Civilization found…

September 12, 2008

Fortunately, I have drifted back from the sea of no communication. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I have found the internet once again!
I think it’s been about a year since I disconnected my service. The only internet access I’ve had has been at work, which is completely inadequate for maintaining a blog…
The writing shall continue!

Stay posted…

On the move

March 27, 2008

Moving is actually pretty cool. Sure, it’s a hassle and it takes a lot of work, but overall I think it’s far better than staying in one place for too long.
By place, I don’t just mean physical location. I think an unhealthy state of mind qualifies. W
e moved into a new house this weekend.
I was also given an opportunity musically that will take me in a completely new direction.

My state of mind is moving right along as well….

Moving is a good thing. Enough said.

It amazes me how my perspective can change on a dime. One day I’m full of God’s fire, ready to take on anything….even die for the cause…
the next, I’m staring blankly out the window.

Why is it that the good things in life never last and the bad things seem to go on forever?

What purpose is there in PURPOSE if it can’t be fulfilled?

Does anyone ever ACTUALLY count sheep?
Strange question, sure, but I can answer it.
NO. They don’t. Because it doesn’t work.

Nothing works.

Pessimistic? Depressing? Well, that’s life.

No worries. I’m sure I’ll bounce back tomorrow.

japnsmusic.jpg Today I had 2 exciting experiences. First, I watched a rendition of “Smoke on the Water” performed by some sort of Japanese symphony (I know this is an incorrect description, but I’m not really up on eastern music genres, sorry.) It’s not only humorous, but very entertaining from a musician’s perspective. I only wish I could have seen it in person! You can watch it for yourself at: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m5QjvTDulFg

elkhunt.jpgThe other exciting thing was that I put in for my first elk hunting tag ever! I’ve been deer hunting several times with my dad, but I’ve always gone to Utah… his turf… to hunt. This time, if I’m lucky enough to get drawn, I’ll get to have him tag along with me on an elk hunt here in Arizona!
I’m thrilled at the prospect of even hunting elk, let alone doing it in new territory…and this gives me a really good excuse to shop at Cabella’s!

Wish me Luck!

~BnR

Like a rolling stone…

January 15, 2008

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I figure I’ve moved an average of once a year for the past 10 years. I can’t seem to put down roots. I used to blame myself for having a rebel nature that insisted on uprooting and changing the scenery, but now I think it may in fact be some other force at work.

Our landlord is selling the house we live in. We had planned to live in it for 2 years…. just like the last house we lived in that was sold 6 months into our lease…. but now we are, once again, pricing the cost of moving truck rentals.

It wasn’t so bad when I was younger. It was fun to pick up and move to a different apartment, different city, different state. I got a kick out of it. Lately, though, I’m finding the need to nest. I want to have traditions with my children and people “dropping in” on us to visit. Those things simply don’t happen when you’re constantly the new family on the block.

We’re trying to get approved for a loan. At least if we buy a house, we’ll get to call the shots on whether or not we have to uproot. I’m praying that God lends us a little extra help and that we’re able to find somewhere to call home for much longer than a year.

Year of the Fighting Fish?

January 8, 2008

Happy New Year!

 

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I have to start the scale for 2008 out on the negative side, I’m afraid. My dear little fighting fish, Geddy Lee, decided to leave us for brighter waters on Sunday evening.
(It couldn’t have been a worse night to grill Mahi Mahi.)
I didn’t think it was possible to love a fish, but my family really did. We had him set up in a stylin’ little aquarium. He had his own pagoda and tree which he loved to swim in and out of, or often just perch in.
We  even gave him his own little stocking this past Christmas.
Now…sadly…he is no more.

 Faced with the tragedy of his loss, and an inquisitive 3-year-old, I had no other option but to stop at Petsmart on my way home from work yesterday
and purchase his successor, Geddy Lee II.
(He has some really big fins to fill.)

On a brighter note,
the blues band (which remains unnamed) had an awesome time on New Year’s Eve!
We played a private party and everyone loved it. (2-encores!!!)
I think, with a little effort and a few more songs,
we’ll be ready for the bar scene.
Woo Hoo!
I’ll add pics when I get some. Unfortunately, I didn’t remember to take my camera.

The other project, Passage Paid, is a stone throw from completing our demo. We found a local producer who is willing to put it together.
I guess “the dream” may soon materialize!
Lord willing, I definitely won’t complain about that.

I wonder if they allow aquariums on tour buses.

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We watch it speed by…
Fit people on TV, infomercials about various home-fitness devices,
foods labeled “low fat” and “organic.”
Yet, somehow, we allow it to pass us without jumping on.
It’s what I like to call the “Health Train.”

If I had one wish, just one, that could come true in an instant and make my life notably better, it would be to be fit and healthy.
I sigh at myself in the mirror….grumble as I eat yet another garbage meal…fight back tears of disgust as I try on a pair of jeans that has more than one digit in the size.
I hate being unhealthy! I hate it just as much as I would hate having to walk from Seattle to Boston! So why, then, has it taken me so long to jump on the train?
This question puzzles me more than any other.
I used to be fit when I was younger. I went on regular hikes, ate good foods, even took boxing classes. For some reason my 20’s erased all signs of that lifestyle.

Now, I’m secure about my faith, my values, my parenting, my contributions to society, my music, my goals and dreams….
(all things I was distraught over in my 20’s)
but I’m an utter flake when it comes to my health!
I made a decision a couple of days ago to go for broke and attempt to ride the rails.
I pulled out one of my Natural Health magazines (which I’ve been subscribing to for years), and read an article about a 3-day detox. It’s meant to rid the body of all toxins acquired by poor health choices.
I bought a quart of carrot juice, brewed up white & green tea, and made a vegetable soup full of leafy greens and garlic. Yum! 

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I’m feeling better already and it hasn’t even been 48 hours.
It’s amazing what can happen when we pay attention to our primal need for what is truly best for us.

I want to wake up ready to face the day, happy with how I look and feel.
For now, I’ve caught the train…
Next stop, perseverance.
🙂

B~n~R

My “Office Space”

December 7, 2007

When it rains, it pours…. and on some occasions, such as this morning, it pours without raining. (Although it has threatened to all day.) The sky is grey and gloomy, just the way I like it, and I should be outside enjoying this all-too-infrequent weather, but instead, I’m trapped in my office and all hell has been breaking loose (the pouring I referred to will be explained momentarily.)

It began with payroll. Normally, I don’t mind it. Every other Friday I resign myself to spending a good part of my morning scrutinizing time-sheets and calculating hours. I do need to concentrate and generally don’t deal with other issues until the almighty payroll template has been successfully emailed to my corporate office. It works out well because my boss generally doesn’t consider Fridays to be workdays, so I usually have peace and quiet to get the job done. This morning didn’t allow for that. No,…it brought with it the kind of chaos you can only find in movies like “The Money Pit” and “Fun with Dick and Jane.”

I should start by saying that I work in the office of a Wastewater Reclamation Facility or “sewer plant” for those of you who like to keep it real. LOL
It usually doesn’t smell too bad. Really. We have odor scrubbers, etc., that keep the reality of what we deal with to a minimum. However, when certain failures occur, such as the broken air-line this morning, the smell increases tremendously. Upon arrival at the plant today, I was greeted with…to put it as nicely as possible…. a very pungent odor.

I settled in at my desk and tried to ignore the smell as I fumbled through time-sheets. As I began the normal data entry process, a passing coworker commented that he thought something was dripping in the file room. I went to investigate and found that one of the fire sprinklers was indeed dripping water onto the floor.
This concerned me, not just because water coming from ceilings is widely accepted as a problem, but because the room it was dripping into contains the personnel, accounting, and contract files for several facilities. I informed the Maintenance Manager, who called someone at the company who deals with dripping fire sprinklers.
I waited for them to arrive, staring nervously at the sprinkler which continued to drip into a small bucket I had placed on the floor….and contemplated all possible horrors that could occur… (I was reminded briefly of the commercial in the 80’s for that gum called “tidal wave”)…
I tried to focus on my payroll entry when the phone rang. It was a woman from a company sent to look at our broken front gate. She said she would be arriving in a few minutes and wanted my Maintenance Manager to meet her at the gate to discuss options. I tried to call him on his cell phone, but was greeted instead by a very friendly woman who explained that she was his mother and he had left his cell phone at her house. I called someone else and asked them to find him for me.
That’s when the gate intercom began to beep,… repeatedly. I tried to ignore it. This is just about the time our client walked in. My company is subcontracted to operate this facility for a municipality, and we answer to their Utilities Director. He had received a call from another company down the street (who happens to create microchips and uses water discharged from our facility.) Apparently, they have been having trouble with their process and are blaming it on our water…and consequently our reclamation & discharge process (or something like that.) In a nutshell, our client is not a very happy camper.

This is about the time my Maintenance Manager came in to check on the dripping. He brought a ladder and flashlight and proceeded to open up a panel in the ceiling of the room next to the file room where we happen to keep our coffee pot.

So…. there I sat…. with my client and a couple of supervisors at my desk discussing (quite loudly) the goings on with the water, the gate intercom beeping, water dripping into the file room, and my Maintenance Manager on a ladder tearing open the ceiling. The phone rang again.

This time, it was the manager of a janitorial company that we fired back in July. He decided to call and try to get another year of payments out of us for not cancelling our contract by the deadline. (He is dead wrong, by the way. We have corresponded back and forth for weeks, and I’ve about had it with him.) Anyway… he decided today would be a good time to haggle a little more over an issue that I have already turned over to my legal department.

I would like to interject that by this point, it was about 10:00 in the morning and I usually have payroll done by 9:30 or so.

Just as I was attempting to wrap up my phone call, I heard a loud gushing noise and some sort of profanity from the sprinkler company guy. I turned around to see him lifting a 5 gallon bucket up to the ceiling to catch the downpour (Yes, this would be the aforementioned pouring.)

Once the mess was cleaned up, the phone call finally ended, the gate lady left, and I managed to get the payroll entered(BARELY by the deadline), I thought it would be nice to get a cup of coffee.
As it turned out, when my Maintenance Manager opened up the ceiling panel, a few things that have been up there for the past decade dropped in the general vicinity of my coffee pot. As I reached for a stir stick, I was mortified to find them covered in mouse droppings.
Ahhh, the joy of my job.

It just makes a record deal seem that much sweeter.

T.G.I.F.

~BnR

I remember getting one of those chain emails entitled
“Getting to Know You” (or something like that) a while ago.
It had questions about various things, like
what kind of ice cream you like best, what your favorite movie is, etc…
One of the questions asked, “If you could only listen to one type of music for the rest of your life, what would you pick?” I thought about it for a minute, and realized there was only one honest answer I could give…
The Blues.

My affection for Blues music has grown over the years. It started with Jr. High band class. The first day of my 6th grade year, my band teacher asked me what instrument I played. I told him I had taken piano lessons since 1st grade, but I didn’t play anything else.
He asked if I wanted to try flute. A tomboy at heart, I abruptly declined.
He grinned and said I should try saxaphone.
From that day on I was hooked,
and I managed to hold 1st chair Alto Sax for 3 years.
I remember watching a movie called Dream a Little Dream when I was in 7th grade. It had a song during one of the scenes that I couldn’t get out of my mind. I watched the credits and saw that it was by an artist named Van Morrison. I bought the movie soundtrack and listened to it incessently. I learned the sax solo right away. The song was Into the Mystic. I didn’t know that it was a blues song. I just knew I loved the way it made me feel.
I moved to another city just before my 9th grade year, and the band was already full when I registered for school. It broke my heart, but I kept playing on my own as much as I could (which wasn’t too often because none of my new friends were musicians.)
Highschool was a time for hard rock & grunge. Not many people listened to blues…at least not anyone I knew.
It wasn’t until 2001 that I found my passion again…
at the Waterfront Blues Festival in Portland, Oregon.

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I was a starving single mother then, so I was always looking for cheap things to do with my daughter. The cost to get in was 2 cans of food for the local food bank. I decided to check it out.
I watched in awe as band after band
tore into blues music like none I had ever heard (and rarely since).
I’ll admit, I didn’t know many of the bands or the songs they were playing ,but I knew the sound and the feeling that came with it…
the same feeling I had when I first heard Van Morrison in the 7th grade.

Since then, I’ve spent time learning about the early blues artists and how the music has evolved. Some of those guys didn’t have shoes to wear, but they managed to scrounge up enough money for a beat-up guitar…and changed the world of music forever.
Blues music is real. It’s raw. It comes from places in the soul that most people don’t ever allow themselves to think about.
I guess I like how honest it is. Hearing someone mourn through a guitar with whiskey on their breath and nowhere to turn…
It’s so sad, it’s beautiful.
When my friend, Mark, asked me to sing back-up vocals with his blues band, I could hardly turn him down.
I have other musical interests. In fact, the band my husband and I put together is getting ready to release a Christian music demo in the next couple of months.
The option to sing the blues coming into my life now? All I can do is shrug. It’s sort of ironic.
Maybe it’s an acquired thing… or maybe there are places in my heart that need the comfort that only comes from sympathy for past pain and struggle. Sympathy I can only find in two places,
The Bible, and the Blues.

~BnR

Maryland/D.C. Vacation

December 4, 2007

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 (Alex’ in D.C. under the pretty fall leaves.)

I just got back from visiting my brother in Maryland. Talk about gorgeous! The trees were in full autumn color and the temperature was perfect…not too cold, but just cold enough to have to wear a coat.
I loved it.

 

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I’m not too keen on the desert climate I live in, so this was a real treat for me. Donnie and I collected leaves, drank cocoa, took long walks, watched squirrels scurry about…
and took the girls to Washington D.C.
We visited an Amish Market, (where Grace got a doughnut that was made just for her)
 and the coolest store known to man,
“Ann’s House of Nuts.”
If you are ever in the Baltimore area, check this place out!
I will thank my brother until the end of time for showing me this hole-in-the-wall,
fruit & nut fanatasy land!

For a mere $35.00, I walked out (well, waddled out is probably a better way to put it) with 2 large cardboard boxes and a full paper sack of treasures. I think the chocolate-covered espresso hazelnuts are my favorite.

I really enjoyed the time with my brother, sister-in-law, and nephews….oh, and let’s not forget their horse,…er…dog…, Apollo.
This photo is of Apollo letting me know that despite his montrous size,
he is still very much a “lap-dog.”
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We had a great time at the Baltimore Harbor, too.

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