Bubba turns 10!

Ten years ago today I laid in a hospital bed drugged out of my mind. I had been in labor all night. They gave me tons of morphine so I was talking crazy talk. I was scared. If I had the baby today, they said he had a slim chance of living. My blood pressure was out of control. They were trying to get it down. I told them this baby didn't care about the risks, he just wanted out. They wouldn't listen. I had at least eight more weeks if I wanted him to be okay. It turns out Bubba won out. He was born. I was so happy. Then they took him. I was too tired to worry too much. I knew he would be okay.
The worry set in later. I didn't get to hold him that day. Not once. The next day I got to go see him for a little while. Soon enough it was time for me to leave. I think leaving the hospital without my boy was the saddest day of my life. He was there for 3 to 4 more weeks. Not once during that time did a doctor tell me he would be okay. Nobody would tell me he would live. Then one day they came in to tell me he could go home. What? Yesterday he was still iffy and tomorrow I'm supposed to take him home? I thought those people were crazy. I slept with that boy on my chest every night for almost a year. I could tell if he was breathing, if his heart was pumping that way.
They say preemies have a high risk of being "slow." Bubba has never a day in his life been slow. He is the most wonderful thing that ever happened to me, because he makes me want to be better. I feel like the day he was born I grew up. I am so proud of him. I cannot say enough about what a wonderful person that boy is. It has been 10 hard, crazy, fast, and fun years. Happy Birthday Bubba!

So I walk in the laundry room and I see this:

"Lala? Get out of the washer!"
Lala,"But Mommy, I'm rolling"

So she got a new Mermaid Barbie.
"Daddy do you like my new Barbie?"
Dear, "Yes Lala, I like her she's nice."
"Daddy, do you like her tail?"
Dear, "Yes Lala, I like her tail."
"Daddy, do you like her boobies?"
Honestly, I don't know what he said, I was laughing too hard.

Emily's Wedding

We had a great time. It was fun to be together with family. We live so far away it makes my heart hurt to leave and know it will be awhile before we are all together again. It was so wonderful to watch my kids with their cousins, they will always remember the fantastic time we had at Aunt Emily's wedding. Oh, and as a side note "those Mormon girls from Mexico can DANCE!"

Happy 9th Birthday Muffy!

My Darling girl turned 9 years old today. I cannot believe it. We spent the day puttering. The kids didn't have school, which was terrific to have an extra day to recuperate from our long trip.

This girl has always been very independent. From the time she was born she has had a lot of self confidence. She can be shy, but she is very determined. Muffy has a kind heart. She is the BEST big sister Lala and Baby could ask for. She loves to bake and is learning to sew. She has a gift for math and likes to read. She reads to her little sisters every night. She has a way of telling it like it is and she is very funny. I adore this girl. She makes my life better by just being. I am so proud to be her Mommy. Happy Birthday Muffy darling!

Bubba Learns a Hard Lesson

Yesterday Bubba came home from school very upset. He told me he got a w (warning mark) in his folder. He doesn't usually get marks in his folder and I'm not too worried about a warning. He also told me he couldn't find his wallet. I asked him where he thought he left it. It came out that he had taken it to school and he didn't know what happened to it. My poor little Bubba, I don't know whether he was more sad about loosing all his hard earned Christmas cash or more worried about the lecture he knew he was due to receive from his mom (who has repeatedly told him not to take stuff to school). Mom wasn't hard on him at all, I just told him that sucked. He informed me I had never specifically told him not to take his wallet to school so....

Stop the Maddness

Dear and I have a great relationship. He is my best friend. We usually get along quite well. Sometimes Dear makes me mad. When he does, sometimes I get over it quickly other times I stew. Poor Dear.

Sometimes I make Dear mad. I usually offer an apology quickly. He usually gets over it pretty quick. When he stews, I usually ask him how long he plans on being mad. I tell him I'm going out shopping and he can call me when he's done being mad and I'll come home. Now here is the kicker, Dear has to weigh how mad he is verses the damage my shopping trip will do to our bank account. How long can he afford to stay mad? Literally. Now I know this isn't fair, but it does seem to work, he usually gets over it before I can leave the house. Luckily for me I married a man with a great sense of humor, who loves me in spite of my imperfections.

It Fits!

You know that part on Cinderella, the one where the wicked step sisters are trying on the glass slipper, and Drusilla says," It fits!" And in the background you hear, "It fits?" Yeah, those words have been echoing in my brain all day.

So, I tried the dress on last night and made Dear help me zip it up. It seems the reason I couldn't zip it up was not cause it was too small, but the zipper had a snag.

Dear broke the little zipper handle but was able to zip it up anyway. YES!!!! And I could breathe. Yeah!!!

So, my Darling sister will have me as a bridesmaid after all. All I need is the cute little shrug Miss Em bought me to go over the dress. Oh and the perfect strappy shoes too. Anyone have any ideas? Oh and do you know where I can get one of these hats? I need one in black or would that be too much? Maybe like a nice ivory color? What do you think Elena, Faith? You guys want one too? We could be all match-y, match-y! I just know Miss Em would LOVE it!

A new year, a new me!

Just Kidding! Same old me. So, I haven't posted for awhile. I've been mad. A lot of things have made me mad lately. I'm getting over this funk. Finally. It's been the best of times, it's been the worst of times. Christmas was good. The kids love Christmas. Lala bawled when we took down the tree. New Years rocked! Literally! We rocked out 2008 on Rock Band and rocked in 2009 the same way. Gotta love Rockband. We had a party and invited some friends and neighbors. The best of times.
Baby has been sick, Lala has been sick. My personal DVD player was taken from the church after the Ward Christmas party, while we were saying goodbye to Bubba and Muffy. (Oz, Bubba and Muffy spent Christmas away this year.) The worst of times. I only had it there so the kids would have something to do while we set up and prepared the dinner. So, after much prayer and loss of sleep I realized I didn't have it in me to quit being mad about it. My Bishop offered me a check out of the blue to cover the loss of the DVD player. I didn't need the check, just the gesture to return my faith in humanity. So, it seems the Lord knew I didn't have it in me to quit being mad. But when the Bishop said I felt like I needed to give this to you, I was shocked. I couldn't take the money, I just needed the gesture to let it go. So, today I am not mad. I gotta say, it feels good.
Kids go back to school tomorrow. I am going to miss them terribly. I am going to miss sleeping in until 10 terribly. A schedule is nice though. We are leaving for Arizona in 5 days. I am so stinking excited.