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Oh bloggie darling... It's been quite sometime that i've been thinking to hop further for my future. But, how far can i hop when my guts are utterly gone and the sight of an interview just scares me away from any step towards it.
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Gosh! How often must i remind myself that i can do better than this, i can do it... can i? Self-confidence has been lacking day by day. I NEED A BETTER JOB with a BETTER WAGE and a BETTER BENEFIT and a BETTER ATMOSPHERE. ( aih, i think that's every employee's wishes ) Am so effing sick of my gutless self!

It's Monday

Staring aimlessly at my desktop.. Procrastination! or maybe, i just dont have enough workload!... I am so bored !

Ain't the same again

Browsing through my younger days' blogs. I felt somehow somewhere i'm not the same again. Reading through my "highest spending" post, i guess, at this point of my life, i wouldn't spend so much again on skin care without proper consideration and further analysis on the review of the products. Now i think my facial care is half the price i dig out last time.

When i was still a student, i spent unconsciously without worrying the amount left in my bank account. No, maybe i did slightly worry but not as terrifyingly worried like how i do now. As a student, at least you still got the audacity to feed your accounts through parent's inofficial fund but now, do you still have the cheek to feed your account the same way? Of course NO! Being an independent adult now, i'd have to save every single cents i could to feed my living. Well, of course i did not put my al-mighty effort to control my spending but i do now!!! I'm trying to spend less on clothes, accesories, groceries. I'm even looking on promotional items and buying in bulk, literally~ Ok, i used to buy only when i need it, but now my mind has been strategized for the sake of saving, hence, i opt for vouchers and to buy more during promotions so that i could save a few ringgits when it's not on promotion. Oh, aint i a thrifty adult now. LOL... ok, im being thrifty just so that i could buy other things. Maybe i did not change~

It has been months since my phone is in a disgraceful condition where parts could come off anytime from now. It's time for me to change a new 1. Oh im so confused which should i change. It's hard to decide when you have limited resources and you want a better version of phone to suit your use. Aih, but when you have the resources and you know which model of phone you want, BUT, here comes the major wall, the mind. The mind keeps processing juices of rationality to stop me from buying it. No maybe i did change. If i'm a carefree student, i would have bought it. Now thoughts have been procrastinating me from the purchase. Alright alright, i might as well just save for a few more months before buying it. Aih stupid phone!

PS: I must be freaking bored for posting another blog again today. No. I am freakingly bored!!!!

Months of dissappearance...

oh bloggie... After months of dissappearing from the blogsphere, here i am now, blogging again for the sake of killing boredom in office. Hell, i'm so freaking bored now and i didn't know what to do and so Phoebe suggested me to blog! Credits to her, i've redesigned my blogs according to the new templates in the settings and started blogging again.

Uh.. That's all.. Redesigned my blogs and just drop by to say hi. Well initially i planned to talk about something... something... So much of pieces of scenes scattering in my mind and so nothing came out syncrhonically.

Oh... to be continued...

Thoughts

Tracking into my memory lane...

I sometimes ask myself, "Hey, what if it isn't so? What if nothing ever happened?"...The thoughts "What if" usually lead me to a better imaginary path of life. Nevertheless, we human often thinks what if the unchosen path would be better?

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Thoughts remained thoughts. It's too good to be reality! I've asked myself, would i prefer to live through a world of "what if", trapping myself in a sea of thoughts rather than "if never"? In my point of view, "what if" builds a vision of illusion whilst "if never" builds a whole life of experiences and learning processes. Which would you like to be in?

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Despite those bothering thoughts, i honestly am contented with my life now. At times, a constant touch of happiness makes one knows not how to appreciate it and even take granted of it. Why? Simply because they haven't know what is sadness. That is in sadness we learn happiness!

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But life, words are easier than action. We do weaken ourselves when we have not enough guts to take the first step. Do let me grumble once in a while in my weakest moment. I promise i'll be good then. Love you!

Challenges

Dear Life,

I'd just a need a little confidence back. Where has it gone to?

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PS: Please come back to me, im waiting for you.

Love,

Jo

人生五味

鹹，酸，苦，辣，甜。。。人生啊，可不可以多一点甜，少一点 鹹 酸 苦 辣 呢？

人啊，就是犯贱！没鹹酸苦辣，就不懂得甜！

人！