for you......"
Then I head off to web surf for child care and get busy with kid tending and web surfing. I find a few hopfuls but nothing really promising as of all the hairy detains of the situation. The kids and i head over to local taco place and have lunch with grandma and then off to look for a few things for the summer.
As both of my littlest are so ready for a nap but yet i am not ready to stop looking they melt down for all of the Old Navy shoppers to see. Thus a clear sign for me to just put it all back and head home so they can get a recharge.
Diapers all changed and everyone tucked in snug. I once again jump on line to work things out myself...
oh, one new email...(though I send ten out)
It is from the Christian SAHM. ......yuck she can't watch the kids, but.....
"I have a plan for you......"
One phone call and 45 minutes later a sitter AND a new Christian friend!!!!!!
"I have a plan for you. To prosper you AND NOT to harm you..."
I realize how long my Lord has carried me and how light I am getting and how He really does not mind carrying me. He has a plan for me and it is in His hands, safe and warm, to prosper and not to harm.