i broke my promise to myself today. i didn't mean to. but i just could not help it. i just have the feeling that i will be breaking it rather often in these few days. maybe i'm just having my mood swings again.. i dun' know.
maybe i'm mean, but i just cannot take it when my lowest targets are not met. i dun keep my hopes high, but there is a limit that i can take. n this time, i really cannot. ok, maybe it's time that i work harder. feel quite guilty now also. i mean, someone is doing work now, and what am i doing? oh my. this is really bad. and i have been watching super loads of tv. let's see, going to have marathon of wang zi bian qing wa, then i watch the fa yi x dang an, the 11.30pm show fist of fury, and i think is the qian long show before that. then i also watch the kangxi show and of course, the vampire show. gosh. but how to cut down?
i hate to see myself this way. but i don't really see how i can smile and be cheerful from my heart at a time like this. i really don't know. later is going to be another agonising time. hopefully, i will not break my promise the second time today.
but the worse thing is to go home and report all these. argh. don't bother so much la. will be finding out in around half an hour. then after that, just go home and watch wangzi. then see how lah.
i need some perking up. the 56 gai ban is a good idea. just waiting for it to come singapore.:) at least there is a reason to smile now.
*SiGhX*
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