Jangan lupa, kamu sedang menikah dengan manusia. Bukan malaikat.
My Coursera Plus <3
So excited to finally start my Coursera Plus journey! I have a feeling this is going to be life-changing.
Shoutout to my husband for being my constant support system (and my bank! Hahaha, love you!).
I’m so grateful for the chance to learn again. It might not be a ‘formal’ degree, but learning is learning, no matter the platform. Let’s do this!
❤️
The man whose name I always mention in my prayers
Menuangkan Pikiran
Ngomong-ngomong soal menuangkan pikiran, aku lama banget nggak nulis di blog ini. Padahal ada banyak banget yang terbesit di kepala sampai bingung sendiri harus ditulis dalam bentuk apa.
Entah penting atau tidak, dibaca lagi atau tidak, sepertinya aku perlu menumpahkan yang membuat pikiranku penuh di tempat ini (tentu yang sudah kusortir untuk jadi konsumsi orang lain juga).
Aku udah jurnaling, mencatat di HP juga (kadang). Tapi sepertinya kok masih kurang lega, apalagi kalau aku ingin di masa depan nanti ada yang baca tulisanku terus dapet momen AHA! karena liat sudut pandangku. Hahahaha
Grateful
Right now, it’s just me and my daughter because my husband is out of town for work. Out of nowhere, my phone showed a photo memory from a few years ago. It hit me softly.
I feel incredibly grateful that I get to walk this life with him, even though the path hasn’t always been straight or easy.
Back then, I once prayed that I would never become a burden or a test for my husband, and that my husband would never become a test for me either.
We understand each other’s capacities and the goals we want to reach. That’s why we move forward as partners, supporting one another. I don’t feel the need to dictate who he should be, and his support is never just empty words like “you can do it” or “I’m cheering for you.” He shows up. He gets involved. He works quietly without saying much.
And most importantly, his presence has never held me back from growing.
Honestly, I regret the time I once spent trying to change other people instead of focusing on myself. But I guess that phase taught me something important: people who truly want to change will change. And those who don’t—no matter what you do—will stay exactly where they are.
That’s a principle I still hold onto today. I don’t feel the need to force my beliefs or values onto anyone anymore. It’s a waste of energy. I’ll remind someone once or twice, and if it goes unheard, then I’m done. I don’t push. I don’t chase.
I don’t care in the healthiest way possible.
Because that’s your life, and that’s your responsibility.
The Taste of First Heartbreak
These songs transport me straight back to middle school. I can’t fully explain it — whenever love is involved I become peculiarly desperate, embarrassingly so. How was I ever that melodramatic? Even hearing Bryan McFadden could make me cry.
And then there’s the clincher — Sarah McLachlan. That one didn’t just make me shed a tear; it made me sob openly. Hahaha, classic.
“Do you want me to stay and say ‘I still want you’ — you want me too, don’t you?”
A few years later I learned the blunt answer: you don’t love me. 🙂 It hurt — and it still stings — but that’s the unvarnished reality.
Peluang
Nggak semua orang bisa dikasih peluang ternyata. Pun kalau dapet, memanfaatkannya pun ogah-ogahan.
Padahal apa salahnya langsung coba. Kalau gagal yaudah. It’ll become a part of life ketimbang nggak melakukan apa pun.
Cuman yaaaa apalah kita sebagai manusia hanya bisa mengusahakan. Perkara peluangnya mau diambil atau enggak, itu keputusan mereka.
Berawal dari sini, I’ll enjoy my life while they’ll enjoy theirs 😊. Kalau nggak punya ekspektasi apa pun kan enak
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