hope.

Time and time again, I let emotions get the better of me. 

Never to take things personally, I’ve told myself numerous times but again, I lose. 

Need to keep strong, need to be less attached. Less tears, more focus on what’s important. 

Give me the strength and courage to stay positive, to face this hiccup with an open mind.

— when life gives you lemons, make lemonade.

FINALS in 3 weeks!

Updates after that! Wish me luck!! *fingers crossed*

P.S: credits to darren for the pic. lol.

Suddenly this has became my favourite Glee song.

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I’m through with playing by the rules
Of someone else’s game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It’s time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It’s time to try
Defying gravity
I think I’ll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I’m through accepting limits
”cause someone says they’re so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I’ll never know!
Too long I’ve been afraid of
Losing love I guess I’ve lost
Well, if that’s love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I’d sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I’m defying gravity
I think I’ll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I’d sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I’m defying gravity
I think I’ll try
Defying gravity
And you won’t bring me down!
bring me down!
ohh ohhh ohhhh!

P.S: I’m such a GLEE-k 🙂

P.P.S: I heart kurt! He’s so lovable!

6 weeks till FINALS.

Studying done today – ZERO!

What an accomplishment. Haha!!

Anyways, guess what? I was reading my old blog just then and  I can’t believe I’ve been blogging since  2004! 6 years of blogging! Wow 🙂 Reading back all my ramblings brought back memories. Some of which I cannot even remember penning down.

Like Jackie’s apex beat which Paul marked during one of CSU practices:

…..which I wonder now if it is at the right position 😛

*I think he’s going to kill me AGAIN for this ><”

some posts were really hilarious. I can’t even believe I posted some of it. Anyways, another random post. LOL.

Till next time. Ta 🙂

If tomorrow starts without me, don’t think we’re far apart,
for every time you think of me, please know I’m in your heart.

If tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.
I know how much you care for me, and how much I care for you,
and each time that you think of me I know you’ll miss me too;

But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
that an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready in heaven far above,
and that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye,
for all life, I’d always thought I didn’t want to die.
I had so much to live for and so much yet to do.
it seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, I thought, just for a while,
I’d say goodbye and hug you and maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realised that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things that I’d miss come tomorrow.
I thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through Heaven’s gates, I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me, from His great golden throne,
He said, “This is eternity and all I’ve promised you,
Today your life on earth is past but here it’s starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last.
and since each day’s the same, there’s no longing for the past.

But you have been so faithful, so trusting, so true.
Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn’t do.
And you have been forgiven and now at last you’re free.
So won’t you come and take my hand and share my life with me?”

So if tomorrow starts without me, don’t think we’re far apart,
for every time you think of me, please know I’m in your heart.

xx

My heart sunk when I read this inside the viewing room at the hospice.

you see medicine in a whole new perspective in palliative care. I always dread speaking to patients undergoing terminal phase of their life. I never knew how to speak to them -just afraid I guess. To talk about dying. Nevertheless, being in this profession, you got to learn to deal with death. Hard but you’ll learn.