Precious

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 But I'm Still Editing It.. 

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Hello.

It's been awhile i haven't blog,out of the blues i decide to blog today 'cause my phone is on upgrading process.. hehehe... since aku inda dpt main game so i blog.. So,anywayy "SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI : MOHON MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN", Hari raya masih ne so inda apa lah,i'm not in the festive mood this year,so sambutan ala kadar tho baju raya ku 2 pasang & tidak di sengajakan harga nya kepisan,but it's okay lah.. while i'm still paying for myself,that should be fine lah.. so,why am i not in festive mode? 'cause i'm in the 'engagement mode',show off much?? LOL!! I'm engaged to my prince of the earthh.. Eiihhh,waitt!! Alang2 jua kan prince owhh,scratch that.. i'm engaged to my KING of the earth.. hahaha.. my skinny-prince-charming.. Owwhh Yeess,he is charming.. hehehe.. 

Happyyy~...

Selamat Hari Raya.

Back To Work.

Helloo Everyone, i just got back on Monday night.. still tired & my eyes are still sleepy,they need a seriously good sleep which is more than 6hrs.. hehe.. and end up,having headache and then,i need sleep again.. how lame can that be? hehehe.. lame much rightt... so,it's raining.. i plan to go to tamu with boyfriend later, if its still raining this heavily so cancel plan and go to wisma yakin tah saja ku tu.. hhhmmm.. Alai mau kiuh cara maniss.. huhuh.. So,trip to s'pore with them, its a bliss.. and more or less,relaxing.. no rush just go with the flow.. hehehe.. but i really enjoy the Bazaar Ramadhan, there's nothing compare to what we've ere.. this is my 2nd time going to s'pore on Ramadhan season.. & their broaches are more prettier and cheaper.. so i prefer to there for hari raya shopping next time.. but i only grab a few shirts and jeans.. and kebaya indon as well.. hehe.. so yeahh, definitely no regret.. okay then,'till next time.. && i didn't got lost being a tour guide.. thanx to iPhone application.. hehe..

Vacay..

Okay ladies, another vacation on last minute basis.. Yesss, its' crazy & i've confirmed ticket and hotels yesterday.. Dad went to bandar yesterday so he can't read his mails & later, i need to go to travel agent for payment with Mama, Dad went offshore today so that's why we're going tomorrow.. & ohh, my 1st vacation to Singapore with my Parents & Siblings, but only 5 of us going.. Babah,Mama,Bg.Dale,Nani & Myself.. & Boyfriend is not coming 'cause he need to do saving & i'm suppose to do so, but Parents wants me to come 'cause at 1st i was the one who's excited when Mama said she's going with Dad.. hehehe... 

So,hope things will go well when we're there & hope boyfriend will take good care of him.. He'll be fine,I know~.. so everyone,wish me luck for being their tour guide.. hehehe.. Shopping time!!

POINTS ON HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE

Personality:
1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment
3. Don't over do; keep your limits
4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does
5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip
6. Dream more while you are awake
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
8. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
10. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present
11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.
Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more
14. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:
15. Call your family often
16. Each day give something good to others
17. Forgive everyone for everything
18. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
19. Try to make at least three people smile each day
20. What other people think of you is none of your business
21. Your job will not take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
22. Put GOD first in anything and everything that you think, say and do.
23. GOD heals everything
24. Do the right things
25. However good or bad a situation is, it will change
26. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up
27. The best is yet to come
28. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful
29. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it
30. If you know GOD you will always be happy. So, be happy.

While you practice all of the above, share this knowledge with the people you love, people you school with,
people you play with, people you work with and people you live with.
Not only will it enrich YOUR life, but also that of those around you.

Save Your Marriage.

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I don’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces.

The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions : she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife’s divorce conditions… She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously, I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind… I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head.

Sorry, Dew, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until deaths do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - DEAD.

Butterfly in My Tummy~..

Helloo Everyone, 1st of all, Selamat Menyambut Kedatangan Bulan Ramadhan, Happy Fasting To All Muslimin & Muslimah, Hopefully Puasa Kita Tahun Ini & Tahun Sebelumnya Mendapat Berkat.. So,anyway.. Its weekend babyyy, we'll be having sungkai di Subok,at my uncle's place.. Will be going to bandar this afternoon with boyfriend & i need to survey kain for our friday-uniform di office, mcm org nasyid th kami ne..hehe... & i plan to buy kain for boyfriend, abit goldish-pink for my other  kain, & terus ambil baju boyfriend di tutong, siapnya time 1st July sudah.. hehehe.. 

So,few weeks after hari raya then... only few of us knows what happen then,mudah2an tah everything go smooth,altho aku nervous pasal nya usually i want my function to be perfect, at least a lil' perfect pun okay lah..hehehe... there won't be any invitations for that function, exceptions for friends as well as family's friends & maybe after that we'll be having open house tarus, so 2-in-1 function lah tu, InsyAllah.. even dad gave me that idea as well,so inda balik2 book catering tu x owh.. hehehe.. & i only pay half saja.. hahaa.. inda mau rugi danggg~.. Owh Gawdd, finally planning future for me & boyfriend.. Semoga berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat, Amin~... 

Little Amanee.

Masquerade.

Billionaire.

Hellooo,Its been awhile inda update yg cliche sini ani owh..hehe.. i know~~,kinda lazy & tired to blog but reading all those past posts,makes me wanna blog again but then again,i just didn't have the time.. and most of the time connection nya di sini so slow that makes me wanna cut off the wire..hehehe...So,anywayyy, i don't really have any interesting stories but just wanna post up some post.. hehehe... So,now there's a toddler & 2 babies at home.. imagine that,crying ere & there.. hehe.. but it been fun to have them ere, playing with them and melayan karenah cAniq, Oh Gawd.. he's been extremely naughty at times bt when he's not ere, kecarian jua.. Kesian jua mun meliat ea main sendiri2 atu & mun nda d dulur, kesian th jua.. hehehe.. poorrr big boyy.. hehehe.. majal kesian ku kan cAniq aa..hahahhaa...Inda ku pandai blogging ani eih..hahaha... bahh,See you around... XOXOXO!!!

Correcting Mistakes

Jocelyn married William this day. At the end of the wedding party, Jocelyn's mother gave her a newly opened bank saving passbook. With $1000 deposit amount. 

 

Mother: 'Jocelyn, take this passbook. Keep it as a record of your marriage life. When there's something happy and memorable happened in your new life, put some money in. Write down what it's about next to the line. The more memorable the event is, the more money you can put in. I've done the first one for you today. Do the others with William. When you look back after years, you can know how much happiness you've had.' 

Jocelyn shared this with William when getting home. They both thought it was a great idea and were anxious to know when the second deposit can be made. 

 

This was what they did after certain time: 

 

- 7 Feb: $100, first birthday celebration for William after marriage

- 1 Mar: $300, salary raise for Jocelyn

- 20 Mar: $200, vacation trip to Bali

- 15 Apr: $2000, Jocelyn got pregnant

- 1 Jun: $1000, William got promoted 

 

.... And so on... 

However, after years, they started fighting and arguing for trivial things. They didn't talk much. They regretted that they had married the most nasty people in the world.... No more love...Kind of typical nowadays, huh?

 

One day Jocelyn talked to her Mother: 'Mom, we can't stand it anymore. We agree to divorce. I can't imagine how I decided to marry this guy!!!' 

Mother: 'Sure, girl, that's no big deal. Just do whatever you want ifyou really can't stand it. But before that, do one thing first. Remember the saving passbook I gave you on your wedding day? Take out all money and spend it first. You shouldn't keep any record of such a poor marriage.'

Jocelyn thought it was true. So she went to the bank, waiting at the queue and planning to cancel the account. While she was waiting, she took a look at the passbook record. She looked, and looked, and looked. Then the memory of all the previous joy and happiness just came up her mind. Her eyes were then filled with tears. She left and went home. When she was home, she handed the passbook to William, asked him to spend the money before getting divorce. 

 

The next day, William gave the passbook back to Jocelyn. She found a new deposit of $5000. And a line next to the record: 'This is the day I notice how much I've loved you thru out all these years. How much happiness you've brought me.' 

They hugged and cried, putting the passbook back to the safe. Do you know how much money they had saved when they retired? I did not ask. I believe the money did not matter any more after they had gone thru all the good years in their life. 

 

"When you fall, don't see the place where you fell, instead see the place from where you slipped. Life is about correcting mistakes." 

Fishes In The Sea..

Your element: Water

Your ruling planets: Neptune

Symbol: The Fish

Your stone: Bloodstone

Life Pursuit: To avoid feeling alone and instead feel connected to others and the world at large

Vibration: Erratic Energy levels

Pisces Secret Desire: To live their dreams and turn fantasies into realities.

 Description:

Mysterious and alluring individuals, most Pisces are extremely talented, but even though they are gifted in many ways, they still manage to spend most of their lives battling "confusing" conditions. Pisces is the sign symbolised by the image of two fish. Their symbol depicts one fish heading upward, the other pulling downward. This mirrors how Pisceans are frequently torn between two pathways in life, or actually do live two very different existences at the same time.

The number 2, is a very powerful number for them. This zodiac sign is acknowledged as being the Saint and the Sinner rolled into one; the trendsetter of fashion or art, the lost soul, the philosopher and the psychotic and the visionary. As a credit to them, considering their many vulnerable characteristics; Pisceans are incredibly adaptable and resilient. They are to be found leading the field in many diverse areas of life and many Pisces can be found represented amongst top business millionaires. On the other side of the coin, prisons, reform schools and all kinds of institutions statistically hold a high number of Pisceans too.

The Piscean's inner quest to explore their "ivory tower" syndrome can lead them into some most unusual and unlikely living conditions. Of all the signs of the zodiac, Pisces are the ones who end up in the most muddles over the years of their lives. They fantasize about situations, people and particularly romance - and because they spend so much time in their own form of 'fantasy land' this can catch them short in other more worldly areas. Because of this inner world of fantasy, Pisces people seldom perceive whatever is going on around them in its true light. They see life instead as they want to see it, coloring their view of the world in hues and tones far removed from its true reflection. No wonder this is the sign of both miracles and disillusionment. If you are a Pisces, be warned your emotions are a weak spot.

One thing that plays havoc with your life is romance. When things romantically are going well for you, you are on cloud nine. When romance turns sour you land in a heap. Pisces often need to take lots of holidays (or time off) to recover from life's many diverse pressures. You are the zodiac's most sensitive sign, so you need to take extra special care of yourself. Nobody can beat you up, as much as you can beat yourself up within your own mind. In your purest form you are psychic, visionary and a guiding light to all who know you. But, in your "out of tune" state, you become depressed, obsessive and confused.

Sweet & Chic.