Happy Birthday to my Guinea Pig

Do you think it is normal for a mom to be so emotional over her childs birthday as I am? 11 years ago at the mere age of nearly 22, I became a mother. Something happened to me June 2, 1998, I changed in an instant. My heart was no longer my own. I had no clue what motherhood would intell for me. I had no idea that I could possibly worry anymore than I already did ( thanks dad for passing the worry wart gene on to me). I had no idea that dropping a baby off at daycare almost everyday for the first 4 years of his life would leave me emotionally drained by the time I got to work. I had no idea that staying home with that same 4 year old and his baby brother would leave me feeling so inadequate. I really had no idea how fast 11 years would fly by. Why didn't somebody tell me? Oh yeah Mom you tried to and like most lessons I have learned it my life... I learned them the hard way. (Is that why you told me my middle name was difficult)?

Enough of my blubbering. Tallon today is your day and I hope we can make it a special one for you. Thanks for being my guinea pig. I am sorry for all of the mistakes I have made and those I have yet to make, but inevitably will make. You are my sunshine and always will be. You are so smart and talented. You have a love for nature and all of God's creations. You have an eye for detail and it shows in your artwork. You always know when I am going to lose my sanity, and step right in before I do. You try to be patient and kind to your brothers, they love you and look up to you so much. I am so grateful to be your mom. I love you ! Happy Birthday!

Random thoughts

Okay so I must confess I am a blog failure. I guess I knew I would be before I even started. I now have high speed internet so no more excuses, well maybe a few. I am working a job from home now, plus still working one graveyard shift (hence my post time) once a week, still the YW's president in my ward, trying to potty train my three year old, helping T with his science fair project...Okay you get the point. I could go on for hours and I know that all of my blog followers (the whole 3 of you) are busy too. So to you I make a new years promise that I will update my blog at least once a month. Happy Stef, look what you started.

I have many things I would like to post. Pictures from our trip to Disneyland in October, M's 3rd birthday, T winning first place for reflections, all of the teeth C has lost. Christmas, New year's etc. etc. Although I may get to those eventually, for now I am going forward.

I have been contemplating running the Salt Lake City half marathon on April 18th. I have totally slacked off on my running the last few months. Mostly because our treadmill is a piece of trash.(Supossidly it is fixed now, we'll see). Also with all of the snow on the ground it is kind of hard to run outside. So anyway I have gone to the web site to register 3 times now and every time I chicken out. Why do I torture myself? I mean really what am I so afraid of ? You know what will happen I will let my fear get the best of me and by the time I decide to do it, it will be too late and the race will be full. Okay a new goal for the week. Sign up for the dang half marathon and get over it.

Other random thoughts... I will save them for another day, because I do need to get at least 4 hours of sleep before I get my rugrats off to school. One thing I can check off my list-Updating my blog.