Background knowledge: I’m in Grad School getting my Masters in Education so I can teach 5-12th grade Communication & Language Arts
Today in class I had to present two chapters to a group of fellow classmate. I had to present two while every other student had to only present one, due to a combination of the amount of chapters being covered versus people and because the professor hates me.
I had colorful handouts, great examples, technology based aids, and enthusiasm coming out my nose. I knew my stuff and I was on mark. Because of all the chapters we were covering today, we were told to keep the lesson under 15 minutes. 10 minutes or so and power through. Then as I give my first chapter, the teacher says when I stop around 10 minutes that we were suppose to take 15 minutes and I finished too early. BOO. Second chapter finished too early too – around 10 minutes. I was going for UNDER 15 mins because she had emphasized the need to “power through”. Boooooooo.
Most of the feedback was good. Good aids, actions, blah blah blah, with the exception of a problem I have had forever: I talk too fast.
Every feedback form said this. Spoke too quickly, talked fast, micromachine man, sounded like an auctioneer of info, etc etc.
So then I’m down. Back to where I’ve been often this semester: I might be lousy at this, I may hate it, and I may be barking up the wrong tree with this teacher thing. I probably am. Continue? Care? Quit?
Then Rose, a classmate from Kenya, comes up to me and asks to speak with me. She talks about how organized I am and driven and enthusiastic and how much she loves my voice inflections and ability to communicate. She said she loves when I speak up in class and during my presentation today she wished she could speak like me. She asks where I am currently teaching (I am not) and what my area of study is.
My spirits rise a little and I’m feeling a little more focused on all the things I am capable of, even if it isn’t speaking at a pace that makes people think I’m not out to Paper Moon them.
Then Rose asks me if I’ll come over some weekend and talk to her daughter. Her daughter is in first grade and, according to Rose, doesn’t have any really confident outgoing organized people in life. She doesn’t have someone who speaks like I do (Rose has a thick African dilect) or who “bubbles” (I get called on my bubbliness often… when I’m not at home… carbonating.)
I don’t know if she’ll call or if I will in fact go and meet her kid. It might be neat. But even if it doesn’t happen, she totally made me feel good about me. With all my damn quirks and quips, apparently someone still thinks I’m good enough to influence their kid.