Sunday, January 15, 2012 . 12:52 AM
Relationships exist everywhere - kinship, friendship, romantic relationship and so on. A relationship is easy to forge, or at least more simple as compared to maintaining one. Most of the time, we don't even have to create one - the fact that two are strangers is an example. However, it is really difficult to maintain relationships that are forged. Not to say that it is easy to maintain kinships but it's special as people who are family are related by blood. 'Blood is thicker than water,' so we are somehow already connected deeply and will not be separated that easily.I do have love-hate relationships with presents sometimes. Firstly, I can be attached to my present because i really like the present itself or second, I like my present because of the person who gave it to me. Thus, a gift is really meaningful to me, especially if both likes apply. However, it is taxing to try to decide if I want to keep a present which was given to me that the first like still lingers yet the second is no longer present. Should I throw it away then?
Lastly, I still have feelings for my 'old fames'. My beloved childhood plush toys especially! I am one who likes to keep things as momento and I guess due to watching too many animal shows and reading too many animal books that I find it difficult to throw or give away my soft toys.. No choice today because i really have too much things that they overflow to my parents' room initially and to my living room currently. Therefore, I have cleared out quite a lot of stuffs and I feel accomplished!
Time for bed! Couldn't sleep again just now so I shall try yet again. Nights!
Monday, January 09, 2012 . 12:29 AM
Been think a tat too much since some time back. Things that are bothering me may be small things to some but they do make me feel emotional at times. It's become a habit to just listen to songs and think about stuff and onl realize that tears come dropping down during the touching songs. Or rather, songs that touch me. I go with my heart more than my head so it's no wonder that my tears flow when I don't even understand the lyrics of the songs I listen to (can roughly guess what they are by now or close by).That aside, I had lots of fun and enjoyed myself through from christmas to new year to my birthday! Glad I could meet up with some loves whom I missed dearly. (Although not for some, I'm happy enough. And I certainly hope there will be some chance to meet some day.) Not forgetting, the dearest one who's always by my side has made me smile (almost) all the while! Somehow also popped up a cool surprise since I had almost really never thought of being surprised. Never thought I would have such a great end of year last year and birthday too!(Even though yes, I knew I would enjoy my birthday this year no matter what.)
Come to think of it, there's like a timeline to every years' birthday. I remember I used to think of birthdays as just some normal days when I was younger because my parents are traditional, they don't celebrate birthdays. Cannot believe that some people from the older generation received "smacks on the butts" from their mothers on their birthday due to the pain they caused during birth. Anyhow, I grew to like birthdays as I learnt to celebrate them. One of the more memorable birthdays was one which I went to the Escape Theme Park with a few good/best friends in either primary five or six. Disliked it sometimes cos it's the early part of the year and not many remember.
The best parts came when I got to know awesome friends in dhs. I began to look forward to my birthdays then. It was like some sort of compensation for the younger days which I don't have celebrations nor receive presents other than the toys which I bugged my parents for. The awesome parts were having surprises. You don't know how elated one can be when one receives a surprise! As small as it can be, a surprise does wonders to make one feels loved, fortunate and happy.
And now, things have changed. I no longer care for the presents part. I feel happy just receiving the well wishes. Spending my birthday with people I love and also spending other days with them is good enough.
Not to forget, Facebook came into play and I'm also glad to receive tens of well wishes from friends and loves be it they truly remembered the date or rare reminded of it. Irony present is that I am wished well by people I'm not close to yet I don't get from some who I think are close to me.
Somehow the post has come to this, even though I don't know how many people actually come to this blog anymore, I want to tell you all that I really appreciate all the well wishes and presents and surprises that you all have given me through my life. No matter who you are, as long as you have done any of the above on any of my birthdays (especially the ones who have been through memorable birthdays and surprises with me), THANK YOU SO MUCH! <3
Gotta thank my parents (and godmother) who have showered me with unconditional love since I was born and all they have done for me too!<33
Family and friends are just important people to me. I think I still can remember some of the friends I have made in kindergarten one lol. Long appreciative post. Been long since I have done this. Feels fortunate right now. ^^
Thank you, to whoever finishes till here!<3
Tuesday, December 20, 2011 . 2:31 AM
Definitely cannot seem to fall asleep again. Guess that's because I screwed up my body clock too badly by sleeping after 5am for consecutive days previously huh?.Been too quiet the past year and bottling up too much. Those who know me well enough would have known that I am one who can't do that or I'll just explode someday. Well, explosions occurred, in means that I don't like. Not one bit. They don't really help either, in one way or another.
Things have changed very much and I doubt they can go back to how everything was like before. No, I am sure they can't. As the old saying goes "The only constant is change," isn't it? I certainly want some things I experienced last time now too, though it's not that I hate everything I have at present. Humans are just insatiable and selfish. I am just but a normal human too.
For some reasons, I don't really want the date 20th dec to come. I don't even want to spend the day either.. Y results are going to come while shopping with mum T.T.
Can't do anything about this anyway, it's just how life is. Nevertheless, I can still look forward to the shopping and perhaps seeing you?^^
Mission impossible 4 was great today! First movie with you after so long heh! Although it's not as good as some mission movies which are more humorous bleh.
Glad the mrt didn't pose any problem to me today hur. Really hope that the train services will get back to normal after all the faults are corrected. After all, the mrt is part of the public transport, a public good a country cannot do without in order to unction properly and efficiently. It's also my favourite mode of transport! Mrt, get well soon!
Oh and unexpectely, I met weijia at plaza today haha!
Kay I should probably try to get some sleep now. Nights!
Thursday, December 15, 2011 . 11:25 PM
Started to pack my things just now.. Now my shelf is almost empty! Haha I found many childhood stuff that reminded me of very fond memories. Additionally, I also found stuff that do not belong to me >< = things I borrowed that I haven't returned or forgot to do so. There were some that I don't even know whom they belong to... Gonna put up a list to inform the respective owners when I am done! Positively before cny haha!Interesting things you'll probably dog out from the mountain of things are like pokemon cards, marbles, blowpens, handmade bookmarks, letters, animal pencil cases, cartoon character stationery sets, and even the locks we used for our lockers in sec school which I forgot the codes T.T. I only remembered how they are supposed to turn. Oh well..
Gonna die packing everything.. Is there anyone who wants assessment books out there? I have bcme ones I think.. Some which are totally new and not opened at all =.=. Selling cheap cheap! Haha should make a flea market for the stuffs that I don't want anymore. If theres demand, I could probably make some money hahaha!
Kk がんばってね！
Sometimes time seems to pass by slowly yet sometimes it seems to be very quick. After the college days, I also don't seem to be able to keep track of time very well either. Now that I am on vacation, it's even worse haha.
Right and coming back, I shall take some time to change the background and stuff. People do change after all!
Saturday, October 30, 2010 . 8:23 PM
Sunday, October 17, 2010 . 1:45 PM
Favourite moments of JYJ esp Jaejung =DJJ and YC were super cute! Plus fail ken -_-. Yc totally stoned when ken said he was minnie...
Hehe I think the person who took this photo was sitting right in front of me or sth~
I swear I could have taken super clear shots of them but just din have a good camera and dont wanna risk getting a cam confiscated either. Enjoyed the showcase to the max and cannot get enough of them! Like a dream come true~~
[Fanaccount of JYJ The Beginning Showcase]Shall do a first ever fanaccount. Just need an avenue to spazz right now! So unbelievably unreal!
Went out at 5 plus to meet @chingyingcy, @joannalyz and @ilLuMisT_Vea at Manpuku to eat dinner. Ate and bought cheapo mineral water to quench thirst for the time being before the showcase because we cant bring bottles inside. Then headed for expo. Met @hotpadi and linda at expo station.
Walked towards hall 3 along with large crowds. Found the sg-tvxq members to collect our T-shirt (with the stars that grew in the dark!xD) Toilet queues were really ridiculous but we still changed. They were playing songs from The Beginning, or so we thought. But seeing a tweet that said they were rehearsing and listening closely, omo, it's just unbelievable! Quite obvious it was live and we stood closer to the doors to listen but were soon chased away after a while.
Then, we realised the queue for Cat A was all the way from hall 3 to hall 6 zzz. Din feel like queuing so we just hung around.
(This was how the outside of expo looked like)It dragged for a long time and we only got in after 8.45pm I think. Initially, it was supposed to start at 8. Started at 9pm!
Ken from 100.3 was there...he's just super lucky la can get to see so many korean idols so up close and get to talk to them. Just during the one hour plus he got to high five jaejung and pat yoochun's shoulder -_-.
Started with a video when the lights were dimmed. Turning around, I saw an ocean of red! ♥
(My pov was from the front luh xD and the ocean is way nicer live than the picture itself!)JYJ then rose up from the platform and the whole place roared with loud screaming. Our seats were so good that I can see every of their features! Their eyes, nose, mouth were all very clear! It felt like I was watching them on a computer screen like I always do! They started singing Empty (okay songlist: Empty Be the one Be my girl Chajatta Ayyy girl Empty remix). Fans all went super high. Started screaming like mad and shook my red lightstick! Am so glad @elahge helped me buy it!
You know that your seat is super good when you can see the tattoo on Jaejung's chest! Can see distinctively there's two lines! The boys' dance moves were so energetic and dances were all good! Oh and did I mention they look super good in white? Yoochung and Jaejung were in suits (jj w/o a shirt inside) and Junsu's outfit was a bit weird=/ but they were all looking hot=D!
Next was Be the one... I guess I was staring and smiling at them like an idiot to really internalise everything there. Okay forgot the sequence already. But if I never rmbed wrongly, they showed us a VCR of JYJ To fans. Fans all cheering at their biases, if not, all three when they appeared on the screen.
Be my girl! Then was the vid about the making of The Beginning I think. And somewhere there was ken and the co-host (a kor model, also the translator for today), talking about their album and ken doing his usual stuff making us say "annyeong haseyo" "sarang haeyo jaejung yoochun junsu" and singing ayy girl.
JYJ were invited back on stage and seated on chairs for a talk. They had a change of clothes to more casual outfits. They they introduced themselves, junsu spoke in korean, jj: hi how are you?...I am jae jae!, yc: hey guys! My name is micky! Then ken (fail) said 'i'm minnie' -_- Yc just stoned at him lmao. Can't rmb everything already, cos everything's jumbled up. But junsu demoed a little of the hip shaking part of be my girl's dance while yc sang the part, talked about their ideal types (that ching alr told me before). Many little yet cute actions from the three of them. Whenever a question is asked, the three of them will stone and a few times fans and jyj just laughed cos it was really silent. Jaejung would then gesture junsu to speak haha. Junsu and yoochun did the most talking while jaejung looked lost most of the time, looking at yoochun desperately for translation. The kor translator was super nervous and yoochun even laughed at him for saying the wrong thing haha!
Heard jaejung laugh live too! His laughter is so cute! All of theirs are! At least they smiled a lot even though they must be really tired. Then we did the stuff ken asked us to do. They replied with 'annyeong haseyo' and yc was trying to guess the sequence of their names when we said the saranghaeyo thing and he got it right. Cos we were messy maybe =/. Ayy girl was super fail so at first yc said "what kind of song is that?" LOL! Ken asked them to sing along with us instead but when they started singing in acapella, most just shut up and listened to them. Their voices are so beautiful and needless to say, their harmony was just perfect! Yc then said he wanted to hear the fans sing so we tried again but still failed cos most duno lyrics even tho we know the tune haha...they (hugged their stomach and) laughed at us but junsu still encouragingly said it was good. (no choice ma cos ken asked him lol)
Chajatta next! Sadly there wasnt a fanchat but everyone sang 'saranghae nol saranghae' tgt! And the red ocean moved along with the boy's hand waves. Another vid of the boys' dream and hope. Ayyy girl next...another good choreo. Each of them spoke. Junsu saying he wants to see us again, jaejung saying it was fun here and yoochun spoke in eng again(he spoke in eng for the whole thing I think) they might come again next yr for a concert!
Lastly, it's Empty remix, which I think is sort of an encore. But because they just ended after the song, it was super abrupt T_T. Anyways, this was the highest peak of the showcase. Yoochun said 'everybody stand up!' Even though we were supposed to be seated throughout the whole showcase, everyone listened to him and stood up! Many fans ran to the front at the aisle too! Then JYJ shouted 'jump jump jump jump', so needless to say many jumped along with the song, it was sooooooo high! Yoochun shouted "Always Keep The Faith!" and the hall went crazy. When it ended, they went back down on the platform again.
Many fans shouted encore and JYJ, but it was the end cos the lights came back on =(. Super high, cant imagine how their concerts were like! Can't wait to see them again!
Gosh I hope I can continue with my mugging tmr...>.<. Though tempted to go airport to see them off, I doubt I can wake up so early. Hope they will be safe and sound, just like how they were when they first arrived in sg!♥ Always Keep The Faith ♥
Friday, October 15, 2010 . 9:51 PM
750th post! Today also marks the last day of school in Dunman High, forever. We are never going back for lessons again after the december holidays despite still having to study and do work during the holidays.Today's commencement is not really a dramatic and sad event. However, I indeed felt emo when we watched the ppt slides and videos of messages from various teachers. Sort of felt the impact of the 'last day' when us Year 6s sang the school song for the last time loud and clear. It's as if the whole cohort united as one for that split moment.
I am sure I will be seeing some of you guys after As and definitely keeping in contact with you! With advanced technology today, just how hard is it to keep in contact? There's the popular facebook and most widely used msn! With the increased in people using twitter, the chance of keeping in touch is even greater! Last but not least, people in the kpop fever, we definitely won't lose contact! =D
So all you need to do is just:
1) Come online
2) TALK!
3) If you want, you can join in the kpopping too! xD
It's simple and it'll work =D!
I am so glad I got people to write in my autograph book. The memories are sort of captured in there, and the messages left by all of you are really heartwarming! It'll be my company whenever I feel down! ♥
And of course, to those who haven't written, I'll still find a chance to get you all to write!
Had lots of fun with 6C41 today. Wearing party hats, cheering Mr Tan on, playing with patrick, photo spams, dedication of madonna song, flying our wishes with the silver mirror and coloured balloons! Gonna wait for the photos =)
I'll miss all the fun I've had in dhs and all the precious time spent with my dear friends. Made lots of friends along the six years. Some come and go, so I'm not very close with them, but just wanna say that all of you have entered my life and it's a fact that w/o all of you, my life in dhs won't be as complete as it is now! I really appreciate all my friends and little and big things you all have done to make my life in dhs such a wonderful one!
Most people will be mugging now, so most probably you wont chance upon reading this. However, there might be chance that you'll read this in future. Just wanna say, I love you all!
Don't really have any memories about mugging and getting good grades. In fact, as I looked through my report book, I was quite surprised that I actually did relatively well in junior high as compared to senior high. Just gonna keep moving forward, mug and do well for As! Yes, I just said I am mugging, so I am a mugger now!
Last but not least, thank you teachers, all of the teachers who have helped me in one way or another over the six years! But of course, I am very very very thankful to the senior high teachers who are patient, never giving up on me and try their utmost to help me. I am sincerely touched. I will do my best to reciprocate all that you have done for me!
That's all for now, cos I have a lot in my mind but I cannot put them into nice sentences. Actually I was kinda sian after the whole commencement. Guess it's cos of all the mixed feelings I am getting in a short period of time. I didn't really think about leaving school until it hit me when we sang the school song just now. Thinking about how I won't be having anymore lessons with my class, mugging and eating with my friends and just attending lectures. It really hit me. And I guess many are just too busy mugging to realise that, cos no one really cried today. It doesn't feel like an end either because we are too busy mugging or because we'll still be seeing each other?
However, I realised that during major examinations, people rarely talk or get to see each other, so it'll be just going to school, take As, go home, mug, sleep, and the cycle just repeats itself until the 23 nov where our econs paper ends. Don't think anyone is gonna mug for one week for bio mcq right?xD
Oh and I went to collect JYJ The Beginning just now with @chingyingcy! It's the singapore version, so packaging a bit lousy. Nevertheless, the lyrics booklet is nice! Despite smaller than the original korean version one, I'm still satisfied.
Also,
LESS THAN 24HOURS TO GO!!! ♥
After that, real mugging begins!
With that, I wish all Year6s ALL THE BEST! 加油! がんばって! 화이팅!
Wednesday, October 13, 2010 . 1:50 AM
To better allow us to study for A levels, the school has collapsed our timetable. Most of the days end at 12.45pm. However, there are so much to do, such that I feel as if school is still like normal. Seriously, I have been chionging the work I need to do, I haven't got the start to start any proper revision on my notes. I have really really bad memory (Yes I do take bio but bio is not just all about memory work you know.) and it doesn't help that I need some contextual knowledge (with in depth explanations) for some of the work to be completed. Suck totally.On the other hand, I am still going to school everyday because it's the last few days I'll ever spend in DHS and in a college...I will definitely miss DHS and the college style education system. Last three days of school from now (=/). It's quite sad to think of leaving your classmates, teachers and the school to go into mugging. When you return to school the next time (assuming you do not come back during the break to study), it will be the actual A levels! And by then, you would be so into mugging that you would hardly realise the people around you, much less talk to them casually.
Last week, I started collecting 'autographs' from good friends and classmates. Gonna read it only after I have finished my collection. I hope I don't cry when I read everything. It might be a hard goodbye but we'll eventually move on. Life is just like this. People have shown me that things don't last long in this world. Only families do, thus, please cherish your families and for those with siblings, enjoy their company. I bet you will miss all the squabling when you go overseas to study or something.
Ah I don't want this to be an emo post. But I am posting this when I am sleepy -_-. Shouldn't have. On a good note,
THREE MORE DAYS ♥
Wednesday, October 06, 2010 . 10:32 PM
10 more days to go!!!♥
Tuesday, September 28, 2010 . 10:11 PM
Last friday just went singing with jingqi, amy, tricia, bens, zhanjie and joanna and today went singing with ching, joanna, nicholas and bens again! Haha yes repeated people observed! Throat was dying just now when I spammed kpop songs...wonder was it cos of the blatantly strong tasting wasabe in the sushi or not >.<.Anyhow, now my throat is still dry and I am trying very hard to prevent myself from singing along my k songs on itunes~ I hope it recovers soon cos I might be going with da cousins on friday to sing k too haha!
Wanna go see gna tmr but dunno will bugis be super crowded or not. It's a weekday but its at night, so there might still be a large crowd...actually very likely, judging by the number of fanboys I've seen so far -_-. That time ching and I still saw this guy wearing snsd lanyard -_-. Too much! Hahaha hope people going for kpop night dun die...
Talking about kpop night, michelle is gonna try take videos for me hehe..I'm thinking I might seriously call her to listen during bigbang's performance anyway =x.
Okay these few days shall be kpopping...a break after prelims and will be back to mugging again soon...possibly after the horrible results are back.
Now that prelims are over, the next big thing will be the real thing and I really cannot just mug this little. I really have mugged more than I did for my past 17 years but I just think it's not enough. Nothing is enough, but I'll just have to try a little harder. I don't want to feel disappointed next year when I get back my results but I have no idea how can I do it. It will be a difficult period to go through, but I will survive it! All of us will!
Gambatte, jiayou, all the best, and hwaiting! ~
Saturday, September 25, 2010 . 12:06 AM
Having really mixed feelings about prelims being over soon. The feelings is really so confusing that I dont feel anything already. I just want to relax a bit. Cant do it for too long as I am afraid that once I take too long a break, the urgency to study will be gone again.Had lots of fun today again at teoheng today with joanna, jingqi, amy, tricia, bens and zhanjie! Chinese eng and I sang kor and jap songs heh! Teoheng not bad got lucifer, no other, colors, lie, tell me goodbye! =DDD Super happy.
Wanted to watch ehb but dotaed instead. Cant decide if I should go watch now or go sleep. Going erica/erina's house tmr=D. What a good weekend!
Wednesday, September 22, 2010 . 9:56 PM
Just want to say that this may not be a bad exams period haha! The stress hasn't exactly hit me and the time spent to relax is helping with all the cramming I have to do everyday T_T. Laughter kills boredom! Watching videos made me smile while doing math (although it didnt exactly help with the exam math paper) and made studying more tolerable I guess =/. I can study with my net on nowadays so when I focus I really focus haha. Occasion breaks didnt break the studying momentum. Just that I really have no mood to study at times -_-. The only reason I could continue was just cos the 'urgency' to study was still there. It's the exams afterall, and its the prelims -_-. Still, the results arent gonna come back good haha. Just hoping I wont do THAT badly >.<. Okay back to stats!Sunday, September 19, 2010 . 4:16 PM
Initially wanted to rant, but watching Dream Concert cheered me up already! Heh back to chem again! Was reading some blogs (brain was really saturated...needed a break badly) and realised how much fun those not taking As in less than two months' time are having. Comparing with my life now, my life is really really mundane! I want the freedom nowwwwwwwwww!Sadly, time is really short and I doubt I can even feel prepared when I go into the exam hall on the day of the real papers. Then again, how can one feel prepared when one is going to face papers they haven't seen, couldn't have tried and will never do again? Yes, you can prepare yourself for the papers but how sure and confident can you be? It's not like you know you'll definitely get this grade or that. And the higher your expectations are, the harder you fall when you fail to meet them.
Scared to take more steps into the future as time passes so quickly. I don't want As to come even though I really very much want it to be over. Terrible year of my life =(.
At least music is keeping me company everyday. I love you! ♥
Thursday, September 16, 2010 . 9:54 PM
100915 The thoughts of the lyricist of 'Itsudatte Kimi Ni'Up to that time, I only watched Tohohoshinki’s performance on TV. Of course I was aware of their popularity and wanted to work with them, but working with them is something unbelievable even to imagine. Since “Itsudatte Kimi ni” is the opening song for the live and it contains deep meaning, I thought that the first word of this song should share the same feelings with their fans. Although it is a love song that tells a story between two people, the song also sends an important message to drive away the worries of their fans who were upsetting due to the various rumors and reports. When JUNSU/JEJUNG/YUCHUN stepped on stage, the lighting shined on them and the venue was filled with their voices, I was touched by the cheering of their fans. By the way, many people asked me about a verse in the lyrics that says, “samishisa mo kotaetayo” (I also answered to your loneliness). The truth is that when they sang it the live, it was supposed to be “samishisa mo kotaetayo (different spelling)” (I also endured the loneliness). It was interesting that when the song was sung to the fans at Tokyo Dome, considering their facial expressions and circumstances, it is more appropriate to use “answered” than “endured” in regard to the “I” and the “you” and the “loneliness”. There are “loneliness” and “love” in this song, but as “love” grows, the “loneliness” also increases. What is the answer to this “loneliness” that we can’t escape? We can also interpret this situation as, when one’s heart is in a tremor (in this case, when one is in love), what kind of answer will come? It’s a little hard to express the song, and that’s why the meaning of it becomes even deeper. The words are alive. These are things that I did not expect when I wrote this song. You can say that the “you” in this song is the representative of all the fans out there.
By Matsui Goro, lyricist of “Itsudatte Kimi ni”
Felt quite worried and sad about JYJ I dont know why. I really hope everything will be fine and go smoothly for them. Hope for the best for the whole of DBSK too. Real talented, influential, good artists are hard to find!
いつだって君に
Saturday, September 11, 2010 . 3:06 PM
[CL] You're so cheap and this isn't like you
I can't get used to it now, It makes me dizzy, why
Who's breaking up with who
You're breaking up with me
Think it over before you say it, yeah
[Minzy] A guy that used to follow me around, a very decent guy
I let everything go for you alone
Who's breaking up with who
You're breaking up with me
Try living without me, yeah
[CL] Tonight of all times, why is it raining again
It makes me look so pitiful
[Minzy] Don't try to console me
Move this hand, we're strangers now
[Bom] Don't worry about me and go away
I'll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I'd hang onto you
It's disgusting, don't misunderstand
[Dara] I'll meet someone so much better
I'll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight
[CL] Just say what you gotta say
How can you be uncool to the very end?
Fiancé? Beyonce
I'm walkin' out of destiny
Not pitifully alone, but a glamorous solo
That's my way
I gave it my all, so I don't have regrets
Pretending like you're more sad
Pretending you're cool to the end
All you do is act a fool
You ain't shi.t without your crew
I don't have time, I gotta go
So long, good bye, adios
I don't want to see your ugly face again no more
[Minzy] Tonight of all times, why is it raining again
It makes me look so pitiful
[Dara] Don't try to console me
Move this hand, we're strangers now
[Bom] Don't worry about me and go away
I'll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I'd hang onto you
It's disgusting, don't misunderstand
[Minzy] I'll meet someone so much better
I'll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight
Go go away
Go away
Go away
Go away
[Bom] Don't worry about me and go away
I'll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I'd hang onto you
It's disgusting, don't misunderstand
I'll meet someone so much better
I'll make you regret it all
Sadness is only for now, boy
Cause love is over
Love, love is over tonight
Thursday, September 09, 2010 . 8:27 PM
Everytime, everyday
everybody now is a survivor
Looking for everywhere
In this case, don't give up
Standing up from here
searching for the light
Together we have a chance
to change, so let's try
oh baby let's try
With One Smile
you find a heart Shine on me
Two Smiles
that we can join, Shine on me
Shine like the world does
Smile, Smile
Survive, Survivor!
Even if you're going
on a u-turn, it's not so bad
remember something important
Being alone is too hard
We can unite our feelings / thoughts to begin
Oh baby we can
Somewhere there's One Dream
With the main aim to Still (going) on
Two Dreams for a Brand new world
and someone to love
Dream Dream
Let's hug
With One Love
Tomorrow can be So easy
Two Love(s)
that we can join to Be happy
believe in yourself
Love Love
Survive, Survivor
Everyone is a Survivor
Together we are Survivors
Smile and dream now
Everybody Everybody night
With One Smile
you find a heart Shine on me
Two Smiles
that we can join,
Shine like the world does
Smile, Smile
Lets hug
With One Love
Tomorrow can be So easy
Two Love(s)
that we can join to Be happy
believe in yourself
Love Love
Survive, Survivor
So let's all survive this period all the way until As are over! ♥
Tuesday, September 07, 2010 . 4:04 PM
I need to hope that my studying strategy works and that I'll be able to continue with what I am doing -_-.Energy dying out...more like willpower. Ah, I need to learn...too many things to learn...keep learning...till a few months more.
Monday, September 06, 2010 . 10:55 PM
I realised I can't leave this place and twitter at this crucial point of time. Mugging is making me go bonkers and I need places for ranting to keep me sane. At the same time, twitter also keeps me connected to my usual world, so that I wont feel like I am so isolated. Hmm, I can't live alone in the world even if I want to lol.I can have self-discipline when I want to too. And I can be productive when I am in the mood. Today's not very productive cos I didnt meet my aim of finishing kinetics. Which also means that I have more to do tomorrow!
But guess what? I didn't plan a schedule so I just do whatever I feel like doing the whole day. Haven't worked for today cos I was out. Tuition makes one tired too, you know. So I shall sleep early tonight and (hopefully) do more tomorrow.
I'll survive!
On a side note, finally gotten Hebe's album today at Bishan popular! Left two, how lucky=D. Her voice is damn awesome, but I need to learn to appreciate slow songs ._.! Out of all the songs, there's only one which I really liked when I first listened to it. Posted the youtube vid previously already. The rest are slow, lighthearted. So I guess for those who love such music will love this album haha.
Now I know why I have taken a liking for korean music =3
Oh and I think I still like group productions better when the members stick together haha!
♥SHE ♥Big Bang 你的呼吸 还有你的声音
你的呼吸 穿过身体 我来不及反应
你的声音 躲在耳里 让我生病
谢谢 你给的 让我沉迷 让我丢掉了姓名
在好奇的时候 拉不住眼睛
我想我不会爱你 这样下去
渺小的自尊 都快要抛弃
我想我不会爱你 只是也许
你的叹息 散落一地 让我歇斯底里
靠得太近 一不小心 弄伤自己
谢谢 你给的 让我沉迷 让我困住了自己
在迷路的时候 舍不得离去
我想我不会爱你 这样下去
渺小的自尊 都快要抛弃
我想我不会恨你 伤的痕迹
住在我心底 变成了秘密
我想我不会爱你 害怕失去
所以逞强的 远远看着你
我想我不会恨你 只是也许
Friday, September 03, 2010 . 11:36 PM
Takes a toll on me just to decide what to study, how much to study, when to study! Sucks to the max! Wonder how I am going to survive this ordeal. Three weeks is bad enough, let alone three whole months!GP compre was screwed so I am hoping essay wasnt too bad. Fourth most popular question haha! Now shall focus on the other four subjects left, spread over three weeks..jiayou all!
화이팅!♥
Wednesday, September 01, 2010 . 8:21 PM
Can't believe Bigbang is coming Singapore and I am gonna miss the chance to see and hear them live T_T! Made up my mind not to go for the kpop night even though I really want to see bigbang and shinee. Tickets are too expensive and each group will at most sing 3 to 4 songs only cos the whole thing is 2hours for 6 groups -.-. Just gonna keep telling myself I can save up and possibly go to their own concert in future >.<.I think I will be super distracted that day though T_T. Went for lunch + dessert with bens and simin at parkway...walked here and there, partly becos we were indecisive..I didnt really take part in deciding anw ^^ up to the man and woman who initially needed aircon to decide lol! Too long never go out when the 2 of them are there...almost unending singing lmao!
Okay let me talk about the good stuff first before I complain lol! So it was fun cos there was a lot of crapping..the app on ben's itouch was damn cute and the cat can sing well hahaha! Too bad only guys' voices will sound nice, cos it sort of changes the pitch higher, similar to the chipmunk type haha. Also, we ate at the snowice shop...that person was there but she wasnt ap, actly she only spoke when she wanted to inform us that 5cents are not alllowed due to company's policy...thats when I realised her voice and the way she speak is just not very pleasing..not her fault I think ._. But I guess @chingyingcy wont take this as an excuse haha!
Nice food = happy! Oh wait till I tell you about the pissifying part later=.=
Anyway by the time I reached home, I was sweaty already so I decided to go for a jog around my neighbourhood. Motivation came from all the food I ate lol! Plus I was wearing tshirt and fbts underneath my skirt so when I reached home i just took off my skirt, picked up my phone and earpiece and went out again haha!
Thus 100831 marks the first day of my life to ever go running on my own hahaha! Haven't figured a nice route, but I really hate the exhaust fumes coming from the cars on the road...But the only reason why I ran around my nbh is cos I can just go home cool down and bathe immediately after running haha...oh and it beats running round and round on a track..at least my rounds are a lot longer lol!
Initially wanted to run for 30minutes but I couldnt take it..stopped at 25. Havent had a proper run since 2.4 I think=.= if I can make this a habit, it'll be great. The hard part is getting the motivation to go down and start running lol. Anyway I realised I can run better when listening to music haha..shall put more songs into my phone next time~
Today was really hot and I think running in the sun made my temperature go up...was too hot for me to study. Tried putting a container of ice at my table to cool the place. I think it worked! Cos after sometime, it din feel so bad haha. Mum say maybe its possible to buy a 'cold wind' fan for me. Have no idea if the air it blows out is really cold or not, but my tenants're using it like an aircon so it might be good!
Oh yeah the sucky part of the day was at parkway swensons.
1. Queued outside for damn long. - there were empty tables but no one seemed to be clearing them. An aunty went to complain to a manager-like guy and we went in.
2. No menu given.
3. We(I) demanded for menus, clearing up of place and change of plain water (ones from the previous customers were still there, oh but we switched places to a more comfy seats)
4. Took damn long for them to take our orders - do you need two people at ONE cashier(comp)?
5. Food took damn long to come.
6. Took long to get bill too.
Yes I know we should really have a slowfood campaign, but all these are just nothing but a waste of consumers' time. You expect us to pay service charge when service is so bad? Like what ben said, we might as well do everything ourselves and perhaps if we wash our own dishes we can get the meal foc?
Not that I really cared about the precious time wasted nor want to make a large fuss out of a small matter, but this is (definitely) not the first I've encountered and its just so annoying that I have to pay service charge for such lousy services. Why isnt it a free market system???
Okay end of rants and all..I should probably go sleep! But I do enjoy blogging! Typing lets me feel that I have the power to control! Just kidding! Brain not really working already!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010 . 11:56 PM
Last teachers' day celebration! Not very good but at least (most of) the teachers who put in so much effort to teach and help us students are appreciated! Sometimes I think they deserve more rest, especially our dear Mr Tan!Really grateful to the teachers who guided me a lot, especially during my senior high years, and especially especially this critical year! Whenever I needed help and consulted them, they will do what they can to clear my confusions and things I don't understand. Another important thing that propelled me to continue working towards my goal is probably the unending encouragement some teachers give. Havent felt so grateful in a long time...little stuff teachers do and say really do make a huge difference!
Finally,
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY to all teachers! <3
Sunday, August 29, 2010 . 1:34 AM
Wanted to find a new blogskin but I still liked this one.Anyways I learnt something new while trying to edit this skin a little, add in the time haha.
Ohoh and I saw a skin with bigbang=D
But I thought I should keep my blogskin less fangirly =/
It is undeniable that I fangirl over korean groups.
However, I don't really like to be known as a fangirl.
Don't ask me why, but I just don't want such a name.
Perception once formed is hard to change.
Better to be safe than sorry =O
Kpop really takes mind off stuff, at least for a while.
Good medicine. For me, at least.
When people said time is the best medicine, I did not believe it.
Now thru experience, I think kpop is really the best medicine.
Well, you have to have some love for it to let it start acting on your wound anyway.
If you don't, then too bad for you.
Saturday, August 28, 2010 . 11:07 PM
Sometimes I just feel like getting away from where I am, go to the places I want to go and indulge in the all the kpop I want to. Company from friends is great but there are many times where loneliness still flow in and having to strike a balance between work and having fun is really horrible.While studying, the feeling of sleepiness automatically sets in like it's a natural occurrence. What makes it worse is now music no longer keeping me awake all the time. A difficult fight yet have to go through it no matter what.
Guilt doesn't come when slacking. It only does when I have finished with it. Anyway, by that time, I would most likely be too tired to even start on work lol. Life sucks.
I wonder if it is possible to find a decent job while ending my studies here. I dare not take the risk as chances are now almost everywhere focuses on getting degrees. In the past, if you have the chance to even receive education, you are fortunate and possibly able to get a job at almost 100% chance. Today, unless you are (relatively) highly educated, you can forget about getting proper or decent jobs. Students who are not good at studies have to at least go through ite already, so what are the chances of stopping now mmm?
Rubbish ranting cos I'm sianned. I feel like creating a locked space just for myself to rant so I can just type everything out. Not the time to do so now I guess. But it becomes pointless to create after A levels since most of the unhappiness comes from studying anyway. Or maybe not. Comes from the worries from expectations from myself, and peer pressure of some sort. Everyone's busy mugging while I am not.
I really hate muggers haha.
Maybe I shouldn't have gone to a relatively good school -_-. Simply lost interest in studying.
70days to go?
Good luck
