I can’t believe it, I actually did it, staying up the whole night without sleep to complete my work. 2 days with 4.5hours of sleep in all. I must be crazy. But this time, it is really not because of my procrastination. It’s because I had my 2101 lab yesterday and have to hand in my lab report today; had lecture yesterday and tutorial today; have moral issues readings just issued yesterday when lesson is today. Lab only ended at around 3pm, took a super long time to wait for the bus, reached home like 4.30pm then went to sleep already, in preparation of the long night ahead.. eventually I completed my lab report at about 6am, and then continued with the doing of my tutorial.

I saw the sky turn bright, I saw mum and dad go to sleep and wake up, and even send them off for work. At first I thought I wasn’t tired, but when I was on the bus to come to school for my 10am lecture, I realized that I was super duper tired. And in fact, now I’m in the middle of USS, my day will only end at 8pm. And I cannot rest too early tonight either. I have another graded tutorial to be done. At least I do not have to wake up early tomorrow lah. But tomorrow night will again be another tutorial to be done. This is so stressful.

Been into one of my mood swings lately. It is at this time when I realize how important some people are to me, for I will be feeling better just by talking to them. But no matter what, I still think that the very important thing is that I have to rest more and do my revision such that I will feel better, not so stressed etc. but seriously, I think I need help in my schoolwork. I think I just simply can’t cope. And to think that this is my slackest sem. I can’t imagine what I will do if I am in the shoes of the rest of them, taking 6.5 mods. Just 5 mods and I’m dying. Is it that I’m getting lousier? Or is it that after I am back from US, I am so slack that my time management is so bad?

Hopefully that after the mid sem break, I will be able to catch up with my work already, and not have to have these constant late nights. Hopefully things will be getting better the next time I have time to write such a long entry. (of course, it’s because the speaker is not the most interesting one around.) haha. Okay lah, will stop here.

I’m having so many thoughts in my mind now, it’s like all the things that I’ve kept at the back of my head/brain, are all coming to me now. So much so that I can’t concentrate on my work that I’m supposed to be doing now. I know that I’m going to have long nights again for this week, for there is really a lot to be done before the mid-sem break.

I think I’m very unhealthy lately, sleeping late, and eating loads of junk food at very late timings. Seriously, I have no idea why I just feel like munching something, or I will feel quite uncomfortable. It’s not as if I’m hungry or something, just want something to bite or eat, something sweet. And to add on to that, if I’m doing that while I’m doing my work, it’s still not too bad. The bad thing is, I’m doing all these while not doing work. Or in fact, doing everything but work. I find it super hard to really sit down to do something.

Usually when I am in the bus, I would want to read something, or sleep. But now, it’ getting harder to sleep. Instead, I would be thinking, reflecting or whatever, until I eventually fall asleep, which is when I’m reaching my destination. Then I will wake up in shock. Seriously, I have no idea why, I think I sleep best in moral issues class. Haha.

Just wondering, would the world be a different place if everyone can tell what everyone else is thinking. Just be close to a person, you will know if that person is going to be a real friend, or someone who just wants to make use of you; you will only approach people who you like and have feelings in return, instead of having to guess about what each other is thinking; you will not really have to worry about bad people, when they are near, you will hear their thoughts and their bad intentions. But again, this is a double edge sword. It would be disappointing to know that someone you consider a friend just wants to make use of you; sad to know that the person you like only treats you as an aquantance or friend; and maybe, sometimes, people’s thoughts are different from what they really intend to do, that’s scary. What if you hear someone’s thoughts that they are intending to commit a crime? Would we be able to call the police and catch them before they commit the crime? Sounds like “Minority Report”, and that’s really scary. There would not be any more privacy, whatever you are thinking would be known.

I’m also wondering if I should be going for exchange. Really many things on my mind, and I am also thinking about crappy stuff, like the above paragraph. There are things that I really should be doing, but sometimes, I let my mind rule my heart too much, and other times, I let my heart rule my mind too much. Maybe I should just sleep when I’m feeling tired, like now. but I’m like waiting for something almost likely to be a miracle. Maybe that’s one of the reasons why I keep sleeping late.

Currently rotting in the science canteen, for I have just completed CM2111 test not too long ago. Made quite a few stupid mistakes here and there, forgot a few things here and there. But well, I must say I can’t help it, so I guess it’s fine lah. Yesterday night after the energy lecture at night, we studied together in the PGP study room. Nothing really significant, but I guess that’s quite a rare thing to be studying with everyone when it’s not even exam period yet.

Have to wait for time to pass now since I still have some time before my lab starts. It feels good to be in the canteen in the morning, alone. There is a lot of personal space, and it feels like everyone and even time has slowed down for you. Maybe it is just me; maybe this is so every single morning, I don’t know. I just heard the birds chirping. Feels good, I mean, now that I can’t start on my lab report as yet as well. But of course, I still have readings to do for tmr, and I better start on them now.

Not really updating long entries very often now, for I really think that blogging needs a special time and emotion.. okay lah, will stop here.

Yesterday was dad’s birthday, the whole family went for dinner together and then came home for the durain cake. Before that, met up with the 4I ppl coz apparently, for every first Saturday of the month, RV alumni can go to Settler’s Café and play games for free for 3 hours. Heard that they have been constantly there since June when they first heard about it.

Lately, I have been feeling that the weekend is just so super long. I think that’s because my Fridays are too slack. But this weekend, somehow I just haven’t got anything done. I’m really feeling too tired. For the past few days, I have been surviving on essence of chicken, but it is not a good solution for it does not solve the problem. So this weekend is like just sleeping all the way. First slept for 5 hours, and then 9 hours continuous. Gosh, I will really need to get some work done tmr.

A number of things on my mind lately, but I guess they will pass. School work is getting more hectic now, I wished that I’m more hardworking than I really am now. there are a number of people I really want to meet up with, and all of these need time. Luckily I didn’t take so many modules this semester, though I wished that I have taken some modules instead of the others. But oh well, hopefully I will get back to the mugging mode soon and work hard for my slackest semester. Okay lah, I think it’s time to hit the bed.