ECLIPSEBABY

Daddy's off to Germany for the next 10 days, and mom just left this morning to Bali for a meeting. Since all the hotels are booked while all she need is a place to spend one night, she'll be staying at my ex-boyf's house (he's here til the end of this month so the house is empty). weird? not.

i wanna go movie-marathon at the 21 but mum said no-no. at least not til she got back. ah alrite. i'll just go for awhile this afternoon to teach then buy all sort of things to nibble then back to this hellhole where there's still no pembantu. dont get me wrong, i love my house, but its hard to keep things clean when i have 2 devilchilds who wouldnt move a finger to even clean their own mess.

you should check out my brother's room. it smells like feet. u couldnt come near it without a gas mask and a bottle of Glade. Mum needs to talk to that boy. i probably should get her a gas mask too, since she's the only mum i have.

anyway its almost 9 n i need to pee-pee. which reminds me to get my bathroom door fixed (by fixed i mean break open with an axe. seriously, its been 4 days and i dont appreciate having to run downstairs to do the numbers in the middle of the night. dark places scares the shit outta me and mum wont let me keep the lights on at night unless i pay for them myself and i as we all know i'm broke so like Lenny once said i'll just STFU).

congrats to Indah & Ferly who finally got married, tied the knot, take the big leak uh i mean leap, blablabla, blablabla, im sure ya get the point. we can all exhale n said "akhirnyaaaa" in unison. afterall, theyve been together for 8-9yrs. if those years they were already married, hell add another 1 year and she could sue for alimony n half his money. his house. heck maybe even his car.

anyway, as the best friend(s), we're obliged to prepare a lil gift, a useful one, to spice up their nights. (they can buy their own cooking utensils. for kinky kit, we got it.) well, not that she needs any help with getting things on, but a lil sumtin is better than nothing, and since nobody has the time to look for a wedding gift (there are 4 unemployed beeches to choose from and yet i'm the one ended up doing this shit. not that i mind.), i bought her this:



nice, eh? it toned down her personality. yes you heard me right.

happy honeymoon, lovebirds.

This is me. Far from perfect. I could be egocentric, stubborn, inconsiderate, ungrateful, or just plain stupid. I made mistakes. Lots of them i still regret until now. But i'm learning. And even if i might lose u cause theres no trust for me left, i am still learning. Everything that happened molds me into who i am today. And its not finished yet.

I need someone who would learn n try n grow with me, walk with me, stand by me.. And if its meant to be, that person would have me for what i am, make peace with my imperfections, and maybe, just maybe, he'll grow to love it, just like i love his.

Thankyou mommy, i find strength in your words. I'll learn from this.