I spot the little man the moment the door opens. He’s nervous. He knows that he – that anyone – shouldn’t be here. I watch intently, not even blinking, as he closes the door behind him with needless care. Nobody is going to appreciate his care, nobody is going to hear him over the thumping beat of the music.
This isn’t a place that needs to be careful or quiet. We don’t even need a man on the door. Casual trade knows not to fuck with us, and if they don’t at the start of the evening, they do by the end. This means he’s either here for a reason or he’s utterly clueless. Given his care and wide-eyed fright, I’m laying my money on the first.
He moves across the floor as though it were shards of broken glass, gingerly, carefully, every sense alert. I can practically see the panicked pulse in his neck, and his eyes look dramatic in the half-light, wide whites, black holes of pupils.
He edges around the serpentine sway of the slithering dancers. He can’t help but look. Who could resist? The sisters are almost identical; they move like whips and arch and twist and writhe in a way that looks effortless and boneless. When they feel his eyes on them, they press their cheeks together, tangle their long, straight hair. As he’s drawn in, they expose their split tongues, they lap drink from each other’s mouths and wind around each other.
I smile as he stumbles back in shock from the girls, and I keep my eyes upon him. Finally, he notices me, this stumbling, bovine man. I incline my head slightly to encourage him and lift my drink. A sip of burning, bitter green, the bile I’ll need to get through talking with this man.
It’s a room of corners, the club. The people who come here don’t often like being on show. They like being tucked away, to let visitors be distracted by the sisters. Something to put their back against. Here, in one of the many nooks, I’m shielded from the loudest of the music, and I can receive this little man and conduct our sordid little business that lets me live my life.
“I need someone killed,” it’s the first thing out of his mouth, even before he sits.
“No. You don’t.”
“What?” I pull my drink closer; he’s the type who would drink it to ‘settle’ himself, and that wouldn’t be a good idea.
“If you need someone killed, you can get anyone to do that. Any sneak, footpad or thug. Or you could do it yourself. You need a problem removed, and this problem just happens to have a pulse and a name.”
“Semantics…” he growls, the cow-man has a little spine after all, it seems.
“Respect will get you a lot further than disdain,” I tell him, and I knock back the last of the bitter green liquor, swallowing the scale at the bottom of the glass. I flick my tongue against my fangs and lean forward over the table. “So, tell me about your problem…”
This is part one of a story, all of which is collected in Pulp Nova.
An Englishman’s home is his castle. It’s a phrase that’s overused to the point of driving me to fits of rage, but there’s a kernel, a smidge, a chewy centre of truth to it. You don’t talk shit about a geezer’s home any more than you would dare raise your voice about the way a woman raises her kids. If you do either of these things, however deserved, you’re going to get a fucking slap. You’re also going to be ignored, so he whole bloody exercise is pointless from the get-go. You can only get away with either faux pas if you’re a close friend or family member, and even then, there’s going to be bitter resentment for months and a lot of hard, silent stares. The kind that can peel paint.
The thing about being a policeman, even a detective inspector, is that the money’s shit and everybody hates you. You can’t afford a good gaff, which means you end up living around the scum that hate you the most. Most have more sense than to fuck with you, but they wouldn’t be scum if they had a lick of sense.
If you’ve got a shit house, or in my case, a flat in a leftover, Stalinist block of concrete, you’ve got little motivation to keep it clean and tidy. If you’re single – and a lot of coppers are – you’ve got no extra income and even less inclination to keep the place tidy. Compound that with being a drunk and having a reputation for getting other officers killed, and it goes some way to explaining the state of the place.
I’m not making excuses, I’m just offering an explanation. There’s no excuse, I just, really, can’t be fucked keeping the place tidy, and that’s nobody’s business but mine. That’s why there’s washing up on every flat surface and dirty laundry everywhere there isn’t washing up. That’s why there’s a clear foot of mould growing out of the mug on the kitchen windowsill – I call her Ermintrude – and why that stack of pizza boxes is arranged like a card house.
Hey, a bloke gets bored when he can’t afford Sky, and there’s fuck all on the telly but ‘I’m A No-Talent Cunt, Get me a Career’.
So, to recap: Policeman, shitty house, no money.
Imagine my surprise, then, to wake up at 3:20 am to some fucking chav scumbag clambering in through my kitchen window. Ermintrude didn’t survive the experience, I’m sad to say, joining a long line of partners and assistants to die around me and feeding the ‘legend’ of DI Stane. She didn’t die for nothing, though. The smash woke me up from my slumber on the couch with a start.
The street light shines right in my kitchen window, and without even pulling off the blanket and rolling out onto my pile of socks, I could see what the twat had done. He’d tried to climb in through the kitchen window and gotten himself stuck. I could see his silhouette in black and orange against the wall. There was no rush.
I swung my legs off the couch and peeled my bare skin off the worn leather with a sound like tearing Velcro. There was a rattle and a clang as he tried to free himself, but I think his expensive trainers were stuck in the swampy sink. How the fuck do these kids afford them anyway? I fumbled for my cigs and tossed one into my mouth, snapping it out of the air and lighting it with a match, since my fucking lighter had gone walkabout again. I used to be a pack-a-day man, but these days I’m on two packs of Silk Cut. That doesn’t actually count as smoking, right?
I scratched my arse and wandered through to the kitchen, and yep, there he was. A greasy little hoodie thug ticking all the boxes of the disadvantaged underclass who make it so fucking hard to feel sorry for them.
“Oi, cunt.”
His head turned, and he rattled and twisted in the window, desperately, knocking my Mr Men tea mug out of the sink to smash amongst the remains of dear departed Ermintrude.
“Christ, bruv, at least put some fucking pants on, innit?”
I took a tug on the cigarette and plugged my kettle in, clicked it on to heat up, and then I turned back to the little scrote. “You break into my house and tell me what to wear, you little shit? I don’t fucking think so.”
I reached for my moby, which I keep in my bread bin, obviously. I flipped open the lid and hauled it out, thumbing the keylock and squinting in the sudden light from the screen. “Fucking things. You’d think they’d make it come up slowly so you don’t get blinded.”
“Like I give a shit. What are you doing anyway?” He struggled again, rattling the window and dislodging a couple of forks coated in dried-on spaghetti hoops to clatter on the tiles.
“Calling the police. People still do that,” I fumbled with the screen, shitty fucking smart phones never work right, but at least mine doesn’t talk to me. It rang before I could dial, though. It figured. I rolled my eyes and hit the little green thing that lets you pick up a call. “Stane. It’s three in the fucking morning, so this better not be about double glazing.”
It wasn’t.
“Stane, we need you on an MIT. We’ve got a murder that you’re uniquely suited to dealing with.”
I sighed and took out my frustration by stabbing the shithead in my sink with a fork.
“Fuck man, that’s my arse! You’re a mentalist!”
“That your boyfriend Stane?”
“Never you fucking mind. I’m on leave, remember?” I gave the shithead an extra stab for squealing.
“Nobody else wants it, and I know you. You’ve only got the work.”
“I don’t work alone, DCI Baker, you know that.”
“No fucker will work with you. You’ll have to make do with the forensics people. Look, nobody gives two shits about this case, we just need to show willing for the press and the brass.”
Batman, wise but made-up geezer that he is, tells us that criminals are a cowardly and superstitious lot. They haven’t got anything on cops. Just because three people who’ve worked closely with me have ended up dying, none of these cowardly bastards will work with me any more. Baker must have been desperate to pull me in.
“Alright, alright, give me the fucking details.”
I tossed the fork back into the sink between the kids’ feet and wiped my hand over the whiteboard on the fridge, jotting down the address as Baker read it out over the line to me. “Right, guv, I’ll be there as soon as I can.”
“Don’t call me guv, you cheeky fuck,” he rang off, and I put the phone back down on the counter.
The kettle was boiling now, rattling away in its cradle and giving a loud ‘snap’ as it automatically switched off. “It’s your lucky day, shithead. I’m too busy to deal with you.”
“What do you mean?” He wiggled again, rattling the window, jostling the precarious pile of filthy pots, pans, plates and cutlery in the sink.
“Look. Just fuck off.”
“I’m stuck.”
“You’re not stuck, shithead. You’re just lacking motivation,” I yanked the bubbling, rumbling kettle from its cradle and moved over to where he was hung, half in, half out of the kitchen.
“What? You wouldn’t man, that’s torture!” He rattled more, twisting and writhing and knocking another poor mug onto the floor.
“Hey, I’m the one with his John Thomas swinging in the breeze, you little shit. If it splashes onto me, I’m going to be in more pain than you are.” I lifted the kettle and tipped it slowly, pouring a slow stream of boiling, steaming water next to him.
“Fuck man! Fuck! Fuck!” He wormed around, desperately, and I let the boiling water touch his leg. He screamed at a pitch only dogs can hear and suddenly seemed to get his motivation, jack-knifing like a drunken truck driver and falling out of the window face-first onto the balcony.
I watched him scramble up and run and found myself a clean(ish) mug to make a cup of tea. I was going to need it.
“Right then. Suppose I’d better get some fucking trousers on before I save the world.”
Tea, t-shirt, trousers, phone, coat, bugger the socks, shoes, fresh cig and out the door. Into the wee, small hours and the dark. Off to see some poor murdered cunt.
This story (in full, not just this part) is part of the Pulp Nova collection.
The wind whipped through the dusty settlement, whipping up sand and casting it down the empty streets. It settled in drifts in doorways, on steps, against the orange-blossomed hulks of old, rusty cars and the worn tarmac of the old roads. It found no eyes to sting with its radioactive grit. Even the rad-scorpions weren’t out today. Angel’s Spring was shut up, locked and closed for business. The only people anywhere in the town were the sulking and reluctant guards, up on the towers and they were wearing goggles.
The relative silence of the desert town was abruptly broken by the clarion blast of an airhorn from the old rink. In its wake came the deafening roar of an excited crowd. The cars around the rink weren’t the same rusting hulks. These would run though they didn’t look the kind to run away, rather they looked like the sort of cars that would start a fight. Armoured and spiked, horribly be-weaponed. These were fighting vehicles, the kind that could make it across the atomic wasteland safely to find this place.
What could draw them here? So far from home and safety.
A painted sign, hanging loosely over the door, rattled in the dry wind and hollered its silent proclamation to the world:
“National League Roller Brawl – Semi Final – TODAY!”
Inside the rink was almost pristine, though the animal skulls nailed to the walls made it look a little ‘different’. The banked walls of wood and metal were battered into shape. They still formed a perfect circuit, a smooth oval battleground for the war to come.
The two teams were lining up for the final period, battered, bruised and bloodied, nearly at the end of the match. Hel’s Belles represented Angel’s Spring, the home-town advantage. A tough bunch of women, padded and armoured, gloved and face-painted. Torn fishnets and ripped white shirts, bronze and gold pads and helmets. Five of them slid out onto the rink and took their place to ear-bleeding roar of the crowd. Hellen strapped the jammer helmet over her leonine mane of blonde hair, jerking the strap tight and nodding to the rest of the girls as they took their place.
Angelicar was a squat, brutal, tank of a woman. Big bosomed and thick thighed, gap-toothed and freckled. She took her place in line, smacking her fists together and nodding back.
Swish was a pretty one, built like a pin-up, curves in all the right places, a favourite with the fans. She was fast, slippery and somehow never seemed to catch one in the face.
Spike seemed taller than the other girls, but that was just her custom boots. She stood on tiptoe like a ballet dancer, poised perfectly on only four wheels,l but at her heel a vicious metal spike protruded, a weapon and a brake, thirsting to draw more blood.
Wheely was a fighter. Scarred from a life in the wasteland and still half wild with it. She cut her hair with a knife and refused to cover her slashed eye with a patch. She’d been as beautiful as Swish, once, but not any more. Whipcord thin and more scar and gristle than skin and flesh.
The rest of the team watched intently from the sidelines. Pincushion, Biter, Farm, Donna, Becca, teeth gritted, fists pumping the air to cheer them on. It all came down to this last jam and there weren’t that many points in it between Hel’s Belles and their dangerous opposition, the Manhatin’ Project.
Out of Science City, snooty and superior, the Project weren’t the most physical of opponents, but those strange blade-skates they wore made them fast and manoeuvrable and they always had one trick or another up their sleeve. They were fragile though, soft, pampered. Several of them were already out with injuries and they could only just scrape up a full team for this final outing. All or nothing.
The Belle’s slammed their helmets together, face to face, breathing each other’s breath, glossed lips almost touching, eyes flickering back and forth between each other as Hellen set out the plan. “We get out there and we beat them down hard. We’re a little ahead on points and that’s all we need to do to get this shit secured. Got it?”
“Got it!” They slammed helmets again and took up position. Hellen checked the formation and then twisted her head to look across to the Project. There was a lot of hand-waving going on over there but also a lot of nodding. They seemed to have a plan of their own and it probably wasn’t getting their skulls crushed. Now it was down to skill. Skill and luck.
The air horn screamed again and was almost instantly drowned out by the cacophony of the crowd. The whole rink shook, physically, with the sound and the stamping of feet against the floor. Both teams leapt to life like mirrors of each other, wheels biting into the track and shoving them forward at speed.
Hellen pounded way with her feet, swinging her arms back and fort as she powered away, ahead of the girls, leaving them behind, strung out to block Project from coming through. They were already closing the gap, their jammer behind a phalanx of lab-coated rollergirls, skimming forward on their blades with ease and speed.
“Damn, got to get me some of those,” Hellen closed her eyes and put her head down low, thighs and calves on fire as she put every sinew, every muscle, every bit of energy she had into speed. She roared around the rink, wheels grinding as she slid out to the edge, powering back to the inside line, using the slope for that extra little bit of speed.
She was coming around as fast as she ever had now, the faces of the crowd blurring into a single streak, a single animal shout. Ahead of her, the Project girls tangled with the Belles, throwing themselves into them with reckless abandon that didn’t seem to make any sense. They couldn’t beat them pound for pound but they weren’t trying to. They threw themselves into the Belles and wrapped themselves around them, bringing them down into a tangled pile of arms, legs and wheels. Angelicar slid on with one of the clinging Project girls on her back, hands over her eyes. She span around and around, trying to shake her off, flying off the circuit, over the boundary and into the air, head over heels she smashed into the unfortunate crowd to a roar of delight. A greaser’s fine pompadour and film-star features crushed flat under Angelicar’s ample hips.
The Project jammer, Nicola Tesla, leapt over the tangle of bodies, barely, landing awkwardly on her skates, windmilling arms and sprawling legs as she struggled to keep her balance and managed, against the odds to straighten herself out. She twisted her head back and gave Hellen a supercilious little wave and stuck out her tongue. There was a sudden, explosive ‘whoosh’ and three feet of flame shot out the back of her skates, sending her hurtling around at blinding speed, her coat flapping behind her like a superhero’s cape, cast off to fly through the air behind her.
They were a couple of points ahead now. The plan had failed. Nicola was coming around the track like a bullet and that would put them way too far ahead for the points to be clawed back. Hellen twisted to the side and slid to a halt next to the tangle of wrestling, fighting bodies. Wheely was straddling one poor girl and punching her repeatedly in the face. Bloodied glasses came spinning out of the scrum as Hellen stopped, crunching the lenses under her brake.
There was only one way to stop this and only a split-second to make the decision. Hellen finished her twist and rocked up on her toe-brakes, digging into the floor beneath her and setting her body ready, tensed. Coiling up like a compressed spring.
Nicola came hurtling around at jet speed, smoke trailing behind her, eyes watering as she struggled to stay on the track. She could barely see but all she had to do was pass the mob one last time and the game would belong to the Project. It was an all or nothing move.
Hellen wasn’t having it. Not today.
She licked her lips and narrowed her eyes, watching the oncoming Project girl with the intensity of a marine sniper. At the last possible moment she uncoiled, leaping up and forward a single step, lashing out with her fist in a long, straight punch at the rolling rocket girl.
The crowd went silent as steely fist met a brittle jaw that snapped like matchwood. Time seemed to slow down as the shockwave of the impact travelled through Hellen’s body, bones jarred, a ripple through her flesh that made her breasts and ass quiver and drove her back a metre along the track. She carved two line lines of burned rubber into the track before she came to a halt. Nicola fared worse, smacked in the face her arms and legs flew out in front of her and the jets kept firing, flipping her into the air in a flaring lopp to crash down with an eye-watering smack, face first into the deck.
Hellen grunted and grabbed her arm, crunching her shoulder back into its socket from the dislocation of the impact. Gingerly, she picked the teeth out of her gloves. Her whole right side was numb but there was still one more thing she had to do. Grunting at the pain from the bruised bones she picked her way slow and careful amongst the wrestling and kicking bodies. Spike was choking one black-eyed girl with her own bra and the Science City team was all but wiped out. One trembling, gloved hand reached out with broken fingers to try and grab Hellen’s foot but Swish clamped one poor girl’s face between her thighs and leaned over, biting the reaching fingers with a feral snarl that tore through the leather.
Hellen tottered over the mob on her toes, hopping over the tangle. The score ticked over. Behind her the flaring rocket-skates finally gave out with a sputtering hiss. It was obvious Nicola wasn’t getting up again. Blood trickled down the slope of the track and puddled against the inside of the rink, trickling from Nicola’s ruined face. The refs looked to each other and there seemed to be an accord. That was it. The horn sounded and the match was over. Ignominiously, but it was over and the Belles had won.
The crowd went crazy, nuts. The cheep piss-swill they sold in the bar went splashing into the air as everyone hurled their cups up to the sky. Better that than their stomachs. Hellen roared with victory, throwing up her aching arms, victory signs from each to the stands as the Belles echoed her cry with a whooping, amazon call of their own.
You can get the whole of this story as part of the Pulp Nova collection.
Upon reflection, things were not going too well for me. The Thieves’ Brotherhood does not take kindly to interlopers or independents, and I was no exception to the rule, no matter how polite and helpful I had intended to be. That was why, I thought, they had greeted me with laughter, punched me around a little and slung me into their miserable excuse for a dungeon.
I probably didn’t look like much to them, dirty, shaggy-haired and bearded. My fine shirt was more tatters and mud than silk before I ever got to them, and my fine boots were long gone. All that was left of my finer attire was my jerkin of fine draco leather, and even that was starting to look worn. I must have seemed like a vagabond to them. Not that they were any better off than I was.
They called themselves thieves, but what I had seen so far suggested that they were little more than footpads, cut-throats and bandits. No finesse, no style, nothing to suggest the true art of thievery, and, as a result, I had spoken to them with ill-considered scorn.
I act before I think. It is a curse and a blessing. Sharp reflexes have saved me very often, but leaping before I look has caused me no end of pain in equal measure. I was forcing myself to think now, though, to consider. The cell’s bars were wooden, its walls were compacted soil. I could escape this place easily, even though they considered it their stronghold. That would not serve me though. I was here for a reason, and I had to win them over.
The soft thump of heavy men in furred boots came down the tunnel at last. Waxy yellow light from their lanterns against the wall as they came to find me.
“Rise, spy!” Muttered the talkative one, his squat, bald friend keeping to silence. I obliged them.
“Are you come to let me go?” I tried to smile at them. Friendliness is disarming and unexpected from a prisoner, and it can help, if it doesn’t just irritate your captor.
“Hah, no. Come on out, ya little piss-stain.”
Charming as always, they opened the crude bonds that held shut the wooden door and hoisted me out into the tunnel. I was perfectly capable of walking myself wherever they wanted to take me, but if they were insistent on carrying me, who was I to argue?
This was the great and terrible redoubt of the Thieves’ Brotherhood? It stank like a bear’s crotch and was darker than a Tukiri’s arsecrack. While they had captured me, the more I saw of them, the more it embarrassed me. Finally, the two lumps set me down and shoved me forward through another wooden doorway and slammed it shut behind me.
The chamber was round and well-lit, by the standards of this place. Moonlight shone down through a crack in the rock above, and sputtering torches and lamps cast an epileptic light around the place. There was another door at the far side, the ground was black dirt, and the stains and drag marks did not bode well.
I looked up and then saw them. The gathered of the Brotherhood. The chamber formed a natural amphitheatre, and they were arranged in a half circle to watch whatever fate might befall me. I obliged their sense of theatricality by standing and giving a neat bow.
“Spy,” came a hissing voice from above, echoing loudly in the bell shape of the cave. I looked up and, my eyes adjusted to the dim glow of the torches, I could see the man who spoke. A bullet head, shaven close, a face and bare chest covered in scars. His hands were bound with leather, and he sat, leaning forward on a purloined throne, worm-ridden and faded in glory. At each arm crouched a Wolf Sister, wild-eyed, hairless, teeth filed to points, bare-breasted and scarified, straining at their chains as though they wanted to tear into me. He must have had money at one point to afford such ‘pets’.
“I am no spy, great lord of thieves,” I raised my chin and my voice as I spoke out to him. “I came with an honest proposition, and your men set upon me.”
“You’re a long way from Vimana, spy,” he leaned forward with a sneer and set his hand on the head of one of the sisters, stroking her bald pate as she twisted and nudged into his hand, drool dripping from her lips. I winced.
“I am indeed, but the fact remains, I came here to deal – honest and open,” I spread my hands and bowed my head, hoping these barbarian ground-dwellers would see reason.
“None may come to our home and live, save those of the guild.”
Reason was not going to be a match for tradition, I could tell.
“Then let me join.”
That got a laugh, not just from him but the motley band around the rocky wall as well. I grinned, hoping I could ingratiate myself by being in on the joke.
Politeness was not going to do me any good either.
“Release the rats!”
The door opposite me cranked open, and I turned towards it. Rats? When one is placed in a fighting pit, one can expect many things. Dogs, wolves, half-men, bears, unspeakable things from the imaginings of deranged sorcerers, but rats?
Red eyes gleamed in the darkness and came closer. My munificent host stood and flung a bronze dagger down into the dirt before my feet.
“Let none say I am not generous,” his booming laugh filled the chamber as the rat things scurried out.
These rats were not what I had been expecting. Fourteen pounds of muscle and hatred, gleaming red eyes, teeth like hooks and shod in bronze, great scaly tails like whips. I swallowed nervously, but I left the knife where it was. I didn’t need it.
I flexed my arms, and the small blades concealed in my jacket slipped down into my hands, curved and wicked and glinting in the dark. I felt better to feel their coolness in my grip, even as the scurrying foe reached me.
One leapt, and I met it, not anticipating how heavy the beasts would be. It slammed into me and sent me staggering back, toppling off my feet and landing with a thump upon the dirt to the cheering of the Brotherhood. The rat-thing snapped and hissed, its tail slapping at me. Its brother was I knew-not-where, and I did not care with this thing snapping at my face. Its bronzed jaws snapped and bit clean through the leather of the jerkin as though it was not there. While it chewed on the strips I stabbed down with my blade, the harder metal of my dagger biting through the softer bronze and into the creature’s skull, it spasmed and thrashed against me, spurting hot blood.
“Iron!” The shout went up. They Vimanan steel, but I had no time to contradict them. The second of the hideous creatures had become enraged by the scent of blood, a pink froth at its metal mouth as it burrowed in against the body of its dead brother and tried to bite.
I twisted, desperately, pushing its litter-mate’s body into its snapping jaws. It bit down, and I heard the snap of bone; the flow of blood grew stronger. I had a moment. I had to make an impression. I took the opportunity. I brought the other dagger up, sinking it hilt deep between the foul thing’s ribs, out of sight and, swallowing back bile, I clamped my own jaws upon its throat as it thrashed and kicked.
A breath, a moment, stinking and vile, my nose in the creature’s fur. Then I stood, holding its weight, so heavy, in my mouth, letting it drop and spitting a mouthful of blood and rank fur onto the dirt.
There was a hush.
I swallowed, trying desperately not to spoil the effect by vomiting. “Is there any chance we can talk business now?”
The Wolf Sisters strained even harder on their chains, incensed by the blood, almost dragging the throne forward as that bald mass of scar tissue stood up and leaned against the wall, glowering at me.
“And just why should I let you live, spy? What is your name? What can you possibly offer us?”
“I am the Dastard, oh lord of thieves. I can offer you my iron,” I smiled slightly at that and then spoke louder, “and I can offer you gold.”
“You had no gold,” he sneered down at me, bunching those great fists against the rock.
“My lord, what good thief would offer his own gold?” I smiled again, broadly, hoping this time they would see the joke. There were a few nervous laughs, quickly stifled.
“Then whose gold would you offer us, Dastard?” His brow furrowed deep; he was weighing whether to have me killed or not.
This was when I truly needed to impress, so I drew myself up high, crossed my daggers against my chest, bowed deep and then looked him straight in the eye, across the blood, dirt and rock.
“My lord, take me into your fold, and I will give you the vault of Selim the Miser.”
I think I gave up on this story after this, but then went back to the same structure for The Dastard.
“You really climbed down into that shit pit to get a madman’s map?” Bel looked at them incredulously as the story – and the second round of beers – came to an end. The Toll was quiet tonight; there was some sort of riot at the gallows round Bloxton way, and most of the regulars had gone to try their luck looting.
“Yes,” Jape and Dinn said together with a hint of exasperation.
“The map’s real, the chance is real, we could all be rich as butter biscuits, if you’re in,” Dinn’s fist slammed down on the table, spattering spilt beer.
“Why the fuck would you want me?” Bel frowned and grumped. “I know you only keep me around because you think I’m funny as I flail around and try to get by. What good am I in all this?”
“You know people, Bel, people uptown. We’re going to need people from north and west of the river if we’re going to pull this off. We need you, mate, no horsecrap,” Dinn held Bel’s gaze.
“Plus, you can’t run for shit,” said Jape, lifting his mug. “Anything nasty is going to catch you first and give me time to get away,” he grinned and took a slug of the thin brew.
“Cunt,” said Bel, emphatically. “Alright then boys… what’re we going to need?”
Dinn sat back in his seat and leaned his head back until he was looking up at the candelabra and its fat, smoky candles, “We talked about this a bit on the way home. First thing we have to worry about is getting across the Wilderlands to the Keening Ruins, and they’re southeast of the city; none of us has been out before.”
Bel raised his hand. “I went out of the walls once, hunting, with my uncle.”
“An hour or two in a hunting reservation with a troupe of arquebusiers doesn’t really count, Bel mate,” Jape interjected between swallows of beer.
“Well, who then?”
Dinn leaned forward again, the chair rocking on its legs. “There’s that Bremma from the Watergate market. She and her father go to and from Dunlunn and Bergenholm on a regular basis, and she ain’t died yet.”
“Rare bird,” Jape muttered. “I don’t reckon she’d give us the time of day.”
***
Dinn didn’t come to the market very often; he had money for someone living in his part of town, but that wasn’t it so much. The few people who tried to scrape an honest living in River’s End tended to congregate around the market and liked to think they were better than anyone else. He could feel the disapproving glances from three streets away.
There was no choice this time though, so he thrust up his chin and marched into the market, into the tangle of barges, stalls and wagons and the deafening yells of the hawkers.
“Dove breasts! Get your dove breasts!”
“Raaaaat onna stick, raaaaaaaaaat on a stick!”
“Bergenholm ale, fresh off the cart!”
“Leather bought, sold, repaired!”
He ignored it all as best he could and fixed on his goal, the big wagon with the red tarp.
As he rolled up to it, he caught sight of Bremma. A big lass she was, broad, ‘thick’ Jape would call her. Her biceps were as big as his calf muscles, and she dressed like a boy, britches and tunic, hiding her piercing blue eyes and golden curls under a hood. She wasn’t like the street girls Dinn grew up around, but she had that same hard look, rough hands, and more scars to boot.
“You boyin’?”
It took a moment for his brain to adjust to her accent, “Buying? No. I have a proposition for you, if you’re willing to listen. There’s this treasure see…” he leaned in, conspiratorial, but from the gleam in her eye, he could already tell she was hooked.
***
“Now she might get us there, but according to the map, we’re going to have to deal with some magic. Locks, gates, guardians, that sort of thing, and I’ll be buggered if there’s a mage worth the name south of the river,” Jape’s gaze settled on Bel, who, uncharacteristically, wasn’t saying anything. “That’s your cue, Bel.”
“Oh, right, well, I suppose there’s someone I might ask. I still get to go North sometimes to visit family, but not as much as I’d like to.”
“You know a mage, then?” Dinn arched a single brow curiously, well used to Bel’s embroidering of reality.
“Sort of… he washed out of the White Tower and just kind of… exists these days. I think he might be up for it, for the money.”
***
Bel hated going north of the river. True, the houses were nicely painted, and you weren’t ankle deep in week-old excrement all the time. True, the sausages were made of beef rather than rat. True, you could go out at night without a knife and reasonably hope to get home again with all your money and no stab wounds. Still, it reminded him of what he’d lost, what his family had lost and, now that he’d seen how the other half lived, it sickened him.
Of course, anyone who knew how far Bel’s family had fallen gave him the evil eye in the street, and that was a lot of people. That didn’t make things any better for anyone. In and out, that was the ticket. He hurried through the streets as early as he dared, scurrying to his old friend’s house like a thief in the night and hammering his fist on the door.
It was a small place, for north of the river, and dilapidated. You could even see the river from here. He must be down on his luck with his family too, and that made Bel a little more hopeful.
“What fucking time is it?” Came the yawning voice through the door, after the third hammering against it.
“Three bells.”
“Come back at nine.”
“I can’t. Curfew.”
“Martyr’s shit…” the door creaked open, and a pale and flabby face peered around the edge. Rank air, stale tea and staler body-odour wafted out and made Bel pale. “Well?”
“Best if we talk inside Uno.”
“Right, whatever.”
The door swung wider open, and Bel gave it a moment to air out before he followed Uno in.
“Nice, uh… nice place.”
It wasn’t. It was a dank little hole. Three crystal balls glowed with watery images, scrying here, there and everywhere around the city. Bel thought he caught a glimpse of naked flesh before Uno shut them all down with a wave of his hand and sat on the mound of rags he called a bed.
Bel chose to lean against the dresser, drawers open, piled with muck. Starting away when the red-skinned little demonette in the tiny cage jabbed him in the arse with her miniature pitchfork.
“Ow… fuck…”
“Bel, come on, man, what do you want? If you don’t spit it out, I’m going back to bed and you can scurry back to River’s End as a squirrel.”
“Well, we’ve got this map…”
***
“Supposing we get those two, we’re still going to need someone who can handle locks, traps, and machinery. You know all those old tomb sites and ruins are packed to the gills with things that’ll stab, poison or crush you,” Bel’s voice took on more of a whining tone the more likely this foolhardy expedition seemed to get.
“You ain’t going to get a locksmith cheap,” Dinn mused, stroking his chin with his fingertips. “Unless…” his head turned pointedly towards Jape.
“Oh no. Not a fucking chance,” Jape shook his head. “None of them are cheap, and that includes her.”
“She might help you, for old time’s sake.”
“Who?” Bel blinked at them both, this part of the conversation soaring over his head like a lazy falcon.
“Sys. Jape’s first true love,” Dinn snorted. “You did always say she was good with her hands.”
“Shut the fuck up. I dumped her, remember? She’s not going to want to do dick for me, for us.”
“Well, the other tinkers aren’t going to go for it, are they? She’s pretty much all we have. Use your charm Jape, convince her.”
***
“Oh fuck don’t cry,” Jape held out his hands by his sides and rolled his eyes skyward.
“I loved you, you bastard!” Sys screamed at him through a face full of tears and snot.
“You’re crazy! I couldn’t deal with it!” Jape shouted back and then checked himself. She was making a scene here on the street, and people were coming out of their windows and onto their balconies to watch, listen, and pass comment.
“There was nothing I wouldn’t have done for you!” She came at him, little but tough, a whirlwind of hair and fists and tears.
“That’s the problem, you had your own ideas about what that meant! You never bothered to ask me!” He held her off as best he could, one hand on her head, keeping her tiny five-foot frame away from him like a child. “Breaking into my fucking house, hiding there, stealing shit and giving it to me. The watch nearly arrested me, you blood klepto!”
“I thought you liked gold!”
“I do! Just not like that!”
“What do you want then, just here to use me and cast me aside again?” She sniffled and wiped the snot away from her nose with the back of her hand. She’d never looked less attractive to Jape in his life, even the night they broke up and she tried to stab him.
“We’ve got this job, a treasure hunt, down in the Keening, we, Dinn, at least, think you’re the right person for the job.”
“Dinn huh? Not you?”
“Dinn. I didn’t want you along.”
“Bastard. Fine then. I’ll come and listen. Where do I need to be?”
“My place,” Jape turned and began to walk away at a fast clip, calling back over his shoulder. “You know the way, you’ve broken in enough times.”
“Jape! Wake up, you fuckin’ spanner!” Dinn shook Jape’s inert body, desperately trying to ignore the mistweed scattered beside the bed in the vain hope that pretending Jape hadn’t smoked himself out of his gourd would mean he hadn’t.
“Muh?” When awakened at stupid o’clock in the morning, Jape was not his usual, articulate self by any stretch of the imagination.
Dinn growled to himself and cast about for something to help wake Jape up. It wasn’t easy. Jape’s interior decorator appeared to have been a colour-blind magpie with poor impulse control. If it was shiny, expensive or might conceivably impress a girl, Jape had to have it in spades. Dinn considered the chamberpot for a moment, but decided that was a step too far, so he just punched Jape in the nuts.
Jape gave a startled girlish scream, eyes wide open, body doubled and then fell off his bed onto the floor with a thump.
“What the fuck, man? My balls? You punch me in my balls to get me up?”
“It’s important, besides, your sister could do with a break while your balls heal up.”
“I pimp her, I don’t fuck her, you prancing gaylord,” Jape hauled himself back up onto the bed. “Martyr’s blood, my fucking balls, man. You don’t do that!”
“It was that or the chamberpot,” Dinn carefully moved aside a stack of erotic woodcuts and hefted himself down into one of Jape’s woodworm-infested – but very expensive-looking – chairs.
“Fair enough then. What time is it?” Jape scrambled around for his clothes and started to pull them on, thankfully.
“Not long past two bells.”
Jape turned back to him with a scowl and pronounced, in his best faux-noble accent: “’Tis an ungodly hour.” The posh accent didn’t last but a few seconds. “What’s so fucking important, you whoresson?”
Dinn leaned back in the chair, which let out a dangerous creak. The woodworm had had an industrious couple of months, it seemed. “You remember Reik?”
“Reik? The mad old mudlark? Stinks worse than sewage? No teeth? Always going on about his ‘treasure map’? What about him?”
Dinn leaned forward again, ignoring the splintering sound coming from one of the chair legs. “I reckon it’s true and I reckon we can get his map.”
Jape just looked at him. “You punch me in the balls and get me up at two bells to go and rob a homeless old fuck who lives in mud? Come on, he’s just a fucking loony, everybody knows it.”
Dinn spread his hands. “That’s what I thought, right up until tonight.”
“And what changed your mind?”
“Gale and her little gang decided to have a bit of fun with him. They caught him down Dagon Alley, near the Spitting Bridge and gave him a choice. Give up the map, or they’d cut his cock off.”
“And?”
“And they cut his cock off. He might have been loopy, but he really believed in that map.”
Jape winced and cradled his crotch. “I know how he felt. Except I believe in my dick more than treasure. I don’t think I could enjoy treasure without it. So where’s his map then?”
“Presumably still on his body. Once they’d sawn his cock off, they didn’t have much use for him. I saw the Ashmen loading the body up for the trench.”
“And where do I come in?” Jape began hunting around for his shoes, the adrenaline from the testicular alarm clock wearing off as he yawned and rummaged.
“You used to go grave-diving, didn’t you, as a sprat?”
Jape gave a weary sigh and began to change again, finding old clothes and old boots and tossing a clothes-peg over to Dinn, who snatched it, neatly, out of the air.
“For your nose, and I get a double-share, you ball-punching twat.”
***
“Martyr’s bones, what a stench!” Dinn had a peg securely on his nose, but the stink here was a physical thing. It got into your skin, wrapped around your throat and half-heartedly strangled you like a lazy python.
“It’s full of bodies, you tit. What did you think the trench would smell of?”
This was as south as the city went. No wall here. No enemy would be stupid enough to try to attack through the trench. It was a stinking heap, a rotting pile of refuse, bodies and offal. Anyone and anything that was done with and nobody cared about ended up here. Loosely sorted, more by luck than judgement, and left for the undiscriminating gulls.
While Dinn noisily threw up, which improved the smell a little, Jape relived some of his childhood. “Found some great stuff down here. The Westerfields throw out all kinds of great stuff most people wouldn’t. You can cut the hair off the corpses and sell it to rope makers. Sometimes…” he laughed while Dinn was trying to spit the taste out of his mouth, “…sometimes you’d even find a gold tooth.”
“Priceless childhood memories,” Dinn wiped his mouth with the back of his hand. “How do we get down?”
Jape rolled his eyes and slid down into the muck, sending up a cloud of angry seagulls in a squawking explosion of rage and affronted dignity. Dinn double-checked his nose-peg and followed.
The side was slick with gods knew what, and they tumbled into a soft pile of gods didn’t want to know what. The gulls circled overhead and landed all around them, just out of arm’s reach, having learned over generations just how hungry Dunlunn’s poor could get. Jape grabbed Dinn’s hand and hoisted him up, wading through the ghastly muck.
“For a gussied-up nonce, you’re at home in this shit,” Dinn wiped his hand on his tunic and slogged after him.
“There’s no way you can stay clean here, so why should I give a shit at all? Right, if they dumped him last night, he should be… over there.”
Pointing across the stinking trench was one thing; getting there was another. It was a desperate scramble across dunes of oyster shells, pits stuffed with animal bones and the foothills of corpse mountain.
“I see him,” Dinn pointed up the side of the bodies, stacked like firewood, dry heaving to get the words out.
“Right, give me a bunk up,” Jape turned, grinning, foul muck plastered on his face, his teeth bright in the filth, but the grin quickly faded as his eyes tracked down. “Oh, never mind.”
“What?”
“Don’t look down.”
“Ugh.”
“Don’t move yet, I’ll get it.”
Jape scrambled up the side of the bodies like a spider and hooked the old, dead, crazy bastard down with a splat onto the ground and then helped Dinn get his boot out of a stray ribcage. “You know where he hid it?”
“Where’s a crazy street bum going to hide anything?” Dinn shrugged and flipped the body over.
“Eww, fuck, I’m not touching that.”
“We’ve just waded through fuck knows how much gunk, climbed a pile of corpses, and you don’t want to touch an old man’s arse?” Dinn sighed and got out his knife, yanking down the rags around the old man’s hips. It was Jape’s turn to gag while Dinn sawed away. Blood didn’t bother him any, he’s spilt enough of it in brawls and street fights, and this wasn’t the first arsehole that’d needed stabbing.
“Got it. Let’s get the fuck out of here.”
Getting out wasn’t as easy as getting in. They were slippery now, clutching this little nugget of shit-covered ivory, a tiny scroll-case that they hoped, after all this, would be worth it all. The sides of the trench were slippery as hell, and while Jape had the agility to scramble up, Dinn had strength, but that wasn’t much help here and by the time he’d clawed his way to the top, he was huffing like an asthmatic and flopped over onto his back, panting.
Jape appeared between him and the sky. “Bath house, my treat, then we can snag Bel and see what we’ve got, yeah?”
“Can’t… Move.”
Jape’s face broke into a great big grin, and he drove his knuckles into Dinn’s crotch, eliciting a squeal that set off the pigs in the nearby slaughterhouse. “Wakey fucking wakey dickhead.”
Dinn rolled over and got up onto his feet, slowly, unsteadily, hobbling, waddling his way down the street, leaning his weight on Jape’s shoulder. “I didn’t hit you that hard, you cunt.”
“Yeah, but you’re a big tough guy, you can take it.”
He’s late, but she doesn’t complain. It’s an old dance now, between the two of them. The late nights, the lost weekends, out on his work. She doesn’t know, she doesn’t want to know and that suits both of them just fine. He plays the role of the provider, she plays the role of the dutiful wife, they share a few words at breakfast, a few words at night, a bed, and that’s all.
He hangs his coat on the hook while she fusses in the kitchen. He hasn’t the heart to tell her that he’s already eaten. The meat sits heavy in his stomach, making him full, sluggish as he loosens his tie and sits down, ready to do his best.
While her back is turned, he picks the little bit of gristle from between his teeth and hides it. Offering her a faint, tired smile as she slides his plate in front of him and sits opposite, a smile plastered to her face, though her eyes look harassed. Some book or other she read told her to smile, and so she does.
The knife cuts the steak. He takes his time, cutting it into pieces, arranging it on his plate in the faint hope that the extra time will allow his stomach to digest the meat already in his stomach. To make room.
It doesn’t.
The steak is overdone, his fault for being late. He eats it slowly, nodding along to the few things she says. Telling her that he’s tired, that he has a few more things to do before bed. It takes him an age, and his jaw is tired by the end of it, but he finishes his meal and kisses her before he shuffles off to his office.
She doesn’t come into the office. Nobody does. It’s his one safe place. His sanctuary from the house and the world. His ‘work room’, the work she never asks about. He closes the door behind him and twists the lock shut.
It’s not a big room, this sanctuary. A desk, a small bookcase, a computer and The Wall. He stops at The Wall and brushes his fingers over the yellowing and curling paper. The heater makes the paper age faster here, but he sort of likes it; it makes things seem older and more distant. Historical.
Each article is a dead man or woman, their bodies, or parts of their bodies at least, found. Suggestions, hints, daring allusions to the fact that some might have been eaten. Other articles, items, from the Sunday papers, series on human monsters, Fish, Chikalito, Dahmer, Meiwes, arranged around these more local, more recent cases.
He stifles a belch with his fist and pats his chest, stepping across the room and pulling the little bookcase away from the wall. This is his sanctum sanctorum, his hiding place, the holiest of holies. A place he can safely keep his special things.
He kneels down and pulls out the stack of papers with care and reverence, leafing through them. Safer to have them on paper than in a computer these days. He clicks on the lamp and flips through the stack, ashamed and excited at the same time.
The top page, his favourite, a crude black and white drawing, pixelated, expanded to fill the page. A depiction of a woman impaled on a spit, impossibly still alive, a fire burning under her while a man, the ‘cook’, has his way with her helpless body.
He bites his lip, hating himself as he leafs through the stack, dozens of depictions, torture, killing, cannibalism, women being eaten by snakes, toads, monsters from mythology and from the twisted minds of the artists who have lovingly depicted a hundred, a thousand, devouring ends. Vore, Dolcett, Guro, why does he love it so? He doesn’t know, he just does. A single image fascinating him for hours and invading his dreams.
He’s aroused now, the need overcoming the shame, but he’s determined to hold out. Hurriedly, he stuffs the papers back into the hole in the wall and drags the bookcase back into place, realises there are tears on his cheeks and wipes them away self-consciously, even though he’s alone.
He sits heavily in the chair before the computer and powers it on. The flat screen lighting up and filling the room with a pale glow as the drives clatter away. He peels an old Post-it note from under the desk and opens a browser window, into a proxy, tapping in the numbers he reads off the paper, numbers he knows, but checks every time.
It’s a primitive forum, old by internet standards. No graphics, no user icons even, just text. That’s all they need. Here they share stories, fantasies, the dark and the forbidden. He scans the titles one by one, eyes flickering in the dark from one to the next.
NEW: Devoured by a demon – 1 NEW: Scalding in the pot – 1,2 NEW: Eat my tits – 1,2 NEW: Donor’s Rights? – 1,2,3,4,5 NEW: Blood Sausage – 1 NEW: What about clones? – 1 NEW: Mad Cow Disease? – 1 NEW: Cannibal Holocaust (Redux) – 1, 2, 3
Then he sees it, the little ‘x’ to mark a private message and he opens it up.
From: MeatGirl69 To: DaddyCook1971 I’ve seen you on the forums, talking. You always seem to be the voice of reason, and your intelligence and your comments shine through every time. I think, from things you’ve said, that we live near each other, and I would like to meet. Maybe I can be your donor, maybe you can be mine, maybe we can have someone who understands, in the flesh, to talk about these things.
She leaves an address and a time. Tomorrow night. She makes it so easy for him. He feels that strange combination again: fear, arousal, shame, excitement. He closes the window, shuts down the computer and shuffles up the stairs to bed. Heaving into it, he leans over, hips back so she can’t tell he’s aroused. He kisses her, once, on the neck, aching to bite, but he can’t and he won’t.
He sleeps little. The address burned into his mind, dancing before his eyes until the sun begins to crest the horizon. He shouldn’t go. Not again.
***
It’s not a hotel, it’s a house out in the suburbs. He drives, precisely because so few people do in the city. The boot is filled with his things. Plastic bags, plastic gloves, a change of clothes, all the tools, everything he might need.
The club sits heavy in his pocket. An old-style truncheon, buried deep, a reassuring weight, familiar at his side. He sits in the car and smooths back his thinning hair, building up the courage. His hands are trembling as he forces them to obey, wrenches open the door and walks briskly to the front door through the drifting mist of autumn drizzle.
No bell, just a knocker. He clenches his fist to still the trembling and raps it three times, smartly against the door. He tastes bile, his stomach spinning with tension, his whole body rigid as the door opens, safe on its security chain. A single eye peers up through the gap at him, a quiet voice, almost lost against the wind. “Daddy?”
“Meat?”
They both nod to each other, and she fiddles with the chain.
“My real name is…”
She cuts him off, opening the door, shaking her head. “We don’t need to know, Daddy. These names are the real us anyway, right?” She’s so quiet, timid, a slip of a thing really, with close-cropped hair, neat little breasts under a white blouse, that draws his gaze immediately. Shorts, bare feet. She barely opens her mouth when she talks, a tight-lipped smile and doleful eyes, perhaps as nervous as he is.
He steps inside and closes the door, follows her, glancing down, watching her hips, watching her body, imagining her naked and… that shame and excitement hits him again, makes him giddy, dizzy, he almost stumbles.
“Do you want to talk or…?” So quiet, he has to strain to hear her; that little-girl lisp to her voice is almost endearing.
“Or,” he says emphatically.
She shivers at the way he says it. “Do you want to… eat me… or do you want to be… eaten?” Her eyes are wide, staring, is it fear, is it hunger, what is it?
“I want…” he swallows back the acid taste in his mouth as he speaks the forbidden. “I want you… to eat me.”
She takes his hand; her touch is light, but cold. She pulls him by the finger towards another room, gently urging him behind her, then ahead of her, through the door, sliding in behind him and closing it with a click.
He stops and looks around, blinking his eyes. Every wall, the floor, and even the ceiling is covered in plastic sheeting. Stapled to the moulding and the skirting board, pinned to the Artex. The room has a single furnishing. A mattress, under more plastic, an elegant and expensive set of chef’s knives lying on it in an open case.
“This is my dream room,” she says, quietly behind him. “Where I come to think about these things.”
“I have somewhere the same.”
“How do you want to…?”
He heaves a deep sigh and slides his hands into his pockets. Strangely more ashamed now than he had been in the sanctuary, or fumbling with himself over pixelated blood, imaginary flesh and bone. “I’ve changed my mind.”
She stares at him, blank incomprehension and there, beneath the little-girl-lost act, a flash of anger. Her lips are still pressed tight, but she’s no longer smiling, her hands behind her as she glowers, sneering out the words. “You can’t change your mind.”
“Meat… this is just supposed to be a fantasy, a kink. You’ve crossed a line into madness,” he raises his gaze to meet hers, but the act is entirely worn away now; she’s furious.
“You told me you wanted this. You came to me. You consented. You’re a donor,” her mouth opens now as she hisses at him, and he blanches. Her teeth are filed to points.
“And the others. I bet they were donors too. Did they change their minds? Did they really consent?” His voice is harder now. His fist winds around the truncheon and holds it tight, white knuckled.
There’s a ripping sound. A blade, hidden beneath her blouse. She bares those sharp teeth and brings it up like a dagger, a Japanese sushi knife, trailing ribbons of duct tape.
Time seems to slow down as he yanks the truncheon out of his pocket and throws up his arm to ward off the knife. She comes at him like a furie, screaming like an animal. Her blade’s so sharp he doesn’t feel the cut. A razor’s edge parting his suit, his skin, his flesh, but it doesn’t stop him. The hard length of the truncheon catches her in the throat, and she goes down, the scream abruptly cut off, replaced by choking, dropping the knife as she struggles to breathe and claws at her own neck.
He pins her, strip-binds her wrists and kneels on her. Middle-aged weight holding her down as hot, wet blood runs down his arm. Absently, he licks at the salty-copper while she gasps like a landed fish under him, and he fumbles for his mobile phone.
One call to the station and this is all over. Following a lead on the Internet. Plaudits, promotion, newspaper articles, talk shows, and interviews in magazines. He’ll be a hero.
She struggles weakly beneath him, and the taste of blood fills his mouth with metal.
Almost touching the call button, his thumb hovers.
A writing exercise in creating the most unlikable group of heroes possible, meeting in the most stereotypical way possible.
In the eastern part of Dunlunn, where the slums meet the stinking river, there’s a pub: The Toll. The Toll is a shitty place, but it belongs to the people of the river’s end, and while they haven’t got two pennies to rub together, they’re proud of the one penny they do have. The beer is piss, but it’s safer than the water and, more importantly, it’s a place where the gangs and the mobs, the brawlers, the dealers, the pimps and whores can meet without slitting each other’s throats.
There are three likely lads at the coveted corner table, slurping the pissy beer because they don’t know any better and shooting the shit as boys are wont to do.
Dinn’s a geezer, born into the river’s end and the descendant of thieves, liars, cheats, killers and bastards as far back as anyone cares to check. He’s ambitious. He’s dangerous. He’s gotten about as far as someone of his age and prospects can go, and he wants more.
Jape’s a spiv, greasier than a frying pan, slick as oil. Nothing sticks to him. He deals drugs, he scams, he cheats. He’d pimp his own sister for a thrupenny bit, and two pence of that would go to him. In fact, it has.
Bel is what might charitably be called a fucking disaster and less charitably called a ‘silly bollocks’. His dad made a bad bet with the wrong people and had to move down to River’s End after he paid his debts and lost his job. Bel tries to fit in, but he can’t hide the schooling he’s had or his soft nature, no matter how hard he tries. If it wasn’t for Dinn and Jape, he’d be dead ten times over.
“I need more.” that’s what Dinn’s saying, swirling his beer more than he’s drinking it. “Prospects is what I’m talking about. I want to move up in the world.”
“We’ve got prospects!” Jape’s trying to reassure him; he’s got his life all mapped out. “A couple of years and you’ll be a big man. Those streets’ll be your manor. You know it, and I know it. As for me? I’m going to get myself a nice little brothel and live out the rest of my life surrounded by fine women and other people’s money.”
“You guys wouldn’t get anywhere north of the river.” This is probably the only thing that Bel has any seniority on. The only thing he can talk about that the others don’t know better than he does.
Jape’s not convinced. “I can act sophistimacated. Rich people have got to fuck and snort as much as anyone else, right?”
“Yeah, but you think anyone who lives near The White Tower is going to pay out for your sister’s minge when they can rent a succubus from the Collegiate?”
“My sister’s minge,” sniffs Jape, straightening his back, “is choice mate. Choice. Don’t knock it until you’ve tried it.”
“Shut up, you two. I’m fucking serious.”
“So am I.” Says Jape. “We’ve got it as good as we can hope to get it here. Why risk it?”
“There’s got to be more. Someone’s got to get out of this shithole from time to time. What about Drek Stonekiller?”
“You’re not serious, you’re mad,” Bel’s got an opinion about everything. “Drek got lucky, that’s all. You know how many people never come back from the wilderlands?”
“Ah, but those who do come back,” Dinn’s nothing if not persistent, “are rich as hell.”
“Rich alone won’t do it,” Bel knows, he’s been there. “Money can’t make your blood blue or make up for where you come from. They’re stuck-up cunts up there. Only way to win ’em over is to be a hero.”
“A hero?” Dinn’s eyes have a faraway look as he tastes the word. It’s not one you hear often in River’s End.
This had been provisionally accepted for an anthology on the theme of ‘succubi’ but fell at the last hurdle. Given the currently nebulous future of erotic publishing, even though this isn’t transgressive and is more about the figurative rather than the literal succubus, I present it here for you to read if you’re so inclined. Needless to say, adult material and all that.
I stare into the gaze of the hollow-eyed man. Rangy, thin and pale, he doesn’t look well, but he does look focused. There’s a yearning there, a determination, a hint of fire and passion that his appearance doesn’t reflect. His hair hangs around his shoulders, tangled and clinging to a body that stubbornly refuses to give in, like his mind. His face bristles with whiskers, grown over weeks, unkempt tufts sticking out here and there as it transitions from the mere ‘unshaven’ to the ‘beard’.
I raise my hand to my chin and pull it down, over my mouth, stroking through that rough growth.
The man in the mirror does the same.
I let the water run until it is warm, not hot. Cold or hot would stir me awake, and that is the last thing that I want. Then I wouldn’t be able to see her for a while. The warm water tastes foul, who knows how long it has been lurking in the hot water tank, but it quenches my thirst and makes me feel more alive, more capable, more human.
Every day, I dream her a little closer, and I see her a little longer. Every day she seems… she feels a little more real. Like Lady Luck, she cannot be courted, cannot be invoked, cannot be summoned and cannot be relied upon. She must just be allowed to come in her own time, on her own terms and in her own way.
The water is hot now, spiralling away into the sink. I soak the flannel in it, rubbing soap against its rough surface until it froths. Then I wash. I turn my arms this way and that, run the warm cloth under my armpits, cleaning away the stale sweat she leaves me with. Water drips down my downy chest and trickles lower, over my belly. The delicate tickle of its passage makes me think of her caresses, and I bite my lip at the memory until it hurts, a shiver moving through my cock as the memory comes alive and the flesh follows the mind.
I push the flannel lower and wrap its damp warmth around me like echoes of her soaking heat. I lift my heavy, aching balls and lather them, making myself clean for her. Weighing that twitching shaft in my hand, I stroke it, groaning at the feeling, the warmth, the wetness, the slickness of the soap.
I stop…
I want her, not the memory of her. If I come, she won’t. I ache with need, and my fist moves of its own accord, wrapping around me and pushing down, but it’s her I want. I lean against the cold smoothness of the sink and give a guttural groan of abject frustration. My own touch feels good, but it’s nothing compared to hers, and so, by sheer force of will, I stop. I bite down on the inside of my cheek, using the pain to distract me from the growing throb between my legs.
I toss the flannel aside with a wet slap and a spray of droplets. Then I turn, naked and uncaring, pacing, ungainly from the swollen, heavy rod between my legs. I catch sight of my ridiculous shadow, wagging like the tail of some lazy dog, and I cannot help but laugh at myself as I move to the bed.
This is where she comes to me, this is where we are one. I run my hand along the neat lines of the bed, the only thing in this whole flat that is neat and tidy any longer. Today, there are clean sheets on the bed. Cool and smooth. I luxuriate in their feel against my skin as I slide beneath the covers and stretch my arms and legs, joints popping with the tense anticipation and hope that I will see her again, spreading through me.
It’s day outside right now. Sunlight peeks around the heavy curtain and threatens to keep me awake. I hear the distant and constant rumble of traffic, and I listen to people talking to one another as they pass by my window. I try to put it out of my mind. I close my eyes, and these distractions begin to fade away one by one. I concentrate, instead, upon the girl of my dreams.
She is never the same twice. She comes like mist in the shadows of your dream, ever changing, always wonderful. I never truly see her, I feel her. She is everything and nothing to me. If you try to hold onto her, she vanishes like smoke. I know it’s her, every time, though she never feels the same, never smells the same, never tastes the same.
She’s Page 3 of The Sun; she’s a rap star’s music video. She’s Nancy from primary school, who was the first to get breasts. She’s Helen with the short skirt from science class, who made you fail your tests. She’s every lover you have ever had or ever wanted, everyone you knew, imagined or wanted. Every film star, every pretty stranger on the train, everything you ever desired. If you’re strong, she gives way, soft and fluid beneath you, warm and wet and eager to please, worshipping you with her flesh. If you hesitate, she takes. She can be demanding and forceful if that’s what you desire. She places your hands on her body, tells you how to touch, how to lick, what to take, and she mounts you with abandoned and shameless ease in a way that no other woman can.
She’ll indulge any fantasy, do anything you want, push your limits and let you be who you really are, even if you don’t know who you are or what you want. She’ll push you to, and then over the edge. She’ll catch you and forgive you for anything you’ve done. She doesn’t care.
My cock aches, uncomfortable now with all these thoughts racing in my head. My flesh tents the sheet, the cool bordering on painful against my swollen glans as I twitch with every heartbeat against the fabric. I turn, lying on my side instead, that girthy length slapping against my thigh. I try to relax, try to be calm, to ignore the yearning need that sits in my stomach like a rock, making my balls feel leaden.
All of me is fixed, focused, concentrated on that ache between my legs, on the throbbing weight that presses back against my belly, but I close my eyes and try to clear my thoughts. I start to count down from a hundred, eyes closed, lips gently moving, letting my limbs grow heavy, breathing slow and steady and pressing my head deeper into the pillows.
Somewhere I lose count, and then she’s there, in the velvet shadow of the dream. There’s nothing but blackness, and yet I can feel her presence; I know she’s there.
Her hands slide around me from behind, slender fingers play over my skin, and I ease back against her. She’s soft, but slender, the heat of her belly presses against my rump, and her thigh caresses my hip as she winds around me, soft and gentle as silk. I feel her breath against my neck, then her lips, parted perfectly, slide along my chin, and she peppers my chest with kisses, her fingertips tracing the ancient patterns of need and adoration across my skin.
I feel her breasts, soft and smooth as they sway against my chest, and my excitement rises. I draw her before me with sudden strength and feel her curves. Her breasts swell into my hands, heavier, rounder, arched up with her back; there’s a gasp that I sense rather than hear. Turgid, thick nipples press to my palms as I bear her down into the blackness with a force that surprises me, but not her. She knows me better than I know myself. She plays to me, arching and opening her body to me until I push and claim her, clutching her flesh to mine as the hot, buttery heat of her swallows me whole and takes me deep within her.
She laughs, she clutches, she pulls. I feel her hair as I drive into her and bury my face in her neck. Her legs twine around me, her heels pull at my hips, drawing me deeper. I cannot see her, but I can feel her in my mind’s eye. She is dark tonight, heavy, rich, curved, exotic and sweet. She is molasses, she is caramel, she is oil beneath me. There are no words; words are unnecessary between us. She burns like fire, and her nails dig into my hips, as she hisses and her body rises to meet me, tells me all I’ll ever need to know.
I don’t make love to her.
We don’t fuck.
I take her, and she possesses me.
I dive into her and lose myself in her. I let myself vanish into arms, her legs, her ample bosom. Her breasts smother me, and I bite and suckle at their tender curves. My body moves until we’re soaked with sweat, until the unshaped darkness around us is dripping from our heat. I can feel her body grasp me, I can smell the scent of jasmine rising from her flesh, mingling with the honey-sweetness of her matchless cunt.
We turn and twist, our bodies one. One moment, she is beneath me on her back, the next on her hands and knees, lifting her body to mine like an animal. We tangle and untangle, writhe and twist, knot our limbs, our hands, our bodies into one.
I roll, and she rides me now, clutching my hands, bracing against them. Her hips in a deep, writhing roll that I have only felt once in my waking life. The most perfect sensation I have ever felt. She is glorious, she is everything, she is all I ever want. If only this moment could last forever.
Already I feel her slipping away, becoming less real, less substantial. Our union takes on a desperation with that revelation, clutching heat as her body tries to anchor mine. There’s a speed, a passion, a force that we’ve never had with each other before. Her nails dig harder into the backs of my hands and draw blood, not that I care. My hips rise and buck to those churning, broad hips, fierce with the need for release, grimacing like a beast beneath her.
I’ve never cum inside her. She swallows me, she tugs the straining ropes of seed from me into the darkness, she takes my passion on her belly, her breasts, her back, lets me mark her mine. She never, ever lets me fill her.
Until now.
Now her hips push down until I can be no deeper, we’re so close we’re one flesh. Her cunt clenches my cock like a fist, and she kisses me, hard, upon the mouth.
Time stops.
She tastes like whisky; smoky, hot, sweet. Her lips are like fire, her tongue electric. I feel like I’m engulfed within her, rooted within her, that nothing exists for her but me.
The Gordian knot in my belly, insoluble to anyone but her, is slashed. The weight, the tension I’ve been carrying and resisting unfurls, unleashes and unwinds in a sudden explosion, and I strain upwards, crying my joy into her mouth as my cock leaps inside her with a muscular jerk. Gush upon gush, I empty myself into her, giving her my all, straining to wring every drop, every iota of my desire into her body, to show her my adoration with nothing but my cum. I rise so hard, so desperate that her body is nearly thrown from me, her knees digging into my sides as she holds onto me oh-so-hard.
She lays her panting body against me as time starts again, skin tacking to skin, keeping us one. She’s smaller now, petite, almost girlish. She’s curled upon my chest like a kitten, kissing and licking the beads of sweat from my chest as though my cum had not been enough. I can barely feel her now. She’s becoming insubstantial, fading into the darkness, becoming a part of it again, slipping away from me. My heart aches at the parting as she fades with one last kiss, and my sleep-gummed eyes open to the dim shade of my room again.
I blink, trying to clear my eyes and focus. I lay on my back, staring up in the half-light at the crinkled curves of my ceiling. The sheets are dry, but I feel drained and spent, satisfied for this precious moment, but my cock and my belly are wet, sticky, hot. My hand slides down, and my finger runs along the slick length of me before it draws back out.
This is just an early draft of the first part. The whole story can be read as part of the neo-pulp collection, Pulp Nova.
Genealogy, that’s the thing. People like to know where they came from, who they’re related to, what their heritage is, and what it means to be them. It’s nonsense, of course, who we came from doesn’t make our destiny, doesn’t dictate what we do. Still, my mother’s always been kind of insistent about this sort of thing and about our roots, nostalgic for ‘merrie old England,’ and she always hit a brick wall when we got back as far as that. I wasn’t going to pass up a free trip to England, and so, here I was.
I’d wasted as much time as possible in London. I came from a small New England town, and life in the big city fascinated me. I’d never even been as far as New York before, let alone somewhere as exciting and foreign as London. They spoke English at least, and that meant I wasn’t completely out of my depth as I would have been in Paris or Berlin. It also meant I had a really good time out drinking and seeing the sights, but sooner or later, I had to get off my ‘arse’ and set about what mom wanted.
I’d rented a car and headed out, following the ancient map my mom had given me. It didn’t even have all the roads marked on it that were signposted, and as I drove deeper and deeper into the countryside and nearer and nearer the coast, I began to wonder if it even existed.
Out of season, it was cheaper, that was one thing, but outside the city, England was not the rolling green hills I’d been led to expect. Britain has this peculiar quality sometimes, where everything is grey. The sky is a cool slate grey, the mist swirling around you is the same, and when you see the sea, it’s the same damn colour. Top to bottom, grey to the point where it seems to stretch away into infinity, and you can’t tell where you are or even how blind you’ve become.
I finally found the turning that was supposed to lead to the village. Mom was on a mission to have me find the old church records so we could trace the family further back. Maundbury – my home town – took its name from this village. Early settlers weren’t too creative with the names when they first came to America. Our settlers were particularly lazy, not even bothering to put a ‘New’ in front of it when they founded the place.
The road, such as it was, was now more of a track, and this did not bode well. The car bounced and shuddered along, wreathed in mist, and I was shaken nearly out of my seat. Suddenly, the road fell away in front of me, vanishing into nothingness, and it was all I could do to bring the bone-shaking car to a halt, the front wheels mere inches from falling away into the unknown darkness.
With my heart in my mouth, I opened the door and stepped out into the swirling grey. The wind was blowing from behind me, weakly, out to sea. I could hear the waves, some distance below, washing against the shore, and if I crouched, I could find the very edge of the cliff, tufted with sickly grass, but there was no way to see the sea or how high up I was from the ground. The only way to tell where anything was was the misty glow of the car’s headlights, and further away, off the road, a distant, glowing porch light.
Perhaps I’d taken a turning too soon, and the one I’d wanted had been the next one, but I daren’t try to move the car in this mist. I reached in and turned off the engine, cutting the lights and leaving the car behind. I’d have no choice but to wait for it to clear and, hopefully, get some help moving it when it did.
The ground was soft and crumbly, like a hard cheese, under my feet as I trudged. Swirling mist clinging to my hair and clothes and making them damp as the distant glowing light slowly resolved itself into the shape of a run-down Victorian house, weathered by the rain and the salt with rotting window frames and mould-speckled glass. Simultaneously hopeful and worrying was the sight of a sun-faded sign in the window of the door marked ‘rooms available’.
A glance at my watch told me it was only eight in the evening, but it felt much later. I’d hoped for a pub or an inn to stay at, but there were no other lights around, and this seemed to be the only place to go. I hammered my hand against the door and stepped back to wait, trying to put on my best all-American smile for whoever opened the door.
The door opened sideways, and the rush of hot air that issued forth was almost stifling compared to the cold air without. I blinked and smiled and smiled and blinked again and gave my best and most cheerful “Hi!”
The person who stood there in the light was a wizened little dwarf of a man. All hunch and hair with the occasional, sparse little cluster of red hair in the snow-white of his beard and sea-green eyes that peered up at me from the depths of constellations of wrinkles.
“Can I ‘elp you?” He leaned against the door, seeming pretty confident for an old man confronting a stranger on his doorstep.
“My car’s stuck,” I shrugged apologetically. “I was hoping that, perhaps, I might be able to get a room tonight until I can get it sorted out tomorrow?”
“Of course you can, come on in before you catch your death,” the old man’s face creaked into a smile, and he stepped aside to let me in.
The air outside was a soaking blanket of cold, but inside it was steamy and hot. The moment I crossed the threshold, sweat began to pour down my back. The place was cramped; it even looked like the walls were sweating. Ancient central heating rattled away as I stood, taking in the Bible verses on the walls and the peeling wallpaper.
“Got nothing with you?” The old man led the way to the stairs and the threadbare carpet that covered them.
It took him an interminable time to climb the steps, and the moving shadow caught my eye as I replied, a pair of feminine shadows watching me from the hallway below.
“It’s back in the car. I won’t be able to find it until the morning. Not to worry, so long as I can have a shower, it’ll be alright.”
“Bath.”
“What?”
“No shower, just a bath.”
“Oh, that will be alright.”
The women’s faces were framed by red hair, one old, one young, staring unsettlingly until they slid out of sight when we finally reached the landing. The floorboards bent under my weight as the old man shuffled up to one of the doors.
“Here we are, mister…?”
“Bremer, John Bremer,” I smiled at him again and assured him I’d be alright and that I’d take breakfast in the morning. All but slamming the strange old gnome’s own door in his face as I escaped into the room.
The room stank of damp, and the window frame was crumbling and stained black. The single pane windows rattled as the draught wended its way out through the frame, and the bed had the firmness and the wet smell of the unused. It groaned as I sat on it, and I knew how it felt as I flipped on the bedside light – it barely made any difference.
Mark 1:17 peered down at me from one wall, gilt, in a frame and an old, local map glared down from the other, showing the peninsula we were on ‘The Tongue’ and the village, on the part of the peninsula that didn’t seem to be there any longer. Was Maundbury even there any longer? Was this all that was left? This whole trip was a bust. Mom was going to be pissed, but if the village wasn’t even there, there was nothing to be done.
Looking out the window told me nothing more than it had before. Outside the glass, the whole world was a sea of grey, making it seem as if the house were the only thing that existed, and the only sounds were the distant wash of the sea and the constant, unpredictable rattle of the heating. No television, no radio, it seemed odd. I wondered if they were gathered below me, in silence, listening up towards the ceiling.
Whatever the case, I wasn’t going anywhere until morning. So I slept. Swathed in mist, surrounded by Bible passages and the ghost of a missing village. The very past I had no real interest of my own in.
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