Reading holiday has once again been and gone in triumph. This year, we booked a cottage in the middle of nowhere in Wales and it was more precipitously in the middle of nowhere than we necessarily bargained for. However, after an alarming twilight drive up the steepest, narrowest, twistiest and bumpiest possible single lane track through the woods, we were in and settled and ready to read.
This time we were in a National Trust cottage on some managed farm/woodland, so there really was no one else around for miles. At night, it was so silent it was eerie to my ears attuned to the noise of a city, and even in the day the soundscape was just birds, wind, the stream down the hill (whose noise carried remarkably far) and the occasional chomp and moo of the local cows. The cottage itself was exactly the sort of thing you’d expect from an organisation like the National Trust, that knows exactly the middle class sensibilities it’s appealing to. Rustic-seeming… but with really good hot water, insulation and facilities, comfy beds and a semblance of cleanliness, modernity and being furnished not-entirely-cheaply. Managed wilderness outside for a stroll, but a central-heated cottage to come straight back to and eat our prodigious quantities of cheese and biscuits. I roll my eyes at myself, even as I fully embrace it and will do it all again next year. It’s nice to be comfortable.
All of this gave me the nice opportunity to go read outside in the woods or by the stream for little stretches (it was pleasant sitting still out there for about an hour while fully be-coated and scarfed before the chill started to set in), as well as extreme dark and silence once the night set in next to the log fire, doubly so into the late hours, when my friend went to bed1. It was, even compared to our previous reading holidays, a distinctly well-suited location to the endeavour once we got ourselves there.
And so, one of the things that stood out particularly to me this time was how my being in that place at that time was coming through in my responses to me reading, so for this year’s holiday round up, I’m going to be reflecting on that specifically where relevant, along with my thoughts on the books themselves.
First up, Whose Body? by Dorothy L. Sayers (which we listened to on the car journey to the cottage).
I think this is a reread for me, though so long ago I had no memory of the solution to the mystery (but probably enough to nudge my thoughts at the answers in the right directions so I can claim no smugness for correct guesses along the way). In terms of my enjoyment of it as a story, there were however no surprises. Even without holding onto the details, I remembered what I tended to like about these books and lo, there it was. Peter is still a delightfully nonsense character to follow along on his seemingly-chaotic crime solving process, and Bunter an equally delightful foil. The mystery is, in the way of this style of books, slightly outlandish but not so much as to fully crack the foundations of my suspension of disbelief. It’s silly, but the silly remains reigned into the realm of the deliberate, and that’s just great fun.
However, it was a book I had previously read with eyes rather than ears, and doing it as audio in company really did add something extra – especially as the production was one with multiple voice actors involved. Peter’s voice was plummy and over the top, leaning into the ridiculousness of the character where needed, Bunter’s with a slight exasperation breaking through the cool, and everyone else clear and distinct against them. It was, at times, absolutely laugh out loud funny, and made even more so by the ability to make eye contact with someone after a particularly good bit to share the joke.
Brilliant journey listening, great start to the holiday.
Second was Isabella Nagg and the Pot of Basil by Oliver Darkshire.
Part of the point of reading holiday is reading without obligations. So much of my reading now is (entirely self-imposedly) tied to deadlines or contexts and conversations outside of just “what do I fancy now” that having the opportunity to be led by whim is a lovely thing. Isabella Nagg is exactly what I wanted from that kind of whim. It’s a light, low-fantasy adventure in a world that exists at least 50% as a humour generation machine rather than a genuine setting for a story, with distinctively-voiced characters experiencing and perpetrating nonsense that roughly forms up into a coherent story by the end. And it’s just fun.
Could I get a full review out of talking about it? I mean, I’m sure I could scrape one together if needed. But it’s just not that sort of book. It’s a book that rejects deep engagement as much as it can, constantly pushing back towards the lightness that infects every part of it. And that’s great, because Darkshire is funny. The jokes work, the setting is the right amount of absurd, and the poor farmer’s wife forced to pick up where the wizard left off and having to deal with increasingly deadly shenanigans strikes the right balance between fish out of water and plausible in her context. She’s sympathetic, up to a point, but not so much so that it feels wrong to laugh at her.
Where it goes wrong is, I think unsurprisingly, where the author lets himself get a little too carried away. There are moments where it feels very consciously Pratchettian in its humour, and perhaps a little too much so, nudging you with its literary elbow in case you might have missed quite what it was doing. But for the most part… he’s actually pretty successfully in that mode, so I’m willing to forgive the slip ups. It lacks Pratchett’s substance underneath the humour – which I think means it would suffer under a reread, or more penetrating gaze – but for a quick, pleasant, distracting time where I cackled out loud? Wonderful.
Speaking of books that feel in the mode of previous beloveds… third was Slow Gods by Claire North.
This one is intensely Banksian. It’s a space opera story of a universe filled with civilisations, future tech, fully sentient machines and social/political problems, but it’s not just that. There’s a fully serious plot that engages with a wide scope of what this universe is, on several layers, and one that needs the reader to understand the wide scope and danger of the problems involved (that involve the risk of millions of sentient lives), but throughout, and entirely without compromising the emotional efficacy of that plot, there’s a wry humour that runs through North’s prose. It’s not the only link, but it’s the thing that most screamed IAIN M. BANKS to me.
Where Isabella Nagg feels like an incomplete homage though, Slow Gods goes all the way. And part of that is because it is also its own self, as well as in the tradition of a certain kind of space opera. Darkshire hasn’t quite escaped the gravity of his influences in the way that North has, and the contrast in the books and their respective places in their subgeneric traditions is really interesting when I read them side by side.
I’m not sure North has fully broken out of just the British sphere of SF writing, which is a real shame because I do think this one deserves plaudits when we’re into awards time. There’s a specific scene towards the end, where it seems like they are about to commit one of worst plot culminations possible (as far as my preferences go), only to turn it so completely around, to add a sufficiently new angle to it, that I experienced emotional whiplash. They managed to make this thing I often hate into something genuinely fantastic, and the culmination of the themes the book has been gently teasing out through the whole plot. Much deserving of praise, in my opinion.
One of the distinctive parts of their worldbuilding was the incorporation of nature into this wide, space-going world. The main character is himself a gardener, and he thinks a lot in terms of plants and cycles, but that’s not the limit of it. One of the major space ships we encounter is a grown thing, rock and soil and plant, and he revels in travelling in it, and seeing its changes through its season and the long cycle of its life. A lovely thing to read while sat in a wood so covered in moss that it, too, felt ancient. I wouldn’t normally expect space opera to be enhanced by being in nature with it, but this one really was, and I think it’s that that I’ll remember when I look back on it as a book.
Fourth, Avidyā by Vidyan Ravinthiran.
This is a poetry collection that stretches across continents and journeys, but lingers too on very intimate, personal moments. It runs the wide contrast between talking about the violent, politically motivated killing of a journalist in Sri Lanka to the wonder at a newborn son, and Ravinthiran has the deftness to weave a continuing thread between them, tying such disparate pieces and tones together seamlessly into a single collection.
One of the things I often struggle with with poetry collections is where they tackle sufficiently big themes or emotive topics that they seem to rely on the audience’s pre-existing emotional reactions to the topics rather than doing the work to generate their own. I suspect this is why I tend to gravitate to nature poetry, for its quietness on that front and the tendency to go descriptive, and to craft meaning and feeling at a layer removed. But Ravinthiran is going for the big topics, and no such struggle do I have here. Whether or not I have pre-existing feelings about the matter, he’s put enough of his own in that it hardly matters – several of the poems are choked with their own emotive weight, heavy and rich, angry and sad and heartfelt.
He lingers a lot on family, and especially fathers and sons, legacies and distances and connections spelled out in relatively sparse but nonetheless weighty language. These are poems to linger over, to sit with word choices of, to reread a second time and hold each image in the mind. All good poetry is that, of course, but this more than most.
Unsurprisingly, then, this benefited from being read alone in the quiet of night. Poetry without distraction, but also those lingering thoughts on connection, the capturing of real and mundane moments with other people, felt all the more important when experienced alone.
Fifth, Hexwood by Diana Wynne Jones.
This is probably my second favourite Diana Wynne Jones book (after Fire and Hemlock). It’s been a beloved since the depths of childhood, but I haven’t picked it up again in quite some time, in part because in however many movings of house since uni, my copy didn’t seem to be with me or at mum’s. But I recently rebought a copy, in no small part because I knew Eight Days of Diana Wynne Jones would be covering it at some point and I wanted to have come back to it before listening. As it happens, the Hexwood episode dropped shortly before we left for holiday, and so I had a chance to see that it was a bumper, nearly three hour behemoth that I’d be tackling once I had the book fresh in my mind again2. All the more reason to hop to it.
I’m very glad I did, though not exactly in the way I might have expected. Yes it was wonderful reading a book set extremely in the woods while in some woods, myself hopping over streams just as Ann does. yes being outside of the world in the way that the silence and often-lack-of-internet-signal felt very apropos to reading about the characters trapped in the field of the Bannus3. But what struck me most was how different my experience was to my memories.
Hexwood was, I think, the first book I ever read that wasn’t strictly linear in its chronology. I remember finding it puzzling and a little challenging, way back when. And so it’s odd to come back to as an adult, as someone who mostly remembers the story, as someone who’s read a bunch of non-linear books, and to find it simple. The child memories overlay on the adult ones and that, too, adds something to a story that is much about memory and change.
In terms of the book, I’m still awfully fond of it. I see more connections that I remember between it and Fire and Hemlock, and in the things I like about both. There are problems in it, or things that trouble the waters, things to pick at, but I love it nonetheless. Not ignoring them or in spite of them, but alongside them. Even if the non-linearity doesn’t challenge me anymore, there’s still plenty to dig at, just in other ways, and I’m looking forward to listening to three hours of Emily Tesh and Rebecca Fraimow doing just that.
Sixth, Hav by Jan Morris.
I don’t really read travel writing. I don’t know that I’ve read anything that counts as such that wasn’t written by a dead Roman or Greek dude from a couple of thousand years ago (and I’m not sure they’re useful for the purposes of comparison here), so this was always going to be a slightly singular read, but ended up being far more so than expected.
Jan Morris is an author of a number of traditional travelogues, but Hav is… not that. Hav presents itself as straightforward, a journey in 1985 to a city on a peninsula in the Mediterranean, detailing places stayed and visited, people encountered, food eaten, histories discovered, connections to famous names and events drawn out. But Hav isn’t a real city. Morris has given this detailed, thoughtful imagining of a stay in a place that doesn’t exist, leading up to a dramatic change in the city that didn’t happen, followed by a return twenty years later, after a regime change and rebuilding that never occurred.
And yet…
None of it is real, but somehow all of it is, twofold. First, the way Morris embeds it so much in the reality and history of the world, of that segment of the world, makes this imagined space a way of talking about so much of the contemporary (as she herself makes clear in the epilogue where she talks about the function of allegory). There are threads to be pulled of all sorts of wider world themes, about wealth and power, religion, history, the intersections of places and times in single spaces… it goes on.
Second, what does it matter whether Magda exists, whether the Caliph is real? If it were set in any real place, I would be taking on trust that the people and places described were as she described them. A cynical part of me assumes that the straightforward travel writer takes plenty liberties themself to make their writing smoother, their point clearer, the narrative more enjoyable. What is this but the furthest end of the spectrum, the apotheosis of that? I don’t read the genre, but it’s clear the book is about the meta I’m only getting parts of, as well as the story placed before us and the allegory of time and place in 1985 and 2006.
It was beautifully written, and one of the most image-rich novels I’ve read in a while – she has a knack for describing place vividly in short, and I felt utterly drawn into it as a visual experience. I could go on, but since I suspect I shall be writing a full review of this one, suffice to say just: it was fantastic. Deep and thoughtful and gorgeous and sad.
Seventh, The Tombs of Atuan by Ursula Le Guin.
This was, technically, a reread but it’s been so long I don’t remember it. We did A Wizard of Earthsea a few months back and I was, I’m sorry to say, somewhat unmoved by it, and particularly annoyed by the way gender was handled (especially in contrast to some of her later work that is VERY gender). But Ed encouraged me to continue onto The Tombs of Atuan, because it might shift that a little, and he was right. It’s not a perfect fix for my irritations (it does feel a little like the relatively competent female character goes to pieces once Ged takes charge), but the way that Le Guin embeds the narrative into Arha’s perspective and experiences of the world felt like such a balm to the offhand way the female characters in A Wizard of Earthsea were treated.
The main thing for this one was how it sat with being at the cottage, though. I suspect wherever I had read it, I was going to find the descriptions of the dark underground labyrinth and the cave beneath the monoliths creepy. I’m a big ol’ wuss! I am very easily creeped out. But I read this entirely at night, when my friend had gone to sleep, in the silent darkness and my god that ramped it up. I couldn’t quite bring myself to go and stand outside unlit, hand only on the wall to tell me where I was, for the full experience4, but even with just a partial one… oof.
It feels such a wild contrast to the first book. She’s swapped an epic distance in the narrative for intimate closeness, and the latter works so much better for me than the former. But the juxtaposition of the two reminds me why I like her other works, how clearly she has mastery of what she’s doing. It doesn’t make me love A Wizard of Earthsea, but it does put it back into a context that is more accepting than it might have been had I stopped, and has probably meant I will push on through The Farthest Shore and Tehanu at some point.
Do I still prefer her in SF mode? Yes. But I really appreciated this, and more than I expected to.
Eighth, All That is in the Earth by Andrew Knighton.
Finishing The Tombs of Atuan, I thought I’d pick something totally contrasting – a story of space travel and alien planets. And yet somehow, it ended up being extremely similar. Like Tombs, it was creepy, and more so for the context (I ended up finishing it in daylight because I wanted to sleep some time), and this similarity felt far more important than the wide, wild difference in genre5.
The other thing that is going to stick with me about this book in particular, is that it extremely, insistently feels like an action film from about 2003. The sort of thing Vin Diesel might have starred in (though not as the protagonist, who is a relatively nervy scientist). Set on an alien planet where much of the animal life is infected with a virus that… ok I could talk around it but it’s giving zombies, ok? That’s what it functions as. The protagonist crash lands, and is found by a doctor whom he accompanies, and then experiences a sequence of intensely visual scenes that change how he thinks about the world he’s landed on and his own approach to life and death.
But it’s so utterly visual, so constantly filmic. It really would fit on screen so perfectly. And that made for an entirely bizarre reading experience, like my brain was being forced to approach it as two different things simultaneously.
Nonetheless, I had fun (probably in no small part because the zombie parts were not hugely foregrounded), and very much the kind of fun I would have had were I watching it as that sort of film. What will stick with me will be, more than anything, the images in my head, the light and shadow and motion that kept it moving forward at pace.
Ninth, and actually really very different, On the Calculation of Volume II by Solvej Balle, translated by Barbara J. Haveland.
I am stunned by this book. I loved the first one, about a woman stuck in a time loop, experiencing the same November day over and over again, for a whole year’s worth of iterations. But I couldn’t quite see how the author was going to get a second (or indeed, the following expected five further) book out of it. And yet, she did. Not only that, but one that feels simultaneously of a piece with the first one, and yet wholly fresh and different. I genuinely think it might be better than the first. Phenomenal.
The thing that really pulls me in in this one is the decision the character makes to chase down the seasons, to construct herself a natural year in the feeling she would get of that year’s progression in weather, food, landscape, atmosphere and her own self and expression in the world. She heads steadily north hunting winter through Scandinavia and Finland, before returning south and then heading west to England for a feeling of spring and easter, then further south yet hunting the sun of summer, and finding herself living it, embodying the changing “seasons” in her own outward life.
Her spring in the UK particular felt alive to me, sitting in a damp Welsh countryside full of birdsong, the breath of spring feeling just around the corner in the freshness of the air I wanted to sit outside in. The book lingers a lot on seasons as psychological, and I couldn’t help but agree – my approach to it made the temperature outside feel spring, not autumn or winter. The damp, the weather, the grey skys could be all manner of things, but the meaning I brought to it was what made it what it was. It’s all about feeling, and I felt.
It doesn’t matter that it doesn’t, ultimately, work out for Tara. The urge to make a year, to try to figure out what time passing feels like and how to construct that, was such a compelling choice to follow on from the closed-in-ness of the first book, where all her travel feels reactive and claustrophobic, hemmed in by the shape of the time loop she can’t escape.
But even that comes around again – after her seasonal experiment, she finds herself settling again, for a time, and coming to new conclusions about what time itself is – a container, not a progression at all. And this too, her changing relationship with the problem she faces and does not understand – is the heart of why this book, why both books, are so good. Time loops aren’t new, but this exploration of the psychological impact it would have on someone at such a granular, intimate level feels fresh. Like several of the tentatively SFnal books I’ve loved in the last few years6, its newness isn’t in the ideas about its novum, but in its approach to their human effects. Love it. More please. I will be devouring the next in the series shortly.
Tenth, and the final physical book in the cottage, was Vanishing World by Sayaka Murata translated by Ginny Tapley Takemori.
This was the only book I read while away that I didn’t like, but it is nonetheless one that is sticking with me. Some books I finish and feel confident in my displeasure, certain that I know what didn’t work and why, but this isn’t one of those. It feels like there’s something just round the corner of my understanding, which if I could just grasp it would make the novel click into place. I might not like it still, but I might at least understand it. But I don’t.
The novel follows a woman called Amane in an alternative version of our world where artificial insemination tech really took off in the aftermath of the second world war, and changed the whole of humanity’s approach to childbirth, sex, relationships and sexuality. In Amane’s world, conceiving a child via “copulation” (as the translation insists on putting and which I aesthetically hate) is deeply strange and increasingly taboo. Amane herself was conceived that way, and her mother clings to the old ways, trying to inculcate them in her daughter, but to little avail. The rest of the novel is a following on from this, a view into a changing landscape of desire, identity and family which spirals outward into more and more difference from the real world, casting a warped mirror onto our notions of what is and is not acceptable and why.
It’s not at all a realist novel – some of the societal changes feel quite weird and the way people react to them, as well as their universality across the world, stretches my suspension of disbelief a little – but that’s not the problem. It’s not presented as intended to craft a perfect version of a world in which this occurs, but instead an exploration of ideas. That’s not my favourite mode of storytelling, but I understand it. What I struggle more with is how cold it often seems, how it focuses so much on such intimate details of life – the growth of sexuality as Amane becomes an adult, her relationships and friendships and discussions of love and family – and yet gives none of this any human warmth. There’s no sense of proximity in these conversations or in Amane’s interiority. Instead it’s a clinical dissection of ideas, all the way down, constantly, with no space for any characters to develop as more than vectors for the idea under exploration.
And then, as the story progresses, the dark mirror it holds up warps further and further. Amane and her husband-but-no-longer-husband move to a town where childbirth is assigned via lottery, regardless of gender, and children are raised in common to refer to all adults as “mother”. It is simultaneously fascinating and unsettling, and becomes more and more so as Amane struggles with/accepts the new normality, culminating in a deeply unpleasant and disturbing scene that engages with one last taboo7.
It’s definitely a novel with things to say, about normality, our acceptance of what that looks like, taboos and the influence of consensus on our understanding of them. It’s all extremely deliberate. But I found, in that culmination, just confusion. I’m not quite sure what it all pulls together to mean. What was that horribleness for? Was it for anything at all? I just don’t know.
I also really struggled with it as a book full of shifting technology and attitudes to birth, the shape of a family and so on, but one which by contrast retained some really regressive gender politics. There’s a constant refrain around the fundamental differences between men and women – as what a family can be shifts, as sex becomes no longer part of marriage, multiple characters insist it would be better if marriage could be no longer just between a man and a woman, because women only understand women, men only understand men, and wouldn’t it be better to marry a friend you understand? For a book that has an extended sequence about male pregnancy, and had seemingly entirely casual acceptance of asexuality, this was bizarre.
And so here I am, writing more about it than all the books I actually enjoyed because it feels like an unsolved problem. I don’t recommend it, but I will keep thinking on it, at least until I come to conclusions I am somewhat settled with. I am, perversely, glad I read it while on holiday. I don’t think I’d have finished it at home, and I am better off for having the whole of it to pick at, whatever my feelings on it.
Eleventh, Clouds of Witness by Dorothy L. Sayers, as another audiobook on the long drive home.
I haven’t a great deal to say about this different from Whose Body?, to be honest. The production was by the same people, the voices remained fantastic, and it felt like it captured well what I enjoy about the tone of Sayers’ work.
The fun part, however, came back to experiencing it in the landscape and space. It’s a novel with a fair amount of travel, up and down between Yorkshire and London, over to Paris and indeed to America and back, and so there was a pleasing sympathy to listening to it on a drive.
But also, while Wales and Yorkshire are rather different places, the fog and the empty spaces, the moors and the wide open hills of the story were there in the Snowdonia we drove through. We followed the coast up to Harlech (with a little pitstop at a neolithic burial site and at Harlech castle on the way). We then went through the national park, and google maps, in its infinite wisdom, kept sending us through the windiest, narrowest, most precarious roads, through the emptiest countryside. There were stretches of it empty of all other cars save us, with only the rising mists for company as our ears popped and we bumped along, listening to Peter tramping through the fog looking for clues.
The sympathy decreased by the time we were stuck in traffic outside Manchester. But still.
We finished the story only shortly before getting back to my friend’s house, and it felt like a perfect ending to the trip. A mystery solved just as everything came to a close.
All in all, an excellent iteration of the tradition. We extended it by a day compared to previously and that was a GREAT decision, the remoteness was a massive benefit, we got tonnes of reading done, and having the car meant we could bring food comfortably without having to worry about packing as lightly as possible. We were rich in snacks and nice things, did some comforting cooking (I had a meat and potato pie for the first time in ages and my god I had missed them), and just all round had a nice, quiet, companionable time. The only things that weren’t ideal were a) I got zero crafting done, which would have been nice and b) some of the books were crying out to be written about but I had no means of doing so at the time. I’ve taken notes, so will likely do some more later, but it’s not the same as being able to when the moment of “write, write now” strikes. Long term, I think I might need to get myself a small refurbished laptop, because I keep yearning to be able to type things up in awkward places.
But those are minor quibbles. All in all, a great time had, long live reading holidays. Now just to plan the next one…

- One of the nice things about going on these with this particular friend is that we keep quite different hours. I’ll get up in the morning to find she’s done a substantial walk about the hills and has pictures to show me of bogs, streams and wildlife, and had a sit in peaceful silence without me, and then she’ll go to bed around 10, leaving me with 4-5 hours of perfect stillness in the night to read undistracted. ↩︎
- I hadn’t actually planned to take it, but I asked Ed to weigh in on me cutting down my list of possible books to pack, and he entirely “helpfully” decided to add a book to the pile instead. Just because he was right doesn’t give him an excuse. ↩︎
- I am skimming past these a little, but that was genuinely great. I absolutely burned through the book partly because of how apropos it was. ↩︎
- Mainly because I judged this would give me nightmares. I then went on to have mildly creepy dreams about caves anyway so I was probably correct. ↩︎
- There’s a sort of essay or something percolating in the back of my brain that I will eventually write about the different ways people think about similarities/differences between texts. Predominantly I think it’ll be about “tropes” as useful/not useful signifiers of what a book will be and feel like, but I think there’s a thread in there about genre too, about what connects and does not connect things, especially for me. Genre here just wasn’t what felt important. ↩︎
- The Ministry of Time by Kaliane Bradley comes particularly to mind. I saw a lot of critique of it from SF folks as being boring/simple/not new on a time travel front, which I absolutely refute. It is new because it takes that different approach – time travel not just as a science problem, but as a deeply personal one. Felt pretty good to me. ↩︎
- Very serious content warning for this book, if you choose to read it, about sexual activity and children. ↩︎










































