Archive for June, 2009

Heart: Mad Speaker

The last day of June. You were there, you were there when I needed a friend Thank you thank you but I never told you how much that meant.

I still remember you and all of the things that we’ve gone through. There is so much I can say but the words and emotion gets in the way, so we’re not together but I will still remember you.

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We are a picture in my mind. You are down south but when I want to find you I just close my eyes you’ll never be that far from me….

You proposal is tempting me…. with the smallest statement you made TW I wanted to drop everything for you.

” I would love to be loved by you and to love you”. quote TW

Contemplation contemplation, accumulated experience don’t not underestimate my intelligence. Paper is contemplating.

CURRENT ONGOINGS :-

Music: Nanofingers – The Game of Minority

Genre: Electro Pop

Mood: Confused and down beat

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Mind: Mah Boy

Girls” is the first single from Se7en, a South Korean pop/R&B singer. He is readily preparing for his American debut for his first Untitled American album. The track features Lil’ Kim and was produced by Darkchild. The video has been shot and should be premiering soon.

Loving this flyboy….

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Life: Horoscopia

The Week of the Persuader – Cancer July 11-18

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You know how to convince others of their worth and get them to do your bidding. You are a powerful manipulator and have great drive and determination. You have a strong need for success. You are good at reading the signs of the times and knowing when to act. You have a strong personality and are passionate about your beliefs. You rarely pretend to be something you are not and are always honest from the start. You sometimes tend to indulge in excess and obsessive compulsive disorder is not uncommon. You can be giving, sharing and affectionate but you do not hesitate to advise or judge. You have great instincts but can at times be smothering and insensitive. You like to take center stage in your loved ones lives and when left to do so life can be content, peaceful and even quiet with you. You need a solid, practical partner who can offer emotional stability and structure. Strengths: Enterprising – Persuasive – Observant Weaknesses: Excessive – Manipulative – Insecure

Life: Upcomings

Coming month of July is going to be a rather busy month for Paper.

Week One: Events back2back and a friend from Singapore will be visiting with dinners and all that running until Sunday.

Week Two: New clients meeting and debriefing

Week Three: My birthday…wooohoooo. Finalisation of propose takeover of fashion distributor.

Week Four: Easy’s birthday celebration. Final prep for August fashion show. And…… 😛

so far Paper can think of this only…other than that, one little sticky situation is going to cause a slight headache of whether to contact Paris for his coming 25th birthday and whether should I send/purchase his present. The last present Paper got Paris was a mont blanc wallet, so this time round Paper thought of buying him the latest edition of onisuka since it is his favourite….. Argh! the dilenma!

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Heart: Pain

It was so unexpected, months of relative quiet and calm my heart skip and pause for a minute. Or maybe more…still debating on that matter.

Paris suddenly appeared out of nowhere in my sphere of view.

Paper must admit…., Paris does look good. Extremely good…I should say. He is still maintaining that swimmer body of his…and that cute baby face looks shall never bore me.

God help me…. every single time it hurts. To look at the pictures, listen to the voice…..but then Paper will receive all this openly, as it is part of life for which I must learn.

I have never once said this in all my post….but realised I should. Thank you Paris, for changing me profoundly and deeply. You have made me be secure in myself and help me love again. And for without your support in the beginning, my life and career wouldn’t of been where it is today….

Thank You With All My Heart. Loving You Always.

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Life: Misdemeanor

Paper, for someone who has enough disorder to merit his own classification in the diagnostic manual, you are one of the most well adjusted and highly functional bastard I know….

You are not just the walking wounded but the walking dead….

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Word: At First Sight

It is one of those nights again, Paper was unable to sleep. Actually on the contrary I was able to sleep but woke up after four hours on the dot again…. So to help time fly, Paper started to watch the ever corny chick flick you might say “Made of Honour”.

And as you know, the movie revolve around the story of love at first sight which got me thinking….is there such thing as love at first sight anymore?? Does this myth actually exists or are we creating something to comfort and rationalise something so irrational..?14-2

In the classical world, the phenomenon of “love at first sight” was understood within the context of a more general conception of passionate love, a kind of madness or, as the Greeks put it, theia mania (“madness from the gods”). This love passion was described through an elaborate metaphoric and mythological psychological schema involving “Love’s arrows” or “love darts,” the source of which was often given as the mythological Eros or Cupid, sometimes by other mythological deities (such as Rumor). At times, the source of the arrows was said to be the image of the beautiful love object itself. If these arrows arrived at the lover’s eyes, they would then travel to and ‘pierce’ his or her heart, overwhelming them with desire and longing (love sickness). The image of the “arrow’s wound” was sometimes used to create oxymoron and rhetorical antithesis concerning its pleasure and pain.

“Love at first sight” was explained as a sudden and immediate beguiling of the lover through the action of these processes. “Love at first sight” occurs in numerous Greek and Roman works. In Achilles Tatius’s Leucippe and Clitophan, the lover Clitophon thus describes his own experience of the phenomenon: “As soon as I had seen her, I was lost. For Beauty’s wound is sharper than any weapon’s, and it runs through the eyes down to the soul. It is through the eye that love’s wound passes, and I now became a prey to a host of emotions…”“Love at first sight” was not, however, the only mode of entering into passionate love in classical texts; at times the passion could occur after the initial meeting or could precede the first glimpse.

Another classical interpretation of the phenomenon of “love at first sight” is found in Plato’s Symposium in Aristophanes’ description of the separation of primitive double-creatures into modern men and women and their subsequent search for their missing half: “… when “a lover” … is fortunate enough to meet his other half, they are both so intoxicated with affection, with friendship, and with love, that they cannot bear to let each other out of sight for a single instant.”

Paper is rather intrigue as what people in the 21st century construed “Love at first sight”….is it as romantic as describe in all classical materials and they lived happily ever after or reality comes into play once again.

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Life: We Keep it Moving

Sleep is a natural state of bodily rest observed in humans and other animals. It is distinguished from quiet wakefulness by a decreased ability to react to stimuli, and it is more easily reversible than hibernation or coma. In humans, other mammals, and a substantial majority of other animals that have been studied regular sleep is essential for survival.

Days and nights are becoming longer…Paper is constantly sleeping at 6-7am with the mind running at 100%-tile.and then waking up at 10am with the constant badgering of telephone calls and sms. 450px-Male_model_A_and_B_and_C_02

But mind you…my nights are always entertaining by talking to a dear but sometimes annoying friend over in London. He always managed to come up with the most random of things to say….

PAPER IS GOING NUTS…. I NEED SLEEP, MORE THAN FOUR HOURS PREFERABLY.

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Mind: Literature 101

Part Three, Chapter One

“Very well, as far as I could judge from the sight of him.”

“You saw the emperor, then?”

“He entered the marshal’s apartment while I was there.”

“And you spoke to him?”

“Why, it was he who spoke to me, sir,” said Dantes, with a smile.

“And what did he say to you?”

“Asked me questions about the vessel, the time she left Marseilles, the course she had taken, and what was her cargo. I believe, if she had not been laden, and I had been her master, he would have bought her. But I told him I was only mate, and that she belonged to the firm of Morrel & Son. ‘Ah, yes,’ he said, ‘I know them. The Morrels have been shipowners from father to son; and there was a Morrel who served in the same regiment with me when I was in garrison at Valence.'” n12201696105_950265_2653“Pardieu, and that is true!” cried the owner, greatly delighted. “And that was Policar Morrel, my uncle, who was afterwards a captain. Dantes, you must tell my uncle that the emperor remembered him, and you will see it will bring tears into the old soldier’s eyes. Come, come,” continued he, patting Edmond’s shoulder kindly, “you did very right, Dantes, to follow Captain Leclere’s instructions, and touch at Elba, although if
it were known that you had conveyed a packet to the marshal, and had conversed with the emperor, it might bring you into trouble.”

“How could that bring me into trouble, sir?” asked Dantes; “for I did not even know of what I was the bearer; and the emperor merely made such inquiries as he would of the first comer. But, pardon me, here are the health officers and the customs inspectors coming alongside.” And the young man went to the gangway. As he departed, Danglars approached, and said,–

“Well, it appears that he has given you satisfactory reasons for his landing at Porto-Ferrajo?”

“Yes, most satisfactory, my dear Danglars.”

“Well, so much the better,” said the supercargo; “for it is not pleasant to think that a comrade has not done his duty.”

“Dantes has done his,” replied the owner, “and that is not saying much. It was Captain Leclere who gave orders for this delay.”

“Talking of Captain Leclere, has not Dantes given you a letter from him?”

“To me?–no–was there one?”

“I believe that, besides the packet, Captain Leclere confided a letter
to his care.”

“Of what packet are you speaking, Danglars?”

“Why, that which Dantes left at Porto-Ferrajo.”

“How do you know he had a packet to leave at Porto-Ferrajo?”

Danglars turned very red.

“I was passing close to the door of the captain’s cabin, which was half open, and I saw him give the packet and letter to Dantes.”

“He did not speak to me of it,” replied the shipowner; “but if there be any letter he will give it to me.”

Danglars reflected for a moment. “Then, M. Morrel, I beg of you,” said he, “not to say a word to Dantes on the subject. I may have been mistaken.”

At this moment the young man returned; Danglars withdrew.

“Well, my dear Dantes, are you now free?” inquired the owner.

“Yes, sir.”

“You have not been long detained.”

“No. I gave the custom-house officers a copy of our bill of lading; and as to the other papers, they sent a man off with the pilot, to whom I gave them.”

“Then you have nothing more to do here?”

“No–everything is all right now.”

“Then you can come and dine with me?”

“I really must ask you to excuse me, M. Morrel. My first visit is due to my father, though I am not the less grateful for the honor you have done me.”

“Right, Dantes, quite right. I always knew you were a good son.”

“And,” inquired Dantes, with some hesitation, “do you know how my father is?”

“Well, I believe, my dear Edmond, though I have not seen him lately.”

“Yes, he likes to keep himself shut up in his little room.”

“That proves, at least, that he has wanted for nothing during your absence.”

Dantes smiled. “My father is proud, sir, and if he had not a meal left, I doubt if he would have asked anything from anyone, except from Heaven.”

“Well, then, after this first visit has been made we shall count on you.”

“I must again excuse myself, M. Morrel, for after this first visit has been paid I have another which I am most anxious to pay.”

“True, Dantes, I forgot that there was at the Catalans some one who expects you no less impatiently than your father–the lovely Mercedes.”

Dantes blushed.

alex-pettyfer“Ah, ha,” said the shipowner, “I am not in the least surprised, for she has been to me three times, inquiring if there were any news of the Pharaon. Peste, Edmond, you have a very handsome mistress!”

“She is not my mistress,” replied the young sailor, gravely; “she is my betrothed.”

“Sometimes one and the same thing,” said Morrel, with a smile.

“Not with us, sir,” replied Dantes.

“Well, well, my dear Edmond,” continued the owner, “don’t let me detain you. You have managed my affairs so well that I ought to allow you all the time you require for your own. Do you want any money?”

“No, sir; I have all my pay to take–nearly three months’ wages.”

“You are a careful fellow, Edmond.”

“Say I have a poor father, sir.”

“Yes, yes, I know how good a son you are, so now hasten away to see your father. I have a son too, and I should be very wroth with those who detained him from me after a three months’ voyage.”

“Then I have your leave, sir?”

“Yes, if you have nothing more to say to me.”

“Nothing.”

“Captain Leclere did not, before he died, give you a letter for me?”

“He was unable to write, sir. But that reminds me that I must ask your leave of absence for some days.”

“To get married?”

“Yes, first, and then to go to Paris.”

“Very good; have what time you require, Dantes. It will take quite six weeks to unload the cargo, and we cannot get you ready for sea until three months after that; only be back again in three months, for the Pharaon,” added the owner, patting the young sailor on the back, “cannot sail without her captain.”

“Without her captain!” cried Dantes, his eyes sparkling with animation; “pray mind what you say, for you are touching on the most secret wishes of my heart. Is it really your intention to make me captain of the Pharaon?”

“If I were sole owner we’d shake hands on it now, my dear Dantes, and call it settled; but I have a partner, and you know the Italian proverb–Chi ha compagno ha padrone–‘He who has a partner has a master.’ But the thing is at least half done, as you have one out of two
votes. Rely on me to procure you the other; I will do my best.”

“Ah, M. Morrel,” exclaimed the young seaman, with tears in his eyes, and grasping the owner’s hand, “M. Morrel, I thank you in the name of my father and of Mercedes.”

“That’s all right, Edmond. There’s a providence that watches over the deserving. Go to your father: go and see Mercedes, and afterwards come to me.”

“Shall I row you ashore?”

“No, thank you; I shall remain and look over the accounts with Danglars. Have you been satisfied with him this voyage?”

“That is according to the sense you attach to the question, sir. Do you mean is he a good comrade? No, for I think he never liked me since the day when I was silly enough, after a little quarrel we had, to propose to him to stop for ten minutes at the island of Monte Cristo to settle the dispute–a proposition which I was wrong to suggest, and he quite
right to refuse. If you mean as responsible agent when you ask me the question, I believe there is nothing to say against him, and that you will be content with the way in which he has performed his duty.”
“But tell me, Dantes, if you had command of the Pharaon should you be glad to see Danglars remain?”

“Captain or mate, M. Morrel, I shall always have the greatest respect for those who possess the owners’ confidence.”

“That’s right, that’s right, Dantes! I see you are a thoroughly good fellow, and will detain you no longer. Go, for I see how impatient you are.”

“Then I have leave?”

“Go, I tell you.”

“May I have the use of your skiff?”

“Certainly.”

“Then, for the present, M. Morrel, farewell, and a thousand thanks!”

“I hope soon to see you again, my dear Edmond. Good luck to you.”

The young sailor jumped into the skiff, and sat down in the stern sheets, with the order that he be put ashore at La Canebiere. The two oarsmen bent to their work, and the little boat glided away as rapidly as possible in the midst of the thousand vessels which choke up the narrow way which leads between the two rows of ships from the mouth of the harbor to the Quai d’Orleans.

The shipowner, smiling, followed him with his eyes until he saw him spring out on the quay and disappear in the midst of the throng, which from five o’clock in the morning until nine o’clock at night, swarms in the famous street of La Canebiere,–a street of which the modern Phocaeans are so proud that they say with all the gravity in the world,
and with that accent which gives so much character to what is said, “If Paris had La Canebiere, Paris would be a second Marseilles.” On turning round the owner saw Danglars behind him, apparently awaiting orders, but in reality also watching the young sailor,–but there was a great difference in the expression of the two men who thus followed the movements of Edmond Dantes.

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Mind: Si je t’emmène

Yes, Paper usually never advocate putting videos on my main page….but this is one song that runs through my blood like a virus. Endlessly attacking its tired cells and rejuvenating every inch of it until the body moves to the beat.

Paper hereby will overlook this heresy and allow the video to be place this once.

J’espère que vous apprécierez la chanson autant que je n’ai….

C’est pour quelqu’un, je tiens à le dire directement, mais est plutôt peur de ce que pourrait devenir.
Le papier est fou pour vous. sommes-nous compatibles? ce qui nous est inconnue, mais pour eux-mêmes la foi.

Vous avez peur de ce qui pourrait être entre nous … il ya des avertissements de chaque côté de vous de rester à l’écart, mais je ne veux pas que vous.

Vous êtes déjà dans mon sang et l’esprit sans cesse, on me déchirer au début, mais pas plus, le papier voulez-vous que … je suis fou de toi!

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