Remember when we went to Austin wearing the cutest dresses ever?
It was the start of trying to wrap my mind out of the probability that we would be moving soon. That was July 2. Today is the 27. It has been a whirlwind.
After having lived here for 11 years I have steeled myself against many many dear friends leaving. Each time I hug myself and smile- I get to stay. A little more time to push down roots, a little more time to watch my children grow in our forever house. Alas, those are not His ways and His plans. You would think that living in a place called College Station, you would KNOW that you live in a double transitionary place. College is a brief 4 years (for most:) and Station is a stop, a transition, a pass through ( think Kings Cross Station in the HP movies!) But I didn't see it coming.
We are moving for the company on the dresses. Austin gives them a chance to higher people who can make it all work. A chance to grow, and for me to have a do over.
You see when it was 11 years ago, I did not want to leave Austin. But how sweet the Lord is to give me a second chance to depend on him and to have a second chance to say, "Not my will but thine. "
So I am. I lay my dreams of watching my little girls grow up in this "forever" home, I lay down my comfort, and community (o how this one stings!), and sing again- this world is not my home. I'm just a stranger passing through.
