Smaragdine

Inwit-------> Conscience. I am owning FIFA 07. On semi-pro mode anyway.

Chap 1: Emirates Jet lag & Soho

So we left for London at 145 in the morning. Weird huh, these England flights. Anyway, found this weird thingy at KLIA. Looked unusual, so I snapped it up.

Ooooooooh. Ahhhhhhhhh.

We had a connection flight at Dubai airport. That means that we stopped at Dubai before heading for England. Stuck at Dubai for hours, we did a lot of shopping la. Now remember those touching scenes on Amazing Race where the racers go to poorer countries and they see skinny orphans and people sleeping all over the road? Well there were LOTS of people sleeping everywhere in the airports with their luggage and their blankets. On the floor, the sidewalks, the chairs, even UNDER the chairs. I forgot to take a pic of that, it was so... Saddening.

Right, here let me explain a little bit about jet lag. Firstly, London is 8 hours behind Malaysia. That means if it's 8 in the morning in Malaysia, it's 12 midnight at London. Given our body's biological clock that's suited to Malaysian time, we(at least I) feel sleepy at 12 o clock and I am totally energetic at 9 in the morning(I'm a morning person). So in London, I was sleepy already at 4 in the evening and I am wide awake at 1 in the morning. Sucks huh.

So we arrived at London about 2 in the evening. Yes, 2 o'clock is evening already, as it is winter in London and the sun sets earlier. By the time we got to our rooms and were ready to go sightseeing, it was dark already!!!! But it's still 4 p.m. Sucks right. Anyway we headed for Soho which was actually where Chinatown is (where dad claims has the best lobster)

Nice right. That's where all the theatre tickets are sold half price near showtime. The street's called Picadilly Circus, and it's flanked by the Leicester Square and Picadilly Underground station.

Here's what the signs actually say.

We walked all the way from Marble Arch(which where our hotel was) to West End, Soho. Sounds easy when you hear it from me, but it's a 50 BLOODY MINUTE WALK in 5 degrees temperature. Talk about taking a walk in your supermarket freezer. The wind was blowing hard, and I was still feeling chilly with 3 layers of clothes, a beanie and gloves. Never mind the weather, just imagine Genting at 6 in the morning, I told myself. I took out my faithful map, and started looking for little green signs on the floor(coz that's what you look for in Malaysia when you're lost mah) Well if that's what you do in London, you'll be hopelessly lost.

When you look around the floor at first, you don't see any New Burlington Street.

OH look there it is!!! on the freaking walls!! Some are so high you have to strain your neck just to read the name. That's how old Londond is.

Here's a useful thing about London. The roads actually tell you which way traffic is flowing, so that you don't have to waste time looking two ways and looking like an idiot looking at everyone else that's looking the other way. So it's "When you're at a junction, look DOWN, do what it ways, and if it says look both ways then cross"

Oh yes, I almost forgot. Did you know that people in London give out newspapers for FREE!?!?!?! Now if you were truly truly Malaysian, you'd grab one straight away, maybe even two for your frens and family and whatnot. Didn't bother anyway. Halfway to Soho this black guy in a wheelchair turns and asks me whether I would push him to the next corner. And of course, I helped him la haha. I'm not that sad. He kinda looked like Morgan Freeman anyway. Felt good after doing that (it wasn't a ong push, I didn't get mobbed or anything) it's like when you're in Chinese primary school teacher always tells you to help old and disabled people time and time and time again across the road, you see it all over TV ads, but in the end you find out that Malaysian old folks are too stubborn to be helped and they just wanna be left alone. But after helping that old handicapped black guy, it makes you feel good inside. Never gonna help him again though. Mom and dad and Ter were laughing at me for being so blur. It's not like you can say no right. I've never helped ppl like that before. Haha.

Later that night, I realised that Soho actually didn't really have the best noodles in the world, and my dad overexaggerated it. But it was still a very enjoyable, yet tiring walk(another hour again) alllllll the way back to Marble Arch hotel. The minute I reached my room I collapsed almost immediately. Didn't even bother to change. Disgusting ain't I. Slept with my jacket too, just in case I froze in the middle of the night.

Right, more pics coming up soon. I've got 200+ and 2 videos altogether, so I'm gonna fill my time this holidays. See you guys next post.

Inwit

WARNING: THIS IS NOT A HIATUS.

Bellwether------> Something that indicates a trend. I have just realised that I've found my fetish. I want my girlfriend to look good with a tail. Not the Little Mermaid kind of tail, more like the girl-with-a-fox-tail kind of girl.

Note: I'm not into furries.

Hi guys. Well I haven’t been blogging for so long simply because I went to London. Sorry I didn’t tell almost anybody about it, just left a message in my answering machine (if you even bothered to call me haha). Now, since my trip in London was especially long (8 days you know) I have decided to post this chapter-by-chapter to make it not so confusing and not look like a 1-paragraph novel.

Prelude: Before the trip

I was already pressured to make this trip a success about a few months before the trip itself. See some posts ago, I said something about going to watch Manchester United play at Old Trafford if I got more than 8A’s for SPM. I got 10. So I had a lot of planning to do. I had to book game tickets at Old Trafford, reserve a hotel in London (which my parents have never done), and find out stuff that we can do over in England. Unfortunately, my planning of events as such is not as effective and efficient as my dad (who is a really good businessman) so I got bombarded like hell for not being as good as him. At least I’ve learnt loads of stuff from him, and I would like to use this post as future reference in case something as serious as this comes up again.

1. Always have a fallback. I used to think that in whatever that I’m planning, I tell myself “Something WILL go wrong” according to Murphy’s Law. Now, I learnt that I actually have to work it out and predict myself what actually would go wrong. For example, when booking the tickets, my dad was absolutely furious at me for not checking the Terms & Conditions and stuff like that because there might be loopholes and he doesn’t trust that the ticketing agency is efficient enough in distributing the tickets on the day itself. He also didn’t trust our Internet connection and the distributing times of the tickets as well (which I didn’t think of and got bombarded again) so I had to double check that our tickets were firmly booked, secured, and guaranteed ours.
2. Always map out your CALLS. Like before you call someone that’s really really far overseas and you don’t wanna spend time thinking on the phone wasting precious pennies on “any other questions you wanna ask” So before the call, you actually write down what you wanna ask on the telephone. I was calling the ticketing agency for our tickets and I got mocked time and time again for not mapping out my calls.
3. IT DOESN’T HURT to do more. The tickets were supposed to be delivered 1 week before the game. 1-and-a-half weeks ago my dad and I started calling the ticketing agencies to make sure that the tickets weren’t accidentally gone or something. Turns out my dad was right. Well, almost. The tickets, in actual fact, were going to be delivered 2 days before the match itself.
4. Always LOG your options down in a file. My dad did a great job on that with his Adobe Acrobat, saving various hotel agency prices and ticket agency prices into his little document. Anything found on the net would just be zipped in there and compared later on.

Right, so after managing to book tickets for the game, it was time to search for a hotel in London. And book it. Sounds easy right? Think again. There were so many options to choose from, especially when the local tours factor in that your head was gonna spin. There were also a lot of places to go, making this trip a hard one. The most annoying part was finding the CHEAPEST price of a hotel. Firstly, there were so many hotels. Secondly, there were so many AGENCIES to choose from. Some came with tours, some came along with breakfast and whatnot. Thirdly (I really really didn’t expect this problem of such magnitude) was that the hotel prices INCREASE as the date approaches the date of booking. Now this would be simple to some, as the agency rates are about the same, but when you’re staying for 7 nights and booking 2 rooms, and you’re converting Ringgit Malaysia into UK Pounds (7 times for expensive), 12 pounds per room per night difference can hurt you a lot. So book early. Really early. In the end, we did so much dilly-dallying (due to my exams) that the prices inflated so high and we decided to call them directly and book. But it was a fun experience though, chasing hotels and all.

I decided to give up on the tours and trips, trusting our family’s instincts to have fun anywhere we go. I did look at a few good sites about London attractions such as Tate Modern, Theatres and Museums, and so on, but it was just too time consuming and I didn’t have that much time. I did have a few places to go in mind go, and during the trip we did go to most of the places.

Btw anyone knows where to find the super irritating advertisement on Gatsby deodorant that there’s one guy dancing with two tomatoes on the side? It’s incredibly hilarious.

Bellwhether

Jobbernowl------> A block head. Prom was last night. I had so much fun that I forgot to cry. Now here I am, feeling all emo-ed inside ready to tell all my friends "I'm gonna miss you so much" and whatnot. Haven't been feeling this overwhelmed in a while, I had a moderated year. Hence explains the mediocre blog. Anyway, the theme of the prom was "Nostalgia" and thankfully I took a lot of pictures to be nostalgic at, so looking back at a 99% perfect 2006 at AUSMAT, here are all, and I mean all the people that I'll never forget...

Here's Jeng. Without this guy, I dunno how the hell would I have stayed not angry at people. This guy's the joker of all jokers, and by far I've spent the most time with him this year. I hope I see him 5 years i n the future as some huge cool businessman or something.

First friend, Toby. Coolest guy in the world, nicest too. You should see how this guy treats his girl. Without him, no foosball partner, no Jack Johnson, no "Work hard, play harder, don't sleep" motto.

Yes, all the foosball people that have been there time and time again to entertain me!!!! Love these guys, anytime I feel bad or whatever these guys are just there to cheer you up. Of course they have their own problems, I love talking to them and listening to their stories too.
Mr J. One of the most intriguingg people that I've ever met, he's so nice to talk to, (dunno whether his compliments are real o not) and I would really really like to keep in touch with him. Without him, no understanding people better, no thinking 3 times about something while looking 360 degrees at it.

Ok here's (from left) Terry, moi, Arthur, Kenneth, Jun Keen and Jia wei. These guys are... one-of-a-kind. They're so funny and nice to hang around altogether that they have made such a deep impression on me. Especially Arthur la. Wil never ever forget his accent and all that.
Eric. (What's with the shades?) He has been my most compatible competitor throughout the year. Only the TEE results will tell who's better. He's one of the main reasons that I work harder, why I am willing to sacrifice 4 hours on Calculus just to beat him. He's also very patient tii, I can't imagine how much money has been burnt in m phone just by asking questions from him.

Calculus class. (From left) Zack, Melissa, Wo, HennDrik, Syafikah, Eric(again) and Syairah. Our Calculus class was so small that we talked so much in class. The teacher didn't mind. He once said that we were the smallest yet the most chatty class among all his classes, (which is encouraging of course) and we are proud of it. Makes Calculus doesnt sound so dull.

Ellie!!! She's been so understanding with me, I tell you dunno how many times I've been complaining to her about this and that haha. Thanks a lot yeah.

This guy's the bomb man. Meet Afif, probably the guy I've clicked best with in college. It's like when we talk, we can talk forever, but it just so happens that we don't have same classes and all. He's 23 and taken btw, so be it la. One unforgettable thing about him is the way he laughs, everytime he laughs he makes me wanna laugh also. It's just so contagious.

This is Melissa. She can sing, cook and do Maths and Econs, what more could you want? To be single of course. Unfortunately she's not. Oh well, life goes on. She's super mature though, enjoyed the times we spent together. Might be meeting her next year though(I pray and pray that I get in to Melb U, to whom, I don't know)

Alicia. Yes she's that tall ;) she's super nice and firenze at the same time. One thing I like about her is that she's so open to people, making it very for people to connect to her. Cannot believe how many flowers she got during prom.

Amy. This girl's so fun to talk to. She just makes you wanna say more and express what you think, unlike some people where you are afraid to say something in case you hurt their feelings.

I think this is the only teacher I'll remember, Ms. Anusya. She's my Applics teacher. Now I haven't told my parents this, but I show up half an hour late for her class AT LEAST, and I'll be the first one to ask for an early lunch haha. She's just so nice. And I can still score for her subject. Well whaddaya know.

Last but not least, Shereen sis!!!! From day two I think she's been my good friend, and we've kept the brother-sister thing going for so long, for the first time this year I get to really know what it's like having a real sister haha.

Alright that's all, ran out of emo energy. Now I know there are a lot of female photos and there are a lot more where those came from, but I can't help it. They were all so pretty and I just had to get pics with them. Until next time.

Jobbernowl

Ultimo----> Relating to last month. YAWNNNNNNNNNN. Been waking up at 11a.m., noon for the past few days, recovering from exam hangover haha.

Right, firstly, two more November babies on Monday and last Friday, who had exams around and in between. Poor them. I know the feeling. At least you got friends celebrating for you. =P

The birthday girls

Right, back to business, feels like ages since I've blogged. You know the thing about football is, many people have many views on it. Some say it's the most beautiful games in the world, some say "Oh, it's just 22 guys chasing a ball", but despite all the hooligans and the racism, miracles can happen on and off the pitch that you'll rarely see all over the world. Just the other day, I was watching this match between Arsenal and Liverpool, and there was a minutes' silence before kickoff to commemorrate some King's death. For a minute 60-odd thousand people stodd still and kept quiet... What a frightening scene. In Malaysia, people would just hear moody classical music on radios instead of the usual hits, or maybe a few people mentioning who's passed away and all. But to see 60,000 people discipline themselves and shutting up for one minute... It just gets you thinking, you know.

You know the only thing I love about shopping malls (especially one-U) is... the free samples. The only two reasons that you'll catch me alive at a supermarket is if I'm being dragged along, or there are free samples (because I was dragged along, hehe) I always loved the Nescafe ones, where you get to try as much coffee as you like, or as much nuggets as you like, or as much whatever la. And they taste good 90% of the time too. There was one particularly interesting free sample some time ago when they did SPARKLING JUICE, which I instantly fell in love with, but looking at the price, I tell you only 4-star resaturants would have an abundance of these kind of stuff.

Now that exams are over and I have two weeks of holiday(after I'm back from overseas) I have loads of stuff planned to do over the year, simply because I had no time or the commitment to do it. So I should start making a list so that I don't forget just in case. And the only place that I'd remember putting my "list" is here! Hehe. So let's see...

1. I wanna watch a lot of movies. I'm so outdated, I haven't even watched MI3 yet. So movies to watch: MI3, Prestige, We Are Family, Open Season, Death Note, Wallace & Gromit, Mala Noche etc.
2. Go out with someone single. I've been a hermit or spending time with "married" girls since one month before exams, time to be socially active.
   
3. Play futsal a lot. One of the symptoms of becoming a hermit is that you don't meet virtually anyone, meaning that I've stopped futsal for a LONG time. Anyone wanna join me?
4. Paintball. This one's gonna be hard, coz I'll need a lot of people, and a lot of people would be away somewhere by then.
   
5. Finish one season of FIFA 07. Love the game, no time to play only. How ah?
6. Have a Winning Eleven tourney at some guy's house. With all my college buddies of course. This one's gonna be hard too.
   

Well that's it, see ou guys next post.

Ultimo

Leechcraft----> The art of healing. Well exams are Monday. Perfect time to blog. Love the calm before the storm. Life's been pretty routine: Wake up, study, football, study/TV, sleep. For the last week anyway. Anyway this is my 100th post, so for me it's quite an achievement hehe.

Check out what these two buggers did. This happened while I was studying in college, well at least there were a lot of laughs. Too bored, they were.



This is what exam stress can do to people.


This too.

on't you just hate it when a few radio stations play the same song at the same time? One thing that I've noticed is that it always happens when it's near the ads-broadcasting time. One channel plays the ads, and you switch to another, and it's not a very goood song, you change to another, and it's the same song!!!!!! It's so funny. Like all the radio stations have nothing better to do and they listen on other radio stations, thinking "If I play the other station's songs, I'd snatch half their listeners!!! Clever me" and it always, always happens between Hitz and Mix FM. Crazy people.

I have also realised that time is passing really, really fast. Especially when you're studying in college. It's like I'm in college at 9, I cover half of what I'm supposed to do, and it's lunch time, after lunch and some studying, it's already 4. I reach home, pack my football stuff, watch a bit of TV and I go to Aman Suria. When I'm home after my shower and dinner, it's the end of the day already!!!! It's Monday today right? Oh wait, it's Friday already and exam's in 4 days!!!! At least I've covered Physics, Applics and Calculus to the max already. Come to think of it, the last time I had a nice conversation with any of friends, they were telling me "You know the finals are in 20 days, people are already counting down" and I didn't realise that time was passing so fast. At least people have been regularly visiting my house (when i'm around that is) and I've also been pestering the JPA students and teachers for all sorts of questions.

Well, here starts the week long hiatus.

Leechcraft

Oxter-----> armpit. The mane is off. The mini-mini-mane, if you know what I mean haha. The Pussycat Dolls finally have a really good dance hit, I Don't Need A Man, now if only someone could do "I Don't Need A Woman"...

This month I came across something new. I never had to wish so many people "Happy Birthday" in a week or two before. It's like AUSMAT has so many birthdays of my friends in October, it's almost like they did it on purpose. Luckily I managed to attend a few of the celebrations, so before I forget, happy birthday to: All the October babies la.

Yeah this is my "sister" here, getting cake in her face by the MUFY students, she got drinks in her hair too after that, so glad that my birthday passed edi haha...

There's been so much going on between last Tuesday and now, that I actually have a few names in mind for this post. Here's one: Nuts & Beer. Pretty much what I've been consuming for the past few nights. In KL. See my dad decided to take me clubbing. Wait that sounded wrong. I decided to follow my dad to go to SALSA LOUNGES.

Monday night. Uncle Chilli's. The Alleycats were playing. I can't help but notice this really cute girl by the side of the bar tables, surrounded by men of different age, race. Now that's what you call no racism. Everyone's just having fun. Especially with 80's music playing. I can imagine myself 30 years down the road (if I'm lucky) being one of those men, dancing with one of the just-wanna-have-fun chicks over there.

Tuesday night. QBA. Westin. There's a Salsa performance at the lower ground. More nuts and beer. The lights are dim. Music's loud. A white couple are dancing. They're having fun. They dance through one, two, three songs. Everyone's having fun. They ask everyone to join them. The female dancer actually looked at me and signalled me to dance with them. I stone. I don't know why. Perhaps it was the presence of my parents. Maybe it was the fabulous juggling tricks of the bartender, who made drinks while flipping cups and throwing jugs.

I can't wait for clubbing. And using short sentences again.

Oh yes, last week Thursday was the last day of college officially, and coincidentallly there was a Moral exam that evening. Guess what everyone was doing (excluding me, I went to celebrate another birthday)

Try and find me. Can't leh. Coz I didn't join them. I think. I was the cameraman hehe. So much for moral.

Here's another title for the post. Waiters & Attendants. Waiters. When you decide to eat early without waiting for another guy to show up, and you're stuffed to the throat with one hour before the bugger wakes up, you tend to do stuff that you don't imagine yourself ever doing. First, you talk to the waiters.(no one was around yet anyway) And I can tell you waiters are so bloody patient, you can throw your whole table at them and they still won't get angry. While waiting at the table, the table next to mine was filled with uncontrollable crying babies, complaining customers, food spilled all over the floor. They don't complain. I know some people who would've blew up the whole buiding by then. But after watching them handle the whole thing and talking to them, I can tell you that their job is so much worse than a maid's. You know throughout the whole meal I only used one cup (which I constantly refill) and sometimes when I finish, I just leave it there while I read the morning paper. And all the waiters (each time different) as they pass by would ask me "Sir are you done with that?" And I'd hold on to my glass for dear life. I don't find the action annoying, but I find it disturbing that these people were trained to ask people non-stop that way. Another thing I found sad was that this waiter who was working in that hotel for 5 years now, is willing to sacrifice the one official off-day in his whole year to work. Respect man. I'm a lazy boy.

Attendants. I'm referring to the part time workers who attempt to work at places like Kenny Rogers while splurging their money months later. I've never worked part-time for any of these kinda stores before, but being there, you've definitely gotta learn how to take shit or refuse it. Otherwise, you're gonna be in a hell lot of trouble. I went shopping with my family the other day, and there was this attendant(or whatever you call it) that was bullied, or slightly blur la. Anyway I didn't really notice it at first, but the store actually used hangers to identify clothes that have been sold or not, instead of those white bulky tags you see in other stores. So halfway through my fitting sessions, the attendant was asking whether anyone throwing hangers over the mirror. I thought it was a joke, coz when I picked my clothes, the attendant swiped the clothes hangers so fast I didn't even notice. And you know the shop also had this shirt that I really liked, and since it was hung really high for display, I took it down for a good look, and hung it back up la. After the shopping, the attendant actually came looking for us, saying that we might have accidentally taken some stuff. So we all went back to the store, and the boss was so mad at ME coz she thought that I stole the shirt that I looked at just now!!!! And what's worse, for the missing shirt, the money's coming out of her salary!! So lesson learnt:

• Don't be blur when people are worried around you. Something's going on, you don't know it yet.
  

• Workers, especially blur, innocent ones always take shit, especially over things like these(it's still a myth, lemme get more concrete evidence)

Here's something that I noticed la, and I would like to share. You guys have probably heard over ads over the radio against piracy (especially that local band that was talking abt taking food from their mouth, that one made an impression to me) or ads in television la against piracy. Here's what I came across:
Check it out man. According to the article, a businessman was caught walking out of a video store with an original tape worth RM49.90. They even quoted the guy "What in his right mind was thinking?" and the businessman even APOLOGISED at the end, saying " That mistake won't ever happen again" When I read this I laughed all the way through lunch. If the title were "expensive" or "overpriced" it may have been logical. But if everyone is against pirated AND original DVDs, what do we buy then, revert back to the huge chunky rectangular black tapes?

That is all. Love that line from Devil Wears Prada. Priceless.

Oxter

Leucipottomy ------> The craft of cutting white horses on hillsides. Something I'd do when I'm 50 or so. I found 5 bucks on the floor today. Yea I'm that lucky today. Unfortunately I found it in my house, so I guess it probably is mine or my brother's, (most probably mine la)

I've been facing a really, really bad problem. I'm lacking a study buddy. See I'm a wee bit abnormal compared to the majority, or at least the majority of my friends. I have to study with someone. If I study alone, I won't be in the mood. Which is why I'm blogging in front of my Calculus homework. Anyway, I don't understand how people are able to put themselves and tell their butts to sit on the same chair without budging from it while studying on their own. I've tried it, and I found out that I have a very disturbing habit when I think, which is that I play with my hair. A LOT. You should see me with a comb. I think it gets lost in my hair. In fact my hair's so screwed up that one day I thought there was something stuck in my hair, and I found out that my hair was actually TIED IN KNOTS. I did not tie it on purpose. I guess it's one of those things where you don't do anything to them and they turn into life and decide to annoy you and tie up themselves, like why wires are able to tie themselves up when you don't even touch them.

One thing that I've notices, observed and concluded from reading blogs is that there are actually many types of blogs, and the difference between the good ones and the bad ones are very, very distinct. To me, there are 5 types of blogs:

• Diaries

These are the type of blogs that talk about what the guy did, who bitched about who, who fell into the pool, and stuff like that la. It is interesting to a certain point, especially when your picture is in it or when they mention your name in their post, but after a while it gets a bit boring la, coz you can always ask this kinda thing online or when you have daily ocnversations with them and what not. Some blogs are so dull, that their posts (in an exaggerated manner) sounds like they open the door, then get out of the car, then they close the door that kinda post you know...

• Feelings/Thoughts (Mine's the moderate version of that)
  

You know since young in primary school, teachers made us write diaries about what we did in the weekend and all that, and at first we came up with nonsense like "I ate this ice-cream today and went to sleep at 9 pm" kinda shit, then my teacher would scold all of us so bad and told us to write something like what we thought of stuff, and I had so much practice of that, that I'm able to think of something to blog about once a week. Anyway, Most of my friends blogs are like that (or getting there) and it's pretty interesting in the sense that you know what's going on inside their head, and what are people like, especially if you have a crush on that person =p

• Daily Events/ Update Blogs (The interesting ones)

I can't think of a suitable name for this category, coz it's SO BLOODY interesting. Like kennysia.com. When people travel a lot, they tend to notice stuff and see stuff that we ignore, don't see or take for granted everyday. When you read the entries, you get so sucked into it that you just wanna read the rest of the blog there and then, especially the way they describe it. These are the type of blogs that get talked about in magazines and newspapers nowadays, which grab a lot of attention and of course, critisism. Blogs like these also bring up sensitive or contemporary issues, which are interesting to know coz it's a separate opinion from the newspaper ones (I rarely read online articles). These kinda blogs are the less self-centered ones, more focusing on how beautiful or cruel or funny or stupid the world could be. I'm not knowledgable or exposed enough to produce this kinda blog, but I'm getting there.

• Thinker Blogs

These are my favourite (but again, I can't produce them). Waiterrant.net is a very good example. These are the kind of blogs that are made by thinkers, like my mom. When thinkers sit alone in a room without music or noise, they just start thinking, which is something I can't do yet. When I think of something, i write it down in my phone so that I can write about it later. After reading blog entries of these kind of blogs, you sit there and analyse the whole thing for a few minutes, and after while you go "Wow" and you shake your head. Amazing. I don't like blogs that are too deep though. I'm not rady for that yet.

• Model/ Pretty people blogs

I rarely read these blogs. The bloggers are overaged, but very very nice to look at. Most of these kinda blogs are a mix between diaries and feelings/thoughts, but the pictures they take of themselves are so amazing that you just sit there and stare for a minute, and then you move to the next picture. It's not about the body, it's just the eyes. Like everyone these days know how to look at a camera and use their eyes to capture your attention with their signature look or something like that. I don't have one. Anyway, blogs like these (some that I have read actually) have conflicted with each other, and as everyone know "it's a small world after all" so blogs like these are bound to criticise each other. Blogs like these also have the prettiest and most interesting layouts, so for any real ideas I like to go there and snoop around and see what their templates are like la, just for the fun of it.

That's it for now, Russell Peters roxors my soxors (ramdom statement). Gnite.

Leucipottomy

Sabrage------> Opening a bottle with a sabre. You know, one of those ninja knife thingies. I've had my ups and downs before, but no this bad, this year anyway. On the bright side, I'm making it out os AUSMAT and 2006 without any real trouble or fuss, I've got loads of good friends who are willing to lend a hand at anytime at all. On the other hand, I realise that I am nowhere near ready for the future, as I am still the self-centered bastard who's only a little bit more well-disguised compared to a few years ago.

I wastched a presentation on Friday. The group members weren't exactly the best speakeres in the world. Some of them couldn't really even speak English very well. The group was full of stoners, panickers, jokers and no-serious people. When the presentation started off, the show seemed dull and not really eye-opening, the only nice parts being the funny parts where the jokers really made fun of themselves. However, somewhere in the middle of the show, one guy stood out, among all the group members, he alone kept the flow going, and made the presentation somewhat interesting and decent, in a way. He had the spontanity as well, as he asked all the questions which he probably didn't anticcipate or prepare before the presentation. As the presentation went on, his presence became more felt, as he was appearing all over the interviews, he was the one asking all the funny questions, and really directing the presentation towards a sensible one, especially when their topic in the first place wasn't a very interesting one, according to the teacher. So it is concluded that: a team can have a hundred idiots, but it only takes one leader to lead them to victory.

I've been having bad dreams lately, he most recent one being me in an accident. I was moving out of my parking space, and just when I was turning round to look back(I didn't know why I didn't use the rear view mirror) but anyway I couln't find the brake pads, and instead I found the accelerator which made me speed up and of course, crash into something. Then I woke up. Anyway that's not the point. I just found it weird that you never expect yourself to be in a dream, even though it's absolutely obvious that you are in one. Even when nothing's real, you still believe it to be a reality. There's never anyone to tell you "Hey luxian, welcome to your dream, I am blablabla" and things like that. You just BELIEVE that you are in the most bizzare place in the world, or even the scariest situations. And the most unbelievable thing is, that you never remembered that you fell asleep! Anyway, I'm not gonna let this kinda thing bother me, I've got things coming up.

Here's another self-centered thought. No matter how hard you try to be nice to people, be supportive and try to be the best friend in the world, someone is BOUND to hate you. Especially the people that understand you most. Oh wait, that didn't sound right. Your good friends are SUPPOSED to know you better, and know how to talk to you about problems, especially when people that know me would know that if you have a probelm with me, you would talk to me straight away. But nooooooo, you just had to curse some random guy on your nickname, and tell the whole world I absolutely wasted your time. Now I feel so much better that I've ranted about it. Not gonna let it affect my feelings now.

There. it feels nice blogging again.

Sabrage

Rebarbative-----> Unattractive. It seems that the voices in my head have died down quite a bit. My results have improved(thank goodness), but still it doesn't look very impressive... Calc 78, Physics 75, Applics 80, Econs 51. That's not good.

The haze is back. I bet you guys are thinking "tell me what else is new" right now, well here. I can't. But what I CAN tell you is that the haze was so bad, when I walked out of my room this morning, I smelled smoke and I thought the house was on fire.

Yeah it's that bad.

Here's something I've been doing lately. Exploring the awesome powers of my camera. See for my LAN project, I brought two guys with me to interview people at Rumah Hope la. Anyway, the kids there really wanted to see how my camera works la, so gladly my camera took some wonderful pics *cam flexes muscles*




By the way, this is only for those non-cameras jakun ppl to see haha...


Anyway this is just a photo post, I'm a bit dry on idea at the moment, after the LAN presentation i'll update again...

Rebarbative

Sciolist------> Superficial pretender to knowledge. I missed my deadline, so sue me. My cousin's returned to Australia too. Boohoo. At least he's left me with something to do...

Check this out : http://deathball.net/notpron/

I think I spelt it right. It's a highly addictive game, but it's not time consuming.
*Warning, this may cause mental illness and frusration, not for the mentally-weak*

Righ back to business. Holidays are over already. Thank goodness, I was starting to miss college anyway. Here's something interesting that happened and I noticed. Last Friday, I went for my uncle's birthday dinner, which I forgotten the restaurant's name ANYWAY everyone was having fun so we decided to hook up the karaoke box la, and while everyone was talking the nice waiters decided to help us hook it up la. After a few songs everyone decided to sing the birthday song and everyone just sang before the thing even started. At first I thought it was a bit funny, but when the music started playing after eveyrone was halfway through the song, some of the relatives started complaining. Of course you can't blame the waiters right, everyone was getting impatient already, but then one of my aunties made a remark so loud "You guys are no good la!!!" And I tell you from my family background where every relative older than me teaches me to be tactful, that was complete irony. Seriously there was no need for a remark like that, it absolutely would have offended me, especially when the waiter knew so much more abt the whole situation than her. Guess it's really shitty to be a waiter.

Here's something interesting I heard on the radio recently. Mix FM has this game where you get to say whatever you want, and the DJ pays her 10 bucks per SECOND. There was this girl who wasnt able to finish telling her joke, and she won 300 ringgit. Mad man that game. If you're really funny, you'd better enter that competition, damn fun to listen haha. Better than HitzFm's Gotchas.

I've been thinking a bit lately, with September just ending and all. If I were in Australia what would I miss the most? Well after much thought, I've sort of made a list so that I can cherish them as much as possible while I'm still in Malaysia, apart from my beloved family and friends la duh..

1. EPL on TV. There's not gonna be any Astro where I'm going, so I might as well watch as much of it as I can, coz I've watched TV in Australia before and other than the late night shows, you don't get much coverage.
   
2. Simpsons and Monk. Everyone in Australia's crazy over House and Family Guy, according to my cousins. *sobs*
3. Won Ton Mee. There's a guy near my house that sells Won Ton Mee that actually recognises me and knows what's the "usual" order. The food in Australia is 8 Aus$ for a plate of Fried Rice. It's big, but still not worth it. I'm sooooooo gonna miss that, and Sha Hor Fun, and Char Kuay Teow too. And Lou Shu Fun too.
   
4. Mom's cooking and screaming around the house. I can't live without chaos you see. I can't live in a perfectly tidy room. Something has to be messed up ,it's just the way I like it. I will really, really miss mom.
5. Wendy. Oh how I'm gonna miss her. No more Honk If You're Horny sign, no more magic ticket holder, no more fetching people to and from campus(I'd probably be living within walking distance from the campus)
6. My V-shaped pillow. 9 nights out of 10 I can't sleep without it. It's amazing. I don't think I'll be able to bring it all the way to Australia, so 9 nights out of 10 I'm gonna have to be creative haha.

Of course there are things that I would look forward to as well. But I can't name any at the top of my head now, so I'll just let it be.

I once asked my mom "Wouldn't it feel nice to make other people smile?" She told me the best but worst-off job in the world is a clown. You make people happy, but it's the reality that you're just there to be funny and people laugh AT you, not with you. From a logical point of view I agree with that, but I think it's also very noble for someone to be a clown. Some people in this world are actually willing to sacrifice their own pride just to make others happy, even if it's just for a moment. So let's respect those clowns out there, and make sure we give them a big laugh whenever they try their hardest just toentertain us. HAHAHA. I'm not being sarcastic.

I've also been reminded this week that there are good people and bad people in this world.
Good people
Sometime ago a guy was talking on the phone on the way to his car. After the call, he left his phone on the car roof while changing his clothes. Later as he drove off, he had totally forgotten about his phone, still on the top of the roof of his car, and as the car took a corner, the phone fell into the path of a cyclist, which happened to live nearby. That night, while the guy was talking to hi mother at dinner, his mother's phone rang and the guywas shocked to see that his phone was making the call!!! So that night, he brought a big bar of Toblerone to the cyclist's house and thanked him for being one of the few kind hearted people who decided to do the right thing instead of taking it and selling it or whatnot.

Bad people
One fine morning a lady I knew was doing her morning shopping at a Sunday market. After buying the last shopping item, she stopped at one last stall to buy a drink. Mysteriously her shopping bag dissappeared, together with the morning's shopping. To think that people would be bad enough to just swipe your stuff under your nose.

Anyway that's it for now, will think of something better to write next time. By the way, visitor no. 1111 gets a free drink. Any drink.

Sciolist

Copacetic-----> Going excellent, just right. That's how life has been after mocks. Perrrrfect. Too perfect. Just perfect enough for Murphy's Law to strike, and now I've sprained my left foot. Again.

I can't believe it's been one and a half weeks already. Time flies when exams are over. For the moment. I've promised myself that'll keep the brain running thorughout the holidays so that I won't have to start all over again. I suppose I have been doing that. Unfortunately this is the weekend before the holidays ACTUALLY start, so I'm still enjoying myself... Sudoku has kept me busy, 6 star puzzles are about 8 minutes average for me hehe... Animax has kept me busy too. Love Law of Ueki. I don't know why. It's just one of those cartoons where you can turn trash into trees, makes you finally think of something imaginative to do haha... Been downloading lots of new songs too, singing myself away...

I just realised that I'm a stay-at-home person. I've nowhere to go when I go out with people. 1-Utama's for shopping and eating only, and everywhere around my place is also for eating only. I guess it's also because my parents never really let me out anywhere with my friends when I was younger, so I didn't have many places to go to, and this afternoon I went out with a friend, and we had nowhere to go... Other than pool at 1U la. Gosh I'm starting to sound like a boring person already. What do normal people do anyway? Haha.

My cousin came down from Australia today. He's one cool guy. Studying Grade 9(Form 3) in Australia and he's only 13. He came to Malaysia a few times before, and I've gotta admit, having a younger who's more knowledgeable than you by a dictionary isn't an easy fact to swallow. At least that sorta inspired me to study la. The thing about him is that, you know when people know that they're a level above the rest, they tend to be a bit... A WEE bit cocky la. And faux pas. I find that to be a disturbing trend among intelligent people. But he's still a nice guy, very dynamic person too(runs in the whole family, none of my mom's side cousins are shy) and willing to share his knowledge la, and I respect that, coz I know other people who wouldn't spend time to share what they know because they "think" that you wouldn't understand it. So, good la I have a good cousin.

Random pic!!!! Long, long time ago, I read in magazines and encyclopedias that there are plants that can kill animals, such as pitcher plants and Venus-flytraps. Of course, a long long time ago, we bought one. I've never seen it eat a fly before though. So I was a bit bummed la.

Apparently it's supposed to attract flies with its nectar and close it's leaves.

Right I shall end it with a tag. Bored la.

The requirements:

1. Put your music player on shuffle
2. Press forward for each question
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question (but it seems you can insert lyrics from the song if you want lah... in addition to the title...so if it's suitable, just go ahead lah)
4. NO CHEATING!!!

* * *

1. How am I feeling today?
"Hips Don't Lie" - Shakira

Uhh, okay...

2. Where will I get married?
True To Your Heart - 98 Degrees & Stevie Wonder

Good enough for me.

3. What is my best friend's theme song?
Staple It Together - Jack Johnson

He'd better. And call it bad weather too.

4. What was high school like?
If I Ain't Got You - Alicia Keys

My player's drunk. Some people want it all, but I don't, I suppose "you" meant a car haha.

5. What is the best thing about me?
No Such Thing - John Mayer

Told you my player's drunk. Maybe it's everything that's good, so there's no "best"

6. How is today going to be?
It's Alright - Ricky Martin

Precisely. Not like it can get any better.

7. What is in store for this weekend?
Law Of Ueki - Falco

Watched it edi la. Oh, today's Sunday. Should've done this tomorrow.

8. What song describes my parents?
White Flag - Dido

Good on me *smirks*

9. How is my life going?
All The Way - Craig David

Thanks for stating the obvious iTunes.

10. What song will they play at my funeral?
The Fallen - Franz Ferdinan

Whaddaya know.

11. How does the world see me?
Give Me The Night - George Benson

Give you la, I'm watching movies tonight.

12. What do my friends really think of me?
Take Me Out - Franz Ferdinand

One by one la.

13. Do people secretly lust after me?
Upside Down - Jack Johnson

*blushes* Oh dear.

14. How can I make myself happy?
Do You Remember - Jack Johnson

Time out on a Sunday. Wonderful.

15. What should I do with my life?
Love At First Sight - Blue

Mmm, yes, good...

16. Will I ever have children?
When I Think Of You - Lee Ryan

First time my player's got it wrong.

17. What is some good advice?
Free Loop - Daniel Powter

"I won't see you tonight so I can keep from goin' insane" Guess so. Just tonight la.

18. What do I think my current theme song is?
Turn Your Car Around - Lee Ryan

Even my player wants me to start studying again.

19. What does everyone else think about my current life?
Nobody Else But You - A Goofy Movie

Shows that I'm specific and weird.

20. What type of style women do you like?
Tribute - Tenacious D

Jack Black kinda girls. I guess so.

21. Will you get married?
Disappear - Hoobastank

Since when there's a song called "Yes" or "No" anyway?

22. What should I do with my love life?
Feel Like Making Love - George Benson

To whom?

23. Where will you live?
After All This Time - Simon Webbe

No idea what this means.

24. What will your dying words be?
Better Together - Jack Johnson

There's no combination of words I can put on the back of a postcard,
A song that I could sing but I could try for your heart

Means I'm gonna die single!!!!

25. When I'm having sex I say:
If I were you - Hoobastank

Ha. Ha. Ha. This tag's driving me nuts.

26. When I meet a guy/lady for the first time I say:
Last Thing On My Mind - Ronan Keating / Leeann Rimes

"Four o'clock in the morning, my mind is filled with a thousand thoughts of you"
Nuff' said.

27. When my parents are angry I say:
Geek In The Pink - Jason Mraz

"I don't care what you may think about me, you'll get by without me if you want"

So not me.

See you guys next post. Within this week, I promise.

Copacetic

Codswallop-------> Nonsense. Guess who got the free drink? 1201 a.m., Swee Ying messaged me happy birthday haha. So too bad the rest of y'all. I always found it hard to remember birthdays, so unless then person is really really close to me or really easy to remember, I'd make a real effort to find out who's birthday's when... So I thank:

Jong
Shern
Mush
Hui-Ling
Lih Chuan
Swee Ying
Ernest
Dong Xiao
Yung Chien
Yvonne Tee
Lin-Dy
Sanjay
Michelle & Sam
Anna
Chris Sam
Alicia Chow
Wei Yen
Kheng Leong, Eric
Yu Xiang
Trisha Kuck
Donnie Ngan
Jehan
Wei Yang
Sze Cheen
Aubrey & gang
Wei Ming
Dinesh
Zac-Han
Kenneth Tan

Just for remembering.

Codswallop

Paregoric----> Medicine, to soothe. MSN Doesn't seem to be working now. I kinda got the idea of what life after mocks would be like today. I went to college with no class at all, spent half the day in my friend's room in the condo studying, and after lunch abt 1 plus we were in the com lab. Nice huh. Hoopefully I would be more productive tomorrow or after mocks. I've gotta say first, first one to wish me on my birthday gets a free drink from anywhere, you name it.
Hello all. You know I noticed a few things last week, apart from the fact that my birthday's aroudn the corner. For instance, recently I watched this cooking show called Oliver's Twist, and Jamie Oliver's so.... Shall we say... Different. And amazing at the same time. Who knew that red wine, chocolate and butter could go with RICE. Risotto that is, can't wait to try French cuisines. There's also this part after the show, where all the chef's guests finally come over as the credits roll, and everyone's enjoying their food, while all of us viewers just stone there and watch them enviously after our dinner(great timing, isn't it?) Last week he was cooking eggplants with Ricotta cheeese and chocolate sauce, I'm disgusted and curiosified at the same time...

Oh yes, I just came back from the Curve. We tried something new today, Ton Chan. It's somewhere at the upper floor at the street. Around the Only Noodle shop. Generally, other than the Mapo Taufu and the Crab meat Omelette, everything else sucks. It doesn't look half as good as the pictures in the menu inside OR outside the restaurant, but I liked the Miso soup at the end, it's always the best finisher whether your food sucks or not.

There's a slight trend I've noticed lately. Guys that are appealing nowadays seem to have long hair. More compared to last time anyway. Everyone used to love GI Joe or James Bond, which have flat, combed hair like married men like that, but nowadays when I talk to most of my female friends, everyone loves Bucky from American Idol 5. And believe me, it's not just because of his voice.

You know I've gotta agree with Simon there, they do look like Jessica Simpson. 'Nuff said.

Something happened last week that made me think of the question "Is it harder to be a good winner or a good loser?" It's not just about sportsmanship you know, coz there's a lot of ego bruising involved. Personally, I'm so used to losing that I'm not afraid of it anymore. Thanks to my high school teacher Mr Mah. Anyway, I was playing basketball at the club(after a very very long break from it) And some people can be real asses sometimes. I'm not talking about cheating on the field or being rude or not playing fair. These are the people that no matter how good they are, you just don't ever want to play against them OR with them again. This guy at the court, A, he fits the description. I was plaiyng against him for the first time, and he was playing quite good actually, until our team started winning, then he really started acting like an ass. After the game he didn't even bother talking to any of us, like he's some big shot that his ego's been bruised badly and we've shamed him for life or something. Haha. Serves him right. Personally, I think it's harder to lose in style than to win without being an asshole coz when you lose, you tend to pressurise yourself more, although a lot of people don't see that. They think that winning brings more of the jerk in people, that's why a lot of winners are not-very-nice people. If you can lose and still enjoy yourself and respect other people, I will definitely salute you, you deserve it.

For the record, I've always liked Making the Band. I just hate P.Diddy, that's all. It's funny to watch all the girls bitch about each other.

Paregoric

Palimpsest--------> A parchment that has been re-written. This post promises to be a long one. Mocks start on Thursday. I'm being really cool about it. Too cool in fact. It's like the quiet moment right before a huge gunfight where the guy says "Do you hear that? It's quiet. Too quiet" then everything goes havoc. I'm kinda there now.

It's not even my birthday yet, and I'm already receiving presents and birthday wishes haha. I thank my dad a lot for giving me a new Canon Powershot A700. 6X Zoom, 20 shooting modes, It's like being able to take a picture of the kitchen from my front door. Amazing. My good fortune doesn't stop there. With my new camera, there was this Osim i-Gallop gallery going on in 1u, and check this out...

Me and an Osim i-gallop showgirl. Talk about having a nice first picture.

Anyway after that, went home and once again, rain season is striking us again with heavy winds and falling trees. Just check this out, took it with the new camera...

When Trees Attack. In front of my street some more. I heard that on that same day, 7 cars got hit by these kind of falling trees in TROPICANA ONLY. Scary.

I just came back from a birthday dinner at San Francisco Steakhouse. It's a special place for me, from the atmosphere to the drinks and the food and the people to the company and the memories. I've been celebrating my birthdays there, and everytime I go there the food gets better and better. I've almost got a fixed course meal each year, only I drink more alcohol each time I go there haha... This time I had wine, Tequilla and Coffee Calypso, I can't believe that I'm still bloggging here...

This is my Choc Mint 18th birthday cake. Really sinful.

I've never really believed in birthday wishes. I've only seen them work in movies, where everytime there's a birthday wish a gust of wind blows and something magical happens. I've never expected that, but since young I suppose I never really had anything to really ask for. Even around this age, it's either I don't have anything at all to ask for or I dunno what I'm asking. Ever wonder who are we wishing from when we close our eyes and make a birthday wish? I used to think it was the birthday cake, but I never really found out or asked and this year, I'm wishing for the impossible...

Well that's all for now, I've gotta study in college tomorrow.

Palimpsest

Tergiversate-----> Make conflicting statements. You know it feels nice when a teacher makes coffee for you. Makes you wanna talk. I've had the luxury of that today, and boy did I talk. In fact, I can't remember the last time I drank coffee haha. There was also a Sudoku challenge organised by Campbell today, I did 2:09 for a puzzle and still didn't win, apparently the winner did 53 seconds, wow...

Ever wodner why female cleaners ONLY are cleaning male toilets and vice versa? Apparently this is happening everywhere, I don't know why no one's feeling uncomfortable about it. Maybe everyone's taking opposite gender workers in toilets for granted. Weird. Speaking og taking things for granted, I finally have found one bad habit of mine---- Taking things for granted(duh) See my mom and I were talking today, and she has pointed out that my taking her for granted as well as Malaysian traffic is a bad attitude. I don't know how relieved I felt when I heard that. It seems that, this year I've been perfect. Too perfect. Like I can't improve anymore. I'm still myself. But it's like there's nothing wrong with me. I don't know why. Maybe I don't have too-straightforward friends. Yeah so criticise me more often. I'd be glad to accept. I've had enough of compliments.

Have you ever been set up to have tea with a person, not knowing who it is at all? No pictures, no introduction, just a name and a phone call. No, it's not called a blind date, it's just meeting someone new that wants to know me. I don't think that came out right. Anyway, the feeling's like meeting any other new person, you feel a wee bit nervous coz youhave no idea whether the person you are about to meet is a bombshell or a bitch. When you sit at the table and start thinking of what the person might be like, it can be quite frightening you know. Which comes to my point of people fearing the unknown. Why is it that when people don't know what they're about to face, they become scared and uncertain? Is it because we might risk hurting ourselves? I know people who fear the thought of taking exams that they don't know what the questions are, or not daring to try new stuff that they don't know what it is? I admit, I do feel that way too to a certain extent, but anything new like meeting new people that don't know me or people I don't know, I would be glad to meet them. As compared to last year, where I didn't dare say "hi" to anyone unless I was forced to, I even felt uncomfortable saying my own name haha...

Well that's it for this post, see you guys next time.

Tergiversate

Mulligrubs-----> State of depression. Totally opposite of what I'm feeling now. In fact I'm on an absolute high now.(F) I just returned from vocal class. Yeah. I had fun. My homework- David Tao- Ai hen jien dan(love is easy) the song is so lovey dovey that I feel like loving someone now... Like buying them flowers on the spot kinda thing. I think I'm gona feel like this for the whole week, since it's my homework and I need to get the song into my head.

For the last week, I've been listening to a lot of stories. People's experiences, crushes and break-ups, feelings and stuff like that la. Point is, when people tell me stories, especially if they don't tell a lot of people these kind of stories, I'd feel so much better after listening to them... It's nice to know that someone would react exactly like me in certain situations, or find out that the most unexpected people can do the most unexpected things... Of course it's nice to tell people stories of my own too. It's nice to see the look on the person's face when you did something totally wrong a long time ago, or when people are actually paying attention to you and caring, I think it's a very good feeling... Sometimes i wonder where I get all the patience to listen that much, coz normally I can't even sit still haha...

I celebrated someone's birthday today. Happy birthday Yvonne Tee. Got a few old friends to come to Sunway College, had cake and singsong and candles and all that. That's not the point. See we we celebrated with the old group of friends that I used to hang out with in Sri KDU, (well most of them anyway) and I realised that they haven't really changed a bit... Different hair, nicer phones, but still the same old us from 2 years ago. After the whole thing I realised that no one in the world can replace these people that I called "my best friends" last year, and I'm quite grateful that although that I played a rather insignificant role in the group, it's nice to know that people actually remembered me and missed eveyrone in the group... Of course there were some people in the group that we've lost almost total contact with, but it was very nostalgic tthis afternoon you know... Like the times where all of us would walk down to the cafeteria during lunch, with the couples sticking with each other, everyone else arguing or bullshitting about something la... Damn funny, sort of missed those old days where I learnt to Sit there and listen to what people were saying... Every lunch conversation I learnt something new. Of course at that time no one really asked for my opinion, and I was only close to a few of them, so I couldn't really do much heart to heart then as I can freely do now and everyone would understand...

So here's a tribute to the old Sri KDU gang, would forever remember you guys, coz I have learnt so much from you guys in being a good friend and part of a nice gang =)

Ignore the stupid me in the center. From left:Donnie, Jia Wei, Shir Li, Yvonne, Sheue Yng, Mushira, Shern, Wei Yang.

So my left's eye been twitching since this morning. My friend say sthat whenever that happens to her, it's good luck coming round the corner. I'm crossing my fingers.

Oh yea about Steve Irwin, I think it's about time he hit the hay, he's cheated death too many times already don't you think?

Mulligrubs

Unobtanium--------> A material that's unobtainable. Just like my new crush. Wait that didn't come out right.

It was someone's birthday. Yes, Malaysia turned 49 on Thursday. I can't believe that I celebrated by studying. Off all things. On Friday I heard about how my friends went up to Genting or went to Sunway Lagoon to watch fireworks with their friends/boyfriends/girlfriends, I feel so unpatriotic. =)

I've just realised how long my weekends are. It's not a spell, just for this week only. Maybe since Merdeka, the holidays and free time have made my time super-lengthened... I was hoping for days like these. Then I could find time and talk to a good friend and even catch up with a few. But I'm sitting here in front of the com, blogging as I'm wondering what have I done wrong this year as a college student towards everyone. So far, I haven't really thought of anything I could correct, except maybe taking English instead of ESL, then I wouldn't have to take Econs(which is pulling my marks down GREATLY) if not, I suppose regretting a bit, just a little bit on letting go of my past... Well most of it anyway. It used to be nice, thinking that being a friend is all about commitment... And only commitment. Kinda figured out that friends are like two way traffic.

You know I've been doing a lot of tags and surveys involving stuff I did long ago compared to now, and I've realised that 5 years ago, I couldn't imagine or even dream about doing stuff like what I'm doing now... Like driving, I used to think that my parents would fetch me everywhere FOREVER... I was even frightened to take my first lessons haha. I also couldn't imagine having real friends like now. I used to think that best friends are people who you normally ALWAYS hang around in school with and just spend time with them, then it turns out that you don't have to spend ALL your time on best buddies...

Alright I'm out of ideas. See you guys next time.

Unobtanium

Vexillology-----> The study of flags. *stretch* Nothing much to write, about, except for a little crush I have now... She's just one of those people you just can't get over, and think about when something good happens... Maybe I'm just lonely. Whatever the reason, I'm near crazy over her(with trials nearby) so I'm gonna use that as incentive to motivate myself to study hehe...

In the mean time, I've found something interesting to do... It's a tag I think on crushes and I'm supposed to highlight the girl's name haha. So anybody wanna use these names against me go right ahead, I'm pinning myself against the wall =)

The year 1995,
I was 7 years old. Standard 1. Still didn't have a real crush yet, but I think my closest thing to a crush was the Pink Ranger from Power Rangers haha. Apparently I've heard that she and Red Ranger are porn stars now. I'm not gonna go find out.

The year 2000,
12 years old. Standard 6. I've been rejejcted so many times by now, but I think at that time my crush was Chia Sok Hui, thankfully she's in Japan studying now. She was a singer then, and everytime I talked to her I was so nervous(I am still like that) I think this crush went all the way up to Form 3 haha when I changed school and finally didn't get to see her around. Everyone of my friends made fun of her though, and I didn't dare do so and even bought a present for her birthday and lied to my friends about it. I didn't know what I was doing to my friends, mind you haha.

The year 2002,
14 years old. Form 2. After transferring schools from SMKBU to SMKBU3, I was a real geek (at least I think i was) and got rejected so many times, especially in Edusmart tuition. Nevertheless, I kept trying but I supposed I was too busy focusing on making new friends at that time. One of the worst crushes was Debbie Tan. That girl was SO cute that I sent her song lyrics in my SMSes as pick-up-lines. Thinking about it now, I'm not surprised that I was rejected that much haha.

The year 2003,
15 years of age. Form 3. Finally I get lucky. I picked up the flirting game, and managed to land a girl called Stephanie Yong from Edusmart(shows that persistence pays off, eh?) However, only being able to see her once a week, I don't think we lasted a week haha. Later in the year, I got together with Jannifer Lim(also from Edusmart haha) and I don't think we lasted for a week either. In conclusion, at Form 3 I had no idea what a relationship was supposed to be haha. I'm still talking to Stephanie though, she's even prettier than before =)

The year 2004,
Age 16, Form 4. Reality slaps me in the face. I start waking up and reading books on how women work. I still love the book Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus that book has thoroughly changed me. Fell for a quiet, annoying girl called Tan Sue-Yi and (don't hate me for this) although I knew she was in a crashing relationship, I took advantage and we eventually became really, really an intimate couple. Not to mention being not-shy in public. That one ended in flames, after she couldn't decide between me and her boyfriend. Turned out we were both good people. Changed my perception greatly that the good guy always wins. Heh.She's one of my closest friends now though, since she knows all my secrets, flaws and soft spots haha.

The year 2005,
Age 17. Form 5. Still grieving over the past year, I didn't make any real moves on anyone until I started teaching as a study method for SPM.Apparently good grades weren't the only benefits. One of my 'students', Elaine Lee, was under my "spell" and eventually we got intimate and our studying sessions seemed like dates. Right before SPM Trials we agreed to get together, and after that, she fell for another guy. Showed me that no matter how hard you work for something, there is bound to be something wrong that might and WOULD happen.

The year 2006,
Hurt twice and overly-cautious, I didn't DARE make any moves on anybody in college. I even gave many people first impressions that I was a nerd haha. Just like Form 4. Of course there were crushes. For all the wrong people. Namely other people's girlfriends. Currently, I'm using every chance I get to get close to her to at LEAST get a conversation in, including sacrificing my time slots that I'm supposed to be using for studies. I'm not worried, I still make up for it at night, so I'm not feeling guilty for what I'm doing at the moment.

Well that's all for the moment, will update tonight. Real stuff coming up.

Vexillology

Petard------> A small bomb. Hello everyone. You may think I've got a loose screw in my brain, but I've picked up dancing and vocal lessons. It's the kind of thing that mom asks out of nowhere one day"You wanna go for singing and dancing lessons?" and being the sometimes blur me, I say yes la. And I had my first lesson today, and I was so nervous, coz I'm always nervous around beautiful people haha...

Here's something that came across my mind earlier. See yesterday I watched my first episode of "House" on AXN and I've gotta admit, other than House's sarcasm, he talks about hard stuff in the end that applies to us all. Like in this case, he states(and scolds i think) that the doctor under him, Cuddy, is looking at the world not the way it should be. It's not that she's being naive, he tells her that she sees stuff the way it is, and how it's supposed to be. But she doesn't see the big gap of darkness in between. So this kinda gave me a new sense of awareness of being naive and all. So I have learnt that being naive is not just about not knowing anything... It's knowing something as it is, but not knowing about what it is really like and how it can be when you're naive. Savvy?

Ok here's the reason I didn't update in the weekend. On Sunday, I went with my Moral Project Group to Rumah Hope to entertain kids for charity and have lunch with them. This was my first REAL charity project, so I was a bit mentally unprepared on what I was gonna see, like expecting real timid and closed or mentally disturbed kids. Boy was I wrong. Anyway at about nine, I fetched Shereen and Alishia and the three of us went shopping for games and prizes to play with the kids over there. So we got there about 11 or 12, and to my surprise, the kids greeted like we were old friends, you know like when you've played football with kids for a long time and you see them again on the street and they go "HHHIIIII" like they're really wanting to see you, it kind of gave me that feeling that we anybody could blend in easily and talk to them nicely without any real persuasion. So after lunch, everyone was pretty much all over the place, and it was SO HARD to get them to line up haha... In the end we gave up, and just talked to them and played whatever they liked instead of what we planned haha... All that preparation for nothing... Now here's the interesting part. Although I didn't talk to all of them, there was a lot of open-mindedness among most of the kids... See the place was a Christian home, so they were calling us "Brother" which made me feel a little more at home you know...

Then one of the slightly older kids, James, came up to me and asked me

"Hey brother, do you believe in God or Buddha?" So I told him:

"Neither, I know they're there, just that I don't worship them"

You know that sort of made me think, does being abuse or neglected really put a lot of dependence on religion? I'm an aegnostic myself, and it's touching to see these kids be good people because of their worship to God, unlike some fanatic people who discriminate everyone else... It's nice to see that these people have the look of hope in their eyes because of religion...

There was something else I noticed too, it's that there was a HUGE difference in behaviour between races... The Indians were so nice and welcoming, in the sense that they had actual conversations with us and cared about what we think... But there were old enough Chinese kids who were either so self-obsessed or obsessed in whatever they were doing, that there was virtually no way to talk to them... You can't connect with them, especially when there was this kid who kept shaking his Digimon... I can't believe that those things still exist. Maybe they were just shy, I don't know, but still they were so obsessed that they didn't even wanna play the games with us.

Right, we're done with what I've been doing, now what I'm thinking. I've been wee bit down lately, and I've sort of found out why. Ever had the feeling that you think that you've found a good enough friend that appreciates you and understands you, but when something happens it just offends you so much that you feel hurt and unable to speak and reach out to people? Yeah I felt that, I thought that I finally had a friend that i could stick to and talk to, even if he's the most annoying guy in the world, he's still my best buddy, and sometimes last week, he just... Left me out in the cold. And once again I was alone, stuck, and for the rest of the exam i've been thinking and feeling... Lonely again. It's amazing. I've never been this down.

That's pretty much it. Something else has happened too, I just can't remember what. See you guys around.

Petard

Totter------> A rag and bone collector. Sorry for the lack of updates, having a string of tests. Will update a few times this week.

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	High
Lust:	High
Pride:	High

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