The aftermath of hiking - walking like a zombie. lol.

As usual, it's the muscle pain in my upper thighs when I squat, kneel, walk up and down the stairs, walk down slopes and sit on the toilet bowl or chairs or floor. Every movement that needs to bend my knees and stretch my thigh muscle. I had been ouching for 2 days already. But I actually find it funny. Coz I behave like an orang cacat. No pun intended. And the way I walking down the stairs looks like a zombie trying to walk without bending my knees. lol.

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How can I be so ignorant with my own name? I just realized I had been telling everyone the wrong pronunciation for my name for the pass 20+ years even though I actually know how to pronounce.

Was driving yesterday and got nothing to do when waiting for the traffic lights. So I pronounced my name in cantonese several times. Coz my English name was created straight from my cantonese pronunciation. And I just realized that all the while I had been allowing my friends to call me by Ying Hei. And I also didn't empasize on the correct pronunciation when I introduce myself.

The correct one should be Yeng Hei actually. Yeng is more like a 'yieng' yeng than a 'yank' yeng. I myself can't even pronounce my name well. So I dun think I will be able to tell my friends to start calling me yieng hei since they are already used to ying hei.

Hmm.. Never mind la. Same one la. lol. Coz actually it was the "hei" which attracted my attention, not the "ying" or "yieng" or "yank". I think I recognize Heay as my name more than Yink. Poor Yink. lol... I'm such a weirdo. Where got people compare their own names and even worse go and pity the name themselves one.

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Here's a petition I received from New.

Zainab Bangura, Sierra Leone's foreign minister, is pleading for actions to be taken to save the Africans who will be facing starvation due to the increase in price of food crops: -

Petition to G8, UN and EU leaders:
We call on you to take immediate action to address the world food crisis by mobilizing emergency funding to prevent starvation, removing perverse incentives to turn food into biofuels and managing financial speculation, and to tackle the underlying causes by ending harmful trade policies and investing massively in sustainable agricultural productivity in developing nations.

Ha-ha (this is my cynical laugh). And we still looking for ways to make biodiesel from crops. I'm always anti-biofuel for your information coz crops can be better used as food source. I just don't understand why people don't invest more on making fuel from domestic waste or sewage.

Please sign the petition here to save lives.

Gunung Dato' - First entry

Went to Gunung Dato' as planned yesterday.

Reached the base of Dato' at around 9am as planned. And reached the top of the hill about noon as planned also. And came down the hill a bit earlier than what we planned. I think we were almost like running down the hill at the top part coz it was not very steep and when it got steeper at the bottom part we slowed down a bit. But still it took less than what we expected.

Some might wonder (including my mum)... What's so fun about climbing mountains and make your body ache all over the next day?



There are actually few reasons why I like hiking:

1. The view at the hill top. I like it when all the hard work we endured we get something magnificent at the top (even nicer if plus a bit of wind blowing)


We had them both yesterday. The view and the wind. Although a bit hazy yesterday, so the view not so clear. But the wind was so soothing until our butts were stuck to the rocks and we din wanna come down. lol. For quite a while, nobody made a sound. There's only the sound of some unknown insects and the birds chirping. Everyone was engrossed by the view.


2. The sweat. lol. I know it's damn weird la. But sweating all out makes me feels good. I know other exercises also can sweat but hehe.. remember the first reason? The view? Imagine sweating and panting and wobble knees in exchange with the magnificent view. It's just incomparable with other sports.


And omg I'm so fat. My face is sooo chubby. My goodness.


Yumin's sweat was dramatically visible lol. See:




3. The companion. Hiking alone will be very boring. Having a bunch of climbing kaki is heaven!




And there are times when we stop and look around.

5. Having a bunch of crazy climbing kaki is even better. lol. My climbing kaki are really entertaining. Wont feel so tired when climbing. lol. This is the most important of all. But if got a bit noise it will be even better. =P miss IW times. Too bad nobody was fit enough to sing when going up Dato'. lol. Everyone was physically unfit. kekeke..

Crazy climbing kaki. Especially when it comes to posing...

Yumin's seducing pose on the rock. hehe.


Elaine said "I'm not going to seduce the rock. I just wanna touch it =P"


Keen's ghost face. lol. He was very exhausted already one. Still can make face when I shoot him. Geng.




Some tree-hugging poses:


Keen fell in love with the tree...


Adam the king of monkey. The one who always comes up with weird poses. This facial expression damn geli.



Monkey pose. Nah.. actually it's supposed to be yoga pose.


Adam imitating how girls nowadays pose for pictures.


Caught in between the rocks. Help!! lol... Soh poh..

Got a lot even more funny pictures we took when we were taking rests on the way up. We took quite a lot stops actually. haha. All of us spend like about 30 minutes posing on a rock. lol. Will post up next time. Dun have them with me now. Not in my camera.


And the ultimate reason of all is that hiking is like living a life.

Don't you think so? You will be able to enjoy the magnificent view at the top if you dun give up and walk all the way up. You can adjust the speed, either run or walk or crawl, take stops or go straight on without stopping, if you are determined enough you will get to the top. We would take stops and then when we have enough rest we would continue marching on. And when we need rest again, we take some rest and at the same time enjoy everything around us. The companionship, the trees, the rock and soils, the insects, the roots. And if you had good time during the process, when you reach the top, you will miss every bit of the moments you had before you reach the top. But the moments can only be kept in photos for nostalgic purposes. I can't imagine what memories can be left to me if one day I climb a hill without enjoying the process but only merely thinking about reaching the top?

Can understand the meaning behind this?

Hehe. I had been thinking about this while I was climbing yesterday. =)

This might not be a new idea but I'm so glad at least I thought of some links between hiking and life. hehe..

Update

Recently I dunno how to put words into my blog. lol. Recent life is a like combination of pieces of patches here and there which I have no idea how to link them together.

Here are some of the pieces from quite some while ago to recently:

1. Looking for ______ coz I will be _______ soon. lol. Can't say yet. Coz it's still considered a secret which might doom me against the law. (lol.. sound so serious) But feel like typing it down. Then what's the point of writing it down? Soh poh. lol. But I think some of my friends already know la. hehe.

Started to work on something for Heng. hehe. It's a secret also. Planning to give him when he comes back on Aug =) Nope. It's definitely not a scarf. My sewing skills is very bad, what's more knitting skills. lol

I had sent the application form to be a staff in IW which is coming up in mid June. This is not a secret. hehe. But my mum not yet know. I dunno whether she will kill me after she reads this. I wanna try being a staff and see how different it feels to be a staff rather than being an attendance. And I wanna seek my ability to contribute in organizing something and making something run smoothly.

I was planning on a climb this Sunday. This time, we are going to climb Gunung Datuk. Why do I choose this hill? The view is magnificent at the top!

Watch this clip I found on youtube then you'll know what I mean by magnificent =)


The confirmed attendances are me (of course), Adam (the experienced. kaka.. Yumin says Adam can take care of our safety. lol), Keen, Yumin (the one who knows the trail), Elaine (hope she dun FFK me again =P), Choo Peng, New, New's roommie. Get Pei can't go. Too bad. Next time we go again la, aim another hill. hehe.

Trained myself at the swimming pool in my apartment. Went with Get Pei for two continuous days. I'm so awed by my own stamina. lol. Coz actually I was really tired and had sore thighs and arms on the second day, but on Get Pei's request I went again. And the 3rd day, which is today. I feel like swimming again. Hmm.. I think I'm addicted. Cannot swim today already la. I'm going to restore some energy for the climb.

Oh ya. I dunno was it because I tried the 100 m after I had swam few hundreds meter, when Get Pei timed for me, I only finished 100 m in 150 s. Last time I finished in 120+ seconds when Hao Wei timed for me one le. sob sob. Then I tried again on second day. I finished 100 m in 142 s, only 8 seconds improvement =( But I think I got the freestyle right this time already. I feel myself feeling better after a 300 m freestyle swim, unlike last time, 200 m also cannot make it with freestyle.

Starting to get real-time PCR results for my job already. Yeay! But the data are still yet to be analyzed though. And not very consistent. lol. Can't wait to get a decent trend in my results. =)

Am starting to watch New Heart the korean drama. It's about hospital and heart surgery one. Then one scene damn true lo. The doctor's handphone rang. It was in one of the pocket of his lab coat. Coz his lab coat was crumbled it's very hard to find the pocket one. I also always cannot find pen in my pocket. =P Like for example if the pen is in my left pocket I always got the right pocket first. lol.

The most recent of all is, I can't wait to see Heng tonight (hopefully). It's been quite a while since I saw him. Just a few days. But, it feels like very long time for me already. lol..

I hope I can help people out of depression

I had never felt so satisfied before! I feel the satisfaction when I gave my best to motivate people around me. I hope I really manage to pull depressed people out from the dark pit.

After walking out from the depression that haunted me for 3 weeks, almost a month, the same depression that had cost me litres of tears, I find the strength to stand strong and head up against all the uncertainties I had feared all these while.

I still have the fear sometimes now. But knowing that the fear can't gain me any good, I force myself to get rid of the negative thinking (especially the thinking that "I can't do this" and "I can't do that") and try to inject as much positive message to myself as possible.

After escaping from the depression, I feel thankful to those kind people around me who gave me advices that straightened my mind. Without those reminders, I might had killed myself intentionally or unintentionally. I was that depressed. Several times I didn't want to live in this world though I still have the love from family and boyfriend. No worries, I'm ok now. I won't want to kill myself again.

This is why I want to thank these people over and over again. They saved my life indirectly.

Before I had this depression I didn't understand those people who committed suicide. I always think they are stupid and stubborn and just don't see how bright the life can be. But, I finally understand what they are going though after being in their shoes for almost a month. Because I've gone through this. When I was in the dark, I just can't find brightness no matter how hard I tried. So, I dug deeper to the dark side. I think this is what most depressed people facing.

If it's not for the help I seek from my friends, I am still digging my own grave now. So I found that what depressed people really need is people around them, close friends, mentors, lover or parents, whoever you feel comfortable to talk to, confront them and talk to them, tell them how have you been feeling and why. Don't feel embarrassed. It's about your life that you are dealing with. Sane people won't laugh at your attempt to save yourself from depression. Who don't experienced depression? Everyone does. For those who condemned you for being a cry baby over a small problem, they just don't understand how a depressed people feel. Because depressed people tend to think all the bad things don't want to let go of them, no matter how small the thing might be.

Ok. Come back to the advices you get from someone close to you. From these people around, you some might give you advice, some might not. Listen to those that can give you the strength to stand up against the difficulties.

Then, it's your turn to set it straight. Whatever problem you are facing, belief that you can solve it and that you can solve it beautifully. Tell yourself over and over again that you can do it, you can go through it. Then, imagine how will you be like after you've solve the problem. Will you be happy? Will you be respected? Will you be successful? Will you get the position you want? Repeat the vision you imagined again and again in your head until you really belief that this vision is going to happen soon. By now, you should be able to walk out from your depression.

This is how I walked out. I hope it really help. I wanna pass this on so that I can save people from the hell I had gone through. And the thought of being able to help people from depression give a sense of happiness and satisfaction.


Life is so beautiful, again.


OMG. I'm addicted to motivating people now. =)

Take a bow by Rihanna

Heard this damn cool song on Fly.fm last night when I was driving home from training. Nice music and brilliant lyrics! It's damn sarcastic it a funny way, but at the same time so true.

Enjoy!


Dun have official music video on youtube yet. But this piece if sufficient to enjoy the song. =)


For those who are lazy to play the youtube. Here's the lyrics:

Oh, how bout a round of applause
yeah, standing ovation
oooohhh yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah

[Verse #1]
You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
(Please...)
Just cut it out

And don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

[Chorus]
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
oh oh oh

[Verse #2]
Grab your clothes and get gone
Ya better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' bout girl I love you you're the one
It just looks like a rerun
(Please...)
What else is on?

And don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

[Chorus]
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
Ooohh

[Bridge]
And the award for the best lie goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech ooohh

How bout a round of applause?
Standing ovation

[Chorus]
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
now it's time to go
Curtains finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow

But it's over now...

Random yo

I'm so thrilled with the swimming lessons now. Coz I think I'm improving every time I practice. =D

Friday night and tonight I went to swimming class and had the normal endurance training. The 300 m in 9 mins, 100 m in 100 sec, 50 m sidestroke, 50 m rescuer backstroke, 25 m underwater dive. Some extra ones like 15 m rope throwing and towing victim.

Then I got to learn how to make bandage also. Yeay! I got to learn securing the arm and bandage the head one. =)

Oh yea. And I improved in my rope-throwing also. Friday class my rope got tangled at the middle but now I got it straight and untangled! And and.. The time limit for the rope-throwing plus pulling the victim off from the middle of the pool to the side of the pool is 1 minute. My lowest record was 41 sec! hehe. I used 31 sec to roll the rope and 10 sec to pull the victim 15 m away to the poolside. =D

My 300 m I used 8 minutes 20 sec like that.

But the 100 m one I still cannot make it. I took 143 sec to swim 100 m with freestyle. =( I think I better go practice my freestyle in my apartment's pool every two days from now on.

And my 50 m swim followed by towing the victim 50 m in 3 min 15 sec one, although I manage to reach within the time limit but I was struggling when towing. This one need more endurance practice also.


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Here are some steamboat pictures last night and some random pictures over the last few weeks. Din put them up coz I think they are too random and was in deep depression mood . So I had no mood to write a random blog.




We had the steamboat at the roof top. No nice view though. But it's really isolated. Isolated from the crowd and hence the noise. We had a good chat up there. =)


This view is taken from the rooftop.




WY posing before we started attacking the food.


Randoms:


I always like to take the seat near the window whenever I go to McDonald in Sunway Pyramid.


Coz the view is nice. =) Overlooking Sunway Lagoon. Nice view right?

Another reason is that I like the 100% sunlight with the 100% air-cond in the mall.


Just me, myself, and a pack of French fries.


If you see a girl sitting facing the Lagoon alone in McDonald in Pyramid, with a pack of French fries, maybe a book on the table, it's most probably me. lol.


I tried a few new recipes when I'm bored.


Bread with peanut butter and banana slices. It's one of the Elvis Presley's favourite le. But I think it's so-so only.


I prefer this! Bread with Nutella chocolate spread and banana slices.


And a failure trial. Milk with mango and cherry tomatoes. The addition of tomato made the milk tasted weird. Then I looked online and found that milk cannot be matched with acidic fruits because the acid in the fruit will curd the milk leading to putrefaction. Eww. No wonder it tasted so weird. The combination between the mango and milk was okay but the mango taste disappeared after mixing with the milk.


Yogur Berry in Pyramid new wing




CP ordered the wrong combination. Imagine combining sweet chocolate syrup with sour yoghurt. The yoghurt was actually very fresh and nice. It's the combination which makes it tasted weird. I think the yoghurt will go better with fruits like kiwi or mango.


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By the way, a joke just crossed my mind when I woke up today.

Here goes:

Hotlink Technician: Hello. Good morning. May I help you?

Customer: Hi. I listened to Hitz.fm the other day.

Hotlink Technician: Ok.

Customer: I got to know that you have the Hotlink Super Saver. So, from the radio station, I followed the intructions to get more info about the Super Saver thing.

Hotlink Technician: Ok.

Customer: But I could not get the Super saver info. It just dun work.

Hotlink Technician: Did you dial star one hundred hash (#)?

Customer: That is the problem! I cant type one hundred hash on my handphone! I just managed to type 79 hashes only.

Hotlink Technician: It's *100# la! @$@#^#&#@! Not freaking *################################################ etc..

ha-ha. I know it's lame. But lame jokes can be funny also what. =P

Headache Headache

Recently I have been healthy, since two weeks ago.

I mean my sleeping time and bio-clock. It's so normal I have no headache and backpain at all! My healthy sleeping time is around 10.30-11.30pm and wake up at 7.30am! I got used to it already. So, if I sleep later than that I will have "hang-over" (according to New's description of not enough sleep) the next morning. haha.

The bio-clock changed back to unhealthy one last night. And I have the "hang-over" now already. OMG. Got a bit headache and stiff neck now. =(

Last night came back quite late from swimming class. Reached home at 10.45pm. I was not very sleepy yet. Still very energetic. So, I read some blogs and prepared the materials for tuition for today, while chatting with Adam. And then wanna sleep already. Coz I started to feel sleepy.

Then I saw Heng online. I was surprised to see him online actually. lol. Coz recently I seldom have the chance to see him online. I miss him so much recently until everytime I online I would pray very hard he's MSN status is green. So, with such opportunity, I stayed. Like a spider my mum would say (coz she say spider always like to stay on the web).

I slept at 1.30am instead. Therefore the hang-over.

Then woke up at 8am to prepare for tuition and finally back to USJ now. What a relief!

Wanted to take a short nap. But thinking about the email reply I'm waiting from Vincent from Raleigh about the IW staff enquiries, I went to check gmail. Then this worsen my headache. OMG! There were freaking 20 mails in my gmail! One day din check only le. Suddenly so many mails.

Mostly are spams from Facebook and Friendster!



Can the facebook and friendster updates just leave me alone? I'm gonna go inactivate the email update system already. Having this thought make me feel worse. I very lazy to play with facebook and friendster la. The settings and all are really troublesome one.

Headache headache.


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Am planning for a hiking trip for next Sunday to Gunung Datuk. Yeay! Can't wait to go. I hope everyone who join will enjoy it =)

Gotta go eat steamboat with the girls already. Continue later. Hehe.

Fond of fonts

I learn one new thing today when I was blog-hopping through Nuffnang.

It's called Typography! I dunno how to explain what it is. It's like a video made up of symbols and alphabets flying here and there. lol.

Get a glimpse of the examples below then you will know what I mean. Very meaningful and at the same time entertaining and artistic. It's cool!

Example 1: The Idiots are Taking Over NOFX - About Americans frustration against Bush

I like the idea of the exclamation marks flew off.
And the words "Life, Liberty and Properties" became $$$ signs.
And the words "People, Politics, Police" became the word "LIES".


Example 2: Typollution - An awareness video about how the environment has been polluted by us, human

I like the way the commas dropping from the cloud especially when the angle is like watching from above. The commas represent raindrops.
And the way the buildings represented by H, L and M mushroomed.
And the way the flowers fell off when the buildings shot up.
And the video ended with question marks (flower petals) falling all over from the flower, ending the video with a question indirectly.



I like to see different types of fonts. When I was in secondary school, I had this habit of writing out all sorts of font types I can imagine in A4 papers and documented them in my special file. This is my another habit other than writing emo poems back in secondary times. hehe..

Remember those secondary school times when we have to make our own scrapbook on our family or something else? And we have to hand them in for some academic marks. I remember I borrowed my dad's font type book for nice fonts so that I can follow exactly the font type on the cover of the scrapbook. (Take note that at that time, about year 1997, we don't use Microsoft Word, we just draw with freehand)

After that, I didn't return that book to my dad for several years. Hehe.. I kept my dad's font type book in my drawer and appreciated every font types in the book whenever I'm free. hehe. I know I sound like a weirdo. But dun forget my parents are artists. Having some artist weirdo personality is not surprising. =P

It was appreciation of the art in the font book at first. Then, I started to draw my own fonts. And I keep them in my file and name every font type I created. I even draw from A to Z and 0 to 9, big and small alphabets. I was actually quite proud of my fonts and actually planned to submit to those websites which buy font types. That was long time ago.

Now I am still like to appreciate font types. I downloaded many different types of fonts in my font folder in control panel. Haha. Too bad blogspot only have boring font types.

Anyway, if they have various nice fonts also I won't use them one la.


Imagine something like this. Although it's artistic. But isn't it hard to read? =P



p/s: Hmmm.. Gotta go dig out my long lost font file. =) I miss the fonts.

Redang, I miss you!

I just told New that I miss Redang very much this morning. Very very much.

I miss the blue sea, the soft and warm sand underneath the feet, the snorkeling, the bumpy speedboat that brought us to snorkeling spots, the baby shark in the Marine park that swam passed my leg, the coral that looks like a brain and most important of all the companionship.


Can see the sea? It's THAT blue!



One example of brain coral. Amazing right? (This picture is not from Redang. I googled for the brain coral image one)


The last time I went to Redang was in 2006. We had lots of fun.

I remember swimming with my normal goggles and swimsuit with Steven to see the fishes with stripe patterns. The further we swam the deeper the sea was and I have no stamina to swim further. In the end, I gave up swimming further and went back to the beach. Then after that Steven came back and tell me he went further and saw even more variety of fishes. Should have swim further with Steven. I regretted.



Anywho, I really hope that I can go Redang again, this time with Heng. =P


I miss Redang. I miss Heng.



p/s: Myeho.com is sooo cool coz they're gonna give away 100 free tickets to Redang for bloggers who write up posts about Redang and myeho.com. =)

Are you depressed?

Have you ever wonder what you should do to be successful? Or are you not satisfied with your life now?

I'm reading a book called "How to get from where you are to where you want to be" by Jack Canfield. Although I heard the idea 6 years ago, reading this book is reminding me the insight again and hence inspired me again, after 6 years, with a more open heart.

6 years back when I was in A-levels, I read a book called "Study smart, not hard". It suggested readers to close the eyes, meditate, and visualise the future you desire. Think of beautiful, happy and good stuff. Think of you being successful, respected, rich, healthy and happy. Think of the big house you want to own, the Mercedes you want to drive, the big corporate you want to own. And you will get what you want. I was very close-minded that time. The moment I read this idea, I threw the book aside and never touch the book again because I thought it's a bunch of bullshit. Because I think visualising things is not going to get us anywhere. I only belief that only the real action is.

Maybe I didn't finish the book. Maybe after that chapter that book is going to teach people how to strive for the visual dream we created. I should have finish that book.

Nevermind. The same idea approached me again through Law of Attraction. And from this law, I earned some encouragement. Or maybe I should call it insight instead of encouragement. I finally able to pick up the determination to motivate myself to stop myself from being depressed. So, I bought this new book, to motivate myself. This "How to get from where you are to where you want to be" book.

Maybe most people already know this idea. But I'm sure there are still many people who are lost and don't know where we should head to. This post is specially dedicated to those of you who feel this way. Hope this post can motivate you or at least cease your depression because I understand the feeling, the I-want-to-give-up-everything feeling. Although sometimes I still have the low self-esteem on and off now, and got myself in dilemma again, I force myself to think positive. Because thinking positive can raise our self-esteem and we will then feel good about ourselves no matter how bad the situation had become.

Think positive!

This is what Law of Attraction suggests.

The "How to" book also suggested similar idea but in a different way. It says Believe in yourself! Those who win are those who think they can. So, this also means we should be in positive mode. Then only we can believe we can, right? =)


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According to the "How to" book, 99% of all failures come from people who have a habit of making excuses. So, stop blaming and stop complaining. You take full responsibility on what had happen to your life. If your life sucks, it's your fault. Not any one else's. Why? Because, everything you experience today is the result of choices you have made in the past. What happen to your life is mainly affected by 3 things: your actions, your thoughts and the images you visualise.

If you think negative, you life will screw up.
If you can only imagine bad things ahead, bad things will come to you.
If you laze around, you know what's gonna happen next.

So your life is like shit? What should you do now then? Identify what have you been doing wrong that has caused this. And then stop this habit! If you keep doing what you've always done, you'll keep on getting what you've always got. Step out of your comfort zone. It's up to you to make the change, to do something different.

It is hard at first because it requires strong determination and discipline. And in order to try whether making the change can work, you must be willing to take the risks.


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Everyone must have a fixed dream in mind. What you want your future to be like? Visualise it in your mind as detailed as it can be. Close your eyes and picture these in your head:

In the future....

1. Your income. How much money you wanna have?
2. Your home. The colours of the walls, the furnitures, the yard, your rooms, any swimming pools? And etc..
3. What kind of car you driving
4. Your ideal job. Where are you working? Working as what? With who? Is it your own business?
5. Your recreational time. What you do during your free time? With friends? Or family?
6. Your ideal health condition. Are you healthy? How long do you live to? Are you energetic?
7. Ideal relationship with family and friends. How is the relationship with family? And with friends? What kind of things do you do together?
8. Self improvement. Are you taking some course? Like some art classes or get back to school or attending workshops? Do you want to travel to other countries?
9. The community you live in. What community you live with? Do you join the community activities? Do you volunteer in charity? Who are you helping? How often do you participate in these activities?

Clarify your vision of your ideal life. Write down and clearly picture these in your mind everyday so that you can focus on your vision.


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And don't limit your dreams. Dream big. And then belief that anything is possible, so does your dream. Don't ever doubt your dreams. Don't go "I dun think my dream is gonna happen coz it's just too unrealistic." If you think it is possible, then your subconscious mind will allow yourself to work towards it no matter how hard it is. If you think it is impossible, then your subconscious mind will give up and you will have no motivation to strive towards your dream. Then your dream will never happen. In order to make yourself think that your dream is possible, you must belief in yourself. Believe that you are capable to make this dream come true. Don't waste your time believing you can't.


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Oh ya. By the way, don't be ashamed of your big dream. People won't laugh at your dream, and they shouldn't. If your friend says your dream is too unrealistic, you should feel sorry for them because they don't dream big and they don't have the set of mind that can belief that anything can be made possible. If your friends also dream big, they won't think your dream is stupid or too unrealistic.



That's all for today. hehe. Coz I actually haven't finish reading this book. Got something else to settle lately. Otherwise I can finish this book in one day. lol.



p/s: I'm gonna go dig out the "Study smarter, not harder" book when I go back hometown.


p/p/s: I wanna thank my mum, Hao Wei, Adam and Chung Ming for giving me solid advice which gave me the motivation to walk out from depression. Wanna thank also Heng, my dad, my 2 aunties who worried and cared about me and willing to be there for me when I was depressed. Thanks Zhuang and Choo Peng who threw me a lot of questions allowing me to find my dream. And also wanna thank those who are willing to listen to my troubles: Audrey, Ley Hian, Val and Chee Hui. Without you all I can't find my way out from the dark depression.

I know I seldom update my blog lately. Last time I updated it everyday, now only once every 3 days. Quite busy lately to straighten up my mind.

No worries. Tonight I'm going to write a very inspiring one. I hope. Hehe.

See ya tonight then! =)

Playing with hairstyles

Recently when chatting with Heng he always ask me whether I plan to change hairstyle to short ones. lol. "How short? Like guys ah?" I said.

But if cut guy hairstyle I will look damn weird wor. lol. So I purposely find a very man picture of mine and photoshop it with male hairstyles. =P




(p/s: Please bear with my lousy Photoshop skills =P)






Andy Lau's hairstyle


Beckham's hairstyle



Brat Pitt's hairstyle


Jay Chow's hairstyle


Rain's Hairstyle


Haha.. I lengchai or not? Don't fall in love with me wor. =P

I think the Brad Pitt one I really look like my brother la. hehe




I tried to find female short hair hairstyles to match my face and see which one is best for my face. But all the models face not straight one, either senget to the right or left. Sien. I only got three.


From Coffee Prince one. hehe..


Still look very lengchai

Too much extra fat on my face already. That's why I said short hair is not suitable for me if I wanna look like a female. Sigh.


How about this?


And this?


Still weird right? lol.




Since I had been playing with Photoshop today, just add another extra one then.

Adam said I look like Rock Lee from Naruto the anime especially when I had my fringe cut straight and if I don't pluck my eyebrows.


He's referring to this loser hairstyle (this was last year) (wah.. damn paiseh to put it on the blog again)




Compare with this fella's hair



Look alike meh?


So I combine my fierce fierce face and Rock Lee's hair and eyebrow together to see whether I look like Rock Lee or not.


Compare with this




Dun think so...

Stickgirl and breakfast??

I found this blog from Kenny Sia's recent post. I like her drawings =) Simple with smooth lines and have strong sense of humour (but mostly black ones).


For example:

Gucci Sale!


IT Show 2008!


No need to draw too many boxes already can express what she wanna say. I had already linked her blog. =P


I wish I can draw freely like her.

I can't emphasize the facial expression in every character I draw.

(Shh.. Don't let people know my parents are artists)

That's why I admire Heng for having the ability to draw characters with good facial expressions in seconds.

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Recently I'm really bored with my breakfast. I wanna find new breakfast menu to DIY before work!


My DIY breakfast are always:
-Bread (boring)
-Crackers dipped in Milo (Boring)

If I run out of time I would go to my workplace and buy nasi lemak (boring) or roti bakar (kaya+butter) (boring) as my breakfast. This happens quite frequently recently. lol.


So I'm really bored with my breakfast (did I just said that?). Plus we've got a new fridge with us now. I can put any food that need to be chilled in the fridge. Unlike last time, no fridge means no milk, no butter, no margarine, no fruit jams, no yoghurt and etc etc.

So.... Ideas! Ideas! I need ideas for new breakfast menu! =)




Half boiled eggs?

Not my favourite but still can deal with it if add a lot of soy sauce and pepper powder. But very fast hungry for a big eater like me. Unless I eat 3-4 eggs which can give me high cholesterol.




Pancakes? Good idea. But I need to buy maple syrup and butter just to go with the pancakes. Actually top them up with some peanut butter will also taste good. Or Nutella? Kaka....

Ok. Add flour and eggs to buying list. And maple syrup and butter too =)




Oh ya.. my multipurpose cooker was spoiled.



Will replace myself a multipurpose cooker soon.





Yoghurt?

Cut some fruits like banana, mango or papaya into pieces then mix with fruit-flavoured yoghurt. Yum! Supreme! If served cold it will be even more supreme. Hehe..





Fruit salad?

Not sure whether full enough for me or not. But if the portion is as big as the picture above I think should be enough la.

I think it will be very refreshing to have a bowl of cold fruit chilled overnight as breakfast. Yum!!




Smoothie?

I miss the mix fruit smoothie I had back when I was in secondary school. We blended tomatoes, oranges, apples and carrots all together, add a pinch of salt and some sugar syrup to give a purie-like drink. Very nice taste. Yummy!!

I have no blender with me here. Stop dreaming.





Cereal?

Awww! I miss those hostel times when I had fridge and can store my milk and have cereal as breakfast.



Hmm.. Can't find any other breakfast ideas. Sien.. Anymore breakfast ideas?