February has felt longer than January, somehow. With more singing to do than usual, including a massive project centering around Handel’s Dixit Dominus, various health issues cropping up for both me and my fiancé, and almost uniformly terrible weather, I have felt some days as if all my energy and drive has burned out of me. One or two days of clear skies and milder air only reinforced how deeply I’m affected by a constant lack of direct sunlight. I just feel stuck, at the moment: everything I’m trying to do is still mid-stream (the PhD; the wedding; a possible career change) and every possible remedy seems to involve spending money (going away for a weekend; buying flowers) or damaging my blood sugar (having a sweet treat while running errands) or, of course, both.
Books are a solace in bad times. I probably ought to do some more comfort reading, re-reading, etc. Even so, I read fourteen books in February. The library haul is covered here; here’s what I thought of the rest.
provoked the most mixed feelings: Shibboleth, by Thomas Peermohamed Lambert (2025). I wrote about this Oxford-set satire of academia and 2020s campus liberalism for #ReadIndies, here.
book I most wanted to love and just liked: The Gilda Stories, by Jewelle Gomez (1991). Conceptually, this is brilliant: a set of interlinked stories that, put together, tell the story of a girl who flees slavery in antebellum Louisiana and is inducted into the eternal life of vampirism by two women who run the brothel where she’s taken in as a servant. Each chapter is set decades after the last, so Gomez gives us a sense of American history moving forward as well as the rhymes and resonances of the things that don’t change. Her conception of vampire society is brilliant too; it’s not a theft of blood but rather an exchange, the vaunted psychic abilities of vampires allowing them to give back to their victims in the form of good dreams, affirmations, wishes, impulses. Vampire society is presented as a found and created family in a way that closely aligns it with queer family-making; Gilda’s “creators” are a lesbian couple and same-sex love is central to the life Gomez imagines for her protagonist. Unfortunately, there’s an awkwardness in the writing that kept reasserting itself, a combination of oddly flat rhythm and too much telling. Here’s Gilda telling a friend that she’s killed a man before: “Yes”, she answered impatiently. The cloying smell of the air freshener and the closeness of the walls made Gilda even more anxious. The faces floated up in her mind again, and the bitterness of those moments singed the back of her throat. Savannah was surprised by her response and by its tone. How much more effective would it be to dramatise Savannah’s surprise – with a step back, a blink, even a gasp? (And why is Savannah’s response in the same paragraph? Surely we need a new one when the focus shifts from Gilda’s perceptions to her friend’s.) That awkwardness persists throughout, and kept my feelings for this book at a level of appreciation for its iconic status, but not love.
most badass protagonist: Aud Torvingen, of Nicola Griffith’s fabulous trilogy comprising The Blue Place (1997), Stay (2002) and Always (2007). I wrote about all three for #ReadIndies, here.
book I most feel I’ve barely scratched the surface of: Train Dreams, by Denis Johnson (2002). This was my first book by Johnson and I liked it very much indeed. It’s incredibly short- at 128 pages, it’d be perfect for Novellas in November – and yet manages to be epic in recounting the life of Robert Grainier, a lumberman in the Pacific Northwest who lives between about 1885 and 1968. Grainier reacts to both terrible events and humorous ones with a kind of passive equanimity that reminded me somewhat of István, the protagonist in David Szalay’s recent Booker Prize-winning novel Flesh, except Grainier’s feelings are actually clearer, despite or rather because of his muted responses. The loss of his wife and baby in a lethal wildfire nearly drives him mad, but he eventually regains a balance in his life that the reader is all the more invested in because of how low-key Johnson’s depiction of it is. There are also some marvelous comic moments, including a scene in which Grainier meets a man who has been shot by his own dog, and another in which he helps an acquaintance make an ill-fated proposal of marriage to a forthright young widow. Comparisons to Cormac McCarthy and William Faulkner are overused, but there’s a touch of both in these grotesque but tender moments. In terms of themes and symbolism, canines – dogs and wolves – recur, representing the line between the domestic and the wild. It’s a line Grainier himself seems to wander over repeatedly even as the coming of railways and logging of forest hastens the taming of the West. To make something that feels so rich and complete in such a small page span is a tremendous achievement. This will repay rereading.
best balance between the real and the surreal: As If, by Isabel Waidner (2026). This, my first taste of Waidner’s fiction, is an oddly charming little novel about two men who essentially swap lives, assuming that both are real, and one isn’t just a funhouse-mirror reflection of the other. But which would be which? One is Aubrey Lewis, whose wife Laurie has just died of throat cancer and whose high-profile on-stage breakdown early in his acting career led him to a safe, stagnant role as a detective’s sidekick on seventeen seasons of a BBC stalwart. The other is Lindsey Korine, whose wife Laurie is in remission from throat cancer; he never pursued acting, initially for fear of mockery at school and later from an apparent lack of stick-to-it-ive-ness, and has bounced between jobs. The men live around the corner from one another. One night, after Korine has walked out on his family and taken to living in the Barbican underpass, he spots Lewis – whom he recognises as a school acquaintance, and to whom he bears some resemblance – and follows him home. Korine goes for a last-ditch TV audition, pretending to be Lewis, and gets the gig; Lewis goes home to Korine’s wife and child, and assumes the responsibilities of parenthood. As If would probably be reminiscent of Paul Auster, if I’d ever read any Auster. (The title refers to the name of the TV project, which is based on a novel that, itself, is some kind of spinoff from Lewis’s earlier show; it also pretty clearly gestures to the novel’s themes of chance, risk, and, faintly, hope.) It’s never so weird as to utterly defy possibility, but it certainly dances merrily along possibility’s edge. I was surprised by how much I enjoyed this, mostly down to Waidner’s perfect tone, which contains just the right blend of humor and pathos. I’d definitely read their work again. Thanks to NetGalley for the eARC; As If was published on 26 February.
most gloriously engrossing: Nonesuch, by Francis Spufford (2026). I’ve always known Spufford had an sff novelist’s heart – he’s been getting closer and closer to the genre with every novel he writes. With Nonesuch, he’s arrived. It’s his best yet, I think, an adventure through Blitz-raddled London and through time itself. Like all of my favourite secret-London novels, it relies on wonders: radio-wave angels imprisoned in the city’s statues, a sixteenth-century path to an enclave existing outside of space and time (“ye Pallace of Nonesuche”), a truly terrifying encounter with a construct that reminded me of the malevolent animated scarecrows in the Doctor Who two-parter “Human Nature”/”The Family of Blood”. The reason it’s so good, though, is the protagonist. Spufford has always been great at writing women, but here he really surpasses himself with Iris Hawkins, an ambitious secretary in a City firm. Iris wants to be rich, and she’s a social climber; her calibration of her vowels, from Watford to Chelsea, recurs regularly. She’s also got a fantastic financial mind and an endearing practicality. You know how we expect our heroines in books like this to be fascinated if they come across a wizardly cabal? Iris, refreshingly, truly couldn’t care less about the weirdos whose occult machinations have set all this in motion. Her main desires are to stay alive, to keep her lover Geoff alive, to stop a bitchy fascist from changing history so that England capitulates to the Nazis in 1939, and to find some way of balancing her fierce need for independence with the unexpected experience of falling in love. She’s a sexually active heroine without apology, but she doesn’t feel anachronistic. On the contrary, she feels unusual but not unlikely, someone who learns not to stand out but who is constantly working towards her goals, within her era’s limiting frameworks for class and sex. I suppose the combination of social-documentarian Blitz novel and metaphysical adventure story might strike other readers as incongruous, but I loved it. And while the immediate plot is resolved by the end of the novel, it ends on a literal “to be continued” that instantly creates another set of questions to be answered. Brilliant, brilliant, brilliant. If you’ve enjoyed Spufford’s previous work, don’t miss it. Huge thanks to Francis himself for the PDF proof; Nonesuch was published on 26 February.
best demonstration of how spiky eccentricity can mask deep vulnerability: Another Marvelous Thing, by Laurie Colwin (1986). I find Colwin hard to write about. She’s one of those authors who does what seems like perfectly ordinary magic. This short novel is about an extra-marital affair between people who, on the face of things, seem extremely ill-suited: fastidious, sophisticated Francis and slovenly, acerbic Billy (whose real name is Josephine, although no one calls her that except for her best friend’s imposing grandma). It’s brief and narrated through vignettes; we have to infer the connecting tissue of time, and sometimes of events, between each little chapter. Francis and Billy never consider leaving their spouses, whom they genuinely love, and they break up partway through the book. But the affair matters deeply to both of them, and the surprising poignancy of Another Marvelous Thing is the subtlety with which it shows that. No one gets histrionic here, and in fact mostly everyone is grumpy to everyone else, but the grumpiness is about hiding pain. Some of these chapters make perfect standalone short stories. Billy’s best friend’s wedding is one such, when the two women escape the reception temporarily and row out to an island in the ornamental lake to sneak cigarettes. The birth of Billy’s child is another; in fact that one is where the novel’s emotional centre lies, I think, where you get to see Billy in her sincerity for once, even as she keeps quipping. Her relationship with the nurse who attends her for her C-section is particularly winning. I don’t know, just try Colwin.
most confirmatory reread: Chasm City, by Alastair Reynolds (2001). First read in November 2019. I didn’t write anything about it then, but I remembered some things very vividly: the titular setting, an urban landscape that grew up around – and partly inside – a geothermal abyss on a planet called Yellowstone; “the hunt” or “the game”, in which victims are hunted across the rooftops and alleys of the city by the wealthy; and something about a giant snake that evolved to have its eyes inside its mouth. As it turns out, what I remembered count among the best, most effective aspects of the novel. Reynolds is terrific at settings: Chasm City is super atmospheric, with its constant humidity and yellow-brown tinged air. He’s also terrific at ideas. The Melding Plague, a kind of nanovirus that caused most of the technology on Yellowstone to malfunction, including the implants that many of its human citizens had as a matter of course, was a precursor to the protomolecule of James S.A. Corey’s Expanse series; meanwhile, the snake creature with the internal eyes is known as a hamadryad and its biological cycles are, not to get too detailed about it, incredibly cool. Where Reynolds falls down is in characterisation and plotting. There’s a story here, potentially quite an interesting one, about identity and memory and immortality, but it gets rather lost in unnecessarily complicated back-and-forthing. Also, the sex and romance elements are perfunctory – it’s as if Reynolds decided he had to have them but his heart wasn’t in it; maybe that’s an editor’s fault – and all of the women are variants on nurturing or innocent, with the wisecracking dialed up or down as appropriate. I hear Reynolds got a lot better, and as the only two books of his that I’ve read are early efforts – and his world-building details are just so cool – I’ll try him again.
best near-apocalypse: Cold Earth, by Sarah Moss (2009). This is Moss’s first novel, and you can kind of tell – it hasn’t entirely settled, and lacks some of the defining formal qualities of her later fiction, like the lower-case chapter headings composed of quotations from the chapters themselves – but in some ways that makes it all the more appealing and interesting. Her recurrent thematic concerns crop up: islands, cold Northern landscapes, the past and how reachable (or not) it is, food. (All the more unsettling to read this novel, in which a deeply unsympathetic character, Nina, is obsessed with gourmet cookery, in the light of Moss’s memoir, where she talks about her own lifelong anorexia. Nina’s not obviously in the grips of an eating disorder, but her compulsion to think about food, talk about food, and judge the food made available to her, as well as the food choices of others, is so pervasive that it takes on a tinge of abnormality, particularly as her mental state declines and she experiences visions of ancient Greenlanders.) The plot’s pretty simple: six graduate students on an archaeological dig in rural Western Greenland struggle with one another, their isolation, and their fears regarding a viral epidemic which had just begun to make headlines back in Europe/North America when they went off-grid. Each section gets progressively shorter, and each constitutes a note or letter or journal written by an expedition member – some starting early in the dig, and some only when they begin to expect not to survive. It’s basically a chamber piece, albeit a chamber that’s massive and outdoors. Moss has always excelled at characterisation and at atmosphere; both are abundantly present in Cold Earth, with different sections revealing the reasons for some characters’ behaviour (a hidden bereavement, for example), and the beauty but also the uncompromising quality of the landscape ever more starkly apparent. The ending is possibly a missed opportunity, but on the other hand, it neatly avoids melodrama. I’ve only got two unread Moss novels now (Night Waking and Bodies of Light).
best book to read over an afternoon spent in a doctor’s waiting room: The Diary of a Provincial Lady, by E.M. Delafield (1930). I bonded over this with a nurse at the diabetes clinic at Guy’s Hospital; she came over, asked what I was reading, took a picture of the cover, and seemed delighted by the “real Englishness” of Delafield’s vibe. (I think she might have been Portuguese or Spanish.) These originated as columns in Time and Tide newspaper – which gets regular shout-outs in the text – sort of like Bridget Jones’s Diary; people thought they were by a real person, then gradually realised that it was all fictionalised, but the Everywoman aspect of the speaker and the satirical tone is part of the charm. Our Provincial Lady (we never learn her name) has a grumpy husband, two wholly ungovernable children, and a phalanx of neighbours including the garrulous Our Vicar’s Wife, the tyrannically feeble Mrs. Blenkinsop, and the unbearable Lady Boxe. She is part of a class that no longer exists: the household has servants, but also money troubles. There is a clear line of literary descent from The Diary of a Nobody that runs through the Provincial Lady and on to both Bridget Jones and Adrian Mole: very funny, self-aware and ironic to a degree but only imperfectly, mostly present-tense narration, fantastic pen portraits. This quotation from the back of my copy will tell you if you’d like this sort of thing or not: “January 22nd – Robert startles me at breakfast by asking if my cold – which he has hitherto ignored – is better. I reply that it has gone. Then why, he asks, do I look like that? Feel that life is wholly unendurable, and decide madly to get a new hat.” Have not we all? Perhaps a new hat is what I need, too. If only they didn’t cost money.
How has February treated you? What have you been reaching for on these grey and rainy days?
















