It’s been awhile

Sorry readers! I am more sorry to myself. I haven’t made time to write in much too long! I had the opportunity to work the job of my dreams this summer and am still involved with them! Finally got a job working for the city! After 4 long hard years of applying and working for minimum wage or doing jobs that didn’t have my interest. What a busy summer. Now I am consumed in school life. Six class semester to catch up!! Doing a lot of revamping in my life lately. Excited for ch-ch-chaaaanges 8)

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BLOG CHALLENGE #14

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“What I Wore Today”

ImageI wore this to go out for my work wind-up party tonight. We went out dancing, which was an awesome time, since I don’t often get to do that these days. I was completely planning on not showing my face on my blog!! This blog challenge has revealed a lot about me, as well as my other writings. Here’s the face behind the work, ladies and gents!

– T.A.B.

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BLOG CHALLENGE #13

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“My Opinion About My Body and How Comfortable I am With it.”

This is a sort of funny question to me.. I don’t typically speak about my body seriously these days. The truth is, I am the most out of shape I have ever been. I am 100% guilty for eating all kinds of fast food at all hours of the night frequently.. However, I am very fortunate for my metabolism, as well as my genetics! Some days I feel confident, others, not so much. But I always remind myself that I am very fortunate regardless!!

-T.A.B.

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BLOG CHALLENGE #12

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“Five Guys Whom I Find Attractive”

  • Dallas Green: Music artist known as City and Colour, started in a band called Alexisonfire. Always loved him and his music. ❤Image
  • Blake McGrath: Dancer and choreographer more widely known from So you Think you Can Dance Canada.Image

Adam Levine: Music artist from Maroon 5.

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  • Johnny Knoxville: Famous dare-devil/hooligan/actor.Image
  • Zac Efron: Actor.Image
    Excuse my while I go drool…..                                                                            – T.A.B.
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BLOG CHALLENGE #11 – 23/06/2013

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“My Family”

I live in a house with my mom, little sister, and grandmother. My family is very large and scattered all over Canada. My grandma is the oldest of 13, and my mom had 3 brothers. I wish that more of my extended family lived on the west coast rather than in the prairies. On this end, I only have few family members that I communicate with regularly. There is a lot of broken little situations between members of the family that makes things difficult. There are also many members who have stolen, lied, cheated, done jail time, and disgraced our name as it seemed. I love my family dearly and remain open to the majority of them. Besides my fathers side, who I have nothing to do with..

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This is a tattoo that my sister, mom and I got to represent our family. We are Metis, hence the infinity symbol that surrounds that special word, family. ❤

– T.A.B.

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CHALLENGE DAY #10 – 20/06/2013

3 0    D A Y    C H A L L E N G E    –   B L O G    # 10

“Shuffle the First 10 Songs on my Ipod”

 

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CHALLENGE DAY #9 – 19/06/2013 “How Important I Think Education is”

3 0    D A Y    C H A L L E N G E    –   B L O G    # 9

“How Important I Think Education is”

This is a better topic for me to write a passionate and opinionated blog about.. finally!!

I believe our current public school system is one of the BEST and believe it or not, WORST things to happen to children. I have seen many good things come from today’s public school system. I have worked for non-profit organizations such as the YMCA; Being a mentor to children and youth in recreation and arts. Working for programs like “Jumpstart” and “Blast”. I have worked with our community schools partnership division for the district in a program called “Dream”, which is every single day after school until 5 pm with all sorts of children who are at-risk for different reasons. I have done my practicum in an elementary school in my city’s wide district, shadowing Child and Youth Care counselors, outreach workers, support staff, and teachers. Needless to say, I’ve had a wide variety of experience in our school settings for someone of my age. I aspire to turn my Child and Youth Care counselling degree into an Elementary Education Degree. I want to be a teacher to install positive values into children, and explore their interests and skills in an inclusive way while covering the necessary curriculum.

I have seen teachers fully degrade students in front of their peers. I have seen teachers ignore students. I have seen teachers obviously playing favourites, not even giving the rest of their students the time of day. We need to put all of this to an end. This is why I am so thrilled to learn that there possibilities for students in my position to complete their degree in Child and Youth Care Couselling, to complete their PLP Certificate a year later. We are the new generation of teachers who put children first.

Education is important. Of course we need to teach our fundamentals such as math, science, socials, and most importantly english. However, I feel that the intent has been lost in translation. We want children and youth to be INTERESTED and EXCITED for learning. We want to create a safe and engaging environment where everyone is treated as equal with their own unique special skills and contributions. Comparing children on a generalized scale against others of their age is only setting them up for failure and disappointment. We need to learn to use their diversities to their advantage. We need to practice the most important “child-centered approach”.

I have become a real advocate for creating a larger part of social learning for our public school curriculum. It is silly to me that the only “life skills” class I ever took in public school was in 8th grade where I only learned to sew and cook. Furthermore, our joke of a “planning” class in 10th grade where we played on the computer and made resumes that had nothing on them yet…………….. LIFESKILLS?! PLANNING?! They didn’t even come close to teaching me the responsibilities, obligations, and paperwork that comes with being an adult. What about how to open a bank account? How about learning about taxes? How to file our taxes? Planning for our future careers? How to enroll in school? How to jump start a car? Perhaps if I had learned how to properly save money and what interest meant, I wouldn’t have ever gotten into even the little bit of debt I have been in. It would have been nice if I had learned that our “amazing Canadian medical system” that “we are so lucky to have” only counted for so much, it would not cover ambulance bills or all medications along with other medical needs I have struggled to meet, and costs I have struggled to cover.

Going even further into this.. I believe that children should be taking a “lifeskills and planning” portion in every grade of their public school education. Starting in kindergarten where we could teach what it meant to be in school, and the responsibilities that come with it. Ending in 12th grade where we would teach more specific issues such as banking/financial issues, career planning, our Canadian rights and responsibilities, and more.

In the end, what I hope for is that our education systems will begin installing values such as respect, empathy, and trust into our curriculums as often (and important) as english or math. In doing this, I believe that our future generations will start to become more positive members of society, and more fulfilled people in general.

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– T.A.B.

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CHALLENGE DAY #8 – 18/06/2013 “What I Ate Today”

3 0    D A Y    C H A L L E N G E    –   B L O G    # 8

“What I Ate Today”

These blog challenges are getting a tad redundant. I wish I knew about this tedious topic ahead of time so that i could have taken pictures of all the amazing food I ate today for all you foodies out there!

  • Red Robins!! My coworker treated a couple of us to lunch 🙂 I ordered the Mediterranean Chicken Wrap with bottomless fries (of course!) .. It was amazing. It even came with some watermelon for dessert!
  • Pizza Party at the elementary school I volunteer at! 9 LARGE pizzas for $50, shoutout to PAPA JOHNS for the hookup for the kids!!
  • Chocolate, chips, and other junk at the school… I don’t even know..
  • Some double chocolate oatmeal peanut and chocolate chip cake-like cookies I created a couple of days ago.. AMAZING.
  • Asian Chicken Salad!! Soooo good.


I will be surprised if anyone reads this… bahaha

-T.A.B.
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CHALLENGE DAY #7 – 17/06/2013 “Five Pet Peeves”

3 0    D A Y    C H A L L E N G E    –   B L O G    # 7

“Five Pet Peeves”

  • When people make a mess and don’t clean it up after themselves. I don’t care in the least bit what you do in the comfort of your own home, but DON’T litter your stanky ass garbage outside on the streets, in parks, etc. MORE ANNOYING: When people come over and leave a huge mess for you to clean up after them.
  • People who aren’t mindful of other people around them. PRIME EXAMPLE: If you are going to walk down the road with your eyes down glued to smart phone, or whatever gadget, AT LEAST try to use your peripherals to ensure you don’t walk STRAIGHT into someone on a busy sidewalk. Pipe down.
  • When people take out their moods on others. I understand that some days, most people feel like their blood is boiling and sometimes subsequently mentally visualize the world spontaneously combusting in their favor. Things piss us off in life! Everyday we all have a reason to smile and be kind to one another, WE ARE ALIVE. For some reason, people tend to go to extents of ruining relationships over something that had absolutely NOTHING to do with this close person to them. I could go on about this for days, sooo no.
  • People who need to have EVERYONES attention on them to be happy. If you are going to be an attention hog, at least pipe down when people around you want to speak for once. By pipe down, I don’t mean sit in the corner and pout, or compete with everyone in the room. GROW UP, THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE IN “YOUR” WORLD.
  • People who are constantly hostile, loud, speak vulgarly and swear way too much. I can handle a few swear words. I can handle a loud person. I can handle hostility where it is due. I can even handle a certain level of vulgarity. However, put these things together and I will blow my top. I can not be around you.

Sorry to whine, complain, and bitch on my blog. Also, I apologize if I offended anyone. Simply little things that drive me crazy! 30 day blog challenge orders!!

 – T.A.B.
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Poem # 14

“Half of a Mystery”

Half of a mystery happened
When the two lustful and callow vital pieces
Came together in a broken agreement
Ending in polar opposite views

One part was left bearing the weight
Of what two piled on
Courageously leaving the other half
For the greater good of their creation

This one part held the weight for 9 months
Their creation growing heavier with time
Without the support of the other half
With the most genuine intentions in mind

These two halves were so very estranged
Their values, morals and beliefs on opposite ends
Of their young and naive spectrum
One with so much strength, and the other a coward

Their creation blossomed into beauty
With only the knowledge of half of their being
When old enough to understand
This being longed to be whole

Resulting in a life of half a mystery
Forced to rewrite equal parts of ones’ back-story
Fishing for the reassuring affirmation
That this half-assed creation has a whole purpose

Commentary: This poem is rather personal. It stems from being raised without having anything to do with my biological father. Today was fathers day in Canada, and as silly as it sounds, it tends to be one of the hardest days of the year in my house. The females are very strong in my family thankfully. However, the males don’t have such a good rep on average. My mother and father met in highschool, engaged before 20, and decided to get pregnant. My bio-father backed out as soon as the results came back positive. I am SO grateful and thankful that my mother went her separate ways to ensure I would have opportunity to be raised by a parent that truly wants to be a parent. 22 years later now and I finally have him on facebook, as I had to find him for information for my Metis sponsorship funding for my education. I met my father once when I was 8 and wanted nothing to do with him from there. I have to see his updates of trips with his new family without having any conclusions of what I would want to have to do with him. I remain bitter but curious. My brother, who I have yet to meet, is 13 now. I aspire to meet him soon.

– T.A.B.

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CHALLENGE DAY #6 – 16/06/2013 “My View on Mainstream Music”

3 0    D A Y    C H A L L E N G E    –   B L O G    # 6

“My View on Mainstream Music”

I think this is a silly topic to write about in this blog challenge. Honestly, I like any music that I enjoy. Whether I believe that it took sheer talent, it was a infectious catchy beat, it brings back memories or it was new and exciting. It really bothers me when people hate on “mainstream” or radio played music. I have encountered three distinctly different groups of people with this opinion.

  • A group that believes that new aged music lacks talent
  • A group that believes that once something is played on the radio, it is uncool. Therefore they always have to listen to the freshest music online or at underground shows.
  • A “minority-type” group that sticks to the root of their self-proclaimed image (Ex: punk rockers, rave-junkies, gangsters, hipsters etc)

In my opinion, people with these beliefs need to open their minds up to more of what this day-in-age has to offer. Personally, I will listen to anything that I enjoy for whatever reason it might be. GOOD MUSIC IS GOOD MUSIC.

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– T.A.B.

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CHALLENGE DAY #5 – 15/06/2013 “Things I Want to Say to an Ex”

3 0    D A Y    C H A L L E N G E    –   B L O G    # 5

“Things I Want to Say to an Ex”

This topic is a tad bit pressing to me right now. I am going to save myself and others the trouble of backtracking this with a back story in detail.. Long story short, my first love and I dated for nearly 3 years and broke up last august, that is almost a year ago. 5 months without talking, and I wound up in the hospital on life support. Surprisingly, his face was among the first that I saw when I awoke from the drug induced coma that the hospital doctor put me into.After the shock of this, we began hanging out as friends again.Things escalated to a physical agreement with emotions buried beneath. We went weeks without seeing eachother, only texting.. and would always wind up passionately pouncing one another. Last weekend, he told me he had to talk to me about something in person. He met someone who he felt that he wanted to see where things would go with. I am so proud that the both of us have some to a point where we are mature enough to handle a reasonable conversation on such a touchy circumstance.

Despite my easy-going reaction to the situation, I have a wonder whirl of emotions stirring up inside me. I am in no place for a relationship, and don’t see myself being until I do some of the things I need to do alone.. like travel, find myself, and figure out what I want out of life and my relationships.

This is what has been stirring up inside me, besides what I have already said to him..

“Thank you for teaching me so much about life, love, myself, and what I want. You have always treated me with loyalty and respect when it comes down to the wire. I was unreasonable many times with you as we did butt heads and argue a lot. Our arguments were never stronger than our love for one-another. Breaking up with you was one of the hardest things I have ever participated in. We both knew we needed to end it there before it got ugly, and I am glad we made that decision. You have not only been a fantastic first love, but an amazing friend. I know that we will always have a mutual love and respect for each other. There is nothing I want more than to see you genuinely happy. I love you in so many ways. “

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I miss having you by my side, but I know I can always count on you. ❤

– T.A.B.

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CHALLENGE DAY #4 – 14/06/2013 “Bullet Point My Whole Day”

3 0    D A Y    C H A L L E N G E    –   B L O G    # 4

“Bullet Point My Whole Day”

  • Woke up at 12:45 pm (Yeeah, yeah I had the day off, so judge me)
  • Lay in bed until 1:30 letting natural light into my room, listening to music, catching up on my phone, internet, etc.
  • Ate homemade chocolate/peanut butter chip cookies for breakfast…… i know that’s terrible
  • Hung out with my sister before she had to get ready for work.. Listening to songza, 90’s jams, and on my laptop until 4
  • Ate Taste of Punjab take out
  • Had a shower at 4:30 pm
  • Made plans with my friend Carley instead of getting ready for my friends show… only to be flaked out on lol no hard feelings, text messaging plans isn’t the best idea
  • Decided to go to the boy’s show after all! Shout out to OVERTIME!
  • Rocked out at Gator’s Pub in Abby!!! Awesome punk rock show!!
  • Road trip to and from Abby with my best friend since Kindergarten, Tiana!
  • Sat in Tianas new Kia talking girl talk
  • Came home
  • All the crew and the band meet back at my house in the basement (singer and guitar player live downstairs, and are good friends of mine)
  • Currently laughing at drunk asses 🙂

So there it is. I applaud anyone who could stay interested enough to finish reading bullet points of my entire day. Silly blog challenge!

– T.A.B.

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Ellen Hopkins, my favourite author and poet!! “Dry Spell”

“Dry Spell”

You are like rain, forecasted
to quench a summer‚ thirsting,
thirst grown beyond easy need, to life or death.

I watch the clouds,
approaching windward mountains, slate
bruising black beneath expectation.

The western window
darkens as, laden, the curtain falls,
descends to veil peaks and rifts, draws nearer.

Is it thunder that I hear?
Or is the sudden rumble but the flurry
of hurried birds, on wing against unceasing drought?

One warm, wet spatter
stings the dust, stamps its ragged mark,
imprints a welt of hope upon the arid parchment.

Promise sizzles in the air,
wrapped in threads of ozone, electric
with desire so bold it borders ecstasy.

Claim this vacant sky.
Cast your shadow, speak to me in thunder,
throb against thirsting skin and flesh gone fallow.

Oh, give me rain!
Gift me with downpour, fill this empty well,
the reservoir drained to grit by lingering dry spell.

– Ellen Hopkins

I recently wrote a review on one of Ellen Hopkins books and decided that I should post some of her poetry on here since I enjoy it so much. I want to share her talent and my inspirations with the world.

– T.A.B.

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CHALLENGE DAY #3 – 13/06/2013 “A Book I Love”

3 0    D A Y    C H A L L E N G E    –   B L O G    # 3

“A Book I Love”

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Ellen Hopkins is BY FAR my favourite author. She doesn’t only create intense and realistic stories, but she also creates amazing poetry to creatively get her stories across. For me, this is PERFECTION! Her books look thick, but the pages of poems do not take as long to read, like your typical novel would. Her material includes a mix of personal issues such as love, drug and alcohol struggles, and even mental illness. I read this particular book of hers on the plane to and back from Mexico. I couldn’t be bothered with the fear of flying, because I was SO invested in the lives of the characters!!

“IDENTICAL”

This story is about Kaeleigh and Raeanne, twins who are completely identical. They are (seniors?) in highschool. Their mom is an involved politician, and their father is a judge at a district court. On the outside they look like the perfect all-American family. However, the girls rarely get to spend time with their busy parents. This creates issues for them, in vital years of their teenage lives. Ellen Hopkins goes deep into the minds of the twins, exposing their similarities and differences.

I STRONGLY suggest this book to anyone who is interested in psychology, lifespan development, child and youth care counseling, addictions counseling, or anything in a related field. ALSO- to any youth struggling with addiction, self-esteem issues, parenting issues, mental health issues, or any other related struggle.

– T.A.B.

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I have come to learn..

Realize the sooner you stop trying to please everyone and fix everything is the sooner you begin to make yourself happier. Focus on the things that matter that are in your control. Everything else is simply noise keeping you from being at peace.

– T.A.B

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CHALLENGE DAY #2 – 12/06/2013 “Something I Feel Strongly About”

3 0    D A Y    C H A L L E N G E    –   B L O G    # 2

“Something I Feel Strongly About”

This is a very broad topic for somebody as strongly opinionated as myself. Among many beliefs of mine, something I feel strongly about is staying positive or optimistic. I know that it is proven true, that “it’s not the situation, it’s what you make of it”. Furthermore, I believe that we are in control of creating our own happiness as well as maintaining it in our day to day life.

I like to start my day by opening the blinds to let in natural light. Next, I put on music and lay in bed meditating for 1 song at the very least. Stretching is vital. It gets oxygen flowing throughout my body. Most importantly, I make sure that I drink water within the first 15 minutes of being awake, to re-hydrate my body.

Don’t get me wrong, part of my “Buddhist- like” morning ritual often includes a tall cup of strong coffee. I can’t seem to escape the craving for a comforting cup of joe in the morning. As I move around getting prepared for the day, I continue to listen to music.

Inside my head, I am reviewing the things that I am thankful for and appreciate. On days that I feel inadequate, I remind myself of my accomplishments and how far I have come. 

Every time I feel that I am slipping out of the state of happiness that I’ve created for myself, I repeat these key thoughts in my head:

  • What I am grateful for
  • People who I appreciate
  • Hurdles that I have overcome
  • My accomplishments
  • What I want to accomplish

Sometimes I use “Mantras” to stay focused. I repeat phrases in my head. These can be as simple as these few examples:

  • “I can do this”
  • “This too shall pass”
  • “Just keep swimming”
  • “I’ve got this”
  • “I’m awesome”

– T.A.B.

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CHALLENGE DAY #1 – 11/06/2013 “Five Ways To Win My Heart”

3 0    D A Y    C H A L L E N G E    –   B L O G    # 1

“Five Ways To Win My Heart”

  • #1 –  If you have dance skills. A male dancer is probably the most attractive thing in my opinion. If you can dance, I imagine you are sensual, confident, and creative.
  • #2 – Musically inclined. If you can serenade me to sleep, you pretty much sealed the deal. SINGERS, GUITAR & DRUM PLAYERS.. ❤
  • #3 – If you express acts of kindness towards your peers, and even people who you expect nothing from. If you go out of your way to make other people’s lives easier, it shows me that you do not live a selfish life.
  • #4 – A positive attitude. This is vital. If you are a “negative Nelly”, I will not want to be around you. (Who would, after all?) A friendly, upbeat, and smiling person is what I am drawn to.
  • #5- Good with children! Since I have been pursuing a rewarding career in the Child and Youth Care Counseling field, it is VERY important to me that you work well with children. There is nothing that makes my heart more mushy-gushy than a grown (ideally good-looking) person genuinely interacting with a child or children.

    – T.A.B. 

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30 DAY CHALLENGE INTRO

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I found this online, got inspired to try a new method of motivation to blog daily, even if they are brief.

– T.A.B.

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Trying something new.. I am not necessarily comfortable with sharing my wordpress account with all of my twitter followers, but I do a lot of quick blogging on there too. If you have twitter, and like my posts, then follow my tweets!

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– T.A.B.

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