YAY!

God is really great!

There is really no test that day....

I think i'll die for it if there is that day....

lol...

But ...

Tomorrow....

D-DAY!

Chinese O's!!!

I don't know if I'm really ready....for it.....

ya.....

Chated with Hui xin just now.....

Tell her how dead i'm going to be......

She just said...

Two words

That really mean alot to me!

"HAVe FaItH"

"Hope and faith is all I have....and I need it more in days to come"

"Darkness ahead of me.....But I have not fear..."

"For I have great HOPE AND FAITH IN GOD"

haha Let's get this over ...Once and for all! ya? hui xin? (:

and...Yup....Church camp....

80% done...Grouping

And i guess on the title of this year church

"holiness "

Wow Big word huh?

I'm a co cell leader...for this years church camp..

And I believe LIFE WILL BE TOUCH THIS CAMP!

So whoever is coming Be looking forware to it!


LEADERs
KEeP THE PRAYING HEART AND FAITH STRONG!
Be hOPING to SEe CHAnGE!

God is good....

Tomorrow let there be no test please god!!!!!!!

It's no I did nto study or work hard...

I 've been doing it reallY!!!!

It's just that i no time to cover everything...

Please god don't let it be tomorrow!!!

Funny ain't it.......I can just look at something and give it a cold laugh.....
Like laughing to myself......haha

And I just found out that i've got super human Memories ...I can Remember things super fast...
Like chem,plant equipment-the step to operation it...and everything in it.....

Wow.......Cool..It's a great gift!

God's great! all the time!!

All the time! God's great!!





"Looking at your photo...."

"I just can't help to think of the time that we've fun together"

"Your smile is so beautiful"

"I should not have give you up"

"But if I say I want to like you again?......"

....Oh..I just want to say...I wish Ive never know you!


You are so ungrateful!
You ungrateful sow!
AHHH!!!!





where is she?

Where is the little girl who never fail to smile at me?

Where is the little girl who never fail to brighten up my day when i'm down?

Where is the little girl who always be the first one who talk to me? and also laugh with me?

Where?

Where?

Where is she?

I only know that...

The little girl whom I love as my sister.....

The little girl whom I look out for and take care of the most....

The little girl who hold my hand and ask me to be her guardian angel ......

She's gone...

and never be back.....

The little girl has grow up....

and never look for me again.....

nor talk to me....

Or even give a damn about me......

And now this girl that I'm seeing now...

WHO was once the little girl that I love as my dear sister....

I only have four words for her....


I DON'T KNOW YOU!
>:(

Here i go again.......Mood suck big time today......Day suck......Nothing good on this earth man.....Suck it!....Want to cry but can't cry.....Tried the old way of Lifting my soul....But ever work....3 words WTF! F= fish* .......


Going crazy soon in this crazy world....

Feeling that I'm just a dot in the crowd....

Feeling unlove by anyone in this world........

Only the dust will remember my name.........

Alright.......I think the best I can do now is study....

Keeping my mind busy.....

and pray when i'm better...

Think so the good side.....Christ died for me....

I will study hard!

I will get to the top!

I will honor GOD!

I will forget about her!

I will move on!

And will I meet a new love!

Faith,Hope In god.....I need it now...and even more in days to come......Darkness ahead of me.....Going to "*chong" into it!


*Chong = *Advance

haha.....what a good day of sleeping...haha anyway......I've been checking out on poly and uni....On the track on where I want to go next time....so the poly that i want to go is republic polytechnic.....Well you guys may think that....RP is not that good but.....What I'm talking about is their method of teaching is way...New....I've talk to my lecturer and they say going to RP is better........So ya and the course that i want is...Diploma in Biomedical Sciences or Diploma in Materials Science.... Hey i'm a science student so a science track is the only track that i can do .....haha....


Entry Requirements

Qualifications
GPA
a. NT39 NITEC/NTC2 Chemical Process Technology
>=3.5

This is the entry requirements...as you can see....wow GPA 3.5 is not easy.....i think must atlest got a lot of b.....But who say it can't be done with god with me? and I'm not only going to get my GPA at 3.5 only.....BUt 4.0!~ I aim for the top! God has put me into chemical process in ITE So i'm going to honor it by giving glory to him by getting to the top!...haha..and also Rp is near my house...Than SP :P

Thank god!!....Hard test was good..oh i mean great!!! Really...I did well for the heatexchanger 81/100...Thank god....Well today was also the first BB SC new ex-co meeting ...Talk about up-coming event....and My job now is to get ready the interview things by monday......Have to think of what to ask...haha tata..God is great!

Alright.......Tomorrow is one hard test....But i guess I'm ready...Cos I've put in my best for it...Bring it on! (god be with me)

Let see what i've to do tomorrow

1.Take test(and pass with flying colour
2.Meet hangsang to discuss the student's council new intake (may intake) interview question
3. Go for meeting at SC room 3.00pm...For all Upcoming EX-CO
4.Cover chapter 1,2,5 from PEQ (plant equipment) Test is over but can't lose the fire to study must keep feeding it)
5. catch up with some friends.....online...

ya haha bb!

Thanks guys.....I'm feeling better now....Learning to move on in life now....ya....Nowadays in life I;ve been really busy......most of the time is spent in school....and in study.....And now i've given a post as a "Ex-co"student and council well being" IN Student's council......Thanks han sang I'll promise to honor it by doing my best to serve and to lead.....well exam is coming.....test for this week a hard one......I guess I long have kind of know this day will come and more to come.....Cos the days when I have no worry and close my eyes and sleep...some how a voice said..."Sleep well leon enjoy it when you can cause in days to come you'll not be able to."But standfast I your god will be with you"....Thank god (:

"While you are enjoying yourself overthere.....Do you know that I'm missing you? I really do.....Why do you have to cut yourself totally from me? Making me hard to reach you? Do you really hate me just because I love you? ...Damn it.....How many time does this have to happen to me? Does loving a person got fault?..>Why ? It has always been like this....How many times does I've to be rejected...Is there really no one that I can give all to love and love me back? God please prove me wrong!

"Right now I'm so miserable I could annihilate theses things myself,general. Just point me in their direction"-Captain america..

This is what I really feel! The past two days since Jia cai death....And to add fire to oil...They told me the wake only last for one day...as he is has still not pass 21....."15 years of life is too little right? god?"Why can't it be me? I can take the place" This is what i told god....It's always like this...each time people die around me...Even since susan tan's death...I've thought I have already know how to endue the pain of death....But jia cia's death shows so clear...That I'm just running away not relying on god......I keep lying to myself..."No NO...I'm not angry with god I can't be"...But the fact is I'm only covering up... somewhere in the deep of my heart I'm still a little angry with him...."hey a little only right??Not too bad" But a little is still alot.....Sigh...

Jiacai's death really teach me a lot...REally alot.....

1. Life is really great not matter you are sad or happy....To be alive is a blessing..You may see the sun rise today.....But maynot get to be the sun set.....So Give thanks to god for everyday that has end...Don't care it's good or bad.......Give thanks that it's god's mercy that you are still happy and jumping..

2. People around you...Teasure them spent more time with them..Care for them when they are sad.....Jump with them when they are happy...You may not know that maybe tomorrow there will be no more time for you or them to be with eachother....So if there is any unhappiness between you and your friends or family......sort things out....And to people who is already together.....Love each other more.....And I'll like to take this time to say thank you for those people that has been with me when i'm sad..and laugh with me when i'm happy...and also bearing my crap when i told lame joke..and also when i'm blowing my top off...Thank you...I love you all.....

3.I shoNo point..Going for useless things when you are still alive..Be happy with what you have or onces have......Cause God bring us to this earth with nothing...and also in the same way you are going with nothing...rather spent time doing meaningful things for god"Like doing God's work serving god in the days of your youth..." For me last time I say i want to be the top! so what am i doing? why? all i want was showing to people that ITE student can make it as well....So what?If i've make it?....I should do itdo it for the glory of god! Even if I did not do well....I've done my best...God will be just as happy as I've get top...So please No point trying to show off...and be happy with what you already have in life....really I mean it....

4> My faith became stronger in god......Really...I really trust my life to god.....and I trust him more than i do last time......To live is christ to die to gain...To Seek god when I'm still alive...To Save the lost...To Serve everyone in god's kingdom.......And when the day I die.....I shall say to all and to god..."I've finished the race...I've fought the good fight...I've kept the faith"

Hey jia cai have fun ya? I will see ya when The day of the lord's return or when my time is up...and we shall walk with jesus in the garden of heaven..and also play card game together? Dai dee? will do (;haha I'm sure jesus will know how to play....haha

Song: The legend becomes history

Life time is the ends to remember
Still I say wonder why
Wonder why. We're born into this live this live to die
Sigh lie as I bleed from the future
He's a ray of the light
Ray of light,like the first dream of sun from the sky

*See.Your love is a peace of mine
Life is a vale of tears th moon
Scatters great flakes of the crying
Love is a lost sea in history goes
The legend becomes history........

Don't worry jiacai...I'm sure people you know...Your family and friends....Will learn to move ob...BUT! will remember you always...As a boy that always bring so much joy and laughter in to their life.........

*enD*

Well.....It really hit me hard...when i see or heard of someone around me just pass away like this.....Most or all of the zhonghuaren should have know by now.Ko Jie Cai ....And he pass away..........,,

Today this post is just for him.....May god have mercy on his soul...May he be safe and sound in the arms of god...and he will be just as happy...Well...I'm sure he is really happy playing in the garden of god...

Rest Well Jie cai......Sobx

"Tell me not, in mournful numbers, life is but an empty dream. For the soul is dead that slumbers and things are not what they seem."

"Life is real,Life is earnest and the grave is not it's goal. Dust thou art, to dust returnist was not spoken of the soul."

"Not enjoyment and not sorrow is our destined end or way. But to act that each tomorrow find us farther than today."

"Art is long, time is fleeting and our hearts though stout and brave, still like muffled drums are breating..."

"...funeral marches to the grave."

"In the world's broad field of battle, in the bivouac of life, be not like the dumb and driven cattle..."

"...be a hero in the strife."

"Trust no future, howe'er pleasant. Let the dead past bury it's dead. Act in the living present"

"..heart within and God o'er head."

*End*

Why I want to go backpacking?

1.I want to leave home and go see the world...(Hey it has been going on for so long, people in the past leave home and see the world...But nowaday we are better we can stay at home and see the world...But it's really a un - cool thing to do...)

2.I want to see what god's has made and be amaze!! (Like the first answer....We can watch that on TV...But it's a un-cool thing too....I want to be there right at the spot and see at what god has made....A respect for god's work i guess)

3.I want to see...(Yup to see how those people live their life...In singapore...We are so good...We've TV and everything that made our life better....But those people in the village?
I guess it's really nice to live with nature....wow and also I want to live out door...)

4.Remined of god and who he is...(By seeing god's work when you are backpacking..I guess we can be remined of who god is and his love for us...In that way we are and will be close to him)

5.Get out of city life...

6.Fellowship with those who are with you....

7.By seeing much...I guess my thinking will be more better...as in my out-look of life....
....

I guess this 7 reason will be more than enough to speak my thought...well haha...