Thursday, September 13, 2012

Weary and Weeping

"I am weary with my moaning;
every night I flood my bed with tears;
I drench my couch with weeping. 
My eye wastes away because of grief; 
if grows weak because of all my foes."
Psalm 6: 6,7


I've taken to reading the Psalms on the train while on the way to work and this morning I "happened upon" this particular passage.  It resonated with me given what I've been going through these last few months since my move back to BC.  

It's been hard.  Very hard. 

Which is why I've been quite silent.  

Writing has always been quite therapeutic for me as I've used it as a medium to process the thoughts swirling through this head of mine; which is why I started this blog 7 years ago while I was living in Camden.  This blog is a huge reminder of my years living in the east coast, which is why I haven't been writing.  It still hurts.  Even now, as I type, the tears are starting to well up.  I continue to be in that Valley of Baka, where I continue to desperately cling to the hope that God will turn my weeping into springs to quench my thirst, bringing hope and healing in this desolate and dark place I am in.  
 
Writing about saying my goodbyes the morning I left Philly, the drive across the country, and what this summer has actually been like, well, let's just say the grief is still very fresh and it would be like pouring salt into an open wound.  

Maybe with time, I'll be ready. 

Friday, June 22, 2012

Philly Bucket List Update II

I know, I know.......I've been so lax with my bucket list updates.  Fortunately I have been able to cross off some of the items on my list over the last few weeks, however, as with most of these types of lists, some, if not most are not crossed off.  It's the effort that counts, right?

A few weeks ago I went to Philly's city hall with my friend, Whitney, and took the elevator all the way up to the observatory deck, right below the William Penn Statue.  We rode up this small, rickety, elevator right up to the top of city hall which had me feeling somewhat claustrophobic and a little freaked out.  I think it was more the fact that the elevator seemed so old and there were windows on each side of the elevator where I could see us climbing higher and higher.  I ended up clinging to Whitney's had because I was so freaked out.  Yes, this is the same girl who rode on the London Eye a few months ago ALL BY HERSELF!

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So here you see William Penn keeping watch over the city of "Brotherly Love".  It rained a little bit while we were up on the observatory, which is why this picture is a bit blurry.

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And here we have the western view from the observatory, the Ben Franklin Parkway, leading up to the Philadelphia Museum of Art and the Schuylkill River.  What a breathtaking view!

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Another western view of center city, boasting some of the taller buildings.  The first one to the left with the spire on top is Liberty Place, the middle one is what I believe to be the Independence Blue Cross building, and the shiny, glassy, newer looking one is the Comcast building.
 

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 And here are Whitney and I with a view of center city behind us.  I'm looking a little terrified here.  Can' you tell by the way I'm clinging onto the bar?  

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The eastern side of the observatory boasts the Ben Franklin Bridge which is suspended over the Delaware river which connects Philly, PA to Camden, NJ.  I lived right across the bridge in Camden for about 8 years before moving into Philly.  I was that close to Philly as my place was right next to the Delaware river.  For about 6 years I drove across this bridge on a daily basis to go to work. 

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And lastly, a northern view of Broad Street, which is a main artery in Philly, approximately 13 miles long.  Every first weekend in May there is a 10 mile race called the Broad Street Run starting in the northern part of Broad Street and goes all the way down to the Naval Yards, which about 5 miles south of city hall.  And yes, I did run this race this year.....

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All geared up and waiting for the race to start with my close friend, Courtney, and her friend Lorna!


Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Valley of Baka

"As they pass through the Valley of Baka (weeping), 
they make it a place of springs, 
the autumn rain also covers it with pools.
 They go from strength to strength, 
till each appears before God in Zion". 
Psalm 84: 6-7

Pain and I do not mix very well and lately the brokenness I've been experiencing has been been quite intense.  This whole process of packing, purging, and saying good-byes is hard. While I am grateful to have this month off to prepare for my move and to spend time with precious friends, I have felt so alone in the process, like I'm in this desert surrounded by miles and miles of sand with no one else in sight.  This is a place where I need to lean on the One who is the Living Water, but it has been so difficult. I know He has promised to faithfully and gently lead me in the desert but I am having a hard time trusting in this truth.  Right now I am in the midst of "the Valley of Weeping" and I am desperately clinging to the hope that He will turn it into springs where He can quench my thirst and bring hope and healing in a desolate place I am in at the moment.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Realization

I just realized that I only have two more weeks left at work.  Then another month and a half before I move back to Vancouver. 

My heart is hurting. 

Friday, April 27, 2012

Philly Bucket List Update I

So I am determined to post in this blog every time I cross off an item on my "Philly Bucket List".  So which one made it off the list?

One of Jose Garces's restaurants, Distrito, located in the university city neighborhood on 39th and Chestnut.  This wonderful modern Mexican restaurant which boasts an array of diverse Mexican street food.  Distrito  has quite the palatable happy hour from 5:00-7:30 PM and the decor, very kitschy, with the traditional Mexican wrestling masks on the wall and upon entering the restaurant the VW Beetle taxi which has been transformed into a booth as you enter the restaurant.

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 I started out with the Feliz Margarita at the bar while waiting for my friend Elizabeth.

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 The guacamole and salsa mexicana were delish!

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 Another happy hour special was the tacos de carnitas which was super flavorful with its pulled pork, black beans and pineapple salsa.

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 Oh and the tacos de mahi mahi...words cannot even begin to describe...it was like having a party in my mouth!!!  

For dessert we had the Churros with two different dipping sauces: a spicy valrhona chocolate sauce and a cajeta crema, which is this incredible blend of a goat cheese and maple syrup.  After that first bite, we almost died and went to heaven.  At this moment I'm kicking myself for not taking a picture of this delicious goodness we had for dessert!!!!



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And here I am with my dear, sweet, friend Elizabeth...fully satisfied with yet another Jose Garces restaurant.  And yes, I highly recommend Distrito, especially their happy hours!!!

Next stop?  Why yes, another Jose Garces establishment.....JG Domestic

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Philly Bucket List

So in culmination of my time here in Philly, I've decided to put together a "Philly Bucket List".  All thing things I need to do before my move back to Vancouver.  I will be coming back and updating this list from time to time and crossing off what I've already done so this post will more than likely pop up more than a few times on my recent blog posts. 

1.  Patronize all of Jose Garces's establishments:
Amada,
Distrito, (Completed 4/27/12)
Tinto, 
Chifa, 
Village Whiskey,
Garces Trading Co. (Completed 4/7/12)
JG Domestic, (Completed 6/8/12)
Mercat

2.  Visit the Philadelphia Zoo, (Completed 6/5/12)


3.  The Perogie Kitchen

4. Visit the Franklin Institute

5.  One last run on Kelly Drive....the entire 8 mile loop! 

6.  Philly Cheesesteak taste testing tour

7.  Run up the Rocky steps one last time.  (Completed 4/7/12)

8.  Spend a day down the shore (Ocean City) and go for one last swim in the Atlantic Ocean.

9.  Go on a tour at the Eastern State Penitentiary.

10.  Take the elevator all the way up city hall's William Penn statue.  (Completed 5/30/12)

11. Visit the Mummer's Museum

12.  Go to a Phillies game

13.  Take a picture in front of the LOVE statue at Love Park. (Completed 5/30/12)

14 Broad Street Run (Completed 5/6/12)


Suggestions are more than welcome!  Anyone wanna come with?  :)




Friday, March 30, 2012

Memoirs of a Foodie: Poor Man Sushi

In the 7 years that I've had this blog, I don't think I've ever shared this one factoid about me:  I love food.  Yes, yes, I know most people do.  But seriously, I LOVE FOOD.  Good food, that is.  I'm what, one would call, a "foodie".  I enjoy spending time, attention, and energy on knowing the ingredients of food and the preparation of food.  I am definitely someone who appreciates the creativity of exemplary prepared food and drink and finding great enjoyment in savoring it.  Maybe I should call myself an epicure, but the term "foodie" is such a fun word and fits my personality the best.

A dear friend of mine, (fellow foodie extraordinaire), Whitney, has a wonderful food blog, where she writes about, well, food!  It's a delightful blog full of Whitney's sweet, mid-western personality, as she "pens" down her adventures of eating great food and the different recipes she cooks from.  Please check go and check out her blog!  Whitney has inspired me to write about food and so from time to time I will dedicate a post on a recipe I've tried and altered or an amazing meal I've eaten at a restaurant.  I probably should start a blog solely dedicated to food, but the thought of doing so is somewhat daunting for me. I mean seriously, I can barely keep up with updating THIS blog!  So, with all that said, here is my first "foodie" post.....

Earlier this evening while I was at Whole Foods Market picking up some groceries, I slowly walked by that section where they have their prepared sushi rolls.   Now one thing you need to know about me is that I. Love. Sushi.  Growing up in the west coast, Vancouver to be specific, I was seriously spoiled by the myriad of Japanese restaurants which serves amazing sushi rolls and melt-in-your- mouth sashimi (raw fish) at unbelievably cheap prices.  Here on the east coast, I do not eat sushi as often as I did in Vancouver because A) it's super expensive, and B) the places where I've eaten sushi, well, let's just say I haven't been impressed. Alright, so back to Whole Foods....once I saw the sushi display, my mouth started watering.  Unfortunately the price of sushi at Whole Foods leaves much to be desired and so of course I had to pass.  But then I thought of "Poor Man Sushi" which was coined by some dear friends of mine who used to make it all the time.  I had most of the ingredients in my refrigerator and all I had to do was pick up the nori and one other ingredient to make this great meal! 
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As you can see in the picture above, I already had the brown rice prepared from a meal that I made the night before and the other ingredients were also in my refrigerator.  I julienned cucumber and carrots, then sliced a lovely, ripe, avocado and set them aside.

Now for my other ingredient......

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Yep, that is a can of Spam.  Don't judge.

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I also "julienned" the spam and cooked it in a frying pan.  No need to put any oil in the pan because, well, you know, the Spam itself already has fat oil seeping out while being cooked in the pan.  I like to make sure the Spam is browned on all sides as it gives that crunchy factor when you bite into the sushi roll.  My housemate, Brian, joked that I was going all "Hawaiian" with the Spam.  I know Spam is not the choice of food for most people, but I grew up eating it and I actually do like it.  Again... don't judge.  Everything in moderation, right? 


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What we have here is a package of sushi nori that I picked up from a gem of an Asian marketplace called Spring Garden Market, which is located on the corner of Spring Garden and 4th Streets.  What I love about this place is not only the produce and other fare reasonably priced, but it also has free parking in the rear!!!  Another plus is that Spring Garden Market is nowhere near the craziness of Chinatown traffic.  Oh, and did I mention that parking is free?  A rarity in Philly.

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You can see in the picture above, I cut the nori into four squares. While not pictured in the above, I held the the nori in my palm, spreading a spoonful of brown rice, and topping it off with the veggies, avocado, and fried Spam (again, don't judge).

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And after all the ingredients are put together, what you end up with is the above awesomeness, Poor Man Sushi.  You really don't need to roll it up like a traditional sushi roll.  I only did it with the first one so I can take a picture to show what it would look like rolled up.  After this roll, I reverted back to cutting the nori into smaller pieces, placing the rice, veggies, and Spam on top, folding the nori around the ingredients, dipping it in low-sodium soy sauce, and then stuffing my face silly with this delicious goodness.

Poor Man Sushi

1 Cup Cooked brown rice
1/2 Cup julienned carrots
1/2 Cup julienned cucumber
Half an avocado, sliced
Spam, about a quarter of the can
Sushi Nori
Soy sauce (optional)
Wasabi (optional)

Julienne the carrots and cucumber and set aside.

Slice half of an avocado and set aside.

Julienne the Spam and then place the slices on a frying pan, cooking it on medium heat.  When all sides of the Spam is browned, remove from the heat. 

Cut sushi nori into 4 sheets and then spread a spoonful of cooked brown rice on top.  Place 2-3 julienned carrots slices, 2-4 julienned cucumber slices, an avocado slice, and 1-2 julienned Spam slices.  You can roll it up or fold it around the corners to keep the ingredients nestled together inside the sushi nori.  Mix the wasabi (to taste, as it has a kick to it) in the soy sauce.  You can dip the Poor Man Sushi into the wasabi/soy sauce mix before eating it...or else you can dip in soy sauce without the wasabi...OR...just eat it plain.

Mabuting Gana!  (Tagalog (Filipino language) for "Bon Appetit!")

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Travels......

Guess where I was a few weeks ago???


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Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Heart Is Full

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Meet the Tormeys - Picture taken during my visit with them in Chicago







Just had a bittersweet conversation with my dear friends, Becky & Lars, who are currently residing in Chicago.  I met them, respectively, at Liberti church years ago and what's so amusing is that I was friends with the both of them for quite a while before they even met.   Their worlds collided one day when Lars dropped off some stuff for Liberti's homeless ministry at Becky's place.  I got a call from Becky afterwards....."why didn't you tell me he was so cute?!?!?!"  Soon after that meeting, Becky received an email from Lars, asking her out on a date.  And then.......I guess you could say that the rest was history.  I ended up being a bridesmaid in their wedding a few years ago.  

They ended up moving to Chicago right after they got married because Lars was given an assignment out there by the US Coast Guard.  He is currently a lieutenant in the Coast Guard and is also in grad school at Northwestern working towards his MBA.  Anyway, I think I'm somewhat digressing here.....  

It was a sweet conversation with Becky and then eventually Lars, as they had me on speaker phone.  I also say bittersweet as Becky shared the joys of being a new mamma to her precious son, Jonah and as we shared our grief for our dear friends who recently lost their unborn babies. I talked about my upcoming move back to Vancouver at the end of May and my sadness over leaving Philly and the community of friends I cherish so deeply.  Becky was reminded of her grief over leaving Philly and those she loves so dearly when she and Lars moved to Chicago.   I'm not even sure why I'm blogging about this. Definitely not for posterity's sake.  I think more of a reminder of how God used them through the conversation we had.  I have been filled with so much sadness over the last few weeks or so, grieving over my upcoming move, the sadness of the loss of babies, and the changes that are taking place with some of my closest friendships.  Becky and Lars's words of affirmation to me this evening were like the healing balm of Gilead into my grieving soul.  I was reminded, once again, that I am not alone in this journey, but am surrounded by dear friends, near and far, who love me and who desire to walk alongside me, even in these last few months here in Philly.  I only need to embrace it.