I passed my hump day. I am now halfway through nursing
school. How does it feel? I’m not sure… I still don’t feel like I know even
close to half of what I should know.
Hopefully that will come. I feel exhausted. I had no idea how much work
Nursing School would be. And I’m glad I didn’t know because I’m not sure I
would have done it. There are many things in life that make me feel that way.
Getting married. Buying a house. Getting a dog. Living apart from Travis for
work. These have all required a tremendous amount of sacrifice and hard work.
But they have also had major payouts in the end. But still…. Given the choice
between struggling and not struggling….. it’s much easier to stay on the padded
trail . And the struggling isn’t over. I started thinking about how many trials
the future holds. Am I up to the challenge? Do I even really have a choice? Job
trials. Having a first child. Buying another house. Continuing to balance a
budget every month. I will have to take it a day at a time and hope for the best.
I started thinking about our time in heaven, before coming
to Earth. Did we know about everything we would have to face here, on Earth?
And if we did, how did we still come? Was it because we had no real point of
reference to understand the pain the trials would cause us? Or maybe we just
had such faith and such eternal perspective in Heaven that we knew we could do
it. We knew that God would not give us more than we could handle. I wonder if
that was part of why one-third made that sad choice not to come. Maybe it
seemed overwhelming, especially knowing that we would have the agency to make
our lives even more difficult. But again, with the chance of greater payout in
the end.
I’m so thankful that Heavenly Father knows the plan better
than I do. The end from the beginning. He’s got this. Time for me to exercise a
little bit of faith. Especially in this next year.
