All my sorrows

Sorry. But do u realised that we have not been talking to each other over the phone for quite sometime alrdy.

Do u know when was the last time we had a conversation over the phone?
I dunno but i feel that i m more and more drifted apart from u...
I dun want to step into another long distance relationship...
I think the feeling sucks big time seriously.

Sometimes I feel that is this the right way to feel?
All are just words and I really can't feel anything at all.
I hope i can tell u this but I doubt u know how it feels.
I dunno how to react to ur messages... this is not what I want.
I want someone to love me and not just by words...
I dun feel anything at all.

I am not gonna think so much and just continue with life, I doubt our relationship can maintain once u graduate and the chance of u returning back to taiwan and never come back... I have a bad feeling... the bad feeling that I will return back to square one...

would u wanna place a bet with me?
I am restless and tired...
I really don know what to do...

Depressed* I just need a drink real badly.
Please make my last week of december fulfilling.
I want to get drunk and not think about all these...

6 years

Wow! this blog has not been touched 2 years back(:

reading a few previous post, I realised how much i tried to change myself for the past 6 years...
from the date: 220805, that was carved on the ring.
6 years has been rather fast...

within the 6 years till this date, I'm confident to say no one has actually step close enough into my heart like you did. No one... maybe because you've set the highest benchmark in my life.

Regardless of now or future, staying single is still the best choice.

*even if she reads this one day, i want her to know how great she is and how much she caused me to fall for her... that no one can ever take awaythe number one girl title in my <3.

Emotions taking over

So many years I have been single... even though on and off relationships which doesn't last for more than a few months. I still do come back to the same page at the end of the day. I realised that people do say the first girl is the one that sets the benchmark of your expectation as a girlfriend. To be honest, till today... no one seems to be able to replace the position of you in that heart. None has manage to reach the level before. I realised for that period I miss how I were years back... how you brought me up as your boyfriend and how u change me for the better.

All these years I tried to forget you, but somehow I still return back to a point whereby I will remember how you cheered me up... what you do best and no one can. It's not how your appearance look but its how you reflect yourself to me face to face which keeps me loving you all the while. I really want to find you... remembering when I look at you, the way you smiled when I look at u... the way when I looked into your eyes, gives my heart an adrenaline rush.

I hope if there's a 2nd time, I would really wouldn't mind having a cup of coffee or meal with u and catch up with things that was left unexplained years ago. Till then...

*you'remysuperwoman.

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Maybe one day...
Maybe i find back someone like you...
Maybe someday...
Maybe i can be back who i use to be 2 years ago...

for 2 years... i guess i still cannot let go...

i may sound like its forgotten... but what is the truth?
the truth lies underneath i guess...

why do i keep all of you when u cleared them off your mind...
why do i still think of you when i know i shouldn't be...
why am i so stubborn...

i guess i can't get back that type of feeling i had 2 years ago...
i can't get back how the way you dote on me...
becoz u never fail to cheer me up...
and you never fail to make me happy...

afterall, i'll have to delete this post away...

~bottle it up, pour it away, everything will replenish again...~

stop and stare!

"You have to take the good with the bad,
and smile with the sad,
love what you've got
and remember what you had.

Always forgive, but never forget,
learn from your mistakes, but never regret.
People changed, things go wrong, but just remember life goes on."

today had first training. its tough to get back in shape recently. and i manage to find myself a few new friends. totally awesome though they're quiet.

recalling of myself in the past and comparing with the 2 types of personality. before and after. its not easy to be who i am now. its not easy to actually leave everything behind and walk forward. i guess its the things that got myself involved in, causing less thought in thinking about it.

try to appreciate.

~ easy to get, hard to handle~

i have strict moral codes.

for so long. since the last time i touched on blog. i think i'll keep this site. and perhaps continue blogging back slowly but not so often. perhaps once in a while. i changed blog actually, for those who are interested to know my actual site, maybe i'll let you know.

i had fun working as always. and studies hasn't been easy. i'm very glad that i manage to push my result up to 3.2 last semester. i'm very happy with the outcome becoz i knew i work hard for it and i dun want to loosen up. its nice knowing more and more people. and its going to be very busy lately because of my fyp. i hope people out there will appreciate the time they have now(: and cherish all that you have(:

Japan trip was awesome. met someone special i guess. she's not really that bad though, perhaps its not the cover that i was looking for. but the inner part which melts my heart. i hope we can manage to get through our days before i fly back to find you soon. its not too difficult actually but the period whereby we both can really talk is very uncomfortable. but i can always remember how enjoyable i was over at japan. i can't bear to leave and i just wish wish wish wish wish to go over there and stay for the rest of my life.

camp has been fun. alot of juniors. good to know all of u. enjoy school as much as you can before you get bored of it soon.

Nice blog skin? i found it awesome in a way whereby it is browsing horizontally.

posting some pictures soon.

and here my life rows...

loosing the tension, where we meet the arrival of holidays!

Krraaaaa! year 2 is finally over...

browsing around the pages in the net, where i found out alot alot alot of things that has happened for the past few months!

oh well! i finally found out:
- new couples formed;

- new friends found;

- new technology found;

- new dream found;

- new place found;

- new life FOUND!

everyday of my life has been devoted into the codings and the study of ethnic and law, how nice to find myself to relax more the next semester as i can work on my FYP only... haha... hoooooo!

alot of things happened, and alot of unexpected situations to occur during these few months, i have noted down and i'm currently working on it... to try to make it up for certain people in my life, my friends... thank you all...

i may not be the most successful guy in the world, but i live with no regrets;

i was wrong at times and yes, i've realised yet till now... and i know its too late to really compensate for my actions... but, i just hope that people around me can understand me more... and well, i'll be leaving singapore soon... so very soon i'll be back again and flying off again... i hope everyone will be fine and living well;

farewell people;

End of Blog, End of Post, Closing Soon...

i'm happy for you; although i may not be the perfect guy that you thought i was; but i'm sure you'll find your mr. perfect in no time; may you always stay happy forever love;

new year!

hello. a quick one...

it been a long time that i settle down to study and finish my assignments for so long?! well, provided that i have cancel alot of meeting with people that i miss and etc... having in mind, i have 3 of programming assignments to be done and 3 presentation to rehearse and 1 super super long buisness report to finish and alot of meetup with my classmates, zhenjie & russell & matthew. first time in history that my course, where my lecturer told us that this year this semester, they're pushing on us... bombing as much assignments in the shortest time and expecting us whether we can manage our time wisely and making us to focus in everything we do... it was said that if we can finish everything in the given time and the assignments are all well done... our results can be much more to be expected(: i'm praying hard to achieve wad i want...

happy new year everyone! and have a great year ahead!

pathetic*
- i spend my last day of 2007 and first day of 2008 doing my assignments... hoo! so pathetic isn't so?! lol...

destiny.

i'm broken here... upon looking at the things that i made for you... i realise alot... alot which made me look at myself so much without knowing whether to laugh or cry... childish was the word u used to describe our relationship. i prefer it in another way... sweet... i have never blame you for anything... i just blame myself for making a silly decision...

it wasn't easy to settle down for a moment today... but still i have to(: after one thing is settled, another arises... many people were disappointed recently about the things i've been doing lately... it wasn't easy... explanations were done again and again... but to no avail still... i hope the people around me who got disappointed, can be made up by me one day... sorry and thank you...

you're my destiny...

you're my everything...

crabshack 3 on 3 competition

today woke up early to get myself prepared for competition at shenton way.

its crabshack 3 on 3...
i took part in 2 events....

- 3 on 3
- 3 point shootout

and i happen to lose one and win one respectively(: winning the title for 3 point shooter wasn't easy. because the people shooting were as good... haha... anyway, i'm happy to win that title(:

so after the game, i had to rush down to meet my brother min(: happen to reach late for 2 hours:S luckily yvonne manage to company him all the while... heh:P and i'm so sorry to reach late:( haha... so we had dinner at pepper lunch and went to buy prezzie for cheryl:P haha... then went around to look for her present... and i've got someone else's present:P belated present:) heh:) becoz i rarely can come down to orchard to shop these days:S so manage to get it since i can find it also... LOL... and well, i hope she likes it:) heh(: i just think she looks good in it(: thats all(: heh(((: anyway, we finish shopping at around 11 plus, we sat down to have ice cream along orchard:P then talk awhile and shoot a few:P hee(:

So left home after that... on my way home, was thinking alot... i dun know why did you suddenly sms me in such a manner but i think i was too tired to be angry and i know i shouldn't be feeling angry as well...

i wonder since you said its none of your business to know wads happening... why in the first place do you say all that? since you said you are not concern about it... then why start it with her? are you trying to tell me stuff? well, i ain't getting it... anyway, i'm quite upset with the way she tells me off by tearing it away and returning the part i contributed... actually, i'm more of disappointed... if it didn't mean much, i wouldn't have ask you to return me... and i would have ask you to throw it away... anyway, i hope my explanation is clear... and i hope this is the last time i'm explaining nicely to you... becoz i dun know whether will i be able to explain nicely the next time when we both start off a conversation... and thanks for reminding... my actions will be noted... and i know wad i'm doing... thanks for your advice...

*nothing hurts more than that...

ineedabreak...

jo sung mo = only you

as times flies...

when it is broken, the whole world is cast in the crushing gloom of despair. and when one door closes, another opens... but we often look so long and regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us... the reason i started off with such a post becoz i'm feeling down and it hasn't been easy after all... i realise once i start blogging is when something bad happens...

as i was browsing through my stuff again... haha... how silly am i to go back to that page whereby i see you... and me... and the smiles... and i start to question myself... when was the last time i had such a smile... and when was the last time i really laid down to rest... when was the last time i saw you...

sometimes its just hard to look at the places... memories... i never happen to fall sick when you always know what drinks i should take... and that drink is my favourite hot tea... now i need it so much but i can't have it... nobody knows what i need the most...

having chest internal injury, going for xray this coming week... i think was the elbow that i can't sustain it... and my throat is soring so badly... plus that running nose is giving me a headache and i hate flu:( why is all these happening to me... and i know i haven't been taking care of myself... what to do... sometimes its just hard to find time to get myself comforted...

alright... guess its very late... and very long since i've blogged... and yups... cheers everyone... sorry for those who didn't manage to reach me... and well, sorry for those who can't catch up with me these days... i know i haven't been calling u guys out... but soon alright... sorry...

to toufu; you're someone nice and special... thanks for the care... and yes... you're appreciated... thanks...

unbelievable.

everything goes well...

every morning...

every noon...
but not every night...

they are all faults.

people always say they don't like to find faults with,

but initially, they did it without realising it themselves.

what can you benefit from it?

does it feels better for you to act it out?

i certainly no longer have hard feelings.

i'm immune.

i have lots to say.

lots to share.

much for you to hear.

who can i sought to... you?

happi, unhappi

live is simple, live your life well...
you'll meet up unhappy things in life...
like i do... but i choose to be happy instead of being unhappy about it...

firstly its my family... its quite disconcerning about it... but i shall not mention it further... i'm quite alright with my life... and well, i have relatives and friends who love me better than my family does(:

secondly, my poor n80 phone is finally dead... so decided to make a change about it... and i've got myself SAMSUNG s700 ultraslim 12.1... haha... i think its quite complicated for me... as i;ve been using nokia all the time... but i shall get use to it soon...

thirdly, happy birthday to a particular person and well, glad and hope that she'll live up happily(: may your dreams be fufilled... tada.

and finally, i've finished my MST, and returning to school... so may the lord bless me with sincerity and concentration in my coming studies which includes assignments, projects, etc... its gonna be busy from now on....

i've got a list of things to do... so i shall name it here first... dun get it wrong... i'm not listing accordingly... so ya...

- meeting up with shrimpy sisters and vivien in school for lunch
- meeting up melissa chanchan
- training
- sign up basketball competition at takashimayah and crabshack.
- help sarah with her request

and yeap... that is it...

yesterday was great(: had work and had fun, and went over to the clinic to drink with a and j... so here are some pictures... and goodnite... i know its super late now... haha... take care...








precious days of my life... moving on... haha...

what's happening?

can you give me that shoulder to lean on?

"i want to be your tree...
to shelter you from the rain,
or protect you from harm... "

maybe its time... its better to stay like this... this way...

thanks.

withlove;

this is for today;

L - is for the way you Look at me...
O - is for the Only one i see...
V - is Very very extraordinary
E - is Even more than anyone that you adore.

<3,
what more can i take now? haha...

wad can be felt more than this?

i'm back yo...

here we are... back to the place i created few years back(((: and yups(: i'm sure you guys prefer viewing here than wordpress... so yeap(: moving back and well, i've manage to recreate my blog skin(: hope its nice(: hahaha... with my photos on it should makes it nicer(((: hahaha... ok... MST is next week... gogogo!!! study hard!

i'm going off to work now:P hahaha... later at night then get back to study again(((: heh(((: alright;) if you're passer by(: its great to have you back;) haha...

ending?

hie everyone...
this week has been really busy for me...
i have no choice but use the school's computer to post my entry... LOL. its so inconvenient but well, my laptop is having problem with IExplorer... so i have to stop blogging for now already... however, i have a new place for my blog, its just started not long ago though...

i promise things won't be longwinded and anything extra... hahaha... and i'm trying to find a way to insert tagboard into the new wordpress.com blog... and yupps(: u can see the latest post there... hahaha... well, i miss quite alot of you... and yupps(: thanks lilian;) u've made my day becoz i nearly laugh my ass out when i heard i'm born in the same year as her* 1989.... LOL. its funny and hilarious... make sure she doesn't makes the same mistake ever again? hahaha...

and ya... now i'm actually sitting in the middle of a class of secondary school students... of coz i'm not one of them but i'm their student leader... bring them from places to places around SP... argh... troublesome... its just becoz of CCA points wahahaha... alright... i hope this lesson gonna end soon... and yups... i just watch EVAN ALMIGHTY! it's amazing! u should watch it too;) Bourne Ultimam wadever it is... LOL... its nice also... and yups... dun ever watch hairspray.... you're just wasting your money.... hahaha... well, during the holidays i really do nothing but watch and watch videos... there's one more which i really would reccomand... its HANA KIMI JAPAN! you guys should really go for it;) watch it at crunchyroll.com

its worth watching... i'm sure by the end of the show, u'll find the taiwan version sucks... LOL...

alright... take care everyone;)

make it last...

hellos.
its quite boring to study and study all the time... so that day, i was browing through youtube.
and i turn out typing whitley secondary into the box to search for any video about our whitley school... so i happen to see this video from the year before us who has someone done a video for the class.... hahaha... i think its beverly... but its alright anyway(: hahaha... so i decided to do one for my class as well... it will be quite pathetic if someone in your poly say, do you have class video in your secondary school? hahaha... and well, its better to have one rather than not having one... dun u think so? (; so i've put in all my effort in doing so... its not easy alright! hahaha... and well, dun ask me when i take this video... i only remember last time i had to take this video is becoz i wanted to do a video for the class... and i know... its long and till now i finally have done it... so please be proud of it alright guys? hahaha... and i miss everyone of u so much(((: especially those who are real close to me... i may not show out how much i miss you guys... but i really miss you all alot! including jun rong... without u guys = no fun in life:( and there's a lot of misunderstanding... and i hope it will all end soon... and i can't wait to meet you guys up and have fun this coming chalet!!! cheers!



yupps(: heres the little video... enjoy;)
its hardwork alright!!
hahaha....

and yups(: exam is gonna be over... lets pull it through together alright?

what are hunks?

today i was brosing some site in my email... i found out the guys in SP, refer themselves as HUNK... i find it disturbing becoz i can't find any quality of "hunk" on them... LOL. i feel so irritated by their body figures :X i mean how can such quality be hunks?! Where did the hunks go? i so disappointed and more of being agitated by the photos...

http://oopsmagazine.myphotoalbum.com/view_album.php?set_albumName=album05

look into them... i only see one who can still fit up with the category of a hunk... but he's a little fat though... LOL. anyway, please... if you want to take part in a hunk competition, please let your friends judge on you first, and let hear their comment then considering of joining... if not, dun even think about it...

this really determines me to work alittle more for my figure as well:P looking at their photos, i really telling myself that i wouldn't want to be like them... anyway, i still love my body(((: hahaha... they simply rocks! LOL. still improving i guess;) alright... just dropping by to be some critic... take care. and have a great day;) exams gogogo!!

china bits and pieces

china (beijing) was none other than i expect. LOL. still quite rural in some areas. but i'm fine with it(:

went there for some urgent trip for a few days before my NDP marathon. thats why i didn't inform much of u guys:S and i even sms some friends of mine as they didn't even know i was overseas:S and i think one message is 30-40cents:S please dun kill me:S

and silly me forget to bring one very important thing along:S MY CAMERA! argh. i even had an urge to buy a camera over there to use... LOL. so desparate to take photos... and i know wad sarah will gonna say when she hears me: "total cam-whore." i know. thanks! hahaha... well, at least it turns out better after the trip to beijing, my life have been loosen up and not as tight as before. haha.. but i'm trembling now becoz i have upcoming exams which i haven even start preparing:S but i have a feeling to put in my best for it;) as lilian has encouraged me so well;) hahaha.. thanks lilian;) yupps(: she's one of the sweeties;) anyway, not a lot of pictures really nicely taken. so please do appreciate them.(:

basement pool-ing area in the hotel

sleepy breakfast for me

anyway, if u happen to pass by a poster which looks like this;

then you should probably know how shag it would be to play for it... haha(: well, it was totally crazy taking part in this competition as there isn't any sleep involved and i nearly break down in the middle of the competition... its crucial at the last match becoz if we didn't win, we'll be very unhappy with ourselves... but still we won! LOL.. thats why we end up taking photos with our happy smiles;) haha. Team Name: ULU
Team Members: Dehui, Xiangbing, me, Jason, Julius
It has been my honour playing with u guys and its my pleasure sharing the tears and joy throughout. and most of all, i didn't felt lonely was becoz we had poker cards to play with and my long lost friend(: catherine from zhenhua csc(((: hahaha... so sad that we didn't manage to take photos together:( i was quite shock to see her there to play as well(: as the last time i saw her was sec 4 or 5? and you're in your mayflower team(: lol. anyway, you perform well that day;) and we're in the same jersey number 9! hooo! lol. alright((((: well, this competition as wad i can say is that, the players are not easy to deal with... for all i can say is, the opponents are really good... becoz its really 50 : 50 percentage to win a game:S and i feel happy to be in the game becoz there isn't any losers like the people i can think of... like people who i can't stand and people who thinks he's good and insult people like nobody's business... i think if they play they would have spoilt my mood and insult themselves... haha... but too bad... i think those losers aren't fit enough to sign up for the competition. haha... i sound so evil:S hahaha... but its true when u see the people i mean...and u feel insulted playing basketball with them.

and lastly, yesterday night was terrible when i was on my way to training and i receive your message, i almost spoil my mood for my training... terrible things happened out of no where and i know i wouldn't be able to run away again this time... it took me alot to pluck that courage out and type out a mail to u this morning... i feel like giving you a can't-be-bothered attitude, but i can't. you know the reason why. and wad keeps me thinking alot still was something else. for all that i can say is that it'll be painful. painful painful painful.. and dun worry i'll be alright after awhile.

gdnite everyone. sleep tight.

heartaching.

these few days haven't been easy for me... i have to cover up 2 people's ass work and clean up rubbish work...

DSAL - 3 people in a team, i did all to cover their ass.SDT - 4 people in a team, all did their work, but come to diagrams, all rubbish, where i have to redo the whole thing by staying up the whole night till the next morning.NMA - i tot i can really trust him to do a simple report. and in the end, during the interview, he don't even know what he did. and ended up being screwed.DEUI - i myself need to cover my own ass.
after all these, there's still exams coming. i really feel like falling apart... seriously...
and i know its not right for me to say this... but i really miss being loved, being doted, being kissed... i really miss the feeling... everynow and then, when i leave school alone... i'll always end up going home alone... and that sucks... i can only tell russell, "everydaythis time, i'll pick her up after school... and she fills my day..."

melissa ; says:

but seriously. is it worth it

if i can sleep and wake up and forget everything... that would have save me from the day when the love ends... ha! i feel like a freak now... i dun know wad are you feeling now... but i hope you dun feel like wad i'm feeling now... becoz this sucks!! i still dun know why i'm grabbing over it... this sucks!!! the aching is killing me deadly!!

*no one can take the place of my NUMBER 1 BOY.3 Nov 2006

and i was childish and immature afterall.

leaving note

"i wouldn't feel anything if i wants to leave... i can even leave now, anytime... even now... becoz i know i can find someone else better than u."

today i came across a couple at the bus stop. and i heard that. that was wad i came across before.. this girl turn around and went up the bus without telling the boyfriend. and the poor chap walk off the bus stop alone.. i can feel how painful he is... how embarrassing can that be... but i can see that he still love his girl... HA. well, hope the girl would bear in mind of wad she did... anyway, ya... browsing photos as for now and looking at some memories... i found out the happiest part of my life is when i'm with her. with the wonderful smiles and lovely faces... i find that i hardly and rarely have them on my face now... its no longer the same anymore. how i hope i can still get back the kind of smile.. haha... dream on.. i know(: anyway, assignments have been loaded these days... shall get some update in future.. anyway, i'll be leaving sg again soon. so if anyone contact me, and i didn't answer, that means i'm not in sg... alright. tc everyone. see ya.

reviewing

these days... i've been reading and reading the same old thing over and over again...
i hurt you, and you hurt me back right now... i know how bad it felt when we have to part... and i feel the hurt back to me now... if it wasn't something, by now we would have been loving each other like some lovely couples. yet i chose something else. i knew i'll regret doing that move... yes i am... and wad i've seen through and through since the day you wrote that paragraphs of words from your heart... if you're planning to make me feel like breaking apart.. you've succeeded.. i dun know why are you doing this to me... but i'm not gonna stop you doing all these... becoz i know this is wad i should be getting from you...

i see big misunderstandings from wad you've mentioned.. but i know its better to cover them up just like that... why do i need to make it clear to you. who am i to you now. i'm nobody. so you can't be bothered anyway. and now i finally know how bad i've treated you all along. and i promise i won't show such treatment anymore. i found out i wasted all my effort doing childish things all along.. just remember; i have never blame you for anything. and i'll never. becoz i know that you're still the best after all.


remember;you'llneverbeforgotten.

mylife.

hellos. this week have been a chaos(: assignments, presentations, etc...
i have been out for so long, its time to blog and i find myself sitting down blogging before i'm leaving...

in the next few hours time, i'll be leaving to malacca... finally... to somewhere i've never been before ever since young, where others have already been there for loads of times:S and i know thats sounds mean ironically. but i really mean that i'm like a tortise in a well alright... haha... and i dun know why is a sudden that i'll be going over... but for fun i guess... and my assignments are being put aside and waiting for me to come back from the trip, then i'll start doing again:S and i find it sucks becoz i still got alot to finish! argh... flash sucks! i hate it! argh...

anyway, i'm happy about one thing(: my Film appreciation got DIST! HOOO!!! its becoz of the presentation i guess(: and its done by ME alright... hahaha... well, not just me lahz(: heh(: the members provide their text then i add in pictures and design the whole thing... by inserting videos as professional presentation need to include audio visual so that audience will be fascinated by it... so in the end, i led my team group(seowhui, liyan, xueting, russell and julius) to victory!!! hahaha... well they were shouting when they got the results... LOL... and i pray hard that the DIST remains there when i get my result slip... becoz there's still one more written test to do... and in the end adding both marks up... so anxious about it!!!(:

then, for the 3 tests i took last month, I PASSED ALL!!! poor russell failed all:( well i hope he'll buck up... then baby j. failed 2... i was stun when i heard they failed:( but well, i did badly as well... as far as i can see... i still need to improve:( my thinking isn't logical enough:( i need to be more Object Oriented:X argghhhh!!!

joining the 24hours streetz basketball marathon this coming 8th Aug! playing from 5pm till the next day, 9th of Aug, 5pm... i'm afraid that i might black out due to my sickness:( but i'll try to bring my medicine along(: then get enough sleep for the time being... haha... so excited! and those who want to catch us... can take a tour pass suntec tower 5 level 1... outdoor spaces... where i'll be there;) hahaha... and i'm gonna release myself from then... becoz i have to torn through the night... HOOOO!!! lol. and at the end of the day, 9th of Aug, i think i'll be a dead fish... LOL... alright...

later leaving house at 5am... then going for a 6 hours ride... hahaha... then reach the place... hmmm... i hope i can take it... i'm very afraid to black out:S just now on my way home, i nearly black out while walking to the bus stop... luckily russell was with me:S thanks russell(: and yea... thats it... i need to go and goodnite(((:


i hate thinking about this but yes... this really sucks when this thing struck through your head.. yesh... i find myself really stupid for replying some message... i shouldn't have done so... argh:S

busy days.

these days haven been blogging... as usual... lots of things happened... and some are linked...

.:: Sentosa trip ::.

went to siloso with j,r,z,m. haha. lazy to type out... but yea... it wasn't was i expected... but we still had fun(((: hahaha... well, we played volleyball and it hurts the crap out of me trying to save the ball:( but its alright(: hahaha... then soak myself in the water and playing flying saucer thingy... LOL...

seems to like some meeting we're having.
siloso.
oh. well, i finally made up to you(: haha.
me and baby j.

when the day i broke your heart, it was the day i broke double times of mine...

anyway, just get some rest everyone...

kuanfeng's birthday

.:: My brother (Kuan Feng) Birthday Celebration ::.

- late submission of photos and details.

that day was almost chaos to me... becoz it was both celebration for my 2nd sis and kuan feng's birthday... so i have to run to 2 sides... so then i settle down with my sister's birthday first and dine with them at Plaza Sing's crystal jade palace for dinner... then after that big sis got an ice cream cake and headed back to 2nd sister's home... i was quite anxious by then becoz i have to rush to kuanfeng's side to celebrate as well... so i didn't really want to say out to break the atmosphere... then i went over to 2nd sister's house to blow the cake... after the cake been blown and i just have to go... just hoping dad would drive me there... then mum became furious about me going out at such time... and earlier time, i did tell her i have 2 celebrations to go... and she didn't manage her time wisely and instead scold me for going out late... its like wth! well, after that dad's the best and he said let me go... and mum didn't really agree with him... so in the end, dad send me to the place((((: thanks dad((((: you're the best and nice(: mum is never the understanding one... always think i go out late is always i'll get into trouble or wad... she's just so of a tortise in a well... never be able to think wisely... well, think about it... going out late doesn't mean i'll turn bad rite? i'm a guy please! and why would i wanna get myself involve in a fight when i know i shouldn't... simplyinsanity*

then manage to meet them at boat quey to chill out.. i forgot wads the name of the pub but yea... its nice becoz its smoke-free.. LOL... wouldn't wanna get myself being soak by smoke... LOL. so played pool and chat and drank alittle... poor kuan feng got a little drunk and his face was totally RED! lol.

The best group ever!

pool man pool!

my gurls(; i simply miss you all;)
haha.. i really dun know wad she's doing. LOL.

cheryl bestie!

oh man... looking at the pictures i miss them so much... can't wait for the chalet which is openning soon during the hols... i need fun... and you guys simply just rocks! LOL. take care every brothers and sistas! we gonna shake the whole chalet soon;) hahaha... toodles!

SP OPEN HOUSE

SP OPEN HOUSE - 05 JULY THURSDAY
1pm to 6pm

i started off my duty for the day after my interview for my assignment. its the deadline today... tats why... well, after that rush down to the place to set up the laptops and the games for students to try out... haha... and i turn out to be like one of them... LOL... its a bat game as you can see below... if you reached the highest score 150 pts, you'll win a motorola HP, haha... but this only applies to secondary school students... but not SP students... haha... too bad...

playing while nobody's around...
SEE MY HIGHSCORE! lol. 160 :X

today didn't manage to take much photo:( coz baby wasn't in a mood to... all he wants is ice cream ice cream... and he's just bored by the atmosphere... hahaha... but no worries(: i manage to cheer him up with my company;) LOL. for the sake of CCA points... thats why we ended in this event... LOL. its fun also lahz(: manage to know a few nice people(;

indonesia and Philippines sucks!

yesh yesh! i know! i'm suppose to stop bloggin you see:S
nowadays have been real busy... its all the projects and assignments and tests pulling off my legs... after the trip to europe, i really find that i should stay there the next time... i can't take the urban city of singapore, the people are so schemeing... so terrible... the eyes of unpoliteness and selfishness... and i hate weekend the most in singapore... becoz the middle ages females from indonesia and Philippines working in singapore, are all around singapore... they shouldn't be at the place they shouldn't be... look like some cheapos standing around the place in orchard... making the whole street looks so cheap and so unpleasent... if i am the government, i wouldn't accept over excess of foreign workers into singapore... especially those middle age females from indonesia and Philippines... i'm not trying to be mean or wad... but if you're a foreigner... please respect the place and you dun own the place... who do you think you are?

in europe, every sunday they dun work... its a day where they meet out at the friend's house to relax and have chats... having dinner at the friend's house and after that going back home and rest for the next day's work... somemore, at least singaporeans knows how to smile even when the opposite side doesn't... and europeans manage to smile back... likewise to the bimbos(i refer them as).. they just piss me off!! feel like slapping them off back to their country... go back to your country and LEARN how to respect people...

i was studying at wishma's starbucks a few days ago with my team, from noon till it closes... so we decided to have some food for dinner as we're really starving... so we find everywhere's closed... so no choice, we end up in macs... so we went to some macs to have our dinner... we reached the place, i sat down at the cushion seat, then the another table just beside us is a group of the middle age indonesian or Philippines gurls, becoz i heard some language they're saying... so i waited for my friends to get food then is my turn to go get mine... and when its my turn to go out buy my meal, i just press on the cushion seat which links to their seats.. the cushion seat will have some kinda impact rite? then they *TSK* and stare at me! and they said, "gombulok"... i'm not that dumb to know wad you're scolding alright! piss me off straightaway... after when i get my food and come back to sit down, i slam my food on the table and keep staring at them when i eat... then after that they left... looks like some frightened chickens leaving... think you're some queen owning the macs...

this tells me why i dun like to have a maid... ha!

then i find another thing that our future generations are really in deep shit...
that day, russell told me about his cousin... and he shake his head...
his cousin is very young... primary 3 only... and the teacher asked her, how do you pack your bag? she replied, my maid pack for me lohs... well, firstly, that sounds so WRONG! and future generations gonna end up more lazier... how can that actually happen:S *sigh*

alot of things happen these days... and so much i've came across and they just upsets me... i start to think if i was use to be like that:( sigh... alright... all these just kept me bothered and disturbed all the while... and i finally manage to share some... haha...

experiences from europe.

harlow pals?(:

how are you all? doing well, doing fine?

my apology for leaving this place for a long time:S



its been quite long that i ever blog:S am i? lol.

weeks before i was in europe. so called touring(: haha...

then came back after 11 days of the trip...

didn't manage to upload all the photos here

was becoz there're altogether 480 pictures taken:S

so sorry guys:S can't share with u all...

but i can share some with you in my friendster(;



for a long time that i discover alot after a trip to europe.

i discover things that i didn't came across in the beginning of my life.

and i find that my life can be a happy one if i really cherish it.

for all that i care was always freedom. fun. leisure.

being a playful one.

but thinking of how life would be if there isn't any discipline?

chaos*

isn't that so?



for all that i've learnt, for all that i've came across...

its not so simple to just flick your fingers and you fly all the way to europe.

its not realistic to just say you own the effiel tower in paris..

its not wad it seems to be when u just think that you're born to have all these.

i start to think over my words and i would like to say thanks to where i am..

it is not so easy to get things when u just say or see wad you want and you just get it..

that is only i would regard as over-pampered.



i've seen quite a sum who are being over-pampered..

and all these time, alot of things have been going over and over my mind..



do you know how tempted i was to find someone to love and hug?

i felt loss of love. a sudden urge whereby i need to find someone to hug:(

or being hug-ged.

how sad can that be when you're sitting on the plane

looking out the window at the warm and touching sunset above the clouds...



the feeling of wanting a hug from someone you love.

can you imagine how it would be?

just the scene itself made me hook onto it for hours and

solve the problem of boredom on the plane for 20 hours.



i manage to finally let go much of it...

i've came across daryl's experience during the europe trip.

it was saddening. trust me.

a guy like him whom i admires(:

sometimes its not just whether you wanna deny your family's objection.

its about the trouble you had in your mind.

and in the nick of time, you just want to stop everything and give up.

he gave up his relationship not because his family objections but is becoz unhappiness of his family.

he said: "its not worth it to have a girlfriend right now, at this age."

and moreover, he finds that wad he has now is more important to him.

that is his life.

and that goes the same for me.



i dun want to think that its a pity giving up somethings i already have given up.

i only have to cherish wads in front of me...



alright.

that shall be it...



2nd sis's birthday is coming and that goes for kuan feng's too!

i've not miss any yet(: haha... this saturday i shall celebrate with them(; i'm so excited(:

bought 2nd sis a hat looks like birthday cake(: hahaha... funny and cute to suit her(((: haha



and sunday, toa payoh west csc against whampoa csc.. argh... its gonna be a tough match:S it will be ocurring at toa payoh west community centre... if anyone is interested, you're invited to go and watch;) last week was at whampoa community centre... and the audience were so MUCH! lol.. well, lets see whose winning this coming sunday;) haha...



and tml gonna be a tiring day becoz there's 2 basketball training i have to attend... goodnite ming. goodnite everyone.

this 2 cute siblings, william and vanessa. i love them so much! so adorable(:
and snowman!!!

flyingaway.

days have passed... been doing quite alot of stuff all these times... nowadays, RC seems to be apart of our timetable... wad we do in RC is to play bowling and pool... and each and everyday drinking the same old bubble tea at clementi beside the macdonald... and getting home after that to study... the same old thing happen repeatingly...

after the 2 weeks of vacation, coming back for test... 3 test... i'm so nervous!!!

-DSAL (Data Structures & Algorithms)
-SDT (Systems Development Techniques)
-NMA (Network Management & Administration)

STRESS~!!!

and i wanna fight for it... promise to fight for wad i want and wad i can get... this is then who i wanna be... i maybe missing someone dearly... and she doesn't know... but i hope she knows... nobody knows who she is... alright(: and heard michelle said MIT club, this girl, she's having a crush on me... argh:S thats good to have a crush... but dun think its right to be on me... ya? well, sorry for being mean... but i really wanna know more about you and we can be best of the best friend ever in MIT then! haha... alright;)

bought a new slipper(; so nice! haha.. baby choose for me(: so sweet rite;) i like the color:) haha

RAINBOW! can you see?!
i see rainbow!

take care everyone!

leaving here for quite sometime***
flyingaway..

w.photo

Here are some of my 2nd sis's wedding photos(: i took some photos only... and anyway, dun you find that me and my family, i dun look like them? LOL... and they're so enormous! LOL. and i'm slim! hahaha...

i like this photo(:

being a MC wasn't easy:S but i still manage to make it;) haha.. relatives were commenting that they were surprise when they saw me as the MC... dad told me is because its been long that they last saw me... so they thought i'm still the boy boy i use to be(: but its alright lahz(: haha..

dad told me i look very fierce! LOL.

Ready to Yum Seng, my throat almost sore during this session. haha.

YUUUUUM SENG!!! my lovely and funny cousin...

small dedications to everyone...
any help sir? lol i look like one senior waiter... LOL. no lahz... just trying to chit chat with cousin and was snapped unknowingly... haha.
this is the family i always look forward in... my dad's side... they're just so loving to me(:

As you can see... i hope my marriage would be far more better than this :S and looking at this... i feel that i've put in quite alot of effort to this event... photo montage, songs playing for cast walking, etc... well, i hope when its my turn, i won't have to do it by myself... haha... anyway, yups(: i'm very satisfied with the montage... everyone was talking about it all nite... and i felt bad:S as if i steal the limelight of male actor for that nite:S hahaha.. sorry:(

alright... today, school spotcheck! hair check was conducted and i didn't get caught! the reason was they catch long hair only... but not dyed hair...wahaha... phew... it was scarry when the lecturer walk pass me... cold sweat:S haha... but well, poor baby julius got caught:( then have to go for hair cut:( but i dun think he's gonna cut:S hahaha... and had presentation today again... the lecturer was picking on me:( but i had no choice and accept his comments... hais... tired.... just wanna rest... tml still got class dinning... gogogo!!! study hard for test!!! gogogo!!!

before i go... i add on with some photos of my new class(: haha... taken fresh today! LOL.

Sarcastic* dun know why they want this kinda post also... lol.i think this lecturer is the best... good patience and kind.
i dun know wad i was doing... and this was taken in a sudden... no time to react. LOL.
Introducing my group members to the class and blahblahblah... the lecturer pick on us:(

haha... and thats my life till today. take care again everyone! and yups(: i'm gonna miss jun rong:( going NS soon:( sigh... miss him so so so much! hope can go out with him before he goes NS.(: alright(: everyonezZ!

toodles*
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