not a great track record, but i guess, at least i am moving towards to what i want in life.
so this time round, i bade farewell to henderson and started my journey at nie.
the past 10 months of contract teaching had been a learning experience, with many memorable moments and great relationships formed with both colleagues and students alike.
i learnt more than i taught and benefitted from the whole experience more than i expected i guess. for one, it strengthened my conviction and passion for teaching (though there were days that i felt like giving up).
thankfully for supportive colleagues who encouraged me and helped me through by answering my countless questions or reflecting alongside with me on what could have been done better. one good thing of contract teaching was that i got to know the senior teachers better, since there weren't really new teachers who started teaching the same time as i did. so i did not form a clique with the new teachers and deprived myself from tapping on the wealth of experience that the senior teachers could share with me:)
not forgetting, sweet students who appreciated my efforts and motivated me harder to improve myself as a teacher. i am already missing my adorable sec2s, depsite all the nonsense they say or teasing me for looking like a student!
so thankyou, henderson, for the opportunity to learn and grow:) i will carry on my journey to learn and enrich myself to become a better teacher.
since this week is just orientation at nie only, i am still feeling lethargic and passive.
it is so hard to start all over again, from a teacher to a student, and to get know new people and environment. god, i hate making small talks.
unfortunately, it is a necessary evil. it sucks that i take a long time to warm up to people.
well, i hope to meet nice people and i hope to make the best out of this journey:)
lessons will commence next week and i hope i can get settled into my student mode quickly!
Wednesday, January 01, 2014 12:17 AM
haven been here to blog in ages!
thought i would just reflect year 2013, haha.
2013 has been a pretty good year i think.
first half of the year perhaps filled with more angst with work but still, enjoyed the times working with quin. we have been great working partners and even better friends so thankful for her for by my side at the start of my journey as a working adult:) it has been a great learning experience despite everything else but i am glad that i have moved on.
second half of the year has been more fun and exciting since i went on a trip with si to australia in august (pretty exciting trip, i must say;P), tendered shortly after i returned from my trip and started at new workplace in september. life has been great ever since! hahahahha! not forgetting, the korea trip with my parents in december and 'volunteering' my time at cdka as well;)
i think this year, one of the greatest achievements, was to be able to drive myself around and be more confident in parking the car myself. and of course, this is also thanks to the burst of bravery to drive in australia, gold coast, despite not driving for two years prior to that! so good job done, lishi! ;)
i feel that this year i had more control of my life, making decisions based on what i wanted. i always feel very restrained by the expectations of my parents when deciding stuff, but, this year, i decided to do things in my own way. i guess, being financially independent, gave me autonomy too. haha, i like to earn my keep:D
year 2014 will be a year of challenge and a road that i have always wanted to explore since i was young; i will be a contract teacher at a secondary school. though i would really prefer teaching primary level, i dont have much choice so i am just gonna take my chances to embark on this learning journey. i am actually quite worried that i might not cope with the teaching, but i will try to learn quickly and pray for great kids! (i think they also praying for good teacher, so hopefully i will be one to them too!)
well, i hope 2014 will be a good year with new experiences, breaking through new challenges and hopefully finding the significant half too! cheers to be a better year and more great memories to be created:D
thankyou 2013 for being an awesome year. i am thankful for everyone who walked me through it and made it a memorable one for me:)
happy 2014!
always loved.
thought i would just reflect year 2013, haha.
2013 has been a pretty good year i think.
first half of the year perhaps filled with more angst with work but still, enjoyed the times working with quin. we have been great working partners and even better friends so thankful for her for by my side at the start of my journey as a working adult:) it has been a great learning experience despite everything else but i am glad that i have moved on.
second half of the year has been more fun and exciting since i went on a trip with si to australia in august (pretty exciting trip, i must say;P), tendered shortly after i returned from my trip and started at new workplace in september. life has been great ever since! hahahahha! not forgetting, the korea trip with my parents in december and 'volunteering' my time at cdka as well;)
i think this year, one of the greatest achievements, was to be able to drive myself around and be more confident in parking the car myself. and of course, this is also thanks to the burst of bravery to drive in australia, gold coast, despite not driving for two years prior to that! so good job done, lishi! ;)
i feel that this year i had more control of my life, making decisions based on what i wanted. i always feel very restrained by the expectations of my parents when deciding stuff, but, this year, i decided to do things in my own way. i guess, being financially independent, gave me autonomy too. haha, i like to earn my keep:D
year 2014 will be a year of challenge and a road that i have always wanted to explore since i was young; i will be a contract teacher at a secondary school. though i would really prefer teaching primary level, i dont have much choice so i am just gonna take my chances to embark on this learning journey. i am actually quite worried that i might not cope with the teaching, but i will try to learn quickly and pray for great kids! (i think they also praying for good teacher, so hopefully i will be one to them too!)
well, i hope 2014 will be a good year with new experiences, breaking through new challenges and hopefully finding the significant half too! cheers to be a better year and more great memories to be created:D
thankyou 2013 for being an awesome year. i am thankful for everyone who walked me through it and made it a memorable one for me:)
happy 2014!
Monday, January 21, 2013 12:32 AM
when disappointment sets in, trust ebbs away bit by bit.
trying very hard not to give up and ignore, but running away seems so easy.
只要不正视问题，它就会不见吗？
何をすればいい、本当にわからない。
私の希望は、あなたの健康だけ。
wish i knew how to help without over-hovering and how to understand better.
always loved.
trying very hard not to give up and ignore, but running away seems so easy.
只要不正视问题，它就会不见吗？
何をすればいい、本当にわからない。
私の希望は、あなたの健康だけ。
wish i knew how to help without over-hovering and how to understand better.
Tuesday, November 06, 2012 12:33 AM
i'm an official employee of nuss now!
haha, somehow, the 3 months of probation flew past and it felt as though i have worked there longer than it is.
i can't say how many times it has gone through my mind that i want to resign before my probation is up, but i shall and will persevere for a year before i really do tender.
working in an office, as an events executive, is really quite different from all the teaching that i have been doing before.
though 3 months is really short, i have already concluded that teaching is definitely a more satisfying job. haha, i think i came to that conclusion like 2 weeks into my job.
i can't say i hate what i am doing right now; it is just less rewarding and satisfying than i have expected it to be i guess.
and i realised i really hate working with adults. sometimes, the nonsense that you get from adults, you just can't forgive their ridiculous behavior because, to me, being an adult, you just have no more excuse of being not understanding the situation and behaving like a brat.
the adult world is just simply, scary. i don't know why everyone is trying to make it so hard for others, just be a little nicer and be professional a little and all of us will have an easier life at work. but no, some people just have to make life difficult for others.
and the worst type of people to face, are not children i tell you. the worst type of people to face, are those stupid, unreasonable people who are supposedly to be more civilized since they are more educated. but let me tell you, these people are most probably the most ill-mannered people i have encountered and there is simply no excuse for them to behave in this way.
i think i can go on and on of these horrible people i have encountered, but i shall not.
the happier things of work, would be the learning aspects i guess. and definitely, being able to work with friends and nice colleagues!
so yes, i will try to learn what i can out of this job, before moving on to another job. i think i will eventually settle in a teaching career, but, i will try other things now and make the most out of it!
keeping my fingers cross that work won't become monotonous soon and that there are learning to be done everyday! (oh, and no more mysteries for me to solve and having to play detective to clear stupid messes that i didn't come up with!)
let me survive the next 2 long days with night meetings!
always loved.
haha, somehow, the 3 months of probation flew past and it felt as though i have worked there longer than it is.
i can't say how many times it has gone through my mind that i want to resign before my probation is up, but i shall and will persevere for a year before i really do tender.
working in an office, as an events executive, is really quite different from all the teaching that i have been doing before.
though 3 months is really short, i have already concluded that teaching is definitely a more satisfying job. haha, i think i came to that conclusion like 2 weeks into my job.
i can't say i hate what i am doing right now; it is just less rewarding and satisfying than i have expected it to be i guess.
and i realised i really hate working with adults. sometimes, the nonsense that you get from adults, you just can't forgive their ridiculous behavior because, to me, being an adult, you just have no more excuse of being not understanding the situation and behaving like a brat.
the adult world is just simply, scary. i don't know why everyone is trying to make it so hard for others, just be a little nicer and be professional a little and all of us will have an easier life at work. but no, some people just have to make life difficult for others.
and the worst type of people to face, are not children i tell you. the worst type of people to face, are those stupid, unreasonable people who are supposedly to be more civilized since they are more educated. but let me tell you, these people are most probably the most ill-mannered people i have encountered and there is simply no excuse for them to behave in this way.
i think i can go on and on of these horrible people i have encountered, but i shall not.
the happier things of work, would be the learning aspects i guess. and definitely, being able to work with friends and nice colleagues!
so yes, i will try to learn what i can out of this job, before moving on to another job. i think i will eventually settle in a teaching career, but, i will try other things now and make the most out of it!
keeping my fingers cross that work won't become monotonous soon and that there are learning to be done everyday! (oh, and no more mysteries for me to solve and having to play detective to clear stupid messes that i didn't come up with!)
let me survive the next 2 long days with night meetings!
Monday, June 25, 2012 12:14 AM
sometimes i wished that i had stood firm in my decision to go poly and study early childhood.
maybe now, i won't be so troubled over what kind of jobs i want to get.
being a preschool teacher would most probably be the best career option for me, because i have never derived such satisfaction from a job and i will be able to fulfill my ambition from young to be a teacher.
but, it is sad to know that, becoming a preschool teacher will most probably not be an option for me right now, after the walk-in interview i went on saturday. asking the hr staff with tons of questions has definitely answered most of queries if i was to enter this industry.
i won't deny that the deciding the factor has been the salary. why preschool teachers' salary so low?! if i'm not a degree holder right now, yes, i might consider the salary they are offering. but, it doesn't make sense if i do take it now, when i should be earning more with this useless certificate i possess.
coupled with the fact it is not going to be a immediate employment, makes it worse. i don't want to wait so long to get employed and to study the course. so yes, i think i'm giving up my hopes in entering this field because pragmatism has overruled my passion.
now, i am seriously considering my options with applying for teaching in moe. since preschool teacher ain't going to work out, maybe becoming a primary school teacher is fine too? the salary is better too.
but, do i have enough passion to last me through the 4 years that i have to sign to moe?
decisions decisions decisions. should i or should i not?
maybe i should just call and ask for more information before i actually do apply for it.
moral of the story: stand firm in your decision and pursue what you want. i regret listening to my parents and allowing them to influence my decision of what route i should take. i won't deny that i had enjoyed studying sociology in my past 4 years, but i can't help but feel that it is a certificate that is useless right now. at least, it doesn't even help if i want to enter the preschool industry. rahhh. why didn't i just take early childhood then? regrets regrets regrets.
always loved.
maybe now, i won't be so troubled over what kind of jobs i want to get.
being a preschool teacher would most probably be the best career option for me, because i have never derived such satisfaction from a job and i will be able to fulfill my ambition from young to be a teacher.
but, it is sad to know that, becoming a preschool teacher will most probably not be an option for me right now, after the walk-in interview i went on saturday. asking the hr staff with tons of questions has definitely answered most of queries if i was to enter this industry.
i won't deny that the deciding the factor has been the salary. why preschool teachers' salary so low?! if i'm not a degree holder right now, yes, i might consider the salary they are offering. but, it doesn't make sense if i do take it now, when i should be earning more with this useless certificate i possess.
coupled with the fact it is not going to be a immediate employment, makes it worse. i don't want to wait so long to get employed and to study the course. so yes, i think i'm giving up my hopes in entering this field because pragmatism has overruled my passion.
now, i am seriously considering my options with applying for teaching in moe. since preschool teacher ain't going to work out, maybe becoming a primary school teacher is fine too? the salary is better too.
but, do i have enough passion to last me through the 4 years that i have to sign to moe?
decisions decisions decisions. should i or should i not?
maybe i should just call and ask for more information before i actually do apply for it.
moral of the story: stand firm in your decision and pursue what you want. i regret listening to my parents and allowing them to influence my decision of what route i should take. i won't deny that i had enjoyed studying sociology in my past 4 years, but i can't help but feel that it is a certificate that is useless right now. at least, it doesn't even help if i want to enter the preschool industry. rahhh. why didn't i just take early childhood then? regrets regrets regrets.
Monday, May 28, 2012 12:15 AM
when all the eggs in the same basket break.
always loved.
okay, maybe not all the eggs are broken, but this is a pretty apt scenario of what i am feeling now.
rejection sucks. going to be unemployed sucks. finding a job sucks.
rejection sucks. going to be unemployed sucks. finding a job sucks.
Monday, April 23, 2012 11:29 PM
i think blogging helps in making decision.
haha, i just told my principal that i wanted to stop working by mid-may today!
(though there were also things that contributed to this swift decision making. haha. like i told shirley, why am i doing this/being expected to do things which is not part of my job scope? give me your pay, i might consider. ahaha. so yes, my turn to say 'lao niang bu gan le!')
so yupp, i finally made the first step in breaking out of this comfort/content zone.
hopefully i will be properly employed by end june!
always loved.
haha, i just told my principal that i wanted to stop working by mid-may today!
(though there were also things that contributed to this swift decision making. haha. like i told shirley, why am i doing this/being expected to do things which is not part of my job scope? give me your pay, i might consider. ahaha. so yes, my turn to say 'lao niang bu gan le!')
so yupp, i finally made the first step in breaking out of this comfort/content zone.
hopefully i will be properly employed by end june!
1:19 AM
i really wanted to blog about the new zealand trip that i went with my family, but it will most probably take quite some time and i wanted to note this down before i forget! so new zealand trip shall wait till the next post! haha:p
yupp, coming back from new zealand has made me think about life and the choices i have. meeting up with km, jing and si has also made me realised some stuff too. some things i can say for sure are:
1. i would love to travel to see the mountains, the sea, the lakes, the vast lands, clear skies and beautiful scenery of other countries that is so much lacking in singapore. each time i travel out of singapore, it just makes me wanna get out of singapore more, to see the world, to enjoy the slower pace of life and indulge in this luxury that singapore can't offer.
2. contrary to most people, i think i like working life than studying life. yes, while i agree that life as a student is very much carefree, i treasure my weekday nights and weekends off from the tedious routine of studying 24/7. putting work aside and being able to indulge myself in surfing the internet, watching drama series or reading my novels leisurely is definitely the way to go to spend my weekends:) and working has been fun for me, for the past 5 months (almost), since i get to see the adorable kids and great colleagues everyday. though i will be very much more satisfied if my pay is higher than the current one since i'm doing more than what i'm expected of. (then again, si is right at how we always feel that we are underpaid regardless of what we do, haha.)
3. i'm enjoying my current lifestyle, with not too much responsibilities but still earning some to keep up with spendings and savings. the thing is, i shouldn't be content with it. and i should be job hunting more actively. but, it is very disheartening when i dun even get calls for interviews. aiya, the problem with applying for government jobs:(
4. and i'm pinning a lot of hope on this job i applied for, which i managed to get through to the 3rd round of application. interview is gonna be in mid-may, so i still gotta wait, and there is also the possibility that i won't pass the interview. but i would love to get the job, so that, for one, i will be officially employed on my first job and two, i can get out of singapore. too high the hopes, higher the disappointment, no? i guess, i just have to wait and see how it goes.
and the things i am unsure of....
1. if i failed in my application for the above job, what should i do next??? i know i should most probably stop working at the childcare centre and properly job hunt or at least get another job which actually accumulate work experience that is more useful to the actual jobs that i forsee myself working in!
2. BUT. sometimes, i just lose sight of what those jobs i forsee myself in. and i will start thinking, why not just stay on in this childcare centre and venture into this field since i enjoy working with kids so much? then the salary issue will strike me once again, will it sustain my spendings and savings?? and will the career prospects in this field satisfy me in the future? decisions decisions. my passion for kids is great, but my pragmatic side is winning in this fight currently.
well, at least, at the very least, i have yet another month to decide and sit on the fence since i am still waiting for the interview that is going to happen in mid-may. if the interview fails, the tough decision making between staying on or moving on to somewhere else will be a sucky process.
because there is no way of telling where these roads will lead you to, making a choice is difficult.
always loved.
yupp, coming back from new zealand has made me think about life and the choices i have. meeting up with km, jing and si has also made me realised some stuff too. some things i can say for sure are:
1. i would love to travel to see the mountains, the sea, the lakes, the vast lands, clear skies and beautiful scenery of other countries that is so much lacking in singapore. each time i travel out of singapore, it just makes me wanna get out of singapore more, to see the world, to enjoy the slower pace of life and indulge in this luxury that singapore can't offer.
2. contrary to most people, i think i like working life than studying life. yes, while i agree that life as a student is very much carefree, i treasure my weekday nights and weekends off from the tedious routine of studying 24/7. putting work aside and being able to indulge myself in surfing the internet, watching drama series or reading my novels leisurely is definitely the way to go to spend my weekends:) and working has been fun for me, for the past 5 months (almost), since i get to see the adorable kids and great colleagues everyday. though i will be very much more satisfied if my pay is higher than the current one since i'm doing more than what i'm expected of. (then again, si is right at how we always feel that we are underpaid regardless of what we do, haha.)
3. i'm enjoying my current lifestyle, with not too much responsibilities but still earning some to keep up with spendings and savings. the thing is, i shouldn't be content with it. and i should be job hunting more actively. but, it is very disheartening when i dun even get calls for interviews. aiya, the problem with applying for government jobs:(
4. and i'm pinning a lot of hope on this job i applied for, which i managed to get through to the 3rd round of application. interview is gonna be in mid-may, so i still gotta wait, and there is also the possibility that i won't pass the interview. but i would love to get the job, so that, for one, i will be officially employed on my first job and two, i can get out of singapore. too high the hopes, higher the disappointment, no? i guess, i just have to wait and see how it goes.
and the things i am unsure of....
1. if i failed in my application for the above job, what should i do next??? i know i should most probably stop working at the childcare centre and properly job hunt or at least get another job which actually accumulate work experience that is more useful to the actual jobs that i forsee myself working in!
2. BUT. sometimes, i just lose sight of what those jobs i forsee myself in. and i will start thinking, why not just stay on in this childcare centre and venture into this field since i enjoy working with kids so much? then the salary issue will strike me once again, will it sustain my spendings and savings?? and will the career prospects in this field satisfy me in the future? decisions decisions. my passion for kids is great, but my pragmatic side is winning in this fight currently.
well, at least, at the very least, i have yet another month to decide and sit on the fence since i am still waiting for the interview that is going to happen in mid-may. if the interview fails, the tough decision making between staying on or moving on to somewhere else will be a sucky process.
because there is no way of telling where these roads will lead you to, making a choice is difficult.
Monday, February 06, 2012 1:05 AM
i procrastinated long enough on my concluding post for 2011 and i figured i will do it now, on the last of chinese new year! (still new year rightttttt, hahaha!)
i was just reading for concluding post for 2010 before i got motivated to type it out for 2011 and all i can say is that 2011 didn't really happened the way i would wanted it to be, since 2010 had been a really good year for me.
2011 had been a year filled with more ups and downs and i think in between the downs, it really soured the 2011 for me. but i shall not dwell on that anymore, with a few private posts i have vented out before, i shall remind myself of the happier times in 2011 in this post.
let's see....
jan: coming back from the japan trip with the girls (lyd, steph and jing<3), the new semester starting in nus and celebrating meimei's bday with the fartty ladies:)
feb: cny<3, spending more time with the 'family' (esp. vday with them watching movie! haha!) and having steph as my new study buddy:)
mar, apr: mugging mugging mugging:( on the brighter note, i had jing and steph as study buddies:)
may, jun: hiroshima internship! :) 1 week at kagoshima with my host family! :D 1 week at tokyo with steph! :D
jul: back to spore and not working for the 1st time during the summer break! the good thing, i had baobei for company and jing too:)
aug: start of nus again. but last sem! woohoo! started the weekly lunch with shan and connie:)
sep: mugging mugging mugging with steph! start of our u-town days!
oct: sentosa spooktacular with ahwee! :), my bday:), deadlines:(
nov: mugging mugging mugging with steph! sometimes with shan! END OF NUS!!!!!!!!!! :D
dec: went back to carpe diem to work:) busy month of work but definitely worth it, with all the joy that the kids bring to me:) knowing that tham jiamin will be there when i need her:) thanks love<3 ohhhh, and being able to whatsapp with cathrin! :DD
yupp, it seems like a very simplified version of what happened in 2011, but to tell the truth, some memories become very fuzzy by now. haha.
i liked 2011 because it was a year which i spent the most time with steph, which i thoroughly enjoy since i can tell her random stupid stuff and talk about anything, help me with my work, laugh/mock at me when i say stupid things and endure the long hours of mugging with a schedule that suit both of us well:) yes, so steph, thanks for 2011:) i wouldn't have survive it without you<3
i liked 2011 also because it was a year i finally established a more stable friendship with friends from NUS with shan and connie after knowing them from the hiroshima internship trip:) and also meeting up with ppl from CF09 (mingyou, fabian, bek, kiamian and jiawen). though we hardly talk throughout the year, but during meet-ups, it is never awkward with them and they put up with all the nonsense that i come up with too. hahaha:D
yupp, 2011 hadn't been a bad year thinking back on all the things that have happened in totality:) it may not have ended on the best note for me, but i had the kids to brighten it up and karmun to talk to:) so thankyou karmun, for being there when i needed you to be and i am glad we are sorta resuming back to meeting once a week now (though we haven met for this week yet!! hahaha!). and of coz, i am waiting impatiently in anticipation for the impulsive decision we made to realize in actuality:) hahaha!
i think in 2011 i had taken some things for granted, wishing for some things to remain the same and wishing for some other things to be something else. but i realised now, all these things can only happen in the way i hope it can turn out to be if i set my heart at doing it. so i will try my best to make sure they happen in the way i want it to be in 2012:)
but first, i need to figure out what i want. i am coming close to a decision of what i want to accomplish this year; i only wish i have the determination to see it through. but for now, i am still gonna give myself some more time to think and consider my options.
yupp, i hope 2012 would be a year of surprises for me (good ones i hope, i had enough of the bad shocks from 2011)!
okay, i shall slp now, since i gotta work tml! looking forward to spending to yet another busy day. hopefully less crying and more laughter from the toddlers tml! but if it doesn't happens, it's okay. i know i always have my french boy to cheer me up:)
because some things can never be the same as before.
always loved.
i was just reading for concluding post for 2010 before i got motivated to type it out for 2011 and all i can say is that 2011 didn't really happened the way i would wanted it to be, since 2010 had been a really good year for me.
2011 had been a year filled with more ups and downs and i think in between the downs, it really soured the 2011 for me. but i shall not dwell on that anymore, with a few private posts i have vented out before, i shall remind myself of the happier times in 2011 in this post.
let's see....
jan: coming back from the japan trip with the girls (lyd, steph and jing<3), the new semester starting in nus and celebrating meimei's bday with the fartty ladies:)
feb: cny<3, spending more time with the 'family' (esp. vday with them watching movie! haha!) and having steph as my new study buddy:)
mar, apr: mugging mugging mugging:( on the brighter note, i had jing and steph as study buddies:)
may, jun: hiroshima internship! :) 1 week at kagoshima with my host family! :D 1 week at tokyo with steph! :D
jul: back to spore and not working for the 1st time during the summer break! the good thing, i had baobei for company and jing too:)
aug: start of nus again. but last sem! woohoo! started the weekly lunch with shan and connie:)
sep: mugging mugging mugging with steph! start of our u-town days!
oct: sentosa spooktacular with ahwee! :), my bday:), deadlines:(
nov: mugging mugging mugging with steph! sometimes with shan! END OF NUS!!!!!!!!!! :D
dec: went back to carpe diem to work:) busy month of work but definitely worth it, with all the joy that the kids bring to me:) knowing that tham jiamin will be there when i need her:) thanks love<3 ohhhh, and being able to whatsapp with cathrin! :DD
yupp, it seems like a very simplified version of what happened in 2011, but to tell the truth, some memories become very fuzzy by now. haha.
i liked 2011 because it was a year which i spent the most time with steph, which i thoroughly enjoy since i can tell her random stupid stuff and talk about anything, help me with my work, laugh/mock at me when i say stupid things and endure the long hours of mugging with a schedule that suit both of us well:) yes, so steph, thanks for 2011:) i wouldn't have survive it without you<3
i liked 2011 also because it was a year i finally established a more stable friendship with friends from NUS with shan and connie after knowing them from the hiroshima internship trip:) and also meeting up with ppl from CF09 (mingyou, fabian, bek, kiamian and jiawen). though we hardly talk throughout the year, but during meet-ups, it is never awkward with them and they put up with all the nonsense that i come up with too. hahaha:D
yupp, 2011 hadn't been a bad year thinking back on all the things that have happened in totality:) it may not have ended on the best note for me, but i had the kids to brighten it up and karmun to talk to:) so thankyou karmun, for being there when i needed you to be and i am glad we are sorta resuming back to meeting once a week now (though we haven met for this week yet!! hahaha!). and of coz, i am waiting impatiently in anticipation for the impulsive decision we made to realize in actuality:) hahaha!
i think in 2011 i had taken some things for granted, wishing for some things to remain the same and wishing for some other things to be something else. but i realised now, all these things can only happen in the way i hope it can turn out to be if i set my heart at doing it. so i will try my best to make sure they happen in the way i want it to be in 2012:)
but first, i need to figure out what i want. i am coming close to a decision of what i want to accomplish this year; i only wish i have the determination to see it through. but for now, i am still gonna give myself some more time to think and consider my options.
yupp, i hope 2012 would be a year of surprises for me (good ones i hope, i had enough of the bad shocks from 2011)!
okay, i shall slp now, since i gotta work tml! looking forward to spending to yet another busy day. hopefully less crying and more laughter from the toddlers tml! but if it doesn't happens, it's okay. i know i always have my french boy to cheer me up:)
because some things can never be the same as before.
Monday, November 21, 2011 3:50 PM
i still remember telling steph like how it is almost impossible to get a C+ for a termpaper.
i have just accomplished the impossible task.
what.the.fuck.
i'm really freaking upset with it.
considering how much effort i put in to do this paper, the one that i put my heart into doing it and expecting a good grade out of it, the fall from high grounds is really too much disappointment for me to take.
damn. a C+. for all those efforts and time spent.
what.the.fuck.
it is even worse than the time when i finished one paper in a night and i got a B/B-.
this is damn shitty.
what am i gonna do for exams if termpaper already so shitty?
not the best way to end my last semester and the start of my exams.
f.u.c.k.
always loved.
i have just accomplished the impossible task.
what.the.fuck.
i'm really freaking upset with it.
considering how much effort i put in to do this paper, the one that i put my heart into doing it and expecting a good grade out of it, the fall from high grounds is really too much disappointment for me to take.
damn. a C+. for all those efforts and time spent.
what.the.fuck.
it is even worse than the time when i finished one paper in a night and i got a B/B-.
this is damn shitty.
what am i gonna do for exams if termpaper already so shitty?
not the best way to end my last semester and the start of my exams.
f.u.c.k.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011 10:49 PM
我爱过我的生日，因为我知道有很多人疼我<3
always loved.
