Salam...several months back I had started writing in my personal diary, then I stopped for a while. Now I'm writing again in my blog for who knows what reason.
I'm not excited about Hari Raya this year. So much has happened in the span of one year, most of which were just beyond my control. A few were joyous occasions, while a few others were nothing to shout about, but still maybe quite notable. I've made new friends...and lost a few. I've traveled more than usual, splurged a little more than I used to...and put my trust into someone who, in the end, had disappointed me deeply, for betraying my trust. Am I about to lose another friend?
Lesson(s) in life:
Choose your friends wisely.
Don't be nice and consider other people's feelings too much, sometimes you just have to selfish because people don't care about your feelings anyway.
Don't judge a book by it's cover.
Prioritize your needs and focus on achieving them. Don't be swayed by the things you want but don't need.
And, Oh God, so many more! But the ultimate thing is, just be happy. Be thankful for the smallest blessings in life. Be grateful for friends and family who honestly care about you and support you. You may just survive through life.
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to my Muslim friends.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Friday, February 19, 2010
the laziness
Salam...it's Friday night and I'm still hanging around at the office. Out of the blue, felt like blogging after sooooooooooooo long. Hm...let's see how my mood is tomorrow. Perhaps I'll start blogging again...perhaps not. Hehehe...
Sunday, March 08, 2009
i finally got it!
Assalamu'alaikum...I finally bought "Crisis Core -Final Fantasy VII-" last week. The PSP game has been on my wish list for about a year now. During the first few months when I was eyeing the game, the various game stores I went to only had the Japanese version. So I waited a few more months for the English version to be released. During that time the desire to get my hands on the game slowly left my mind and I turned my focus on other things (like real life issues...go figure) and of course, another game on my wish list: "Final Fantasy XII". :) Although I would love for Square Enix to "re-make" "Final Fantasy VII" (FFVII) for the PS2, as a true fan, I guess I wouldn't want change anything about the beloved game. And, as a true FFVII fan, I wanted to know more about the events that led up to the story of FFVII - especially about the main character, Zack Fair, which is the main character of Crisis Core.
I've just played up to a few chapters and I'd have to admit that the game system needs a fair bit of getting used to. And the PSP is not good for the thumbs! But for Zack's sake, anything goes! (All the guys in the game are hot, by the way! Especially Zack, Genesis and Sephiroth! Hehehe...) :P
Today I brought Mama to Midvalley Megamall for some shopping. I'm glad that she's able to walk more than just around the house. Soon she'll be able to walk up the stairs, slowly but surely. Anyway, as it's a Sunday today, we left the house at about 9:45 a.m. so that we could get parking. And boy, were we glad that we left as early as we did. By lunch time the place was packed. I wanted to check out the Hello Kitty promotion by M.A.C and got some stuff there. I also brought Mama to lunch at "Delicious" and persuaded her to share with me their "Chocolicious Sundae". Mmmmm...it's my favourite dessert now. :D Abah and Abang Chor went back to Bruas to visit Opah so Mama and I took our time walking and shopping. Usually, Abah and Abang Chor would arrive home just about Maghrib time whenever they go back to Bruas. But when we got home about 3:45 p.m. just now, Abah and Abang Chor were already home! That was a real shocker. It turned out that they made it to Tanjung Malim before turning back. Abah had a massive headache and couldn't go on. Man, I was really glad that Abang Chor was with him. Poor Abah... :(
Anyway, tomorrow Abang Nyah is coming over for a visit and to pick up his letters which have been piling up. :P Maybe all of us can have a nice family lunch? Let's hope so...insya Allah. :)
I've just played up to a few chapters and I'd have to admit that the game system needs a fair bit of getting used to. And the PSP is not good for the thumbs! But for Zack's sake, anything goes! (All the guys in the game are hot, by the way! Especially Zack, Genesis and Sephiroth! Hehehe...) :P
Today I brought Mama to Midvalley Megamall for some shopping. I'm glad that she's able to walk more than just around the house. Soon she'll be able to walk up the stairs, slowly but surely. Anyway, as it's a Sunday today, we left the house at about 9:45 a.m. so that we could get parking. And boy, were we glad that we left as early as we did. By lunch time the place was packed. I wanted to check out the Hello Kitty promotion by M.A.C and got some stuff there. I also brought Mama to lunch at "Delicious" and persuaded her to share with me their "Chocolicious Sundae". Mmmmm...it's my favourite dessert now. :D Abah and Abang Chor went back to Bruas to visit Opah so Mama and I took our time walking and shopping. Usually, Abah and Abang Chor would arrive home just about Maghrib time whenever they go back to Bruas. But when we got home about 3:45 p.m. just now, Abah and Abang Chor were already home! That was a real shocker. It turned out that they made it to Tanjung Malim before turning back. Abah had a massive headache and couldn't go on. Man, I was really glad that Abang Chor was with him. Poor Abah... :(
Anyway, tomorrow Abang Nyah is coming over for a visit and to pick up his letters which have been piling up. :P Maybe all of us can have a nice family lunch? Let's hope so...insya Allah. :)
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
crazy drivers on the road...
Assalamu'alaikum...I'm still here at the office, waiting for the traffic jam to ease. It's been raining here almost every evening and as much as I want to get home as early as possible, the thought of crawling through the traffic just doesn't appeal to me at all. Not to mention that fact that this is when drivers start to go nuts and impatient. Unlike the past 4 years, when I only take the LRT to get to work and only drive to Kelana Jaya, I have to drive all the way from Bukit Jelutong to Desa Petaling now (my new employer's location). Everyday I'd take the Federal Highway to get to the KL-Seremban Highway. It was not too bad at first. But I hated driving on the Federal Highway after I got into an accident in late November last week. It occurred during a rainy night, when I was driving home from work. And the funny thing was, I was hit first from behind, then like the domino effect, I banged the car in front of me. The driver who banged into me from behind was driving a Honda CRV and she got the nerve to say that it was my fault because I suddenly braked. What?! Just because she was driving a huge luxury car, she can actually put the blame on me?! Fortunately, the person whose car I hit (which happened to be a Honda too...but Honda Civic or was it Accord...?) was on my side and didn't blame at all. Phew!
Anyway, to cut the long story short, I lodged a police report at the PJ State Police Station (my experience there is another story altogether!) and went home with Mama and Abah who came to the rescue while I was waiting for the tow truck at the Federal Highway. :) My point is this: sometimes it doesn't matter how careful a driver you are, when other people are reckless on the road, and you happen to be close by i.e. in the next lane, in front of or behind that bloody driver, there's no way you can avoid being involved in an accident, unless you get to move away quickly. And driving to work everyday on that dreaded and loathsome Federal Highway, I've seen all sorts of crazy drivers! I mean, don't they value their lives at all??!! If you're late, you're late! It doesn't mean that if you rush like mad, time will move back and you'll reach your destination early! Like I said, when you're late, you're late! Time and tide waits for no man! Get it?! So think about your safety for God's sake and the safety of others. Everyone wants to reach their destination in one piece too, you know. :P
Sometimes I wish that I just fly to work. But that's just wishful thinking, ain't it? Wassalam...
Anyway, to cut the long story short, I lodged a police report at the PJ State Police Station (my experience there is another story altogether!) and went home with Mama and Abah who came to the rescue while I was waiting for the tow truck at the Federal Highway. :) My point is this: sometimes it doesn't matter how careful a driver you are, when other people are reckless on the road, and you happen to be close by i.e. in the next lane, in front of or behind that bloody driver, there's no way you can avoid being involved in an accident, unless you get to move away quickly. And driving to work everyday on that dreaded and loathsome Federal Highway, I've seen all sorts of crazy drivers! I mean, don't they value their lives at all??!! If you're late, you're late! It doesn't mean that if you rush like mad, time will move back and you'll reach your destination early! Like I said, when you're late, you're late! Time and tide waits for no man! Get it?! So think about your safety for God's sake and the safety of others. Everyone wants to reach their destination in one piece too, you know. :P
Sometimes I wish that I just fly to work. But that's just wishful thinking, ain't it? Wassalam...
Monday, March 02, 2009
high school memories...
Assalamu'alaikum...so, I've finally beaten Ultima, one of the 8 hidden Espers in Final Fantasy XII. Yeah, it's taking me forever to finish the game, but I'm taking my time to build up my level. The first time I played the game, it was just about finishing the game, but now I want to try and finish the side-quests available. Anyway, I stopped playing for quite a while and when I was down with the flu last week, I thought I'd continue and yeay! Ultima is down...only one more hidden Esper to go. :)
Speaking of the flu, I think there's a virus flying around coz almost everyone at the clinic to which I went on Wednesday last week had very high body temperature, including me. I had to wait for an hour to see the doctor too. After getting my meds, I went home and stayed in bed for the rest of the week. Felt really lousy too...it's not great being sick, that I can guarantee you. Just make sure that you eat cooked food and good water....really good water. You can never be too sure nowadays.
Anyway, thanks to the meds, I was all better by Saturday evening. So yesterday, I was able to accompany Mama and Abah to one of Abah's schoolmate's house in KL, where a gathering of their high school alumni was held. It was something like a monthly gathering of the Anderson School alumni from year 1950s. And it so happens that the host for yesterday's gathering were the parents of the KRU guys. Boy, that sure brought up a lot of memories yesterday. Even though it was more than 10 years ago, it's still fresh in my mind.
I used to be ga-ga over KRU back in high school. I went to almost all of their promotional events (this was when they were just beginning to grow famous), their concert, their movies, their fans get-together, you name it. And when yesterday Abah mentioned to Aunty Zarina (their mum) that he used to drive me to their house in Taman Melawati whenever they had a get together for the fans, I was rather embarrassed about it! But she made it ok by saying, "I was young once!" Hehehehehe.... And I was glad that none of the boys was at home. But I was proven wrong when after the whole event was done and we were all having lunch outside, there came Norman (he was my favourite out of the 3) from inside the house, fresh from the shower, trying to get his share of the buffet lunch served under the front porch. Hahaha...like I said, it sure brought back a lot of memories... :P Now I feel like listening to all their old songs! :D
Sigh...alrighty...till next time! Wassalam...
Speaking of the flu, I think there's a virus flying around coz almost everyone at the clinic to which I went on Wednesday last week had very high body temperature, including me. I had to wait for an hour to see the doctor too. After getting my meds, I went home and stayed in bed for the rest of the week. Felt really lousy too...it's not great being sick, that I can guarantee you. Just make sure that you eat cooked food and good water....really good water. You can never be too sure nowadays.
Anyway, thanks to the meds, I was all better by Saturday evening. So yesterday, I was able to accompany Mama and Abah to one of Abah's schoolmate's house in KL, where a gathering of their high school alumni was held. It was something like a monthly gathering of the Anderson School alumni from year 1950s. And it so happens that the host for yesterday's gathering were the parents of the KRU guys. Boy, that sure brought up a lot of memories yesterday. Even though it was more than 10 years ago, it's still fresh in my mind.
I used to be ga-ga over KRU back in high school. I went to almost all of their promotional events (this was when they were just beginning to grow famous), their concert, their movies, their fans get-together, you name it. And when yesterday Abah mentioned to Aunty Zarina (their mum) that he used to drive me to their house in Taman Melawati whenever they had a get together for the fans, I was rather embarrassed about it! But she made it ok by saying, "I was young once!" Hehehehehe.... And I was glad that none of the boys was at home. But I was proven wrong when after the whole event was done and we were all having lunch outside, there came Norman (he was my favourite out of the 3) from inside the house, fresh from the shower, trying to get his share of the buffet lunch served under the front porch. Hahaha...like I said, it sure brought back a lot of memories... :P Now I feel like listening to all their old songs! :D
Sigh...alrighty...till next time! Wassalam...
Monday, February 09, 2009
so typical of me
Assalamu'alaikum...*sigh* it's just so typical of me to always neglect updating my blog. No matter how many times I keep reminding myself to write something, there's always something else to do. Too many distractions out there...like Facebook. Yeah, can't tell you how addictive that site has become. Instead of updating my blog, I update my status in Facebook! :-P
And it's so typical of me to get hooked on something new e.g. new book, new mobile phone, new tv series, etc. Last 2 months, my new obsession was Harry Potter. I bought the whole book collection and finished reading them in 2 months. (It took me longer to finish "Harry Potter and The Philosopher's Stone" than "Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince"!) It actually started when I bought the boxed DVD set of the Harry Potter movies. After going through a marathon session of the movies, my curiosity got the better of me, as I didn't want to wait for the next movie to be released to know what's going to happen next. So I headed to MPH to get me the books. Now I know what's in store for Harry and his friends, I can't wait for the movie this July!
To add to the Harry Potter obsession phase I'm going through right now, yesterday I bought "Tales of Beedle The Bard" by J K Rowling. Although it's not a sequel to the Harry Potter series, it's a book that's mentioned in the said series. Will be reading it after I'm done with my final exam this Friday. :-D
I'm also hooked on getting my hands on Japanese drama series or movies, whether on VCD or DVD. Instead of studying hard for my final exam and finishing up my assignment, I was watching "Love 2000", a Japanese drama series which I bought yesterday. Unfortunately, not many of these Japanese series have English subtitles. But I was lucky that this particular series has English AND Bahasa Malaysia subtitles. And even luckier, the main star of this series is none other than Takeshi Kaneshiro! *swoon*
Anyway, enough about my obsessions for the time being. Here are some updates with what's been happening in my life: I had my appendics removed last month. About a week after that Mama had her 2nd spine surgery and she's now recuperating at home. No climbing up the stairs or driving or heavy activity around the house for about a month or so. And yours truly and Abah are the home nurses. Hehehe... :-P
Ok...I should go to bed now since tomorrow is a working day. *yawn* Wassalam...
And it's so typical of me to get hooked on something new e.g. new book, new mobile phone, new tv series, etc. Last 2 months, my new obsession was Harry Potter. I bought the whole book collection and finished reading them in 2 months. (It took me longer to finish "Harry Potter and The Philosopher's Stone" than "Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince"!) It actually started when I bought the boxed DVD set of the Harry Potter movies. After going through a marathon session of the movies, my curiosity got the better of me, as I didn't want to wait for the next movie to be released to know what's going to happen next. So I headed to MPH to get me the books. Now I know what's in store for Harry and his friends, I can't wait for the movie this July!
To add to the Harry Potter obsession phase I'm going through right now, yesterday I bought "Tales of Beedle The Bard" by J K Rowling. Although it's not a sequel to the Harry Potter series, it's a book that's mentioned in the said series. Will be reading it after I'm done with my final exam this Friday. :-D
I'm also hooked on getting my hands on Japanese drama series or movies, whether on VCD or DVD. Instead of studying hard for my final exam and finishing up my assignment, I was watching "Love 2000", a Japanese drama series which I bought yesterday. Unfortunately, not many of these Japanese series have English subtitles. But I was lucky that this particular series has English AND Bahasa Malaysia subtitles. And even luckier, the main star of this series is none other than Takeshi Kaneshiro! *swoon*
Anyway, enough about my obsessions for the time being. Here are some updates with what's been happening in my life: I had my appendics removed last month. About a week after that Mama had her 2nd spine surgery and she's now recuperating at home. No climbing up the stairs or driving or heavy activity around the house for about a month or so. And yours truly and Abah are the home nurses. Hehehe... :-P
Ok...I should go to bed now since tomorrow is a working day. *yawn* Wassalam...
Sunday, November 09, 2008
why, ren, why?
Assalamu'alaikum...Heeyyyy...I've been neglecting my blog for almost 2 months now. Time to get things back on track! First thing, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all Muslims around the world and Maaf Zahir & Batin. :-)
Abang Chor bought "The Incredible Hulk" and "Iron Man" DVD a few weeks back and I couldn't stop watching them since. I saw "The Incredible Hulk" for 2 days in a row. Edward Norton is just adorable. Hehehe... I'm now looking forward to "The Dark Knight" on DVD coz I missed it at the cinemas. Another yummylicious actor - Christian Bale, to drool over. They really know how to take all these hunky actors to play the superheroes, huh? ;-)
And Happy Birthday to Abah, who turned 68 on 31st October. We celebrated the joyous occasion at Paddington House of Pancakes at the Curve. It was Mama and Abah's first time dining there and I'm very happy to say that they enjoyed it. Gotta admit though, we had a hard time choosing what to eat! :-P I ordered the Treasure Box for dessert and shared it with the rest. It was yummyliciousssss!!! :-D
Another happy news is that I'm going to be an aunt soon, insya Allah!! Yup, Abang Nyah and Mariam are expecting their first baby, who is scheduled to make an appearance some time in May next year. So far things are going well. :-D Make sure you take care of yourself, Mariam! And Abang Nyah, you take good care of her, aight!
More news...I've started my new job for almost a month now. Honestly, I experienced "culture shock" at first, but then I surprised myself by adjusting to the situation quite well and quite fast too. The work is challenging, which was what I was expecting, and I hope that I'll be able to learn the ropes, contribute my own experience and knowledge and make a difference there, insya Allah. :-D Nope, I'm not gonna reveal exactly where I'm working, but will do so soon. Tungguuuuuuu...
Remember in one of my previous posts, where I mentioned that I was addicted to "Nana", a manga and anime series? Well...I spent the whole night sorting out my bills and what nots for filing and as usual, I checked up the One Manga website for updates on Nana's latest chapter. And the latest chapter is so damn depressing! Nana's boyfriend, Ren, met with a fatal car accident and died on the spot...alone... What's more depressing was that it happened on the eve of Nana's birthday. Oh man...Ai Yazawa, the author of Nana, really knows how to engage her readers and fans. Why does Ren have to die? What's gonna happen next, especially to Nana? Sob...sob...
Abang Chor bought "The Incredible Hulk" and "Iron Man" DVD a few weeks back and I couldn't stop watching them since. I saw "The Incredible Hulk" for 2 days in a row. Edward Norton is just adorable. Hehehe... I'm now looking forward to "The Dark Knight" on DVD coz I missed it at the cinemas. Another yummylicious actor - Christian Bale, to drool over. They really know how to take all these hunky actors to play the superheroes, huh? ;-)
And Happy Birthday to Abah, who turned 68 on 31st October. We celebrated the joyous occasion at Paddington House of Pancakes at the Curve. It was Mama and Abah's first time dining there and I'm very happy to say that they enjoyed it. Gotta admit though, we had a hard time choosing what to eat! :-P I ordered the Treasure Box for dessert and shared it with the rest. It was yummyliciousssss!!! :-D
Another happy news is that I'm going to be an aunt soon, insya Allah!! Yup, Abang Nyah and Mariam are expecting their first baby, who is scheduled to make an appearance some time in May next year. So far things are going well. :-D Make sure you take care of yourself, Mariam! And Abang Nyah, you take good care of her, aight!
More news...I've started my new job for almost a month now. Honestly, I experienced "culture shock" at first, but then I surprised myself by adjusting to the situation quite well and quite fast too. The work is challenging, which was what I was expecting, and I hope that I'll be able to learn the ropes, contribute my own experience and knowledge and make a difference there, insya Allah. :-D Nope, I'm not gonna reveal exactly where I'm working, but will do so soon. Tungguuuuuuu...
Remember in one of my previous posts, where I mentioned that I was addicted to "Nana", a manga and anime series? Well...I spent the whole night sorting out my bills and what nots for filing and as usual, I checked up the One Manga website for updates on Nana's latest chapter. And the latest chapter is so damn depressing! Nana's boyfriend, Ren, met with a fatal car accident and died on the spot...alone... What's more depressing was that it happened on the eve of Nana's birthday. Oh man...Ai Yazawa, the author of Nana, really knows how to engage her readers and fans. Why does Ren have to die? What's gonna happen next, especially to Nana? Sob...sob...
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
the big "D"
Assalamu'alaikum...Good news! I got the big "D" for Module 1 of the Certificate course I'm taking. That is, D = Distinction. Hehehe... :-) Alhamdulillah...I'm grateful that all the hard work had paid off.
Just to let you in on what the course is about, it's an Executive Certificate in HR/IR, initiated by our Human Resource Development division of the company, together with FMM (Federation of Malaysian Manufacturers). In total, I have to pass 3 Modules successfully, in order to get the Certificate. I'm currently in the middle of Module 2, which is on the Malaysian Employment Laws. Module 1 was on Human Resource Management, while Module 3 will be on Industrial Relations Practices in Malaysia.
Last week my classmates and I sat for the mid-term test, and now we have to crack our heads to complete our assignment! Unlike the assignment for Module 1, which was group-based, Module 2's assignment is on individual basis, which means "die lorrr!!!" Hahahaha...
Whatever. Got to start drafting! Oh yeah, before I forget, "Selamat Hari Malaysia" to my fellow Malaysians!
Wassalam...
Just to let you in on what the course is about, it's an Executive Certificate in HR/IR, initiated by our Human Resource Development division of the company, together with FMM (Federation of Malaysian Manufacturers). In total, I have to pass 3 Modules successfully, in order to get the Certificate. I'm currently in the middle of Module 2, which is on the Malaysian Employment Laws. Module 1 was on Human Resource Management, while Module 3 will be on Industrial Relations Practices in Malaysia.
Last week my classmates and I sat for the mid-term test, and now we have to crack our heads to complete our assignment! Unlike the assignment for Module 1, which was group-based, Module 2's assignment is on individual basis, which means "die lorrr!!!" Hahahaha...
Whatever. Got to start drafting! Oh yeah, before I forget, "Selamat Hari Malaysia" to my fellow Malaysians!
Wassalam...
Monday, September 15, 2008
al-fatihah
Assalamu'alaikum...Ayah Cu passed away last night just before midnight. Abang Chor and I were having a marathon of the Jason Bourne trilogy on DVD last night and around 11:30 p.m. Abang Jan called to say that Ayah Cu was really nazak.
Then when I came down for bersahur this morning, Abang Chor broke the news. It must have happened when I already went to bed.
Let's all sedekahkan al-fatihah for the passing of Ayah Cu. May Allah bless his soul hereafter. Amin.
Wassalam...
Then when I came down for bersahur this morning, Abang Chor broke the news. It must have happened when I already went to bed.
Let's all sedekahkan al-fatihah for the passing of Ayah Cu. May Allah bless his soul hereafter. Amin.
Wassalam...
Saturday, September 13, 2008
somber saturday
Assalamu'alaikum...Tomorrow marks the 14th day of Ramadhan and before you know it, Hari Raya Aidilfitri will be here. I have to admit, I don't feel the usual excitement and hype about Hari Raya anymore. It might be because I'm already grown up, unlike when we were kids, we looked forward to wearing brand new Hari Raya clothes and collecting those green packets filled with money from our aunts and uncles. Today, Hari Raya, for me, would be more about spending quality time with my family, then visit close relatives and friends, and of course, be the perfect hosts to relatives and friends who come over for a visit. I kinda miss the big family gathering at my grandma's house. But everyone has their own family now, so those days are gone. Nevertheless, wherever all of you are, have a very happy Hari Raya Aidilfitri. :-)
This afternoon, my cousin, Along, called and informed that my uncle, Ayah Cu, is very ill. He has been hospitalised at GH Alor Setar and was diagnosed with cancer of the liver. He's at the critical stage, where the doctors aren't able to do anything anymore for him. They have advised that the family bring Ayah Cu home. It's not possible for us to drive up to Kedah, so Mama called up Wan Cu to offer her support and comfort during this emotionally draining day. I remember him looking weak and unusually thin during Abang Nyah's wedding. He was already sick during that time, but he still came. He will be in our prayers.
Since we're in a serious subject, my life has arrived at a crossroads of some sort. In a short span of time, I was asked to make a decision that will change the course of my future. I can't elaborate more as the decision has not been "finalised" and therefore, I will only be transparent about it when everything has been confirmed. But coming back to the crossroads, I guess it's something everyone will face one way or another, be it in their personal lives and/or career. And sometimes hasty decisions are made and sometimes a very thorough plan delays the decision. For my part, it is more of a concern regarding the people who may be affected by my decision. For once, I'd like to be selfish and think about what matters to me, but on the other hand, I'm a person who always think about what others think. Some find it as a weakness, and I agree that at a certain level it is. Abang Nyah calls me a worry-wart (sp?) because of it. Truth be told, I don't know whether is a good or a bad trait. And so...I'm just gonna try to ignore that "worried" side of me and be selfish. I'll face those people when the time comes, and I hope I will have the support needed.
At times like these, I wish that I were a kid again because I don't have to worry about making a big decision that will determine my destiny. All I need to worry about is whether I get to go out and play or not. Sigh...how I wish life can be as simple as that. Lesson for today: Life is too short for you to worry about unnecessary things. Live life to the fullest and make it meaningful till the end.
Wassalam...
This afternoon, my cousin, Along, called and informed that my uncle, Ayah Cu, is very ill. He has been hospitalised at GH Alor Setar and was diagnosed with cancer of the liver. He's at the critical stage, where the doctors aren't able to do anything anymore for him. They have advised that the family bring Ayah Cu home. It's not possible for us to drive up to Kedah, so Mama called up Wan Cu to offer her support and comfort during this emotionally draining day. I remember him looking weak and unusually thin during Abang Nyah's wedding. He was already sick during that time, but he still came. He will be in our prayers.
Since we're in a serious subject, my life has arrived at a crossroads of some sort. In a short span of time, I was asked to make a decision that will change the course of my future. I can't elaborate more as the decision has not been "finalised" and therefore, I will only be transparent about it when everything has been confirmed. But coming back to the crossroads, I guess it's something everyone will face one way or another, be it in their personal lives and/or career. And sometimes hasty decisions are made and sometimes a very thorough plan delays the decision. For my part, it is more of a concern regarding the people who may be affected by my decision. For once, I'd like to be selfish and think about what matters to me, but on the other hand, I'm a person who always think about what others think. Some find it as a weakness, and I agree that at a certain level it is. Abang Nyah calls me a worry-wart (sp?) because of it. Truth be told, I don't know whether is a good or a bad trait. And so...I'm just gonna try to ignore that "worried" side of me and be selfish. I'll face those people when the time comes, and I hope I will have the support needed.
At times like these, I wish that I were a kid again because I don't have to worry about making a big decision that will determine my destiny. All I need to worry about is whether I get to go out and play or not. Sigh...how I wish life can be as simple as that. Lesson for today: Life is too short for you to worry about unnecessary things. Live life to the fullest and make it meaningful till the end.
Wassalam...
