So... after much struggle (yeah, no thanks to procrastination), exams pretty much ended (with much relief). After exam, my friends and i went to the Scottish Highlands to enjoy the scenery.
At the mountain top Old Man of Storr
After that, it was time to move out from our halls and right now am currently living at my friend's place (yeah i know, complicated relationship -.-)
Currently, i am undergoing a one-month research placement at the London School of Pharmacy. Pretty much excited about it thought it has its highs and lows. I figured it would be a great way to get myself exposed to the weird weird world of academia. Together with my supervisor, Dr Wei, i am learning and working on X-ray Diffraction techniques on Napthalene Diimide stabilized G-Quadruplexes structures.
The other day i was in church early (surprisingly!). As i was sitting there and just observing around, i saw a bunch of kids running around the church chasing one another. They were obviously fearless and oblivious to what others would think about them. And more importantly, they were having fun ! Then i saw this boy. While he was chasing a girl half way (i think they were playing tag), he tripped fell down to the ground. Judging by the fact that he was running close to the speed of light, i guess he would get a pretty bad bruise. As i wait and prepare to cringe for the loud wailing sound of a kid crying...
Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I mean like, seriously, no crying, no 'ouch!', no 'boo hoo' stuff.. just..nothing.. He just sat on the ground for a while, grinned mischievously at the girl he was chasing before, picked himself up from the ground and started running again. And THAT got me thinking...
now where and when did we go wrong when we were growing up ?
Remember the times when we used to be indifferent of other people's opinions about how we act, how we dress, how we talk, how we walk ?
Remember the times when all we know is about having fun in life, even if it means falling down and hurting ourselves ?
Remember the times when we still know how to pick ourselves up from the ground, looked around for a while, then laughed at ourselves before continuing running around and just having fun ?
now where and when did we go wrong when we were growing up ?
As i grow older in life, i realized that i became more and more conscious of what people know about me. In the hassle of pleasing others, i lost my freedom. In the worries of people's opinions, i forgot how it feels and how it is to just go out there and chase after my own dreams. Instead of doing what i think is right, i always think about what would make people happy. Instead of having fun in life, i was frantically running in a rat race always trying to be the top. Instead of chasing after my own dreams, my own ideals, i give in to other people's 'it is impossible. it cannot be done' speech.
Thank God for showing me that now and i can now understand better what was described in Matthew 18:3 "And he said:" I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven."
“Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation.” ~ Oscar Wilde
Life is not meant to be deprived of freedom to achieve your dreams. No one has the right to judge others because no one will ever know what one's battles are in life. Everyone is unique in his and her own ways. Everyone is beautiful in God's eyes because we are His masterpiece.
We have a children in us, it's time to let it reign one again in our soul =)
