Sometime I just wish that I wasn't born into this world or even just leave this world. Absurd.
It really hard to continue living as the day past and the pressure that I'm facing right now is pushing me to the core. I'm trying my best to fight back but there is a limit. I'm close to reaching that limit and I'm trying very hard not to reach my limit because I don't want to know what will happen if one day, I hit my limit.
As I gets older each year, there are more and more things to worry or fret about. Things like studies, financially, or family matters. Each year, things are like piling up like a stack of papers that was left without being handle. My future is bleak. I really cannot imagine myself growing up and to become an adult. This year is the year where I turn into 21 years old and it doesn't feel good at all. With all these trouble coming one by one as day goes by and nothing seems to be able to help it go away.
I'm just 20 turning into 21 years old! GIVE ME A BREAK!
It's really pushing me down to my core. I need something more.