Journey of Life

A dog's thinking You feed me, you love me and you shelter me. You must be God. A cat's thinking You feed me, you love me and you shelter me. I must be God. Are you a cat or a dog - Christian? A cat- Christian puts the focus on himself/herself rather than God's glory even in doing devotion, serving etc. He/she chooses what he/she would like to believe. Most of the time, they are not incorrect beliefs but just incomplete.  A dog-Christian puts God's glory first and the kingdom mindset over the wants and needs of self.  I admit, I am pretty cat-ish. The me, myself and I mentality is quite strong. =p A test for you to know if you are cat-ish or dog-ish. Please complete this verse -  Psalms 46:10 Be still and know  _____________________ I am sure you could fill in the blank correctly but is it complete? If your answer was "Be still and know that I am God". YAY! You are correct but just that the answer is incomplete. There is the b...

When the going gets tough, the tough gets going!

1. What to do when you do not feel like working on a day you must? 2. What to do when you feel dumb? 3. How does one have determination? If only google can solve all life's questions and uncertainties. I bet the 'older' generation who reads this post would frown at this lousy attitude of mine. No shortcuts in life my dear. No google answer (though sometimes it helps) =p. Oh one more question to add - how can some people be so smart??????

Everyone must have vision. Without vision, people perish. A leader must not only have vision for his/her team but progressive vision. Different things that God wants to do in different seasons.  God, help me to see and give me 20-20 vision!! Not a blurred one. =) What is your vision in your life group, church, etc. today? 

Really, where is the fine line between giving constructive criticism and destructive criticism? Does it lie on the criticizer's words and mentality or does it lie on the receiver's heart and perception? This is something very important for all of us to learn. To learn to receive and give criticism without hard feelings. Of course, it is very hard to achieve since everyone loves praises more than criticisms anyways! But, too much of praises will be like Paula Abdul, noone takes her seriously like Simon Cowell. Yet again, too much dosage of criticism would make the relationship and the receiver sour and demotivated. This is also the easiest way to bring down an organization and teamwork. Then again, criticism is also crucial for improvement, or should I use a better word? Oh wells, a german told me before. When they criticize, they criticize on the matter at hand and not personal attack which Asians always perceive. And Muns told me last week to give a hamburger criticism. A...

I have the loveliest father in the whole world. He is a visionary. So many damn good examples for this! He is the most forgiving dad. He is humble. He is not fearful in doing the right thing. He is very very gentle. He has his own version of humour. He challenges me. He is wise. so very wise! He is tall! He loves mum more and more each day. Most of all, He has a fervent heart for God, always burning brighter and hotter, even at his lowest moments. The best lesson he taught me this year is on Holy Spirit - who He is and the power of the Holy Spirit! Yeaps, like how most daughters would say, I want to marry a man like my dad. I am very proud of him. Thanks for sharing life and walking life with me =).

Patience. There is value in waiting. I am still hoping. But this hope is not baseless (I hope).

It is really weird not having you around anymore. I miss the days when I come home with you welcoming me by the gate. Rain or shine, sick or healthy you will be there with your wagging tail and bright eyes. When I come home past midnight, I am never afraid even though everyone says I could even get abducted in front of my house. Because I know you are here and you are watching over me. Of course your bark is veryy loud! I also miss the days when I  say BYE MERCY before I leave home. After I make a u-turn and drive past, I will look into the house and wave at you. You will be looking me with those eyes that speak - I am waiting for you to come back ! Or you will be so smart to run out of the house and I had to shout and chase you to come home. You know what? You always leave home at the wrong time - when I am going out. Worst part is, you never listen to me! -.- But it is funny that when we purposely lock you out of the house as punishment, you know who to find and lure them ...

I got a call 15 minutes ago from home. I knew what that call was for instantly. My dearest and most loyal companion, Mercy just passed away peacefully. My heart broke into pieces. But then again, I am thankful God extended her life for the past one month. She has been healthy too and we did spend a lot of quality time together loving each other. I am very thankful. and this month, she has officially turned 14 aka 98 human age. She is already old but still so energetic and very beautiful. Before she passed away, she went into the house and peeped, I guess she was looking for us. But we were not there and she died on my mum's arm and in front of dad. I think that is a good ending of her life. Filled with love. She is such an amazing dog. Right now, there will be no life at my house's carporch and nothing for us to look forward to or welcome us when we come back. I am sure going to miss her. My companion and best friend for 14 years. I love you mercy. I want to see you agai...

Something struck me this morning. When God has chosen you for a particular task, He would have placed His anointing upon you already. So don't act as a victim but a victor and be in partnership with the Holy Spirit! Wow! amazing love and assurance. There is nothing to fear anymore but only be still and know that He is God and He is in control =) it would be lovely if everything turns out sweeeeeet!

Human mind is just too powerful. and apparently, the smartest inventor/scientist in the world only uses 1 to 2% of the brain capability! Imagine if we were to use it 100%! My brain usage is definitely less than 1 %. If only I could use it to the full potential, I bet I would be smart really smart fella!!!!!! What's the formula to calculate potential in physics again? Perhaps I should work from there and find out!  Although I know it is impossible, but why is my mind still thinking about it? But I can't wait and I am looking forward to it. Just don't put so high hope, less it all shatters and disappoints. Oh well, sometimes it is nice and fun to be hopeful! that's one of the greatest gift! Just imagine the joy of getting what you had hoped for! Insurmountable bliss =) But of course the disappointment would etch too. Oh wells, life is full of unpredictable events ain't it? Just enjoy the moment of hoping. Who cares what turns out  next? =p Yay!! Am lookin...

My mummy fell sick today. She hasn't been feeling well recently due to severe backache which caused sleepless nights to her. And that is also why she didn't go to church today. So, after church dad and I came home. The first thing dad said when he reached home was, " I want to see how is my lao po (meaning wife) doing", and he went upstairs with a cup of water. That is so sweet right? I think my mum is the most blessed wife on earth! She secretly told me that she thinks dad loves her more and more these days. hahahaha.. with a veryy cheeky smile. you can imagine.  but they are both different people. total different personality and character. dad is solemn and wise while mum is like the party popper and she laughs reallyyyyy loud! mum is veryyy good at bringing people to Christ and inviting people to church while dad is good at discipleship. good match kan?  They are match made in Heaven and I am thankful for that =)

 I want to buy Taboo or whatever cool games and have a games night filled with food and laughters!!! Last Saturday I had a group of youths to my house for a slumber party! I think about 14 of us! Imagine how we squeezed together when sleeping =p. But it was so fun. We played Taboo, the new version of pictionary, truth or dare and all sorts of games. It was so so fun! We just couldn't let go of our games! And now, I am addicted to this kind of night =). I remember having lots of Games Night with the church in Germany. Random people gather and have food and drinks and just pure games =). With the debaters, it would definitely be the Murderer's Game, I miss those moments too. Anyone up for it? Hast du Lust? =)

I wanted to commemorate my first Labour's Day in my entire life by being un-laborous i.e. rest. I needed it so badly and I am glad that I have it. It has been a year. A year of leaving university. The first day I stepped into working life (although as an intern) was 3rd May. Much has changed in this one year. And I am still transiting and adapting to my life as a young working adult. To be very honest, I struggle a lot. I know I am not the same Beatrice a year ago but do I like the Beat now? I haven't decided that part yet. But that is the cruel truth about life and growing up. It is painful but necessary. Growing up also mean change. Values, friends, priorities, belief system etc.. And to some extent, I do not like the change I am experiencing right now. But, then again, without change, without growing up, I will be akin to stagnant water. In science, stagnant river will cause eutrophication and it is toxic to the whole river body. Resistance to change is toxic to my life....

I will always remember my first Sejarah lesson in Form 1 because that was so very meaningful. It said, every story has two sides. A British historian would look at colonization differently as a Malaysian historian. So whatever happened in BERSIH, the truth lies in the perception and belief of those present. The police force and the BERSIH-ers could tell two different stories and interpretation with the same picture. Exercise wisdom and discretion when listening to a story then.. =)

Disclaimer: I am not against rally and freedom of speech and expression. But, I am against those people who are going without finding out the truth and the cause they are fighting for. OK, maybe they only know a tiny weeny bit from conversations with friends, some facebook shares etc. and they jump to the conclusion and get all emotional about things. That is the problem with rally, I personally think. People are more emotional and are absorbed with the hype and excitement more than really knowing what is going on. So, before going to any rallies, please check the facts first, so that you know better what you are standing and fighting against. Are things really what the oppositions say? or the government? Reason out first then only go and fight for it! There will be a National Education Dialogue scheduled this Sunday onwards at Putrajaya to give your two cents for the betterment of the whole education system, something so crucial and meaningful. So, if you have gone for Bersih...

Following up from the last post on Mercy, God is miraculous. If you were to see her last Friday, you'd taught she'd die anytime soon. Even the vet said to prepare ourselves since Mercy is already old - 13 years of being together with her. 91 years old if human. Old grandma =p So what happened was she was panting, saliva/liquid flowing non-stop, no appetite to eat and her eyes. Mercy always has amazing eyes which sparkles and communicates but not last friday. It was gloomy, sick and sad. My heart really sank seeing her suffering as she breathes. Even dad teared when praying for her!  I remember Ruth told me once, what matters to you is precious to God. I held on to this and believed God to do something miraculous - to heal Mercy.  On Sat - she could eat 2 spoons of dog food (I needed to feed her like a baby!) On Sun - she could eat, drink and wags tail Today - eat, drink, wag tail, walk around, run into my house, BARKS! When she barked (I was not at home...

I have the best dog on earth. Pretty, and she really knows how to ambil hati!!! Her eyes sends messages and electrocutes you! Amazing amazing dog. Fierce when needed, friendly when she loves you. But now she is very sick. =((((((( Heart attack and lung has water Please pray for her! 14 years of being together since I was 10 or 11! Primary, secondary, uni and now working. I am not good at deaths and separation. This special bond is hard to explain. It will never be broken. Stay strong Mercy. We all love you. You are part of our family =) I am praying for you!

Daddy was right. You just need one error to demolish whatever you have built for the past months. Best is, you made that error twice. Wake up!

Last Sunday was my church's Easter production - A glimpse of eternity at PGRM. My mum and sister were acting! So the story went like this. Story 1 I came to PGRM with Qian Yi looking for mother in the changing room since she wanted to take photos. So ya I did. On my way there, I saw few girls loitering with their full make up on. Obviously I didn't recognise them, only one girl I recognised. Me: Hi Emily! Is that you!? Girl 1: Emm.. No, it's not me sorry. Me: Oops! Sorry! Wrong person! *Left totally embarrassed* Then, I reached the fitting room. Aunt Lucy was there. Me: Hi, I just want to look for my mother. Aunt Lucy: No, you can't enter. Me: Aww,. why? But mummy wants to take photo. Just ask her to come out then Girl 2: No, you can't enter and your mother can't come out. (very rudely) Me: Why? But she is my mother and she asked me to come here to take her photos. (annoyed at the rude petite girl) Girl 2: No, you cannot enter at this hour. Me: Oh ok then. Too b...

Maggie was really sweet to gave me a very sincere compliment that I could not stop thinking about it! I don't think it is self-indulgence though =p. Maybe it is time when I really need people to reaffirm me and she did so at the right time! It also struck me how far one sincere compliment can really make a person's day or does something powerful to a person. The power of tongue - it either destroys or builds. This friendship between Isa, Mag and I is something so special. It is those times when we are down, lack of encouragement, and worst of all, stuck at a jalan buntu or a pit, these girls say the nicest things, AND sincerely from their heart. I think that makes the biggest difference! Thanks Mag, for making my night! We will live passionately ya! So guys, dont be stingy with SINCERE compliments. =) I shalll save my mouth from complaining to complementing! xx

Ich mag meine Arbeit, aber lieber mein Wochenende!!

I want to interview people on the street randomly 1. What is the one thing they want to do but never dared to and 2. When was the last time they tried something new. And what was it? And then, give them a small gift!!! or a card. Just to make their day! =) Bake cupcakes and give to random strangers and friends! Make friends and talk to random people in the mall/ cafe Just colour people's life with randomness and love! =) I shall plan! =) Anyone would like to join me? xx

Be the Shulammite who hang on to the promises of God even when these promises seem to be dead. Position yourself to receive the promises of God. awesome kan? =)

Yeap, it was her birthday. She's a leap year babe! Thank you soooooooooooo much Mun! I feelll reallyyy special! You really defeat everyone and top the list of being the sweetest girl ever! Love u to bits! And Yes, step into another level in the love of God!!!

someone asked me this question while i was doing field work. Are you a chinese or a malay? -.- I got a HUGE HUGE SHOCK that I didn't know what to answer at first. I was like, staring at him for a few seconds and said, what do you think? what do i look like? then he was like emmm.., chinese or some sabahan.? because you keep following that malay guy. next time i should just answer, i am a malaysian!!! no more chinese, malay or indian. better answer right?

I am quite disturbed with all the jokes and comments made about KFC on facebook and youtube. Yes, KFC's worker did a wrong thing, but hey! you cannot blame everyone for one black sheep! KFC has taken whatever necessary and yes, they should take responsibility as an employer of the puncher. But, I think it is not a thing for us to tease about or take advantage at. As much as KFC is wrong, the media report etc is already a huge punishment itself! I see advertisement from Nando's saying something like "we give good punchline and not puncher", videos of people making fun of KFC, comics of it circulating and hundreds of people liking them. Please, this is so immature to pick on 'someone in distress'. I really hope this advertisement from Nando's is just a prank made by some lifeless person and really not from Nando's. Because if it is Nando's, I would be really disappointed at it taking advantage of someone else's distress! People, get a life and ha...

My audience, boss, evaluate-r, promoter is God, and not man. =) oh yes, my valentine too! =)

i shall be joyful despite the stupid traffic jams everyday -.-

1. If others don't want to teach you, learn yourself. Be thick-faced and ask =). 2. Don't eat food with high cholesterol! Opt for healthier food. 3. Read more. 4. Listen to Red FM if I am sleepy while driving and NOT sentimental music. 5. Pray for youth camp planning already. 6. Love my friends and family! =)

Since dad has started the tracing-our-family-tree thing, mum began her investigation work of tracing hers as well. It is definitely easier for mum to do so since my grandma is still around and she goes back to China quite often. So, the story of how the Lees move to Malaysia begins.. It all began when grandmum was still in great-grandma's stomach. There was war between China and Japan. You know how it gets cruel and dirty when Japan comes into the picture during war. Great grandpa left China first but great grandma couldn't because she was pregnant. In those days, you need to queue up and register to get the pass to leave China. Greatgrandpa's friend who is my mum's best friend's relative helped him to register since he had money. So he managed to escape and run to Sarawak in a boat or ship or something like that. So anyways, grandma was still in China. Great grandpa returned to China shortly after to help bring greatgrandma out but to no avail, of course. So grandp...

2 big news in the Ch'ng family today. 1. My favourite uncle was admitted to the hospital because of heart block. 3 main arteries are 99% clogged up and he is really weak now. Cousins are flying back. God, please pull us through this critical moment!! Best part is, my uncle's doctor is Pau's father =). 2. My dad found our Ch'ng family root in China today. My dad went to China last month and he was so bored at Xiamen. Since he had nothing to do, my uncle and him had this idea of tracing our family tree again. Apparently, they found my grandfather's sister who is 92 years old now! This idea excites me a lot. A Malaysian having some Chinese root! pretty bizarre when I think deeper! I love my Ch'ng family although this apostrophe sign causes a lot of problem especially when making IC and passport. They never get it right even though I write and explain to them very clearly!

I went to dig out this post which I thought I posted it last year at 2011. But it was actually posted in 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to go back to 2009 again where I have my dear uni friends with me everyday!! hahaha.. Reminder to self... Health: 1. Drink plenty of water. 2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar. 3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants. 4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy. 5. Make time for prayer. 6. Play more games. 7. Read more books than you did in 2008. 8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. 9. Sleep for 7 hours. 10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile. Personality: 11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about. 12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment. 13. Don't over do. Kee...

She is really special although she is the majority cousin. I met her gain in UKM today and she shared a bomb incident to me. I was devastated knowing this bomb incident. Lesson learnt well my friend. Thanks for sharing such personal thing and sharing your life to me. I will always remember what you said today, and many other things that you have taught me throughout my UKM days. =) God bless u