Friday, August 31, 2007
Thursday, August 30, 2007
I thought I had made peace with the past....
GOD I really cannot go on in life anymore....My walk with YOu is going down hill...
I lost much hope in my studies.
My life seem to be hanging on the thin line....
GOD I can't I CAN't go on anymore....I really can't....I am already so tired out....GOD please help me and get me all of all this. I still believe that YOU can. Cause I can't.....
GOD. I am so sorry....
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
I'm so tried but I can't sleep. great.
My body is tired after a long day. My mind is even so.
But why I can't just sleep?
sigh....
3.27am"
" I'm sorry for the way
I've been livin' my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight
Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
'Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel"
"GOD I give everything I am worrying about in life unto YOUR loving hands. Cause I believe only YOU can set things right again. Please bless those people who are tired & sad. Please LORD help them overcome their problem in life." Give me the strength to carry on the things YOU wanted me to do. Above all..JESUS take the wheel....Amen." (:
Saturday, August 25, 2007
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Amen.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Well it's has been a really tiring day. Well few things did not go the way that I wanted to go for some part. I did well for my lab test only a B+ not good enough I feel. But thinking about it. I know that I did not put in my best for it. So ya. Now I know GOD. thank you!.
Beside that still a really tiring day. Every strength in me is being used up. and feeling really like a zombies on the way home.....Yup.. Feeling better now (:
as I was seating now thinking about the day that just pass. I began praying and thinking about the word of GOD... This verse came to my mind.
"This is the day the Lord has made; we will rejoice and be glad in it." PSALMS 118:24.
"Maybe the day just did not go the way you planned to...It's still a day that the LORD has made. and HE want us to be glad and rejoice in it. Cause HE made it for us! (:"
I WILL REJOICE
(chorus)
I will rejoice
I'm gonna lift my voice and worship you
And glorify Your name among the nations
Oh, I will rejoice
In everything I will give thanks to You
For You have been my help and my salvation
Every step I take
I feel Your love around me
I cannot escape Your grace
I cannot explain the blessings that surround me
I can only sing Your praise
I have made a choice
To offer up thanksgiving
Lifting up Your holy name
I will lift my voice
And come before You singing
With the sacrifice of praise
Thank you LORD for the peace that is with me! Thank you for another day that is pass. Thank you for keeping me safe! (: hahas Thank you GOD! (: amen!
Sunday, August 19, 2007
I guess...after so long. I can finally keep my past and start anew with GOD. (:
I would really want to thank GOD (:
and not to forget my dearest brothers and sisters who were here with me (:
esp those who came all the way from far.. Thank you (: Huixin,Joseph,James, Kuan ying (:
You all really encourage me alot!
also my best buddy abel!
"Thanks for being there for me buddy. For some many years (:"
and my family in BA! (:
Yup I agree with Hui xin. This is the beginning of a new phase of my life (:
:New life started on 19 of aug with GOD!:
Really touch by this song she gave me!
We want to run to the altar
and catch the fire
To stand in the gap
Between the living and the dead.
Give us a heart of compassion
For a world without vision
We'll make a difference
Bringing hope to our land!
It really mean alot to me. Thank you all who made this day so meaningful and special for me (:
New life!
New hope!
To live is CHIRST, to die is gain!
I have decided to follow JESUS not looking back. All the days of my life.
I have decided to stand and make a difference in the world without vision!
LET"S GO!!
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
I can be smiling and seem happy telling jokes and stuff...
But I'm sad for the next moment.
No one is going to read this (Properly?)
So I can blog my feeling out and also as a prayer to GOD here. (:
Well the feeling of being unvalued just seem to suck kind of lots huh?
well...I don't know what to say from now on...Maybe I am already half crazy.
I believe it's a test from GOD to teach me something.
I don't understand now...But later I will...
Hold on to GOD leon. Stop crying. Stop being sad,Stop stressing yourself too much,Stop bearing everything upon yourself,Stop trying too hard,Stop it. You need rest badly...Very badly..You need GOD..You need someone to help....please leon just drop it. Just shut up and stop being crazy.
Monday, August 06, 2007
Love chemistry or interpersonal chemistry...Or whatever you call it..Just suck.
" I really don't know what to do anymore ) _ = "
Whisper a prayer in the morning
whisper a prayer at noon
whisper a prayer in the evening,
to keep your heart in tune.
God answers prayer in the morning
God answers prayer at noon
God answers prayer in the evening
so keep your heart in tune.
"This song just came to my mind "Ya..The kid sang it in church ...". and HOLY SPIRIT just give me peace in my tire heart..."
GOD please show me the way...Hold my hand and lead my heart.
Sunday, August 05, 2007
The youth and young adult and adult gather (:
We had a great and fun time playing captain's ball and having fellowship with the adult (:
Most of all.
Really respect the adult! They play their BEST! (:
so is the BAYA they are still better than the youth (:
My term BAy 2 and bay 1 is good too! They play their best untill the very last second! of the game! Woohoo You guys rock!!
Most of all..Thank you GOD for the great weather and a fun time to fellowship!
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TODAY!
Church. Baptism class.mission sunday. A afternoon of a little rugby kicking and passing.
Nothing much though (aiko gave me a flying kiss when she said good bye xD) Kids are just so sweet.
Well..I really hope to be a kid again.
With no worry of anything.
The world just seem of big and wonder to them.
Everyday just seem to be like a playground and a world of fun.
Most of all....Learning new and things that will make you ask a millions of questions to mummy and daddy...or kor kor and jie jie.
Sigh...
I just hope that I will be able to continue to draw closer to GOD cause my help come from there.
I just dont want to feel sad and shitty anymore
I want to give GOD the glory in whatever I do!
Working hard and getting into poly is what I want to do it for GOD's glory!
Most of all I want to live my life as a example! to point people to knowing the greatness of GOD.
Navigation: B \ Building 429 \ Above It All
Oh I’m waiting for the answer to the question in my soul
Lord why did you lead me here?
I take a look around and a desperate world surrounds me
I know I’m not of this place, but its here and in my face
All that I am wants to run
God I feel hopeless and undone
Lift me up above it all
I’m feeling broken and alone
Don’t let me turn to stone
Lift my heart above it all
I’ve lost my hope tonight
And I’m praying for the strength to carry on
Lord lift me above it all
Now I’m waiting for a glimpse of hope in an eye
But a flash of sunlight shows a faded gray
Cause these streets are hard and cold
And the alleys burn like coal with a stench of helplessness
And all the life that’s been misspent
And all that I am wants to run
God I feel helpless and undone
Lift me up above it all
I’m feeling broken and alone
Don’t let me turn to stone
Lift my heart above it all
I’ve lost my hope tonight
And I’m praying for the strength to carry on
Lord lift me above it all
Bridge:
Maybe I’m not supposed to fly
Maybe you want me here tonight
To lift them up above it all
When they’re broken and alone
Don’t let me turn to stone
Lift them up above it all
Cause they cannot stand alone
And they’re praying for the strength to carry on
Lift us up above it all
When we’re broken and alone
Don’t let us turn to stone
Lift us up above it all
Because we cannot stand alone
And we’re praying for the strength to carry on
Lord will you lift us up above it all
Friday, August 03, 2007
Haha...Today was a really short day in school? Well...Went with the "older guys" *Those who took care of me when I first join BAY (: To supper ...at Thomson parta ...And meetour dear pye pye HE"S BACK.....but left already by now...Wow it's been so many yearss....2 or 3 i think? I was still a young and silly lad that time when he left man....Well he still have not change much still the GREAT buddy I know (_ : We went to have two round of parta @ two places....Thomson parta house and the thomson parta cafe ((: Try it ..THEY HAVE COOL PARTA!
and we bid fare well at 2.00am...
and thank you aezoh for the ride home (:
It was really cool meeting with him....so much to catch up on..
So it's because of this I miss the 9 to 11's lesson....-_-"
I reach school at about 11 and the last lesson of the day is only 1 hour...
Went to west mall with ter to have lunch and look for sport shoe..But XP no me size.
So listen to his advice went to queens way plaza and look around.
Took 61..and during the ride...The bus went pass ...NGEE ANN POLY!!!...
When I saw ngee ann poly..I was like wow..I was burn with hope and energy and faith..and whatever good things you can think of....TO STUDY HARD! to get into there....I told GOD "GOD I will reach there for YOUR glory!" I've learn that we can turn what we want to do in this life into what we want to do for GOD." Getting to ngee ann is not only what I want to do..But i also want to do it for GOD! Yup that;s right..JIA YOU LEON STUDY HARD!!! ^ ^
Apart from that.....Reach plaza (Like finally...) The ride was bull and tire.....when I went in...I was like =O ! <----- Like this....The place is a heaven on earth for sport's gear and stuff!!
I brought like "GILBERT" size 5 rugby ball which is sold at other shop for like $80 something....or $50 something...Here it's only $29.00 wow!!!
and my sport shoe after soo long...for $49.00 nice color (:
well..tomorrow is the BA family games day where the BAY,BaYA,CG adult will play captain's all together!! ((: and tomorrow is going to be fun!! Now I have my shoe and gear,,,I have no more excuses but to play my best! and with my team too ((: No forgetting that win or lose will not matter.,...The point is to have fellowship (:
"thank you GOD (:"
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
Well today is my 18th Birthday! Wow think about it...18 years old = Can do alot of things = Buy beer,watch M18,can get married,go clubbing and etc..But most of the things here I'm so not going to do it...Hey beside that. 18 years ago...On this day around this time....I was on the way to this world... ^ ^
I remember hearing from my mummy that she had a hard time trying to give birth to me....Till she went into operation to get me out..."wow! Thanks mummy!!!"
Well...most of all I thank GOD for blessing me with this life....Through this 18 years...How GOD had bring me through...To the day I knew who HE was and believe in him...and through the years...HE just bring me to it and through it......wow.....awesome GOD.... Thinking about it ...If I have not come to know GOD....Where will I be in this b day today? What will I be doing?
Found and believe in GOD is the most awesome and wonderful thing that happen to me in my life.....Even since I believe in HIM...HE has been blessing me....with a identity which no one could take away from me...a purpose in life....which push me on to give GOD glory in whatever i have done. wow.....really GREAT GOD...
Apart from that the joy of being a christian is my wonderful family in CHRIST JESUS..MY church....My brothers and sisters had indeed teach me so much about GOD...
well...how I celebrated my b day this year...
well I had a b day dinner at darryl's (THANK BUDDY!!) house on the eve cause I want to leave this day for my family. Thank people for coming...Really enjoyed myself (: *The pinata was fun!! HAHA video ask from me ((:
and also thanks for the gift and oh! The b day message!! LOL!!
some sent to me early cause they thought it's on the 31 -_-" HHAAHA but thanks! (:
Here are the message!!
(EARLY)
1.Germaine (27/7/07)
"haha....in case i dont manage to wish you on time..HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!"
2. lois (31/7/07)
"happy birthday to you,happy birthday to you,happy birthday to leon!..Happy birthday to u! lols...happy birthday!"
3.Raylia (31/7/07)
"Happy birthday. so sorry can't celebrate wiv you. But wish you all the best in whateva u do. have fun today =D"
4. Cherie (31/7/07)
"Hey, happy birthday! GOD bless and cont to dra from him ok? Take care sorry I can't be there."
5. Joanne (31/7/07)
"heys leon,I'm so sori. Guess Im nt gg ur bdae bash...But will not forget your b day present de..so sorry ^ ^ ) hapi early 2 and a half hr bdae 18 lo=Mature than 17 !! hahax
6.Shannen (31/7/207)
"teehee happy birthday in advance of 1 hour and 15 min. cause I cannot stay up till midnight to wish you. so happy birthday great grand daddy! continues to be a great chemist and caring and sometimes lame friend =D from grand grand daughter shannen!"
7. huixin (31/7/07)
happy birthday to you (:
(ONTIME)
1. alicia tang 1/8/07 00.00am
"happy birthday leon may all your wishes come true stay young..haha"
2.aaron 1/8/07 01:29am
"Hey bro! Happy birthday~! I know I not the first but at least i not the last! haha must grow up le k> haha can watch m 18 liao haha"
3. shannen!(again! =D!!) 06.48am
"happy birthday! are you eighteen or seventeen ah? nvm,doesn't matter. what matters that you are looking forward to the new year ahead for you and enjoy yourself =D"
4. Gloria 07:01am
"happy birthday leon =)"
5. Hazel 07.43
"hey leon,HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Have a great day ahead..."
6.Evangeline 10.25am
"heys,happy 18th birthday to you! (: Birthday guy! Have a great day ahead. Takkaise and frens 4eva"
7. Rachel & Rebecca! 11:05am!!
Happy birthday Leon!!God bless you!!
*well I'm really touch by this! ( _: cause it's all the way from china!! oh well they'll be home soon (:*
7.Jimmy wong (12.05pm)
"hello leon! Have a happy blessed birthday today!! =P May you increase in grace and favor in JESUS! cheerio!"
8.winnie (5.18pm)
"happy birthday stupid! haha juz jk wif de stupid..no offence..haha XP *Hugs! haha =P
That's all I guess... more ontime or Belated will be coming up next (If any)
haha must thanks people who help out in the b day dinner yesterday Darryl,hazel,abel,dan,wilfred! (for food,drink ,icecream and stuff (: and timo,sherm,dom,joel (for phototaking and video of the pinata!! xD!!)
Most of all thank you GOD! from psalm 139
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to [b] me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.
Thank you GOD for giving me life...and giving me a daddy and mummy and a good family with with a loving sisters and nice brothers.
and also my brothers and sisters in church and well everyone I knoWW!!
I FEEL SO LOVE AND BLESS!!!