Friday, January 28, 2011
girls
Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one.
The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and be disappointed.The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened.
Here's to the ones that took him back.
Hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.
We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him for a while. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming.
Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again.
We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again.
This is for those great girls.
Who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if". This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so." The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their beds, and their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.
Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave a shit about them.
Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.
Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.
This is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt. Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.
When "your song" comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to.
One day, you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's gonna hurt like crap, and it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.
The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and be disappointed.The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened.
Here's to the ones that took him back.
Hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.
We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him for a while. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming.
Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again.
We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again.
This is for those great girls.
Who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if". This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so." The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their beds, and their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.
Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave a shit about them.
Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.
Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.
This is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt. Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.
When "your song" comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to.
One day, you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's gonna hurt like crap, and it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.
what we could have been, 1:57 AM.
Sunday, January 02, 2011
2011
2010 has been average.
thank you everyone who has been part of it (:
for those whom i've met briefly or those whom i know will always be there,
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
i'm pretty sure you people were the ones who made up the happy moments of 2010 (:
esp baby, thank you for always being there!
it's been really awesome having you around.
looking forward to an awesome 2011 with you! (:
i shall have some new year resolutions like everyone else:
#1 study hard and up my gpa
this is like probably the most difficult because i never seem to study hard :( but i'll try! ever since the A levels, i seem to lose my drive and motivation to study. i probably used up all my energy during the A levels. :( okay, no excuses! by the end of 2011, my gpa shld be higher than my current's!
#2 sleep more than or equals to 6 hours (preferably sleep latest at 2 daily!)
pardon my mathematically-structured sentence. (product of a mathematics major student) i think i'm trying to kill myself with these resolutions. but i'll try! i realise if i dun sleep enough i get cranky and my complexion suffer alot. so yes, i MUST sleep more!
#3 teach tuition/ earn money
i have absolutely no income of my own and this is making me :( much. my only source of money is my pocket money and i'm not exactly proud of this. :X i shall make effort to teach tuition. cos i cannot think of any other ways to earn money. but i shall do this if it doesnt make my studies suffer. (doesnt make sense if i teach and help students to do better and i do worse right?) haha
#4 better complexion please
my complexion is like cui. and together my omg awesome dark eyerings and eyebags, i think i'm going to become one of the endangered species. (if you're guessing what, it's panda -.-) but then i supposed with better sleep it'll improve my complexion. and i'll probably be more guai and go for facials.
it is already a feat for me to accomplish these 4.
so i shall keep it at 4.
okay, i'm gg to sleep alr.
softball games tmr. need to wake up at 6.15.
<4 hours of sleep. (already failing to achieve #2)
argh.
okay, goodnight earthlings!
may everyone be blessed in this new year! (:
p.s. baby enjoy your genting trip! i'll miss you! (:
thank you everyone who has been part of it (:
for those whom i've met briefly or those whom i know will always be there,
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
i'm pretty sure you people were the ones who made up the happy moments of 2010 (:
esp baby, thank you for always being there!
it's been really awesome having you around.
looking forward to an awesome 2011 with you! (:
i shall have some new year resolutions like everyone else:
#1 study hard and up my gpa
this is like probably the most difficult because i never seem to study hard :( but i'll try! ever since the A levels, i seem to lose my drive and motivation to study. i probably used up all my energy during the A levels. :( okay, no excuses! by the end of 2011, my gpa shld be higher than my current's!
#2 sleep more than or equals to 6 hours (preferably sleep latest at 2 daily!)
pardon my mathematically-structured sentence. (product of a mathematics major student) i think i'm trying to kill myself with these resolutions. but i'll try! i realise if i dun sleep enough i get cranky and my complexion suffer alot. so yes, i MUST sleep more!
#3 teach tuition/ earn money
i have absolutely no income of my own and this is making me :( much. my only source of money is my pocket money and i'm not exactly proud of this. :X i shall make effort to teach tuition. cos i cannot think of any other ways to earn money. but i shall do this if it doesnt make my studies suffer. (doesnt make sense if i teach and help students to do better and i do worse right?) haha
#4 better complexion please
my complexion is like cui. and together my omg awesome dark eyerings and eyebags, i think i'm going to become one of the endangered species. (if you're guessing what, it's panda -.-) but then i supposed with better sleep it'll improve my complexion. and i'll probably be more guai and go for facials.
it is already a feat for me to accomplish these 4.
so i shall keep it at 4.
okay, i'm gg to sleep alr.
softball games tmr. need to wake up at 6.15.
<4 hours of sleep. (already failing to achieve #2)
argh.
okay, goodnight earthlings!
may everyone be blessed in this new year! (:
p.s. baby enjoy your genting trip! i'll miss you! (:
what we could have been, 2:02 AM.
