Monday, September 21, 2009
i got a livejournal.
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Saturday, September 05, 2009
how it is, how it could have been, how it became how it is.
ROUGH DRAFT
Like a Saturday night
I'll be gone
Like a Saturday night
I'll be gone before you knew that I was there
So you wrote it down
I'm supposed to care
Even though its never there
Sorry If I'm not prepared
Is it hard to see the things you substitute for me and all my thoughts of you
its eating me alive to leave you
maybe its childish and wrong
but so is the blame stare in loo(lieu) of this song
maybe its childish and wrong
don’t wanna be don’t wanna be wrong
you're leaving you're leaving me in loo(lieu) of this song
don’t wanna be don’t wanna be wrong
you're leaving you're leaving me in loo(lieu) of this song
breathing in you're skin tonight
quite is my loudest cry
wouldn’t want to wake the eyes that make me melt inside
[ Yellowcard Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
and if its healthier to leave you be
may your sickness come and set me free
kill me while I still believe you were meant for me
writing my own words my own little stage
my own epic drama my own scripted page
send you the rough draft ill seal it with tears
maybe you'll read it and ill reappear
from the start it was shaky and the characters rash
a nice setting heading for heartache where emotions come last
all I have deep inside to overcome this desire are friendly intentions and fair-weather smiles
and I don’t wanna be don’t wanna be wrong you're leaving me you're leaving me in loo of this song don’t wanna be don’t wanna be wrong
you're leaving me you're leaving me in loo(lieu) of this loo of this song
Like a Saturday night
I'll be gone
Like a Saturday night
I'll be gone
Like a Saturday night
I'll be gone
Like a Saturday night
I'll be gone before you knew that I was there
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luna lovegood is pretty. i dont care how freaky and weird you think she is.
'i'll be whoever luna is with'
i remember what i say and i must not tell lies.
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Thursday, September 03, 2009
when you have hope, you can do anything.
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Tuesday, September 01, 2009
it's high time to fix this and put things back in place.
stayover was good, sometimes i wish i didnt have to go. that we all didnt have to. it was the same for 81 too. i wished the stop never had to come.
i came with nothing but i wanna leave with something. the things that meant everything.
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Sunday, August 30, 2009
today, i felt like i was swimming in a ocean bigger than ever. the enormity of it leaves me helpless sometimes and i gotta be brave.
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, 'I will try again tomorrow'."
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lost in this winded mess.
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Saturday, August 29, 2009
tug at my heartstrings.
happy birthday ck and daryl.
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Monday, August 24, 2009
i'll let you work your magic. please do it well.
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pissed and angry.
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Sunday, August 23, 2009
i dont know how and when it happened but it just did.
i was just beginning to like the feeling of the specs on me when,
i found my specs broken one day
and the lady said she cant do anything about it.
so it's just waiting to go, and as much as it pricks me bad, it'll never be good again
and theres nothing i can do about it.
so it's just waiting to go.
so i'm just waiting for it to go and it'll never be good again.
10 million things undone and i dont wanna appear in school tomorrow to face the horrible scenes that never seem to stop.
'i'm so tired but i cant give up'
still useful and applicable after 2 years. but, no deja vu please.
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Saturday, August 22, 2009
one more week it has been. as crazy as ever, and most importantly, as fast as ever. i still remember what we were all up to this time of last week. i remember the things we did from monday to today. time really flies. i'm excited but at the same time worried and not eager for time to go so fast. i dont know what we will turn out to be 1 month from now, i'm afraid to know too.
thank you auntie for having us over today to catch Armageddon. it was a good breakaway from school. half of me didnt feel like going, but i'm glad i went anyway. i need to catch up on sleep. so here's a really short one before i turn in.
wendesday letters's ending soon and it makes me want to write wednesdays letters too. figured that i wasnt too good with words. i cant seem to find the right words to say sometimes, to tell you how important you are, how lovely you are, how much i appreciate you, how i never mean the things i say sometimes, how i..
because you all are what's keeping me sane and insane at the same time. it's the same way i hate and love you all at the same time.
i'll write one when it comes, when that really is it.
today i learn to look at the brighter side. that maybe everything is already good enough. that i should be thankful for everything. that everything will turn out fine if you can see it. that maybe it's good that it's happening only now instead of last year. that my boys should count themselves lucky. that i should just let go if i'm not up to it. that i'm so afraid to lose anyone of you. that i dont wanna miss a thing.
Armageddon made me choke inside. i haven't watch it for so long. the song totally fits the
show and the show really is good. and i wanna start doing things i've never done before.
'happy endings come in different packages'
the irony of it all is awfully demanding.
Dont wanna miss a thing
I could stay awake
just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleepin
While your far away and dreamin
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
When every moment I spend with you
Is a moment I treasure
Dont wanna close my eyes
I dont wanna fall asleep
Cause I'll miss you babe
And I dont wanna miss a thing
Cause Even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I dont wanna miss a thing
Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And am wondering what your dreamin
Wonderin if it's me your seein
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank god were together
And I just want to stay with you
In this moment forever
Forever and ever
Dont wanna close my eyes
I dont wanna fall asleep
Cause I'll miss you babe
And I dont wanna miss a thing
Cause Even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I dont wanna miss a thing
A dont wanna miss one smile
I dont wanna miss one kiss
[ Aerosmith Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
But I just wanna be with you
Right here with you just like this
And I just wanna hold you close
Fell your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
Yeah Yeah Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Dont wanna close my eyes
I dont wanna fall asleep
Cause I'll miss you babe
And I dont wanna miss a thing
Cause Even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I dont wanna miss a thing
Dont wanna close my eyes
I dont wanna fall asleep
Cause I'll miss you babe
And I dont wanna miss a thing
Cause Even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I dont wanna miss a thing
Dont wanna close my eyes
I dont wanna fall asleep
I dont wanna miss a thing
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Friday, August 21, 2009
'thats not included in the package, i'm sorry'
i'm going to treat you as though tomorrow will be the last i'll see of you. i'll treat you like a queen, treat you like a king.
nothing comes easy, nothing comes close and it is important to mean what you say.
please get well soon zongyang. you're scaring all of us.
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Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Oh no, I see,
A spiderweb, it's tangled up with me,
And I lost my head,
The thought of all the stupid things I said,
Oh no what's this?
A spider web, and I'm caught in the middle,
So I turned to run,
The thought of all the stupid things I've done,
I never meant to cause you trouble,
And I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
O no, I never meant to do you harm.
[ Coldplay Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Oh no I see,
A spider web and it's me in the middle,
So I twist and turn,
Here I am in my little bubble,
Singing, I never meant to cause you trouble,
I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
Although I never meant to do you harm.
They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me.
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mrs L smacked auntie's butt 3 times after pinching it once ytd. auntie's on a streak (Y)
we have a new burp queen who is the best friend of our one and only fart queen. pollution. jerald and i are both troubled over the '2-pronged' attack of the 2 of them. but now, they make even more of best of friends. it was shit funny and i just had to write it down.
'sausage mc-muff-brrrrr!' in my face (Y)
ok, tired. gotta sleep and prepare myself for the next 10 million things tmr.
every second you're upset is a second of happiness you'll never get back. i need to look for my laugh/smile inducers too.
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Monday, August 17, 2009
it's hard when everyone wants a piece of you.
do you know what the half-half feeling is all about.
oh ya, it's called a dilemma.
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Sunday, August 16, 2009
so just like you would have guessed, today wasnt really productive at all. i fell asleep in the afternoon, it was raining though, does that shift a lil more blame away from me.
“As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll have your heart broken and you’ll break others’ hearts. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you’ll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you’ve never been hurt. Life comes with n
Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone’s hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep
watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don’t be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back. "
the irony of it all is a double-edged sword. it stabs not just once, but twice.
btw, do you know that my mum is a career woman?
i'm her career.
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Saturday, August 15, 2009
courage comes when circumstances call for it.
when i aint, it's because i cant be.
it's class birthday today and we caught where got ghost.
this is like the 7th consecutive friday we've been out.
mr DC and bojun joined our ' no.. mrs L! no...' league.
it's almost 2.
just last week, we were celebrating bojun's birthday and now it's another week gone. :(
'hold on to the things that make you smile' coincidentally they make me sad too, or rather the lack of it does.
i cant make nothing out of something and yet you could make something out of nothing. what else can i say.
i'll wake up early tomorrow and study properly.
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Thursday, August 13, 2009
relapse.
it takes a lot to.
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totally ANGSTY.
have you ever felt so sick and pissed off that you spent so much work on something but you cant get it.
that you thought finally you can sleep earlier and that tomorrow will be better with that much more sleep, but you end up looking for 2 stacks of stupid maths paper which you need to READ for a test tomorrow. and it's not like it's going to be super effective. it's all part of the placebo effect and i'm doing it even though i know it's just placebo effect that's acting. and that it doesnt really help. but f, now it took up so much time that i'm sleeping later than usual and i dont think tomorrow will be any better than today. btw, today wasnt well too.
what in the world is the world coming to. oh my world.
i feel like swearing a million times over, right now. i'm so angry, with everything.
nothing's helping. this is going nowhere. i know i must stop being a wimp and go on whining about how sorry or how f-up everything is. and i know how much i need and should and must move on and stop living in history pretending everything will go back to how it used to be.
'how it used to be' is too overused. it never really did come true for the other 1938409183419 times i said that or wished that.
this is going nowhere. have i said that alr. f. i dont really care if i did. it really is going nowhere. i'll bite you if you talk to me now. i'm serious. luckily everyone's asleep or mugging their asses off while i'm sitting in front of the screen typing my precious sleep time away hoping the next person who sees this other than me will know that i'm not in the very best of mood and not piss me further although the only way now is to appear in my dreams later on and screw things up. or unless you call me and wake me up and go something like, ' guorong, hello.' i swear i'll steal your phone tomorrow.
i dont know what the hell i'm typing but i think it's making me feel a tad better just blabberring nonsense like how the world or everything is talking to me now.
i never thought elisa's words will be this true. A levels is driving everyone mad. (i dont care if it's not everyone and it's just me and that i'm stereotyping if you beg to differ after reading that)
i'm sick of saying, 'tomorrow will be better', ' we'll make it.'
tomorrow will still suck and we'll still be where we are tomorrow. truth is, we all have ourselves to blame. ok. I have MYSELF to blame for all these.
p.s i hope reversing things will help.
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Tuesday, August 11, 2009
i wanna scream at the top of my lungs.
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Monday, August 10, 2009
i'm so tired from my super exciting national day ever. 24 hours ago, i was spending time with 2 of my best friends doing everything else but maths. 24 hours before that, the thought of staying out the next day never even did cross my mind. it was a pleasant surprise for all of us anyway that auntie allowed auntie to stay out.
best national day ever and now i really think it's high time to start giving all i've got. i'm so afraid it'll be deja vu, from 2 years back. i never ever wanna go through that again.
we'll make it. we'll make it. we'll make it.
on a side note, blueberry is just so retardedly smile-inducing that a part of me wished i hadnt gave it away. i hope it'll make your day every now and then!
(y)
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Sunday, August 09, 2009
i like westlife songs so much. they aren't that fantastic and you might say they are boring, but i guess it's the way they hv been there ever since i was pri 5. they give me a sense of nostalgia nothing can offer. it's just something you need to go through yourself to understand.
Baby, I know the story
I've seen the picture
It's written all over your face
Tell me, what's the secret
That you've been hiding
Who's gonna take my place?
I should've seen it coming
I should've read the signs
Anyway.. I guess it's over
CHORUS:
Can't believe that I'm the fool again
I thought the love would never end
How was I to know
You never told me
Can't believe that I'm a fool again
[ Westlife Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
And I who thought you were my friend
How was I to know
You never told me
Baby, you should've called me
When you were lonely
When you needed me to be there
Sadly, you never gave me
Too many chances
To show you how much i care
I should've seen it coming
I should've read the signs
Anyway, i guess it's over
i never realise the lyrics were that short. i thought they only repeat. ok which kinda means short too. so anw, they make me wanna cry and smile at the same time. it's a puzzling feeling that makes me wanna go to sleeep. or is it just me feeling tired now.
Get a load of me get a load of you
Walkin down the street
And I hardly know you
(Hardly know you)
It's just like we were meant to be...
Holding hands with you
When we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say
It isn't right
(Isn't right...)
And I've got someone waiting
Too
What if this is just the beginning?
We're already wet and we're
Gonna go swimming?
[Chorus]:
Why can't I breathe
Whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak
Whenever I talk about you?
It's inevitable
It's the fact and we're
Gonna get down to it...
So tell me, why can't I breathe
Whenever I think about you?
(Whenever I think about you)
(Whenever I think about you)
(Whenever I think about you)
(Whenever I think about you)
Isn't this the best part of
Breaking up
[ Liz Phair Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Finding someone else you
Can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too?
It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
(But wouldn't it, but wouldn't it)
But wouldn't it be beautiful?
Here we go, we're at the beginning
We haven't f*ck*ed yet,
But my heads spinning.
Why can't I breathe
Whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak
Whenever I talk about you?
It's inevitable
It's the fact and we're
Gonna get down to it...
So tell me, why can't I
Breathe whenever I think about you?
I love for you to make me wonder,
Where it's going...
I love for you to pull me under
Somethings growing
Out of this that we can't control...
Baby I'm dyyyying...
(Why can't I breathe
Whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak
Whenever I talk about you?)
this is good too.
ok, i think i need to stop running away.
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Friday, August 07, 2009
i'm so glad i didnt miss school today because it almost didnt feel like it was school and that we were in year 2 alr. had so much fun celebrating national day, singing along, going crazy, doing stupid things, lotsa photos, orientation fever, chalking, getting freaking molested AGAIN.
so it didnt really matter that there wasnt a concert put up. the singalong session went well with my crazy classmates. i think no one really did regret coming today although we only had an econs lecture. but whoever said it will be a waste of time, must be biting himself/herself now after hearing the fun we had.
i shan't go into the details, because so many things happened today. killer stares, sins, my poor butt, bojun's birthday and his crumpler, cchen, cc-dian, couple shirt with you-know-who, and all the madness during the singalong (leo club girl especially, i swear you all hit me like a few hundred times over.)
i think today's the best day i've had for weeks. i wish everyday can be like that. but for now, let me just bask in it before the monotony of normal school life comes haunting. i'm so tired from everything from the week. but i am so glad the week ended like this. it was heartwarming to see the class (or most of us) come together like this and behave stupidly, past caring about everything.
happy birthday bojun.
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Here's another pity
There's another chance
You tried to learn a lesson
But you can't
If we could burn a city
In futures and in past
Without a change our lives will never last
We're going fast
You can sit beside me when the world comes down
If it doesn't matter then just turn around
We don't need our bags
And we can just leave town
You can sit beside me when the world comes down
What can we do better?
When will we know how?
A man says from the sidewalk to the crowd
If we can change the weather
If you wanted to yourself
Well if you can't
I guess we all need help
[ The All American Rejects Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
I need help
You can sit beside me when the world comes down
If it doesn't matter then just turn around
We don't need our bags
And we can just leave town
You can sit beside me when the world comes down
We say,
We do,
The lies, the truth
And all I need is next to me
We're going fast
You can sit beside me when the world comes down
If it doesn't matter then just turn around
You be the queen, and I'll be your clown
You can sit beside me when the world comes down
You can sit beside me when the world comes
You can sit beside me when the world comes down
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Wednesday, August 05, 2009
it's a sore deep deep down that acts up time and again that i'm trying to fight.
trying to do the things i have to do during school has been tough. i fought to do that extra bit each time i felt like it, understanding it a lil more rather than just taking it down and putting it on hold, falling asleep during econs lecture and not take down things. it's scary that even calum is saying that prelims are 1 month away. i hope i dont sound like CC all through this post. but, if i do, you can disown me if you want.
i like how my trophies and medals shine in front of me when i watch tv. it reminds me that i should never give things up and leave things to fate, and that nothing really is impossible. it reminds me of all the sucky trainings, monotonous drills, smashing like my arm will swing off, running like my feet arent there, gasping for air like i'm drowning. actually i really was, just that i didnt show and noone could see.
and all the breakdowns and sitdowns all around school in the still of the night at 8pm when i just needed some time alone to sort things out. those times were those that i wished i never had to leave; the lying down on track spread eaglewinged under the starry sky. it felt almost like fiction and that it will be awesome if time could just hold still there and then.
ok, so the whole load was just trying to mean the agony i went through which i think no one could have imagined. (it's the same how i'll never be able to understand the shit that you-who-is-reading is going through and had gone through) and that i pulled through and i got what i wanted. there werent anything that was really sweet to it apart from the attention poured onto us at the end of the match, the phototaking on the podium feeling like stars for once. perhaps the sweetest to it was how i had someone with me when things were going a bit crazy and unbearable.
You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Keep holding on
Keep holding on
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
i really almost teared you know. inside me, you should have seen.
one day i'll let you have a look again and you'll never believe you ever did such a thing.
i've been long trying to get what all this mean, because i never really believed in coincidences. perhaps accidents they were but i need to find that little bit of meaning to it however little it might be.
the way coincidences unfold right under my nose invokes in me an awestruckingly sense of surprise. like what happened just now when i was just going home. it's prolly the best episode of CChen of today. you remind me to tell you bout it lest i forget. for a moment i really thought it was so, and when it didnt turn out to be so, i was oddly disappointed yet amazed at the same time on how things worked. that it was so near yet so far away, like the same way a lot of other things have been. i'm sure you've been through quite a couple yourself too.
so today i decided to have macs with the macs people. and i had a mcspicy. that was really stupid of me and i thought it will help. turns out that it didnt, but the whole idea of going to macs did. i was crazily blabbering nonsense to samuel and ck all the way, and pissing off charlene and threw a fries at her which luckily she didnt get mad for. i made charlene say that she hates me, in the same way lynnete told me the other time. that made me think about whats up with me and band people. initially i only thought i had something with percussionists, vanessa, lynette, samuel.. now it seems like bandsters are all creeps.
so the whole crazy thing didnt stopped till we got back to school for lecture where i fell asleep quite often. i hope i did absorb something though. oligopoly, elasticy... um.. ok thats about it i think -.-
ok so anw, i'm glad i turned back to the library after i decided to leave. at the very least, i managed to borrow this book highly recommended, which i dont regret having done so. now i think i know how you felt. empathy and sensitivity at work! crap, i make such a good lit student actually you know. ok,i think you do know, but just that you dont believe right. ...
ok, that was a good and long post after so long and it's back to doing the things i have to do, like dinner and regression and chem and a lil bit of reading.
sometimes, the hardest things and right things are the same. i need to get that on paper somewhere to jolt me back whenever i'm doing everything else in school. but then again, who says what is right.. now thats something to think about. i'm looking forward to the long weekend, (ok, it's only 3 days, but with 3 weeks of stuff to do) because i think i'll end up productive. positive thinking, now thats a good start. good job gr.
oh and our dearest auntie is sick, again or still. ya, and doc says she has influenza symptoms. i called her up just now and we talked for like 15 minutes bout giving her a grand burial, plan how to get her giant down, or her 'sister' down with her, how to inherit her parents and money, to write up a will but in the end became in the diary because too troublesome to go draw one up. and a whole bunch of nonsense. ok but we were both just FON k, in auntie's dad words. auntie, please dont die. i think the slapping of our mouths worked. because i made it home safely and didnt get knocked down by a car while talking to her and crossing the road at the same time. (i thought karma will hit me there and then like always)
ok, i really need to go and do the right things alr.
i wish we were like that too, not exactly, but somewhat similar, will be super.
ex-girlfriends leave you, best friends stay with you forever. fiction, not?
to 800 and i hope you'll remember me with all the fondness of the things we used to do together.
i'm funny too in a different way. the uncultured way in my friend.'s words.
now go study/sleep after you're done with this wonderful post, whoever you are.
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i've been watching a lot of The Nanny on hallmark. it never fails to take my mind off everything thrown at me for that one hour. i dont have much to post for today too. oh except that i got a really pretty and thoughful card that brightened things up.
then bojun and huimin tagteam for performing our childhood favorite cartoon themesongs was so awesome that we all unanimously think that they should perform for teachers' day or children's day or national day. whatever day it is, everyone will just burst out watching them do their spastic moves. my classmates (y)
we need to keep a part of childhood with us.
i'm going back to the start. i'm trying to take everything easy.
go to school, irritate some people, laugh it off, patch up, then irritate them again. but some people cant take jokes and they get me so pissed when i tried to piss them off. if they really are joking, then i gotta hand it to them. i see not the slightest indication of you taking the joke well and just have some fun together. my classmate (N)
keep the things important to you, close to your heart.
it's those who mean the things they say and do the things they promise. awesome like, totally~
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Tuesday, August 04, 2009
the things you want to do and the things you have to do. content is when you want to do the things you have to do. but that hardly happens.
ok, blogger is back to normal. but i'm back to normal too. so i dont have time to post whatever i wanted because i need the time to sleep.
i saw this on tvmobile,
life is simple, it just isnt easy. woah, i totally agree.
but, why so serious?
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Saturday, August 01, 2009
tonight, i'm wishing for something new and i'll wish for it till it comes true.
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Thursday, July 30, 2009
you know, i go to sleep every night praying that my wish will come true.
and often, i end up doing the same thing each time i wake up.
not that it will certainly help or make a difference, but it will definitely make me feel better, so much better. but, perhaps it's just meant to be this way.
for the things we have no control over, perhaps this is what destiny is. this is one of the line that struck me the most from the song maybe simply because it can be so true sometimes.
i've been so occupied that i couldnt talk about how blood donation went ytd. will do so when i'm free-er come sunday. the nanyang concept tests made weekend seem to start from saturday instead.
right now, i'm just really spent. i wonder why things can get so tough sometimes, tough the way it shouldnt really be.
sometimes, i really cant find the right words to say and it's so ~.
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Wednesday, July 29, 2009
it's like having a hand of king and queen, a pool of jack and 10, but a last card of 2.
i hv ten million things in my head. but i need to sleep.
it's ridiculously amazing, this apathy of yours towards what you claimed was everything you were fighting for just months ago. i wish i had such apathy too, but my responsibility and conscience cant bear it. things are getting a tad disappointing.
i dont wanna fight no more, i forgot what i was fighting for.
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Monday, July 27, 2009
this is going to be one long and mad week.
i just hope you will be more understanding, it'll prolly be the last time ever we're gonna do something like this.
it doesnt help that every teacher wants a piece of everyone of us handing us revision materials for the weekend which we probably end up putting it aside for the time being in order to finish the tutorials due the next week. so we are supposed to study and revise at the same time, and for all the subjects. wow. thats not too much to ask for huh. i understand all your worries about us not performing well and it of course seems very appropriate to just pile work on us and just leave it to us what we wanna do with them. afterall, you've given us the things needed, the onus is on us to go through them and prepare. but, i dont see how we can do all that with 24 hours a day. ok, maybe this should be more personal because i truly believed there will always be some smart kids out there who can juggle all of this perfectly and have time to go on to fb for ridiculous quizzes. but it is so unfortunate that i'm not one of them and i'm still using scarce time to post about this nonsense i'm bearing with hoping that it will help me feel better and bear through them better.
i'm not saying it's wrong, but it just doesnt seem very right to me either, that we are all missing out on so much more of school life and what is supposed to be the best years of our youth before we plunge into the corporate, ugly, practical world with no inkling of what is ahead and with no chance of going back in time.
i need time for everything else, thats just as important too. not just organic chem, physics revison, bop and forex, integration, nanyang concept tests, gp essays outline and memorising of all the sickening content.
i dont have time to even flip through broader perspective which is like on the fence; it's educational and yet an enjoyable read at the same time sometimes.
whine and complain all i want, but tomorrow will still see the same person in front of the computer worrying what's to be done tomorrow when theres still things undone for the day. this is my life right now, how laughable.
and it is because of days like this, that i need all everything that will help take my mind off stuff for even just a moment. 10 minutes on the fooseball machine, talking to friends on msn, and just cracking silly jokes.
go find the things that make you smile when you're tired.
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Sunday, July 26, 2009
hiking was good! except for the waking up part.
there were so many people there today that we didnt manage to see a lot of animals. only saw couple of monkeys and squirrels. it wasnt really hot too, i guess it must have been all the trees that sheltered us. we walked for like 3 hours, took a lot of photos, blew bubbles and the trembling auntie who trembled the bridge.
i dont know what to say about the hike too. i think it's more of the things we said during the hike that made it really good.
like cheating jerald that we got lost.
me: hello, jerald are you awake! um, can you help us go online to check the map of macritchie reservoir, we walked for 15 mins alr but we dont seem to be going anywhere and our dear geog student is of no help and hungry and tired.
jerald: huh, where the teachers? call them ?
me: um, they're too far in front and we dont have their numbers
j: so you are are like lost?
me: um, not exactly... maybe, misplaced. lol the teachers misplaced us ( LOL WE TOTALLY CRACKED UP AT THIS ONE, COULDNT FIND THE RIGHT WORD TO USE!)
j: okok, i on-ing my laptop now, i call you in 5 mins!
Charlene: hello, um where are we ? we're um beside a tree. (LOL WTH.) i dont know, theres just a tree beside us.
me: ya, the teachers are very far in front (THEN WE LOOKED IN FRONT, THE TEACHERS ARE 5 STEPS AWAY FROM US. LOL.)
LOL, then i forget how it went alr. it was just so funny! i feel bad though, sorry jerald! i would have been pissed if something like this happens to me la.
ok, so we went for lunch, and charlene was telling us that they used to discuss who they will like if they are lesbians. as in back in cedar. hahah, and it got auntie thinking and moving closer and closer the the boundaries between liking girls or guys. by the end of the meal, she became like a half lesbian alr la. and we were discussing so loud that, the lady beside us kept giving us glares. LOL.
ok, it's really late. tomorrow, will be quite mundane.
i think karma works its way through our lives amazingly. it's been so omnipresent that it's everywhere la. ok, thats a random point, because i'm too tired to tell the whole story.
i think i look good in the mirror in my showers. maybe my mum had that put there so that i'll feel good each day before i go to school. or everyday when i shower. lol, everyone who feels bad about themselves, should come and have a try. it really works.
so how do you look, in your own mirror ?
`a million and one things, to set the heart right.
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Saturday, July 25, 2009
i'm so sorry jovan. that i couldnt make it to simpang to join you guys. but you know i still love you and will think of something to meet up with you and bullshit real soon. (y) happy birthday darling.
i went to watch harry potter (finally) with 2 of my bestest friends today. and i can totally understand why so many people think it's a major flop. a lot of scenes weren't included and it didnt feel like a 2 and half hour. but i didnt really mind la, afterall i haven't seen hogwarts and hermoine and luna on the big screen for so long and it sure feels good looking at them after such a long time. i think it's worth the watch la. afterall, it's harry potter leh. how can you not watch it after watching the other 5 previously. thats what you tell yourself after watching 1 part and slowly slowly, you find that you're starting to watch one more and one more and tell yourself the same thing over again each time. before you know it, you finished watching everything alr.
so anw, i'm glad the week ended in this fashion. i mean, from dont know what's gonna happen after school during the freezing chem lesson, to suddenly having 2 best bud watch potter with me. it's enough la. i really couldnt ask for more.
ok, hiking tomorrow. i hope i dont hv to carry auntie. it'll be fun! if i can wake up that is.
crap, i cant post normally. like i dont see all the usual icons that you will see when you post, like upload photos, and everything. someone help me leh.
k, time for bed. someone's rushing me too. i'll tell more stories tomorrow. oh bout fooseball with bird, auntie, jerald, ck and shermaine, and mr lim! hahah! and the ultimate scam and how everything is ck' fault. and all the nonsense on ck's inner girlfriends. fooseball makes me high la.
*i'll keep my expectations low.
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Friday, July 24, 2009
i'm glad i went to ikea with mum and bro for dinner.i felt so much better after that. i dont exactly remember what i wanted to blog about though! i just knew that i wanted to.
we went to ikea to look for bro's table and bed after that and i was so attracted to the kids section. everything inside was so pretty. i think i was the only 18 year old in there smiling to myself like an idiot as i went through all the showcase bedrooms, soft toys, and other colorful things. i seriously wouldnt mind having such a room even now. at least it makes me feel cosy and smile really from the bottom of my heart. i wish i had all those 10 years ago. i would have been late for school everyday and slept even more than what i do now. i mean, why would anyone wanna wake up from that kinda environment.
i would be lying if i said i didnt feel the least bit of envy for all the lil boys and girls scrambling around from one 'room' to another sitting on the tortoise cushion double their size, looking at the the tall shelves wanting that soft toy up there. they have no idea how bitter and harsh the world actually is and that is amazing. then again, i think it's just us who made everything so complicated. life shouldnt be this hard. life can be just as simple as being satisfied with just a colorful bedroom and truckloads of plushies too.
you found your little things, now i'm beginning to find mine too. i want to just keep everything simple and stop trying to hard to fit into places i dont exactly belong to. endless wishlists, american funny shows, top models, movie stars, shopping versus basketball courts and fooling around, talking to mum and bro about random things on the car, fooling around at giant, laughing together at this guy we played basketball with and i almost fought with, spending the whole time after school in the library talking to sweeleng, playing basketball after pe, looking forward to tomorrow and hiking on sat..
so what if i'm an uncultured ah beng. this is how my world is, how bout you try fitting into mine, it would be nice.
we all try too hard sometimes that we're missing out on everything else. (-.- blogger is not letting me post pictures up)
so where did the kid in you go to ?
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Thursday, July 23, 2009
fold.
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009
i spent the whole afternoon just talking nonsense to sweeleng after giving up on physics revision. it made me happy in a different kind of way though, so i suppose it's pretty worth it. i foresee that a new scandal is on the way!
few more days to the end of the week, but it's already beginning to go away. i get so confused sometimes.
'you're focusing on the impacts rather than the reason it is being done'
but the impacts are precisely the reasons i'm doing it.
i'm feeling more empty today than yesterday, maybe it's me putting upon myself like what alicia's book says. i like wednesdays though, i like wearing full school uniform with the tie. i think it looks good.
this moment is fleeting, so is every other. the sun will still shine tomorrow and the colors will still shine for you.
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doing the top three achievements killed my whole afternoon, which i had initially intended to take a lil nap and do up my chem work. so everything's pushed back again, but it's ok since theres nothing to be done by tomorrow.
my eyelids are half closed alr, but anyway, i didnt manage to see josephine today. ok i mean it the other way, she didnt get to see me. we met each other like totally coincidental 3 times in 2 weeks after not seeing each other for like 1 and half year. hahah, i can feel a forth coming really soon!
ok, i haven't felt so good for a very long time and it feels so surreal and fragile that it could be gone the next moment. but i'm just gonna enjoy it while it lasts. i'm just going to let everything outside of my control be the way they are and will be. besides, i cant help it too.
i hope this continues tomorrow. your smiles work like tomatoes!
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009
you made me so happy.
pity that i'm really tired and in need of sleep now. so i cant elaborate on what happened today.
but i really gotta mark down today.
so next time i read this post, go look at number 6 archive of today's date and the last sms of yesterday which is saved in my phone.
<3
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Sunday, July 19, 2009
few hours ago, after watching prisoner of azkaban on tv, i was preparing to go for half blood prince with my friend. it was crazy. we decided to go and try get out of the house after just 5 minutes of discussion and it was for a midnight show and we stay quite far away.
so in the end, all our plans failed, last resort was to sneak out of the house, but that would be too crazy for now. so we werent successful and we still badly want to watch it even though everyone said it sucked because the fighting scene after dumbledore died wasnt in.
i'll really be happy for 2 weeks if we were able to go. too bad your mum didnt buy that. if only bro was home then he could hv fetched us back and chances of going through mums will be much higher.
nvm, sometime we shall try it again. hahah. but really, it would have been so awesome. i've never exactly caught a midnight show before and tried going for it at such late notice.
ok, it's almost 4.
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Saturday, July 18, 2009
this week's been terrible and i never want to go through anything like this again. i dont think thats possible though because i know somethings will come eventually and they will hurt a lot a lot more, a lot more than this sore at the bottom of my heart.
ok, but at least the week ended better. we wanted to go and catch happy potter initially but somehow we didnt make it. i really really really wanna watch though. having to wait till next friday and when i cant even be certain that i'll be able to catch it with the class then, sucks so much. by then, everyone will be discussing about how who is so handsome, who is so pretty, how auntie farted when harry did a curse (maybe, and most probably), how who died and it's so sad, and i'll be the only loser who hasnt watch it yet.
ok so anw today, after plan A which is hp plan got screwed, we all didnt feel like going home. so we went to bugis plus suntec to shop, more like window shop though because most of us werent really that inclined to spend today. (most of us = apart from bernard, bird, auntie and charlene) the four of them, especially bernard, serious mugged shopping.
we didnt really get anything though, so went for dinner and 'sharing' session. 'sharing/storytelling' session lasted till 10 plus, it's amazing how much we have to contribute to the pool of information and stories. i think by the time we ended, we weren't even halfway through current affairs.
and guess who we saw on the way back. we saw main character T and M on the train back to tampines. lucky bojun spotted and that we weren't on any issues that got to do with them. bernard just has such luck; aint the first time he bumped into someone he was talking about.
yeah, so thats about it. oh, did you know auntie went for a photoshoot. shall upload it on fb soon. i hope the positive comments dont flood.
it's been sucha week. perhaps it was the perpetual lack of sleep every night throughout the week that killed everything. just do your best, and face everything that comes with it bravely. i'm banking on whatever i'm good at, but if it just doesnt work for you, i'm afraid it'll just be too bad for you and very bad for me.
when your heart gets bigger than your mind, you decide whats wrong and whats right. alright, time to catch up on sleep. give me a nice dream.
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Friday, July 17, 2009
i'm talking to my friend.
and it's important to talk to friends.
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Thursday, July 16, 2009
i wish we could all go back to how it used to be. thank goodness for friends like paul frank, funny friend, and the forehead-ful of pimples who cheated me of a packet of milo today and and those by the corridor.
i'm so tired. half of me doesnt want to go to school. today was just totally ironic and -.- i got played around la. tomorrow's friday, but i'm not exactly looking forward to it like how i do with usual fridays. half of me loves fridays because it means a weird sense of serenity and time alone that comes with long sleep knowing that you dont have to be out of bed just hours later. the other half wishes school will just carry on.
and half the time, i'm struggling within myself.
went for a super dinner just, with family and aunt's and i went to play basketball before that. theres the lecture structured qn tomorrow which we are supposed to revise for but somehow it doesnt bother me as much, not anymore. oh and today's gp lesson, i learnt that the key to writing good essays is to plan a trap, jump in and try to get out of it. if you do, you'll prolly do well.
after all these things we've been through, it's such a shame.
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Wednesday, July 15, 2009
i love my mum so much even though she doesnt have the least idea what i go through in school because after a day that didnt go so well, she talks to me like everything's fine and treat me the same way she always does.
she packs my breakfast for me, fills my bottle up and waits for me when i stay up late to study. she doesnt know the hell i'm put through, and doesnt know all the fun i do. she never really asked, but i'm fine with it because i know she really trusts.
she stands by me and say things that never were. school made me look so stupid and incapable but she still thinks i'm brilliant. dad laughed at me before i went to play the match i could never win but she always told me to show the opponent the best skill i have. she says we cant possibly win everything and that the opponent is prolly better than me when i lose and she says that let people think i look harmless when i am actually quite a pain to play with, and that she should have groomed me from young and i might have been the one playing on tv now instead of that yellow shirt guy who looks like me.
she does the dishes for me on days i dont feel bad having to make her do it even when she cooked and on days i really need to rush something. she doesnt at all think my grades suck when they do, and doesnt think they arent enough when they dont.
she always try to give me more money to spend when i'm going out even when we aren't very well-to-do. she doesnt spend so i/we can.
i think everyone will not be able to run out of things to say for their mum too. here is mine, who doesnt speak english very well, who isnt tech savvy, who isnt the most stylish of women her age and who doesnt know a lot about what her son does in school. i never really told her how much i love her and important she is to me, i never really celebrated her birthday or mother's day in a fashion that she deserves, i never really hugged her since i got older except when granny went away. but i really do. i guess afterall, she's the one who really knows me the most. she should be the one i call my closest friend though we dont share a lot.
you know, i'm so proud of her, how she can joke around in front of all my friends. i'm so proud of myself too because i never felt ashamed when she picks me up from primary school at a age where so many kids would rather their mum be kept at home and not see the light.
i love my dad too. words unspoken, mean a lot. maybe you should just not speak that much sometimes.
`theres still a little bit of you laced with my doubt. and i dont want another go at this ride, please.
bananas for many many monkeys.
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Monday, July 13, 2009
wa, it's only monday and i think it's like 10 tomatoes. i wanna sleep alr but theres so much left to do. it's only 20 mcqs, but it's supposed to force us to revise our work. supposed la.
ok so today, i learnt that everything you see may not be what it really is. i was surprised, shocked, sad and at a loss for words. but i hope the 2 of you will be fine thought i dont know what happened. and B said something really true. i like the both of them a lot one.
i hate having to live your life. i just want to go through things the way i really will.
'aiya, nvm la..'
i think that was what went through my mind half the time today.
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seems like theres bound to be something undone every day. and that theres something to be done everyday.
ugh, tomatoes.
you see what you think you see i guess. ok, so at least i have something to do everyday. what a lie la.
we should all take everything with a pinch of salt if not reality will really be too much to bear sometimes. i just want to go to school tomorrow, not fall asleep during lecture, laugh at auntie, talk nonsense with the guys, laugh everything off and just be nice.
everyone should just be nice.
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Sunday, July 12, 2009
i have so much left to do for the weekend that i dont think theres time for transformers 1. :(
i must not come online tomorrow in the day. and i must not wake up near night or late afternoon.
and i need my hands tied up, drink a lot of water, a lot of fruits and vegetables because it's looking really hideous, it feels even worse.
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Saturday, July 11, 2009
woah, i played so much today that i'm feeling so guilty because i wanted to finish either chem or maths tutorial to redeem myself, but i only managed to finish reading chem notes. i have totally no mood of doing the tutorial now.
we were chilling out at macs, me, bojun, auntie, jerald and shermaine. then i suddenly asked if they wanted to bowl. bojun, auntie and jerald lives quite near safra too. shermaine, cannot luh. stays too far. so in the end, we really went to bowl plus tablesoccer (fooseball?)
we laughed so much and so hard la. at like everything. my super bowling shoes, the racial harmony lift thing. and the usual nonsense about how fat auntie is. and she responded by hitting a strike in her first throw. totally owned we 3 guys' asses.
lol, and poor me, kept trying to spin the ball then it went into the drain so many times that i gave up trying to make myself happy by getting a decent score. i only wanted to spin the ball and hit some nice pins. lol.
then after that we got back, and bojun came over to play basketball. and talked nonsense with mum. lol. the 2 of them on very good talking terms i must say. too bad he isnt a girl, and that his sister is older than him and is attached.
today is another westlife day again. i love how i can hear every word they sing. and listening to them makes me go ~. today is another play-like-A-lvls-were-over day. i dont know what happened too. lol, BUT WE ALL DESERVE A BREAK AFTER A LOONG WEEK DONT WE. (Y)
i will study hard tomorrow.
i must not lie.
i love all the nonsense and bullshit from today so much.
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Thursday, July 09, 2009
when sometimes, some things just cant be helped, what to do ?
i've been sneezing and sniffing the whole night. and today was exhausting. it's only 2 days and i'm so spent la. shall sleep earlier tonight.
oh and i've been listening to westlife since i got home. classic and nice and they remind me of primary school times.
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Wednesday, July 08, 2009
i remember elisa saying, that whenever something happens, you have a choice to be sad or be happy and rejoice no matter what. and sometimes it really isnt easy i know.
and it is moments like these i wanna totally immerse myself in and remember exactly how they feel like. i told myself this the last time i was really at the most lousier bottom of that cycle. and i'm just hoping the low will not come that soon.
then again it's up to you how you wanna feel in every situation and i'm so amazed how some people can just stay oblivious to everything and smile/laugh it off.
i'm so glad today because i didnt fail my part of the pact with mum. she helped me do the dishes that night before maths and she was saying last time even though she had exma, she still had to do the dishes herself. i told her thats why she didnt score well, and now i'm going to score a better one for her to make up for that. i think she's pretty satisfied.
well, afterall how much can she expect from a son who nv really got past borderline passes for maths.
i think it's crap results for some people, but heck, at least this time round i knew how to do a lot more of the questions. mrs leong cant say no shit, and it's not like i'll listen to it if she does.
and i hope tomorrow will be just as good, minus cooked food smell, sudden sms-es from someone, sian-ess and headaches.
regression and correlation before i sleep, and i wanna watch happy potter. ( i heard hermoine's super/even more sally-ish in the new movie)
and emma watson better not be stalking my blog.
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Tuesday, July 07, 2009
i've been playing so much these days that everyone around have described it as 'like As are over.'
but it feels really good. mahjong at jr house with kirk and leonard till 230, then came back. went out for sportsxcel reflections meeting and bowling. i wished there was no school tomorrow too.
but cannot la, gotta start working that lil bit harder than i used to.
anw, the little prince was a really good read. it's so intriguing the way it's so simple. everyone should go and read it.
and mr loh's short powerpoint presentation this afternoon suddenly made me realise how long we've all come from the start. i love our awesome-ness.
what is essential, is invisible to the eye.
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Monday, July 06, 2009
andy roddick and roger federer.
awesome. (y)
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Sunday, July 05, 2009
woke up at 320! k, thats a good 16 hours of sleep, to make up for that 2 days.
i know i should be thinking bout what to write for the achievement writeup and start on it before mrs leong comes down on me when school reopens but, aiya tomorrow la.
thank you shirleen.
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Saturday, July 04, 2009
maths made me feel really lousy that day because i couldnt prove m.i , i had a stupid mistake and the stuff i didnt study properly came out and i couldnt do. a qn here and there and they add up to 20 marks of mistakes, not inclusive of those i attempted half-confidently.
then it was class-transformers 2 movie outing. it helped lift spirits quite a bit, and i concluded that megan fox is not a 'transformer' and she'll be better off being a girl too. ok, maybe it should be that, it'll be better off for me to look upon her as a girl regardless of which she really is.
and the first thing i noticed after looking at megan fox is that, the male lead sam, looks exactly like rafay. i immediately msged weiyang after the show and it's funny how he only realised it after i told him so. they look so super alike.
anw, i want a girlfriend like what sam has in the movie. lol, no wonder bro insisted that she's a girl after watching the show. bet he wanted one like her too. and now i understand why he wanted a girlfriend like mer-kay-la (spelling?).
then after that, it was back home to pack for stayover at bird's place at night. lol, we spent the night poker-ing, wii-ing, and a lil of mahjong-ing, hotel626-ing and transformer 1-ing. yeah, jerald, me, bird, zhanyu managed to survive the whole night without sleep and poker is the ultimate time killer and best game to play with a lot of people.
and i'm so proud that i managed to win everyone's credits over in the second round that i played. they only revised the game with me once. hahah! ok, so anw, subsequently, luck ran out la. so more people started to be the ultimate winners. we taught bird and szeling how to play too. and it's hilarious how szeling plays it la.
ok, then the next day, without sleep, we went to ecp to meet part of the class to continue second part of outing after the movie. and i felt a lil guilty for driving someone not that popular away because we most likely kept him waiting for very long. and shermaine and weixin too. we made them wait like 1 hr plus la.
so anw, we got a kite, and we flew a kite while waiting for the rest of the class to come. first time flying a kite, and it was pretty successful. cheap thrill for so many people. it's 3 dollars or something only. so we spammed photographs, almost dragged down people's kite, fight with a black lady over the usage of kite-flying area, and taking of more photos.
then it was arcade time while waiting. i did the shootball machine so many times and it's super addictive. we were so much better at it last time, i wonder if my archives keep them. i think it was in sec 2 or 3. where a group of us, which i now only recall as jovan and me, will go mug it at east point. it wasnt very expensive and it was just pure fun and addiction. i miss those days la.
so after trying for the third or forth time, i handed my wallet to jerald when i bought tokens for the last round. i instructed him to nv give me back my wallet till we go far away from the arcade. hahah! i really almost wanted to try again and had he not had my money..
we went to meet bojun after that, and we played frisbee and flew kite again. lol, imitated the rest and had a rock to do the job for us while we played. and even bird's frisbee is branded one. LOL, adidas.. ok la, she said it was free from somewhere.
by this time, i was really spent alr. i didnt sleep well that night before maths paper and i didnt sleep the night of stayover too. so anw, the guys came, and we went to rent bike and cycle to changi. we = me, bird, szeling, weixin, bojun, jerald, shermaine, daryl, ninian, jeremy, houpang.
and poor and super-suay mr howbojun had his bike break down twice. first was the chain problem then it was an un-fixable problem which the 3 physicists, me, bojun, and hou pang were able to identify and stae and elaborate but not evaluate. conclusion/ solution : prayers. LOL.
and experienced biker weixin came back to the rescue. (half of them were on the way to changi, at the super long and monotonous stretch alr, and 3 of us with weixin were at the canal there.)
final conclusion: we got our bikes back to the nearest pcn shop (the cool franchise thing that sprung up all over singapore park connectors) and the nice uncle changed one good one for bojun. then we had to settle with the person at the stall we rented with, the money to pay; we overshot the duration of rent because of the breakdown. ya, then we kept arguing with the lady over the phone over why we should not pay extra because they gave us a lousy bike.
anw, our plan was to just return the bike at the pcn station we were at. like that we wouldnt hv to pay extra because we reached there on time. but we will hv to walk to the nearest bus stop to take bus to meet the rest of them who were able to cycle to changi, back at kovan.
plan b is to replace the spoilt bike, cycle back to the place where we rented from which is closer to bus stops. but we might hv to pay overusage fees.
so in the end, plan b worked, and we didnt hv to pay extra. the woman who spoke to us on the phone was so nasty, but the woman we saw was quite nice. we were preparing to argue and debate and refute and rebut and rebuke and whatever over their demands when she said 'yeah, alright, you can go already'
so anw, weixin 'pulled' bojun's bike back to the nearest pcn station from where it broke down. and it was so nervewrecking and worrying. because she fell down once; lost control and hit only one side of brakes hard. but after she got up, she still continued to ferry bojun back. (y)
so right, on the way back, i think we got quite high because of lack of sleep, that we started our once-in-a-while craze. you know, those type that it's alright to be crazy once in a while thing. hahah, we were so kp throughout la. and swore so much (there and then only, everyone present was alright with it so we broke the unspoken 'ban') and laughed so much and kp-ed so much at so many people including those people serving corrective work order at the beach, beach cleaning. hahah!
and szeling's mum is so cute. lol. i think i made it to her mum's list-of-classmates-to-contact-and- to-bring-auntie-home-if-auntie-comes-home-late-or-phone-no-batt-etc.
hahah!
alright la, i really need sleep. my mum also very cute la, the way she tells her friends how many girlfriends i have and how open and funny she is. hahah!
quote from PAP opposite, i was walking past and i happen to see.
'i like to go to the beach. i am happy when i go to the beach and when i am happy, i smile.'
if all things can be this simple.
more than half of the time, i'm really just stranded in between. 'let go of something that meant everything' huh.
save you, simple plan.
Take a breath I pull myself together
Just another step until I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
Ooh Ooh
I wish that I could tell you something
Ooh Ooh
To take it all away
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up til it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
When I hear your voice it's drowning in the whispers
You're just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take and no matter what I do
I can't make you feel better
Ooh Ooh
If only I could find the answer
Ooh Ooh
To help me understand
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
[ Simple Plan Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
I won't give up til it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know that
If you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up
Cause I'll be waiting if you fall you know
I'll be there for you
Ooh Ooh
If only I could find the answer
Ooh Ooh
To take it all away
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up til it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
I wish I could save you
I want you to know
I wish I could save you
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Tuesday, June 30, 2009
sigh, too surreal.
. . .
these days, i've been thinking how it would have been if tomorrow was the actual A levels paper instead of jct paper.
i didnt dare to think further than the first thought.
i wasnt thoroughly prepared for both gp and econs. not to the level that i'll be comfortable with the night before the paper where i go to sleep.
everything is just really quite scary. thats all.
time for a nap and chem tomorrow!
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Sunday, June 28, 2009
i want a hole with air con, light, a table and a mr know-it-all. a miss know-it-all will be good or even better too.
and if needed, some rope to tie me to the chair. somebody will have to help me and then go out of the hole.
要争气.
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Saturday, June 27, 2009
all this nonsense being said, you'll still be better off in the end. isnt that what always happen. maybe you're just trying to be humble and trying to go with the norm, but it's just so irritating that i know you aren't what you say you are, and you won't be.
so, if you're not bad, and cant bring yourself to say good, 'i'm ok la' will be fine too.
ugh, i have been meaning to say this so long ago, so i'm not really targetting anyone. so dont worry you, who might be reading this and understand what the hell i'm shitting about and am feeling guilty.
why does it always rain on me.
crap, screw it since it's really THAT meant to be.
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Friday, June 26, 2009
from shirleen's blog and i totally agree. sometimes her posts just make me think so much and everytime i go, i leave with something more.
'' Maybe that’s just growing up. When you’re young, you tell yourself things like, “Well, if it didn’t work out, it wasn’t meant to be” as if that actually meant something just because it sounds like it does. I think you can say something like that so blithely because you expect to stumble onto something else just as wonderful just around the next bend in the road. But people are rare, perfect, unique things and just because everyone really does live a life full of farewells doesn’t mean you shouldn’t at least realize what it really means to say goodbye to something that meant everything. Just because you will survive and get over it doesn’t mean you should let it go. -Adam Duritz to add in my two cents worth: for every step forward that we took, we ended up two steps back. but though there is always the dull ache that comes with knowing it, i am comfortable here now. there were always be people around, and of course they will never be able to replace the ones that you have given pieces of your heart to. but that's okay because eventually you will find your way around it, and you will learn to love new people. your heart expands because there are more people for you to open your heart to. definitely someone just as amazing and perfect will not come by so quickly, maybe never at all, but i really believe that if they keep a part of you with them, they will find their way back to you in the end. it might take weeks, months, years for them to find the right opportunity to come by to get back in touch, but they will. i know it. and really, just because you have let it go doesn't mean you will survive and get over it. * “I imagine the feelings of two people meeting again after many years. In the past they spent some time together, and therefore they think they are linked by the same experience, the same recollections. The same recollections? That’s where the misunderstanding starts: they don’t have the same recollections; each of them retains two or three small scenes from the past, but each has his own; their recollections are not similar; they don’t intersect; and even in terms of quantity they are not comparable: one person remembers the other more than he is remembered; first because memory capacity varies among individuals, but also (this is more painful to admit) because they don’t hold the same importance for each other.” -Ignorance, Milan Kundera '' one by one, step by step. we'll all make it. besides, we dont really have much of a choice right. at least, not anymore.
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Thursday, June 25, 2009
i'm not asleep yet because i'm afraid when i sleep, i wun be able to wake up.
man, i need to wake up to something i look forward to.
woah, eyes closing already. this is so bad for health, but what to do. no wonder they say to never make a mistake, if not you'll hv to make more to make up for it.
10 o'clock! please!
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Monday, June 22, 2009
i'm back. and i woke up at 330 this afternoon. sometimes i really think that i'm sleeping purely for the sake of it. not because i'm tired. perhaps because it will suck a lot to wake up and face the world and all the mess. in short, when mess > (: i'll rather not wake up.
i need to stop running away. lol.
i received couple of msgs this morning ( i climbed out of bed to check the phone, then went back to sleep -.-) that was about going to cna to vote for closing of school. i wonder if the authorities will trust that poll, afterall 90% of the voters will prolly be students who would do anything to extend holidays. i voted nonetheless. HAHA.
and daryl tried to cheat me that mrs leong told all of us to vote.
ok, alicia says technically i hv the same amount of time to study since i sleep so late. i dont think so actually since i'll be doing everything else but study at night.
good luck to me!
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009
i woke up at 230 this afternoon after having like 4 or 5 different dreams. i remembered i was packing for floorball camp. i remembered getting chased by 3 guys who resembled the guy in hellboy. i remebered seeing chunyong who tried to help, but couldnt. i remebered the chase at a point in time happened at the swimming complex. i got 'caught' then i woke up
to see half the day's gone alr. and it did turned out as bad as i expected. i really hate maths, because it drives me crazy the way i get stuck on questions and spend hours on question, but the teacher doesnt give a shit.
i heard over the news that, experts are suggesting extending the june holidays by 2 weeks to stop the h1n1 virus from spreading that much. i hope that passes through although it would screw up the school's schedule of preparing us for A levels. well, at least i'll hv more time for revision.
i can imagine myself crying the day i get my As for my subjects, because this really is mad; the way it drives me crazy.
ok, good or bad, eitherway i'll still cry. it's only how long it'll last that differs.
it's ironic the way i say i'm trying hard but i aint. i guess i'm just trying hard to try hard and try harder.
it's hard all the same anw. i'm tired of trying.
favorite song of all time.
The Scientist- coldplay
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jkMGf2_NKvs
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets
And ask me you questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Coming in tales
Heads are a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
[ Coldplay Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing tails
And coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
i think the lyrics to the next song are really good.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L8K0oWUe9_Q
beautiful - eminem
Lately I've been hard to reach, I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world, where they can be alone
Are you calling me? Are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me? I'm reaching out for you
I'm just so fucking depressed, I just can't seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump, but I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps, fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up, in order for me to pick the mic back up
I don't know how or why or when I ended up in this position I'm in
I'm starting to feel distant again, so I decided just to pick this pen
Up and try to make an attempt to vent but I just can't admit or come to grips
With the fact that I may be done with rap, I need a new outlet
And I know some shit so hard to swallow, but I just can't sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow, but I know one fact: I'll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow, I'll be one tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow, but you'd have to walk a thousand miles...
In my shoes, just to see, what it's like to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes, just to see what it'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine, go inside each other's minds
Just to see what we'd find, look at shit through each other's eyes
But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful (Ohhhh)
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you (Sooooo)
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful (Ohhhh)
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you (Sooooo)
I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humour, everything's so tense and gloom, I
Almost feel like I got to check the temperature of the room just as soon as
I walk in, it's like all eyes on me, and so I try to avoid any eye contact
Cause if I do that, then it opens the door for conversation, like I want that
I'm not looking for extra attention, I just wanna be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room, maybe just point me to the closest restroom
I don't need no fucking man servant, tryna follow me around and wipe my ass
And laugh at every single joke I crack and half of 'em ain't even funny like "Hah!
Marshall you're so funny man you should be a comedian, God damn"
Unfortunately I am, I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don't you all sit down, listen to the tale I'm about to tell
Hell, we don't gotta trade our shoes, and you ain't gotta walk no thousand miles...
In my shoes, just to see, what it's like to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes, just to see what it'd be like to
[ Eminem Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Feel your pain, you feel mine, go inside each other's minds
Just to see what we'd find, look at shit through each other's eyes
But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful (Ohhhh)
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you (Sooooo)
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful (Ohhhh)
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you (Sooooo)
Nobody asked for life to deal us what these bullshit hands we're dealt
We gotta take these cards ourselves, and flip them, don't expect no help
Now I could of either just sat on my ass and pissed and moaned
Or take this situation in which I'm placed, and get up and get my own
I was never the type of kid to wait by the door and pack his bags
Or sat on the porch and hoped and pray for a dad to show up who never did
I just wanted to fit in, every single place, every school I went
I dreamed of being that cool kid, even if it meant acting stupid
Aunt Edna always told me, "Keep making that face it'll get stuck like that"
Meanwhile I'm just standing there holding my tongue tryna talk like "thissss"
Till I stuck my tongue on that frozen stop sign pole at eight years old
I learned my lesson then, cause I wasn't trying to impress my friends no more
But I already told you my whole life story, not just based on my description
Cause where you see it, from where you're sitting, it's probably a hundred and ten percent different
I guess we would have to walk a mile in each other's shoes at least
What size you wear? I wear tens, let's see if you could fit your feet...
In my shoes, just to see, what it's like to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes, just to see what it'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine, go inside each other's minds
Just to see what we'd find, look at shit through each other's eyes
But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful (Ohhhh)
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you (Sooooo)
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful (Ohhhh)
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you (Sooooo)
Lately I've been hard to reach, I've been too long on my own (Ohhhh)
Everyone has their private world, where they can be alone (Soooo)
Are you calling me? Are you trying to get through? (Ohhhh)
Are you reaching out for me? I'm reaching out for you (Soooo)
Yeah, to my babies, stay strong. Dad will be home soon. And to the rest of the world, God gave you them shoes, to fit you, so put 'em on and wear em. Be yourself, man. Be proud of who you are. Even if it sounds corny, don't ever let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful.
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Tuesday, June 16, 2009
how now brown cow?
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Friday, June 12, 2009
so i woke up at 930, just in time to watch part of 2nd quarter while preparing to go to school for our sportsxcel closure or retreat as mr loh calls it. magics were up by 11 when i left house and you can imagine my disappointment when muye told weiyang who was with me in the gym in school that game went to OT and lakers won by 8 thereafter.
but that wasnt the main part of today. yuxuan and sherman couldnt make it today so it was pointless just having the 6 of us. yuxuan had tuition and sherman was out study-dating with xx ( we presumed, and which is very likely). so we decided on just lunch at ehub.
we took mr loh's lil yellow van and the engine was kinda spoilt. the pipe wasnt working, so the engine couldnt cool down. we got into the van and mr loh only told us halfway there that
'do not be alarmed if you see smoke coming out from the engine later ah.'
and 5 mins later, smoke really came. hahah! laughed so hard there and then la.
then we asked what will happen if it gets overheated.
'oh, the engine will just stall lo'
5 mins later, it really did. and we had to get off the van to push it to somewhere he can park. -.-
so we waited for the traffic light to go red, and we pushed and ran with the van as fast as we could and park with the mosque-go-ers. it wasnt easy k, really panting after that. hahah, walao, saigang even at sportsxcel lunch. we definitely are well-trained enough la.
so we went to just acia under weiyang's recommendation. free flow drinks and ice cream. not bad huh. so we talked a lot and 'shared' a lot. then mr loh had to go. so the 6 of us stayed on and talked and played uno. hahah, it was the mini uno cards we got from helping out at casuarina primary! and we camped there from 1 to 540pm almost before we had to leave.
push van, smoke from engine, laughing so hard with sportsxcel, uno, ice cream, 'sharing', fooling around, attracting attention from other diners, dont hv to care bout hair or image, aver looking at my chest, weiyang and jo falling out over 3 draw 2s cards, 1hr plus uno game, darsh's writings, zaiyou's pokemon accomplisment, joking and more joking around, hippo and vyl, yuansong and aver and player, sherman getting played by aver.
i love this bunch of people. <3
i'm gonna bring the uno cards to school when school reopens.
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Thursday, June 11, 2009
yeah, magics won! but apart from that, there's nothing to really be proud of today. i went out to collect passport and walked around with mum and so, i didnt really manage to do anything. but it's never too late, gonna go do some MI before turning in.
tomorrow better be better.
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Wednesday, June 10, 2009
first, i need to stop coming online every night. sometimes, the hardest things and the right things are the same. this is one. gotta change plan alr, needa hurry finish revising everything, then practise! especially for physics and maths!
i want a long and good night sleep.
what you want it to be vs what it really is.
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Monday, June 08, 2009
ok, so i managed to wake up at 830 to catch game 2. but dear magics failed me and stupid lee missed the otherwise wonderful alley oop to draw the finals at 1-1 before going to orlando. -.-
i swear it would have been such a beauty if that went in. it'll really be 'where amazing happens' right in front of the tv. damn, so they went into extra time and got left behind by gasol and bryant. please please win game 3 and 4 orlando!
ok, you might wonder i'm diehard rooting for magics. but it's actually because i just wanna catch a few more matches of the finals, so lakers'd better not win the series at 4-0. on the other hand, it will be too ugly a scoreline for the finals. but nevertheless lakers are hot favorite, i think they are indeed better! and magics has to start putting in all those 3 points and jumpers in the paint damnit. it was so -.- and (u) watching them miss open shots on ocassions where they could hv opened up the lead.
so, after that 3 hours, i started on maths which wasnt productive at all. i managed to complete binomial theorem practise qn, ok, i managed to 'complete' in my definition. i'm just planning to do like 6 or 7 questions per chapter and do the rest one from each chapter each day when maths near. sounds good right. lol, it better work, ok, i think it shld be I better work instead.
ok, so if everything doesnt screw up, i'm planning to use 2 halves of a day to do organic chem, while continuing on my maths this week. but then again, change of plans is ALWAYS round the corner. so, ...
ok, so the day continued and i went off to play basketball after giving up on maths FOR THAT PART OF THE DAY. well, actually i just needed to take my mind off books and pencil and paper for a while, so actually a lil walk or sit by the basketball court would have suffice too. and did i mention maths give me headaches ? ok, they do. especially when i get stuck on questions. i hate getting stuck on questions.
now, it's time to study again and i'll hv to be in school early tomorrow to help the juniors out for the tjc invitational badminton tournament. haha! they better not screw up, um i mean they better do a good job!
when i'm burnt and baked, down and out,
guorong just wants to be super too.
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Friday, June 05, 2009
i'm so tired from these 2 days. been heading out early in the morning and sleeping really late. i'm so glad i'm staying at home tomorrow which means no very early mornings!
i was almost falling asleep during econs lesson today, and it was so cold. so anw, shall skip that and go on to the helping out at casuarina primary! we went there to help a group of temasek sec students with their leadership camp. and we're station masters for their obstacle course. so we got to see a lot of very cute lil boys and girls. and you should have seen how aver was smiling throughout and targetting lil cute boys! i swear if anyone of them goes missing, she'll be the one we suspects the most la!
totally love sportsxcel. how we do stuff and talk nonsense and cheat yuansong. hahah! and i love it when people praise us for job well done. so super proud of our slc banner when mrs goh brought that up that night. i guess it's really different and so much easier when the whole lot of us have been through so much together. so naturally we can get things done easier, better and faster! i've learnt so much.
alright, it's getting late, photos up next time! and can somebody tell me how he/she is going to revise for jcts! because i really have no idea how to complete everything. last year's experience is as good as useless because it was a desperate attempt to scrape through with just 2 weeks left to jct.
song of the day : Just want you to know
Lookin at your picture
From when we first met
You gave me a smile
That I could never forget
Nothing I could do
Could protect me from you that night
Wrapped around your finger
Always on my mind
The days were plain
Cause we stayed up all night
Yeah you and I were everything
Everything to me
I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then theres nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
Just want you to know
All the doors are closing
I'm trying to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it's me instead
My dreams are empty from the day
The day you slipped away
I just want you to know
[ Backstreet Boys Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then theres nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
Just want you to know
That since I lost you
I lost myself
No I can't fake it
There's no one else
I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then theres nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
Just want you to know
Cause I can't fight to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then theres nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
Just want you to know
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Tuesday, June 02, 2009
i dont know how i'll be able to remember all these words, but it's worth the try considering that there doesnt seem to be an alternative.
in short, I DONT HAVE A CHOICE.
ok actually i do, just that theres only one option to choose from. does that make sense. ok no, since i only have 1 option and nothing else to choose. ok, so you see it's getting pretty late and my nonsense's starting again.
so anyway, i woke up at 130. yeah pm, just in case you dont know well and actually think that i woke up at 130am. so that explains why i'm still up so late; trying to make up for time lost which doesnt really work out because the cycle repeats itself unknowingly and uncontrollaby i would say.
but, tomorrow i shall wake up at 10. this shall be a promise to myself although i've broken many of such already, but one more attempt wouldnt hurt. i shall read more econs and prepare for my econs lesson on thursday as well as start on maths, apgp preferably. how to go about doing them, i do not know, but they all say, start with a plan. and so i shall and i have. the executing the plan part can wait till tomorrow.
and this goes to show why i desperately need a timetable, or rather i need to KNOW how to do up a timetable, a realistic one i mean. ok so i'm going to study hard since thats the only thing i can do. thats some motivation man.
looking forward to a productive tomorrow. like how every sunset brings about a new day, every wasted day brings about hope for a better tomorrow. amazing how i made that up.
you're a flower. you make others happy just by being the way you are. shine.
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Monday, June 01, 2009
i finally found the time to watch ps i love you. but it so had to stop at the halfway mark. turned out that i only had half of the movie -.- but anw, it was really bittersweet. i cant imagine if i were to lose anyone, especially someone dear to me. ok, actually i had that, and it's like a hundred times of ache-inside kind of piercing pain when you realise that, this is it. she's.. gone, forever.
and i believe anyone who watched that show/read that book will really start treasuring those dear ones, till the feeling fades off and everything goes back to normal until they see something like this again which reminds them of what it will feel like to lose someone. and the cycle repeats. notice how normal, refers to the way people just pass life taking things for granted. it's very, sad.
but i guess it's something inevitable and everybody falls into the cycle.
it's good to be scared. because it means that you still have something to lose.
i'm looking at you looking at me,
thinking of you thinking of me.
i think i just wrote a post for the sake of writing it. -.-
sometimes i wish we can all just be the way we are and stay oblivious to the stares.
ok maybe something more interesting. i had a dream last night, and i think i dreamt of school people. dont exactly remember but i remembered that in the dream, outside the audi, there was a manmade water fall. hahah, how cool is that la!
and thank you auntie and bird for helping me find my shirt! and auntie szeling, please be more glam and less loser-ish!
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Saturday, May 30, 2009
can! marathon was awesome. at least i found it so although there really weren't a lot of people who attended.
played badminton till it was time for us to do the non-competitive run. it was kinda silly though, i really ran the full 30 mins with shermaine. we ran 12 rounds, so that adds up to like all of us from badminton running 180 plus rounds together! and shermaine can really run la!
so, after that, jason and i went to play badminton. haha! oh, it was really quite cool last night, there were people playing basketball, tennis, soccer, table tennis, badminton, netball, captains ball and touch rug and practically all the sports through the night la. yeah, so anw, after playing with jason, my legs were really sore, so shermaine and ether was nice enough to rub my knots off because i had to run again at 5am, but the moment they rubbed, my both legs cramped at the same time! yeah, then for the rest of the time, i had to limp around.
and so i did limp around to and fro sports com trying to find something to do to kill time and feed myself. and so i landed at mr loh's truck eating his mother's cooking. and they were really nice, the fried noodles and green bean soup. i couldnt go and play netball or basketball or anything else with them cause of the cramps, and i was kinda worried bout my 5am run; i saw the basketballers run beforehand. it was bad. weiyang was feeling really bad after 2-3 rounds.
so, in the end my phone battery went flat and i went to join sherm, ether and shirleen to chat around and pass time. we went from the hall to the stage at sports com lying under the sky. it was so nice to sleep la. yeah, but it was cool talking to them too, because we have common topics and we've been through a lot too. and shirleen said she had a good impression of me when she first saw me. i dont know if thats a compliment though, because it sounded like she doesnt have a good impression of me now. LOL. and we talked bout our future, how shirleen wants to be a housewife and take care of kids while all her classmates are aspiring lawyers and doctors. haha!
and they asked if i would want my wife to stay at home or work. lol, i would want her to do what she likes, because if i have her as my wife, it'll mean that i like the way she is and i know they way she will be, so i'll prolly like what she decides, work or stay at home. makes sense right. woah, model answer. hahha! and they said my wife will be an arts person, not sports person. and i'll go with her to concerts. haha, i dont know how they could tell all these things la.
then we talked bout the team and badminton and a whole lot of other stuff. by then, it was time to run alr, kirk couldnt run and bozhong and soccer boys were asleep by then. so we only had 5 people in our team to run 1 hr. -.- lucky we managed to find some more people to help us. really wanna thank zhiyang, bojun and weihao. they were super innocent and i had to rope them in to help.
so in the end we each ran like 4 rounds each. our 5-6am slot wasn't up to the 50 rounds per hour target though but there really werent enough people to run. it was heartwarming to see that, people came forward to help us seeing we didnt have enough people and even sherm and ether ran. the floorballers came to help and there were few others who came to sub us for 1 or 2 rounds so we can rest while longer. it's all these lil things that really show what the whole spirit is about. random tjcians just offering themselves to contribute to this college record.
after us, were the 3 basketballers plus netball team. and just like the rest of the slots, there were kind souls who stayed around to sub too. track team was imba. each of them ran below 1 min for each round. and i think that helped make up for the time lost in other slots la.
then we went back to join bird and weiling, who were asleep already by the time we finished our hour. bird did wake up though, then we just talked for a bit, before going over to play badminton till floorball training starts.
bojun and i were walking to the sports com to shower. then we saw a lot of people chionging during the last hour. we heard that we were short of 600 and left like 15 mins to go. so we went over to look see look see. and we saw all the people were really worn out alr, they gave their best for one round and it doesnt look like they can do one more, so they were looking for fresh people to just run one round each to race against the time. and so i got asked to run too. woah, and i was damn proud of it k, coz i really ran and strode and everything for the whole round and i think that round was really quite fast. LOL, had to keep going on la, theres like people running with me all the time, rachel, gwen, debbie and gang. and so many people shouting and mrs loke and all the company who ran together the night before. and the song playing was ' i dont wanna miss a thing' how cool is that la.
but in the end, we managed only 599 rounds, didnt meet our target of 600 rounds. but we did surpassed the previous record of 455 rounds! the last hour was the killer, i think we covered more than 5o rounds in that hour alone. i feel ashamed to use 'we', because out of the 599 rounds, i ran only 5 and there are people like issac who ran 13. lol
ok, then after that, good kokwei bought back macs for me. oh, and i left my plastic bag of worn clothes beside me while eating, then after i finished, i went up to the hall to get our bags. beside our bags, there was a packet of clothing, but it didnt belong to kokwei too. so i threw it away. then i was just leaving when i felt bad, that maybe someone else wanted it back badly. and if it's me i'd rather the person leave it where it was so i can find it. so i retrieved it and put in back in the hall. then i left for sports com and left my plastic bag of worn clothes at the marquee!
i only remembered when i got home and checked my bag, my sportsxcel shirt was inside, so i was realy worried. i remember walking around marquee with andre to sell coupons and i dont recall seeing it at all. called bird and auntie to help me find, though i didnt have high hopes of getting it back alr, but they called and said it was still there at the marquee.
now how coincidental is there, karma at work i suppose. lol!
ok, super tired now, good job zaiyou and team for the marathon. i made so many more friends and talked to a lot of people i've seen but never interacted with. i guess the lack of sleep made me talk a lot of nonsense while waiting for my turn to run. and that helped.
thats bout it all. but there was someone missing that night though, and i hope she's found and she's alright.
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