Reminiscing moments of life

2 Years ago, remembering myself in the airport with 3 of my friends who are going to the UK with me, I was feeling both nervous and excited as I left my parents and walked through the customs. At that time, a brand new life was waiting for me to discover and after 2 years, I stood a level above the customs, looking at my brother who left us just like that. The only brother that I have... After he leave, I guess I'll be alone again, the only kid in the family! He's just a special brother in his own way that nobody would have expected. Off he go to explore his life. As happy as I am for him, I'm as well afraid about something else. It has been a well spent 2 weeks time with my brother after not seeing him in a year. This 2 weeks is the best time spent with my brother ever since I have come back.

I have my own life and it is waiting for me to discover how amazing it is. Looking for jobs, continue with my studies and work after completion of studies. The cycle is just like that. what more can it be? But throughout the journey of this cycle, I believe each and everyone of us will learn a lot and matured in thinking. As I grow older, I have realized a lot that I have not even realized back then. The question marks are still floating above my heads. But alot of the questions have been resolved right now. I realized that as I grew older, I can't be plainly spending my time on unnecessary things. Honestly, I regret  a lot not listening to my parents when I was younger to spend more time in reading more of the reality. I do think that I am in need of more knowledge and my brother often acts as the role of an older brother to motivates me to do more reading to increase my current knowledge level. These few months holiday is certainly vital for me to some self-development. I promise, I'll be better before I return to the UK.

Still as in love with them, some people don't understand how can the fans of SJ mix so well together and even friends of friends can be introduced to each other and eventually they will become best friends. Probably people will find this funny but I really think that SJ is a gift for me because I wouldn't have had so much of motivation thinking about the effort they have put in to achieve who they are today!

My life is amazing! 

Introducing my brother! hey yeah he is my younger brother but he do look taller than me, but he is younger than me!! Oh well , this brother of mine don't like to take photos and that is why I really do not have many photos of him! It's a pity really! But hopefully he will develop some interesting hobbies which is out of our expectations when he is over there!

All the best my brother~

Dogs can never fail me!

Oh dear... just how adorable this doggy is! on the streets of Britain or the whole of Europe, you can see dogs wherever you go and the greatest thing is that they are indeed trained well.. they don't simply bark, bite or whatever. There's hardly any stray dogs on the street as well, only those rare by people. I really love dogs but unfortunately, I don't own one!

I remember when I was 12 years old, mom suggested to buy a dog and god knows how happy I was at that age! Because most of my friends have doggies and always talk about how adorable are their dogs and when I finally got one, I was extremely happy. Really can't resist how cute it is! I had a doberman dog whose name is dobby named by my dad. Dad loves dogs too but not as much as me! After having this dog for about a year, it was my mom's decision to sell it off because it is destroying her garden and she prioritized her garden than my poor dog! And so, one day.... my dog just followed someone else back with the money paid to my parents! At the age of 12, at that time, I was really depressed of the fact that I do not own a dog anymore and that adorable dog of mine, as if he understood me whenever i approach him always sits as I pat him or talks to him!

Until today, I really love doggies a lot. I love it in Europe that whenever I'm walking down the street, I'll see doggies and I'll have an awed expression shown on my face! My dad and mom will never understood  me whenever I show that kind of expression because I can feel these cute little things! To exaggerate, I feel that they are poor little things whenever I look into their eyes! It was the greatest thing on earth if my dad brings back a dog for me! hahaha! but it's really impossible =(

The other day when I was watching this famous movie about dogs entitled 'Hachiko', it was indeed depressing! Feeling how the dogs feel, I can literally cry a litre of tears! and another day when I was watching another doggie movie which is a Japanese Movie with japanese acting in it, I really feel them and cried sooooo much! doggies doggies! Just how adorable are dogssss and how come some people don't realize it?! How I wish to own some dogs in the future~

Sometimes,  while looking at Dobby's photo in my room, I wonder, how are you little one? Though you have aged a lot since the day you left my house.. I really do think about the first dog I have ever had. How I wish to meet him again...

Dogs are just toooooo adorable 

I'm back!

Back to Malaysia once again. Smell of the polluted air, humidity and heat is where I stay... Missing the fresh and cool air that I have stayed for 2 years. But oh well, home sweet home to myself! It's really good to be home after 1 year ++ of staying outside of my home country... I didn't have jet lag at all, unlike in the UK. Jet lag was pretty bad for me over there. I came back just to realized that my sim card is not working so I guess it's stopping me from connecting with friends over my phone.. haha! It's a good thing actually.

Finally get rid of my untrimmed hair for about a year++. Brother is going to leave us when I come home. It's really depressing but I'm meeting him soon anyway after this! so, this 2 years in the Uk have got me gained tons of experience in self development. I believed, I have grown alot within this 2 years. Alot has changed as well. Friends, places... etc some friends who keep in touch with me 2 years ago are no longer keeping in touch with me anymore. But at least I do know who stayed with me from 2 years ago until now and who don't. I'm happy with my life, my friends. They are awesome.

Definitely, there's not much of a time that I could waste on computers, online or doing something unnecessary like what I did last time because time is limited, life is short. I need to do something which is more important and that I would see as not wasting my precious moment in my home country. Need to learn from my brother to read more. Keep telling myself over and over again to read more! Because I am lacking in reading and definitely need it to boost my knowledge!!

Just for the  sake of blogging, I blogged. Thanks to those who still bother to read this blog.
Goodbyeeeeeeeee~

My dash is interesting!

Should I say I'm almost done with Uni? I have just sat for my finale final exam in Uni. Looking at the books and notes piled up above my shelfs, I often asked myself... is it ending already? No, it has ended. Uni has ended. I'll miss Uni a lot and my life in bristol. I'll definitely miss it. One day, when I was still sitting for my exams, I woke up early to study but only to find an emotional side of me emerging again. I looked at my room, from the book shelf, my photos of family, friends, host brother, sj darlings, my super junior collection, to the notice board that I have attached loads of motivational quotes and loads of super junior photos. I asked myself yet again, is it ending already? As I looked at the motivational words/quotes which I attached it on my vision board, I saw the word 'ss4'. SS4 stands for super show 4 and it is super junior's 4th concert.

Guess what? I have been to ss4. The concert that I would die to go for. I have been there and came back. Paris to me is like a wonderland with fantasized dreams and fairy tales. I went to Paris with bel, just the both of us. Together, we explore the beauty of Paris. Never knew it could be so great travelling with a friend like that. The best thing on earth is that I met my darlings at ss4! ss4 is so worth it to go. Reminiscing the moment where 9 supermans walked passed me just within a face to face distance often motivates me to study harder. I couldn't believe my eyes. I achieved something that I would never thought I could have achieved. I thought that I would only look at them from far and that's it. But I never never knew that i could see them so closely. So, because of this I'm often motivated by them whenever I'm down to studying. I'm really thankful for my dad to let me fulfill my dreams! Thanks dadddddd!

The rest of my days in bristol is going to be very very precious. I will miss every bit of it. I'll treasure every single thing for the left over days. I'm really glad that I am here. =)

CNY and events!

Yee lin came to visit me at bristol and I'm so happy that she came! She told me that her friends say we look alike, even our personality and characteristics. I think I have to admit that we are like twins because when she came to visit me at my m'sia home, my mom actually said that! haha! Great friend she is! The way we know each other is pretty hilarious too! 

Anyway, this is yee lin who is studying at Russia! =D

Really had great fun with her over here! and I'm so grateful to my friends who come to bring yee lin and her friends around bristol with me... Thank you all! Hope that I am a good host though. =p 

I'm still waiting for Zoe, my new friend in Bristol who's very cheerful and hyper to send me all the pictures she took! More photos to come!~ Stay tune! 

Anyway, my CNY over here is quite alright. It's much better than last year! Completely forgotten the need to take a group photo with friends who celebrated CNY eve with me that night... I only took the photo of food~~ 

I can actually find this in bristol =)

Everyone is definitely having fun during CNY in Malaysia. Lots of my relatives went to my house at Malaysia for some open house event or more like a gathering event and my aunt tagged me all the pictures of food making me hungry!! Glad that all of them remembers me =) Appreciate alot! How I wish I could go back home to celebrate cny as well... 

While they were having party at M'sia, we had MSA dinner as well in Bristol at Wong's. Had a great time with all my friends and coursemates taking photos and socializing and again, photos are not available at the moment again! haha! but.... stay tune! 

My SS picture.. haha! HAPPY CNY PPL! <3

Another CNY in Bristol is coming!

We are in 2012 right now, less than 1 more day to cny eve and 2 more days to CHINESE NEW YEAR! Time flies~ this is my second year for not celebrating chinese new year with my family =( But this year is better than last year! Life have been so much better, I have got used to life over here and it's just an event though. I only missed my family, the people, the atmosphere. Oh well, emotional is not needed. =) People who are celebrating cny in Malaysia, please do enjoy this very huge occasion! 

People who are feeling depressed about not being able to go back for CNY, please don't be depressed about it because you can always celebrate cny after you go back to Malaysia after achieving your dreams. As for right now, just enjoy spending this very special occasion with your dearest friends who happen to be your family members when you are away from your home! =) I always appreciate friends who are with me over here because I can only depend on them and myself... Let's have a blast during this CNY over here in Bristol! 

I love my friends <3 

Thank you for always being there for me!

I'm honored to have you guys in my life =) 

Merry Christmas!

Christmas is over, Boxing day is over and exam is drawing nearer! Life's awesome and I'm lovin' it but sadly, I need to be serious over my studies after all these fun! =( I have had a week of holiday and I can say that I'm having a great time over here though we didn't travel anywhere like other people do! We only have casual outings like shopping, having a meal in town and watching movie. But these casual outings are cool and I'm lovin' it! How about you, my friends? =)

We celebrated winter soltice festival over here too and it was awesome! I'm really glad despite I'm far away from home, I still have a bunch of good friends over here in the UK with me! I'm really grateful about it!!

 Tong Yuen <3

my cutie friend who's eating her domo T.T 

vy, wen, bel <3 

My yummy tong yuen! Honestly, it was delicious! :)  

LOL is she handsome? :D

We have been eating non-stop! I really need to go to the gym after my exam! 

Next is the Christmas eve dinner! 

 Yummy Christmas Eve dinner! 

It was a movie marathon after the dinner! went back pretty late, it was really as if we came back from clubbing! HAHA!! But we good kids watch movies at home instead of going clubbing! :p

The next day which is X'mas day, we went to my friend's place again and eat up the left overs for lunch. After that, movie marathon again! Then, when it's time for dinner, another x'mas dinner is prepared again... =D 

X'mas Dinner! 

The cupcakes are really niceeeeeeee! 

And today was boxing day! Obviously, boxing day in UK is quite a big thing so we went out, wanted to experience the excitement of buying cheap cheap items but out of our expectation, Bristol is pretty quiet. I guess it would have been better to experience the real boxing day at london... 

so, this is how I spend my first week of holiday over here :) Fun? Need to get on with my studies soon! T.T wish me luck people! 

This is like our album cover! so cool right? I love my friends! <3 Without them, I'm nobody! Thank you for everything, you awesome people! =)))))  

Love this photo, don't know why. May be it's the colour. haha! she's always there when I needed her the most! Thank you ah hyuk! =D Appreciate loads, really. She never fail to turn up or accompany me wherever I go! Thank you.

It's only a few more days before 2012 comes! If you have something important to do before the year ends, please do it quickly, because you don't want regrets in life, don't you? Have a great year end, people! =) 

A great day out!

The winter holiday has just arrived again! Another year has passed and I am done with my first term at UWE! Time really flies! So far, life's great! Love everything and everyone in my life! Have been to many places ever since holiday started! 

Bel's friends came all the way from Lincoln to visit Bristol and we brought them around. We brought them to Shanghai nights. It's a chinese buffet restaurant. I haven't been eating good food lately so having the first few bites of the food really did made me feel satisfied about the food! Made friends with bel's friends and his friends and it was really nice knowing them. Qiao xin went with us too which made the atmosphere even more merrier! 

Last year around this time, the first day of holiday, I went to suspension bridge with Qiao Xin and gang as well and this year, my first day of winter holiday was well spent with her and other people! =) After having a heavy meal for a lunch-teatime kind of meal, we decided to bring them to have a walk at cabot circus which will pass by the german market which is really pretty as well! We walked to Clifton's suspension bridge later on and it was realllyyyy a long walk!! I would never walk so long in Malaysia! 

Since I have been to suspension bridge last year and this year, I would like to made a comparison HAHA! Cos it didn't snow this year but it snowed last year! and of course, the snowed suspension bridge looks prettier! However, they have their own beauty! =) 

2010 Suspension Bridge!

2011 Suspension bridge!

When we reached suspension bridge, it was as if we are on an adventure because everywhere seems pitched black and it really was as if we were going on camping on a cold winter day! And when we see the bridge, it was really beautiful! Although it's just a bridge, it looks beautiful at night! 

After a long walk to the bridge, we went back to shanghai nights to have my first ever karaoke since I came back to Bristol this term! It feels sooooo good to sing again after so many months not singing! Spent 3 hours there eating, singing and talking! It was really a great night we had! 

I always love meeting new people and socializing. Although I'm not good in socializing with new people, I really love meeting new people because it broadened up my networking! And especially, in UK. =)

Xin and Bel :)

Achievement

Sometimes, I thought to myself, I have lived 20 years and what have I done? what have I achieved? I thought about the times when I was stilll at Malaysia few years back.Time really flies. 2 years ago, when I was still doing TBF, I wouldn't have thought that I would be studying in UK. I wouldn't have even thought that I would befriend such amazing Elf friends (p.s.: Elf isn't what you think it is, it stands for Everlasting Friends).

I really believe in fate. Without fate, I really can't imagine what kind of life I'm having. Sometimes, I still thought that I'm living in a dream  because everything is happening. I am studying in the UK and it seems like I have transferred to sri KL yesterday, I went back to Malaysia for my summer break and that period of time was as though it was a dream to me, it is as though UK is my reality. The friends that I mixed with currently and in the past, it changes so quickly! Sometimes, I think... 1 or 2 years from now, will I stay with the same friends that I have now? Because I really appreciate my friends, all my friends and I don't want to lose any of them. But I don't have a say in this because all these changes.

Anyway, life over here is rather alright. I do enjoy and I do feel sad. It's just a normal human emotion. I'm back to playing piano again <3 I have a group of friends who's so in love with playing piano as well and I'm really very happy to play and chat with them about all these because my dream is to maintain my passion for piano but I lose that passion few years ago and found it back again. Besides playing the piano, I have a new discovered interest. I don't know how long it has began but I'm in love with dancing as well =) I really feel happy to dance especially when I had a really busy day and was really tired, after I attended the dance class, I regained the positive energy! I guess people who know me well would have known why my discovered interest is so shocking!

The course I'm doing, it's getting tougher. How? Just keep the passion, keep the determination and keep going until I achieve something I promised myself to achieve. Talk is easy but what about taking action? I'll remember what my dad tell me, never give up. Henry says never give up too! Whenever I thought about the hardwork they put in, it often motivates me! It lighted up my spirit to keep going no matter how bumpy the road could be.

I love how you guys motivated me =)
I feel so loved...

 







I want to achieve something like them
and... 

Cry of happiness of achievements!

I want to hug my friends after I achieve something after the thorough hard work that I have put in to achieve something!

Visit to Torquay

For the past one week of Independent Learning Week, what have I done? Read on, and you'll know! I spent my time fooling around instead of studying! Because it is supposed to be a week of study break! Oh well, I went to Torquay, Torbay. It is somewhere near Bristol and there are alot of miniature which is really cute! We drove there and it is really a beautiful place! Worth a visit! =)

Supposed to be my lunch.. but didn't know it contained beef T.T

Somebody getting married!

Fish~~~ <3

Mini Stonehenge ~~

Harry Potter!

HP fans, can you recognize this? :D

Managed to catch the train! :D

And again, the train!

Amazing!

If you are lucky, you can catch the fire coming out from the mouth of the dragon!

Four of us


Isn't this place beautiful?

Glad that I made the right decision to go! I would love to visit all these lovely places in England before exploring Europe! Life is Brilliant, Indeed!

Holiday ended, time to get back to studying and focus in what I'm supposed to do!