(hehehe I crack myself up)

I’ve received several emails checking in on me, so I thought I would stop by and update ya’ll!

I’m doing good.  Not great, but good.  I have my moments of utter despair, sure, who wouldn’t?  But for the most part I am trying to just start fresh and enjoy the beginnings of my new life.

That first week was rough.  I will fully admit that if it weren’t for Avery and Delaney I am pretty darn sure I would not be alive.  But they pulled me through, moment by moment, using nothing more than their ability to be darn cute and loving.

My favorite from each of them?  Avery called me the very next day while Lyz and I were out running errands and said “Aunt Heidi, I’m just calling to tell you that I want you to live with us forever and ever.”  I hadn’t cried yet that day, needless to say I became a mess.

Delaney has fully embraced that I am Na (pronounced with a ahhhh at the end).  So the other night she brought me the two bunches of bananas and laid them on my lap, looked up at me with her sweet little eyes and said “Na!  NaNa Na!” and laughed at herself.  Yes, your Na will happily give you a nana!

Other things I did last week:
Say goodbye to the hair!
Before:

After:

(no, I’m not smiling, but it is the only picture I have of my hair right now lol. I mean to take one every day but then I get sidetracked. Like this morning, it looked awesome. Then I went out in the windy snow and it doesn’t look as awesome lol)
Cut hair is the new bra:


(and yes, of course it was donated)

On Saturday night a bunch of us got together and went out. We started the night a little early at home with a bottle of whipped cream vodka. Whipped Cream Vodka is now my new favorite thing. Mix it with a little root beer and all becomes right with the world. Chris and I tried to make a whipped cream vodka run last night, but we live in Amish Country, PA and the liquor store was closed. Meanies.

There are other things I would like to add, but they will need to be in a private post, and I haven’t gotten all my words together yet for that. See, my blog automatically posts on Facebook, and I don’t want the whole universe knowing all my secrets yet lol, just the blogosphere!

Monday night we (Chris, Lyz, Joni and I) went over to the house and emptied most of my belongings out. That was hard. Very hard. The hardest part? My wife was there. Not this new strange Jenn, but my wife. She held me while I cried, she made me feel safe, she was my wife for just a brief few moments, just enough to let me say goodbye I guess.

The future? I would love to be her friend, yes friend, nothing more. I want nothing more than to see her happy. I forgive her already. That does not make it hurt any less, but I do forgive her.

I am not closing down the blog. Maybe I might open up a new one, but for now, I am still Thinking Miracles, and I need them too!

Jenn has been begging to get her eyebrow pierced for forever. Pretty much since she started her new job and they said they want their employees to express themselves and employees are allowed to have whatever color hair, visible tattoos and piercings.

But, she always made me the bad guy. “Heidi won’t let me”. Um, I never said that?? I always said “When do you want to go?” The whole month of October our tattoo place had a piercing special on Wednesdays, but Jenn always said “Heidi doesn’t want me to”. I don’t care. I certainly wasn’t “Oh Jenn, I shall only think you look good if you get your eyebrow pierced” but I wasn’t “NO” either.

So, last night was our Christmas Shopping night. I had arranged it all before hand by finding an excuse to go to the tattoo parlor: Lyz wanted more barbells for her tongue piercing for Christmas. If Jenn said “Hey, while we are there can I get my eyebrow done?” I was to respond with “You would need an appointment, haven’t you seen how busy they are on their Facebook statuses??”

I even called and made an appointment. So when we walked in and saw Riley (not Muffin) and Riley said “Hey, you ready?” Jenn was all…ummm for? And then she got her eyebrow pierced!! It was so exciting!! She was so surprised 🙂

I managed to watch most of it…until she started to bleed.

And here is the finished product:

Yay Jenn!!

I have mentioned before how much Jenn and I love going to the grocery store. Last night we went to the newly remodeled on in our area, and we had WAYYYYY too much fun!!

First off, we were introduced to these newfangled thingies for you to just scan and bag your items as you go!?! And then you just turn in your scanner and pay! Some of you (like my mother) may not be impressed by this as it has been in your area for years. But we like in Amish Country folks. It was just a year or two ago that we got the scan yourself lines!!

Jenn had a bit of a hard time accepting some things while we were there. She loves herself some Rice Krispies and banana. She stood looking at the bunches of bananas and pouting. “We never get through a bunch before the go bad,” she whined. So I took three semi-yellow bananas off one bunch and three mostly green bananas off another bunch and handed them to her. The look of shock on her face cracked me up! She is convinced that we have broken banana laws. She said “Next thing you’re going to tell me is that we don’t have to buy all of the grapes in the bag!” Yes dear, that is true. I thought she might pass out.

Then she found the fruit produce scale. Up until now the only produce scales our grocery stores had was the hanging kind with the clock like face. Jenn had way too much fun with this.

She enjoyed pushing buttons to find the kind of fruit she was weighing

And she loved printing stickers:


Who needs kids when you have Jenn’s personality around??

I was being misbehaved and kept laughing at the nuts in Santa’s pants they had displayed everywhere.

And then I came across the egg nog section and had to send Lyz a picture. She loves her some eggnog, so I had to send her a picture too:

We had fun, then came home and made dinner and watched Glee!!

I love my wife and I love our life. Tonight we are heading over to CLAD’s for game night! We need a game night every so often and since Just Dance 2 was delivered from HouseParty, we have a reason to celebrate!!!!!!

Schroedinger from Schroedinger’s Womb (Hi Speedy!!) was kind enough to ask me a question to help me along in my NaBloPoMo journey.  She asks:

What was the very first thing you noticed about Jenn the first time you met her?

I met Jenn in Idaho at BYU Idaho as a matter of fact.  I was raised LDS (Mormon) and thought I was a very goody two shoes kinda girl.  Molly Mormon as they are known.  I had no idea how wrong I was.  I said my first swear word at the age of 17.  It was damn.  I cried for two hours after.  I was seminary president (a bible study class at 5:30am each morning before high school) and had a perfect attendance record.  I was Beehive, Mia Maid and Laurel president (different youth groups through church).  I followed all of the rules.

My new roommates took Molly Mormon to a whole new level.  They had no interest in doing anything other than sitting in their rooms and reading the scriptures.  Or going door to door to find themselves a return missionary to marry.  It drove me nuts.  Was it really too much to ask for someone to join me and rent a movie?  Renting movies is a whole other tangent I could go off on.  (They were all edited.)  No, the edited PG movie While You Were Sleeping was a little risque.  I mean, she french kissed him before they got married.

After 2 weeks of this I was going insane.  I had just asked one of my roommates if they wanted to walk to campus with me to look through the library for something to read and the response was “Why, did you lose your Book of Mormon?” and I went on a rampage.  I was stomping around the living room throwing a classic hissy fit.  I was telling my five roommates how boring they are when Jenn happened to walk by our window.  I had no idea who she was, what she was like, what her particular belief system was, but I could simply tell by looking at her that she was WAY more fun than my roommates.

I pointed out the window and screamed “See her??  She is the kind of person I want to be friends with.”  I had never met her, I might have seen her at church, but I still had no idea who she was or what she was about.  But seeing her out the window at that moment I KNEW that she was going to become an important part of my life.

Being the shy person I am, I never approached her.  But she was our inter-mural sports director and came by one day to get us to sign up for powderpuff football, and the rest, as they say, is history!

So, in short, the first thing I noticed about Jenn is that she wasn’t your average Molly Mormon.

(if anyone has any other questions, I’m more than happy to answer them)