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Wordless Wednesday

Intervention?

I have been in a weird rut lately. I have no motivation to do anything that could help me feel better. I've actually felt a little rebellious. Whatever I should be doing... my first thought is to do the opposite. I'm like a silly teenager again! Ugh, I know exactly what I need to do to feel better but I'm running away from it.

Whenever I feel like people are rude, take advantage or treat Jr. or anyone I love for that matter badly it's really hard to forgive that person or not to hold a grudge. That's definitely a huge weakness of mine. But admitting that I'm mad at this certain person makes me feel so much guilt. The guilt of being a working mom and falling short in a million other areas plus this added guilt is currently a little hard to bare.

I know very well that the battles that go on are for those I love to battle through on their own and in their own ways, but again its so hard for me to sit back and do nothing. I need an intervention......

8 year anniversary

Today (November 7th) is mine and Jr's 8 year anniversary. Not that 8 years isnt huge but I didnt see anything more special about this one than the past 7 anniversaries. Boy was I wrong! For several months Jr has been secretly planning something really special to give me. I have to give a little background of why I'm so excited. When Jr. and I were married 8 years ago RayRay was 3 months old. We had been dating for a little over a year and werent making the best choices obviously because we had a baby before we were married. So we took a little time to decide on getting married. When we did decide it moved very, very quickly. We could only afford to get wedding bands for eachother.

I'd be lying to myself if I didnt admit that getting a diamond engagement ring hasnt always been a wish of mine. I mean what girl doesnt dream of that. But I understood our circumstances and totally love my wedding band that has Maile engraved on the top of it. Throughout the last couple of years Jr and I have talked about getting me a diamond ring maybe a handful of times and it's usually a pretty quick conversation where I tell him I'm super simple and would want a small band because I would still want to wear my wedding band. These little talks of ours are usually forgotten immediately because I know that we have never been able to afford the type of ring I wanted.....meaning a real diamond lol. Not that I'm too good in anyway but I have never been one to wear a fake diamond on my hand and pass it off as real. Its just not me.

This past Wednesday Jr. text me at work and said he needed to see me ASAP and it's very important. I hate those types of text and I have no patience so I pressed him to tell me what was happening and let him know I was getting worried. He replied saying he had to tell me in person. I had a meeting so I couldnt meet him till afterwards and just let me tell you that meeting drrrraaaaaggggggggggg'd on and on. I was so anxious because I thought something was wrong.

Towards the end of it I received a text from Jr that was meant for our cousin Ray. It said "cuzzo, do you mind if I borrow one of your boxes to wrap Mona's present in". hahaha what a dork he sent it to me by accident. It made me feel better to know that nothing was wrong. The last 2 years Jr bought me Uggs as a gift, so I thought its either more boots, perfume or a watch. He's kind of predictible with gifts.

He picked me up and was so upset with himself for letting the cat out of the bag himself that he had a gift for me. He took me to lunch and I chose to go to Quizno's. Before we get there he gives me a bag with a box that holds another box, which holds a ring box, still the thought never crossed my mind about a ring, seriously the thought never crossed my mind. I thought it was earrings but it had this in it!!!!!!!!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, my very own bling! It's a gorgeous ring. Jr picked it out all on his own. He said he went through so many and was getting a little discouraged when the jewler showed him a pair of diamond earrings. He loved them so much and it was the size, cut, and clarity he'd been looking for that the jewler said he could just mount it onto a band and sell it to him. He also got me the thin band so it would flow nicely with my wedding band.

When I opened it I just kept saying...are you serious? Jr had to yell "it's real babe" then I totally bawled like a baby. I text all my sisters and friends and showed everyone at work even all my male coworkers and I've been floating on cloud 9 ever since. What a sweet sweet man I'm married to.

I know we have eachother for eternity and that is all I need to get through this life so I started to feel guilty, because me wanting this ring after we are married already felt a little worldly. But something deep down inside of me knew that this is a gift to who I was 8 years ago. And it kind of filled a little void I didnt know I had. I told him that this ring for me represents me knowing that I belong to him, and knowing that he wants me to belong to him. I had so many emotions but those 2 feelings were clear as day for me. Oh how I love this man of mine. He's a keeper. Happy Anniversary to me!

Ray and Leka love having another female around the house. Especially one that doesnt boss them around :). But who doesnt enjoy having sweet Ane Boo over? Our boys love and adore her and we were lucky to get her all to ourselves for a night.

I dont like to toot my own horn but....

Leka: (crying) Dad! RayRay just said I'm ugly!
Jr: You should know your not ugly Leka, because you look like me.
RayRay: I called Leka ugly because he said I'm dumb.
Jr: You should know your not dumb Ray because your smart like me.

Land of the lost

Today Jr. lost his Ipod at RayRay's volleyball game. I felt so bummed because lately it feels like we lose everything around here. Our computer crashed and I think we lost everything on our hard drive...including 4 years of pictures :( I'm going to try and find a place that can at least salvage our pictures but I will be heart broken if they arent able to retrieve them. We're going to start saving for a new computer and I'll be smarter this time and buy a back up hard drive. Good thing black friday is coming up!