Life has been really tough for us lately in many ways. We believe the evil one is attacking us on many fronts. We are both struggling with feelings of doubt, bitterness, loneliness, insecurity, and inadequacy. We know that God is molding us and preparing us to further His kingdom but that Refiners fire can be so painful sometimes.
Caleb is an absolute blessing and brings constant joy to our lives. Every single day, I see the Father's love for us but especially when I look at Caleb Samuel.
My absolute favorite time of every day is his bedtime when he is still for one of the few times during the day and I get to snuggle him close in the rocking chair. After Bible Story time and prayers are over, he will lay his head on my shoulder and wrap his little arms around my neck and then I will kiss that sweet little boy head and sing to him for a few minutes before I lay him in his bed to go to sleep. Almost every night, I sing the same worship song, "How He Loves." It might seem like a strange lullaby but it fits so perfectly with the feelings in my heart for the Lord and what He has done for us and continues to do for us in our lives. I don't know if many mommys are like this or if I am the only crazy one but many nights as I hold my sweet boy before bed, I will catch tears falling down my cheeks as I praise the Father for my sweet son. I could never ever fathom that my love would grow to such great heights for such a little human being. It makes me appreciate the Father's sacrifice all the more.