End of June Updates

Hi Jare, please accept this as an email. I would write you, but the think is, I need to update *everyone* else too.

Hey to everyone else too! I dont know if ppl miss me on FB, but I thought Id let you know about whats been happenin in the World of Winken.

We live in our new place, which is nearly perfect (if it had toes they would be just barely beneath the water). Easy to clean, great Landlords, great neighbour, cute place, reasonable rent (well, due to a subsidy that is), BUT... There are a millllllion spiders! ICK! If you know me well, you know Ive been aracnaphobic for as long as I can remember. Seriously hate the things. But, with no brothers or husband to squash them, I started to learn to do it on my own. However, there werent that many in my last few places. I see a spider almost daily, usually multiple spiders if I see one. Big, gross, hairy, many varieties. Now, if you know me well, you are shocked that I can even tyoe this all out right now. Yes, proof that I am overcoming that weakness. I catch them in my spider catcher (thanks Ser), show them to Nod so she isnt scared like I was, and we set them free on the living room floor, and swuash them together. *fun* (rolllls eyes)
{Also, I cant hang pictures, thats the only other down}

Anyways, I dont have a job... but my car was fixed for FREE by my dear friend Bee's husband.
THANK HEAVENS>  Thanks guys!!!!!
And Im thinking of selling my wedding dress so I can afford a new passport and a trip to Utah/Idaho for the last twoish weeks of summer.

Nod doesnt like her glutten free diet, so Im trying to get better at baking and cooking for her. Poor kid. Im goign to take her to an allergy elimination guy in the fall if D helps pay for it, really hoping that works.

Oh, and the DIVORCE! Its coming :D For REALS this time. The Lawyer said two months from June 1st, but then again we must take into consideration summer holidays, so it could be longer. But anytime after August 1st.

Have any of you gone through the LDS addiction recovery program? Ive been reading the manual and man is it a good way to gain a testimony, EVERYBODY should do it. Anyways, since beginning that, Nod and I have established a great routine, I cook better and clean better and study scriptures better. I also have made bounds of progress on forgiving D. Some days I think Ive completley overcome the trauma of divorce, but then he comes for a visit and I realise Ive got more work to do.

Im getting more and more used to being a single mom. Im starting to enjoy it even. I thinkits a blessing that the divorce took so long, because it forced me to learn a LOT... however, that is NOT my permission for it to take longer! I would like to feel free... and I would like to go out for some Moti Mahal with *someone*... maybe. Hah. Actually, I think I should go on dates with, lots of people, so that I know Im not just settling but really choosing the best one. I have some really great friends right now. There are 3 or so guys in my branch that I wouldnt date (most of them are in serious relationships) but have become brothers to me. We have great conversations about the place of love in a relationship. I think it is the last MOST important thing. As in, its most important, but lastly. They disagree. Perhaps I am simply cynical, because I truley loved D, and Im not sure wether to trust my feelings of love in the future. Good thing I have the spirit to fall backj on, good thing there are answers to prayers. This is what gives me hope and faith, a knowledge that one day I will make the best choice for our family in regards to a new husband. anyways, now Ive been rambling.

Anyways, Ive got to go pay my bills, because Ive got the internet, and Nods asleep. Im sure this was disjointed. My apologies.

An Update

Well, Ive posted a couple times on my new blog, but I hear my fans are begging for more ;P

For the summer I moved into a new place to sublet while my friend went to Europe.... however, she surprised me last week by showing up after only one month of her trip. We've been living together ever since, and it has been, a new experience for me. Well, actually, an old experience. Living with her reminds me of living with D. Their sleeping patterns are the same (however she was jetlagged so I'll give her that), and their eating habits, their excessive computer time, belief system, etc. It has been emotionally wearing. I love her, we are friends, but living her was like living with D all over again.SO, I found a new place :) yipee
The new place is small, but oh so cute and affordable! The walls are my favorite, painted unique and interesting colours. Im excited to get in there this weekend and put up my own paintings, and sleep in my own bed again.
In other news, I finally have a lawyer! Halle-freaking-lujah! Hopefully we will meet later this week, or early next week, make some quick decisions, and finally move forward!!!! Im feeling veeeeery stuck in this time of my life! Hopefully this supervision thing doesnt turn into a war with D, cause that might keep this going a long time, but Im hoping that a kind judge will at least give me a divorce before making decisions on the things that will take a long time (supervised visits etc, moving to Utah etc).
Nothing much else is new, there is no school so I spend my days with Nod, playing at the park, washing the car, going to the pet store, going to playdates, etc. I dont have a job yet, Im looking at something very part-time, some evenings here and there.
Im still addicted to FB, I think in status updates, and just sit and stare at my laptop before I think of what else I can do. At least I dont sit on the FB homepage anymore, thinking about how I could click the "forgot my password" button. Im moving on. a bit.
I get lonely a lot, so I go out almost every night. Wed I have meetings, Thurs is institute, Fri Sat I hang out with YSA, Sun with my family, and on Tuesdays I stay home and catch up on a cople TV shows I like online. Other than that I just play guitar a lot, which makes me miss my best friend who didnt come home for the summer and I havent seen in much too long.
Hope to get my hair done this weekend by my other BFF, Jo. Thats super exciting, we havent hung out in much too long either.
Oh, and Im going to plan out a trip to Utah/Idaho once I get a new car and passport :)

Love you all
Wink

Ohhhhh Facebook

My fam jam hyjacked my status... and while it could be embarassing, it was actually pretty funny... My favorite was the end... haha

"desperately seeking......eligible young man....who loves children, cleaning (especially toilets), cooking, working, listening to poetry, washing dishes, fixing cars, editing essays, building snowmen, killing spiders and gushing over how wonderful I look despite having had my body stretched out of shape by an eight pound bowling ball that is now 18 months old"

Way to go family, now go find him k? lol

Press On

Im a little sick, and Im also quite tired. My marks aren't where I want them to be, and Im ready for school to be over. pls? There is so much to do, and so little motivation left to do it. I want to run outside and build a snowman, or go buy another hot chocolate, or watch a movie... or anything to give my mind a rest. a long rest. BUT... instead I press on, like the awesome hymn sung at general conference this weekend "We will all press on in the work of the lord, that when life is o'r, we may gain a reward, in the fight for right we must weild the sword, the might sword of truth"
and another gooder
"and we hear the desert ringing, Carry on Carry on Carry on! Hills and vales and mountains ringing, carry on carry on carry on!"

The end.
XO
Wink

Like or Dislike?

Two of my friends have suggested adding a donate to the 'Elizabeth needs a divorce' button to my blog... and your thoughts??

Haha.

Im going to speak with a lawyer asap. But the last I heard, the retainer for having them work on the case would be 3thousand dollars.


Well worth keeping Nod safe I think.

ALERT ALERT! New Blog

My friend Jare Oregeno thinks I should start a blog, about my experiences as a single mom, going through a divorce, and the refiners fire. Pretty similar to some things Ive been talking about here, but here I can talk about anything. Ive already posted a bunch, and if youre interested... here's the link.

Ps, Thanks to Leo for the title idea :D

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