Stressed!!!

Tomoro is the day of reckoning! I will be mooting and representing my batch in wat will be presumably a fierce legal battle. But, being so occupied with other commitments, have resulted in me being a lil short on preparation. The fact that my jnr counsel had to undergo a major family tragedy of his own could not have helped matters!

Besides mooting, I also have a presentation (posponed becoz of my participation in the moot) on Mon. Things cannot be any tougher! But, although, we (me n my learned jnr), may not be the favourites, I promise to all those behind us that we will give all the others a run for their money!

Let the challenge begin!!

It's only words

I got a lovely reminder of the power and strength of words alone from the excellent blog posted by Justine (you can read this by accessing her page through her link on my side bar) recently. She actually posted a few mind teasing quotes which were utterly paradoxical at times and usually funny.

Although I have not the ability to repeat this feat, I do now include some quotes that I feel possesses the power to inspire us through the worst of times. In times of your worst darkness, may this be the words that light up your path:

“We are never so defenceless against suffering when we love, never so unhelplessly unhappy as when we have lost our loved object or its love.” -Sigmund Freud-

“Pride can also come after a fall- it makes the fall’s message less life challenging.” -Diogenes Small-

“Lovers and madmen have such seething brains, such shaping fantasies,that apprehend more than cool reason ever comprehends.” –William Shakespeare-

“We need types of leisure which allow for contemplation and meditation. To this end people need the courage to be lonely.” –Victor Frankl-

“In the factory we make cosmetics, in the store we sell hope.” –Charles Revson-

“If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn’t part of ourselves doesn’t disturb us.” –Hermann Hesse-

“No one told me that grief felt so like fear. I’m not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid. The same fluttering in the stomach, the same restlessness, the yawning. I keep on swallowing.” –C.S. Lewis-

“I believe that everyone can conquer fear by doing the things he fears to do, provided he keeps doing them until he gets a record of successful experiences behind him.” –Eleanor Roosevelt-

“If you never reach for the stars, you’ll never know if you could’ve reached it!” –Innerflame7-

Do you have a favourite?

Put to the sword

Last week, Mr. Fishtail reminded me that it had been some time since my last blog. Well, sadly, I’ve been very busy and just didn’t have the time to publish my post.
For a number of reasons, this few weeks, I’m literally put to the sword, whether I will emerge unscathed after these series of unfortunate events remains to be seen.

The series of unfortunate events began with the spectacular FAILURE of my Law & Morality assignment which was mentioned in an earlier article. Then, totally out of character, I barely managed to finish my Company Law assignment. Undoubtedly, both of these works were not of the standard required. I was also dragged head first into a Mock Trial Demonstration while I was in the midst of this catastrophe. If you think the tale is finished, you may want to revise that prediction because fate was only beginning to sharpen its sword.

Not too long after I thought the storm was over and was lulled into a false sense of security, I was summoned into the office of my coordinator (which is equivalent of the Dean of a Faculty since my college has NO Law Faculty). With a sense of enthusiasm on his face, which inadvertently brought and provoked a slightly dreadful contortion of my countenance, he suggested that I join the HSBC Public Speaking Competition, the KDU Moot Competition and the KDU Debate Tournament.

Bah! I’m NOT AMUSED!!! (In the end, I did enroll myself in the Moot Competition after much persuasion from Azlan, Weng Tchung and Pek Hong – although I’m not sure what I’ve gotten myself into!)

Also, yesterday, the STPM results were released. Naturally, since many scored excellently for the SPM, I had thought that my friends who had taken the STPM would have scored well too. Alas, while I was waiting in the dark room of the clinic to have my eyes checked (since my operation, my eyes needed annual check-ups), my friend sent me a message stating that she had failed all her papers. The poor girl was utterly distraught. I was totally dumbfounded and could not find the correct words of comfort. All I could say was the realistic response that failure in the STPM does not equate with failure in life. All of us will be given a 2nd chance if we choose to work hard and fight for our opportunities. Past failures doesn’t break a man, rather the rebound makes a man!

On a different note, my last 2 blogs were relatively romantically spiced. With the danger that my blog will be seen as a love column ala “Dear Thelma”, I’m keeping this part of romance on this current blog relatively short. Justine posted a comment on one of those 2 blogs saying that she doesn’t believe in love anymore. I totally disagree with her ill judgment. Do not get me wrong! Justine is perhaps one of the most brilliant and articulate girl I’ve have ever seen (and she has earned my utmost respect).

But, giving up on love is like giving up on life itself. If you have no love, how can you wake up in the morning with a sense of purpose? Life is colorless, tasteless and definitely meaningless without it. It’s the very reason that more and more of us are abandoning emotions for intellectual reasons that we have begun to see the declining world of today filled with the wrath of war, stench of hate and seeds of anger. Reason and emotions must be balanced. Neither is superior to the other. I’ve had my fair share of heartbreaks but still I cling on to bare hope that love still exists even though it may not be so evident at times. I know how it feels to despair. I know the pain when you feel that your heart is target practice for someone else with a quiver of deadly poisoned arrows. My heart has suffered like everyone else by the agony of love unrequited or rejected or worse still unappreciated and manipulated. My faith may wane but it takes more to convert me into some faithless because I still believe.

Everyday my heart bleeds slowly from the many wounds that it has suffered. The emotional daggers keep twisting deeper and deeper into my soul, ravaging and annihilating any ounce of dignity that had survived the initial ordeal. But, still I have faith. All of us shall find our path. And, even if we don’t, at least we can feel proud that we had stared straight back at Cupid and showed him that we fear him not. Perhaps, he shall show us pity?

Is it stupid to fall in love with someone with the probable conclusion that you may not end up with him/her in the end? I don’t necessarily think so. Love far supersedes reasons if u let it, and although it may bring despair, the joy while it lasts, is the best feeling in the world. It is what makes us human and different from other beasts.

The Aftermath - conclusion

Valentines Aftermath (The Conclusion)

It has been a very busy week, even for my usual hectic standards. I finally managed, or rather contrived, to complete my Company Law assignment. I’m not sure how I’m going to fare but let’s keep our fingers crossed and hope for the best, shall we?

Anyway, although Valentines seemed such a long time ago, the aftermath is only now beginning to surface. Just like the tsunami which ravaged South– East Asia, the aftermath of Valentines has just begun to show the trail of despair left in its wake!

1. One of my friends (D) just conveyed to me the ‘sad’ news that she had broken up with her boyfriend. The reason I’m sad and yet happy at the same time seems to be contradictory and confusing. Alas, this seemingly peculiar feeling is easily justified. I’m sad that she broke up because I knew how much she had loved her now ex-boyfriend. However, I’ve have to say that I’m happy that she finally got rid of the bloody woman degrading jerk that she had around her (Pardon my strong tone). It’s utterly disgusting to know that such human beings even exist and she deserves so much better!

2.Another friend (V) also had a Valentines to forget. She claims that her boyfriend is becoming a little too mundane for her liking. Valentines turned to be a total let down and disappointment. Hmm….. I guess sometimes we have to learn to appreciate the gal/ guy around us to make occasions such as these for memorable!

3.The Kyoto Protocol- Let me tell you a fictitious yet interesting story. In an imaginary world so akin to ours, there is a huge country, a superpower which goes by the name of ‘A.S.S’. They are currently led by President Undergrowth. Their Secretary of State is a certain Ms. C. Nasi. For all of their history, they claim to be the liberators of their world. The defenders of peace and freedom! But, for their entire chest thumping and gloating, do they really have that much to shout about?

The Kyoto Protocol was supposed to be the beginning of salvation for their dying earth. However, country A.S.S refused to sign and comply with the agreement as they felt that it would be detrimental and hurtful to their economy. This stance was in fact conveyed by Ms. Nasi herself. BOLLOCKS!!! Hurtful to the economy, they say? Perhaps, if they do not go around nosing into other country’s business they would have a stronger economy and not a deficit. The Kyoto Protocol is an important plan to save an already ailing planet and yet, as always this country who claims to be the land of the brave and free cannot even show the courage to lead by example.

The only thing they have shown to be willing to lead is on the battlefront. They have invaded a country rich in oil by claiming that the said country possesses weapons of mass destruction. Of course, now, after invading the country and finding NO such weapons, they are left red- faced but are still defiant and believe that they are doing the right thing. Oh…for HELL’S SAKE…WAKE UP & OWN UP TO YOUR MISTAKES!

They have kept repeating many of their bad decisions in the past and yet still claim to be the ‘good people’ on the planet. ALL I have to say is….they are a bunch of delusional people who cannot accept what the rest of the planet thinks of them! (The author reserves no liability for any resemblance to any character dead or alive. Any similarities is coincidental of course!)

P/s: For all those who are planning to ditch their boyfriend/girlfriend, just remember the first time you guys fell in love. It’s the same rose that you have fallen in love with that you have by your side now. The only difference is that it’s only now that you see its thorns. But, no rose is free of these thorns. It’s your call. Don’t make the wrong decision and then flood my phone/ e-mail inbox with cry for aid/counsel!