My goodness I haven't updated for a couple of days. I think probably because I have been going miles a minute. I have really enjoyed reading other people's blogs. I am not really sure who follows mine or if anyone follows mine, but I love to read other's and I actually appreciate journaling. It has been therapuetic for me and for that I am grateful. So, if you read or follow my blog than SWEET and if not then I have something to remember the good, bad, sad and hopefully more happy than not thoughts!
I have had so many great opportunities lately to be enriched, uplifted, touched, served and loved by so many different people. I am so grateful for the amazing people in my life. I am not really sure where I would be without them. Just when you think there isn't much good in the world, or you seem discouraged about the people around you, or being affected by people's choices you are reminded that there is good in the world and there is still good people!
I have the best neighbors and friends. I am so lucky to be surrounded by such a good ward family and also have friends so close. I don't ever have to think I am alone. Just when I think I am alone, or my house is way too quiet I get a knock on the door or an invite to go somewhere.
This week consisted of a super fun Bachelorette watching party with two of the coolest people I know. Diet Dews and lots of candy baby! It was fun to watch the show with such great and funny people.
Tuesday I had the opportunity of watching one of my bestest friends daughters. We played dollies and Disney figurines and talked 3 year old talk. This was all while two of my closest friends were spending the day with the Activity Day girls in our Primary. I am so lucky to have such great people who serve in Primary with me. These women took all the Activity Day girls to Day Camp. They had a great time and such a great turn out. My friends showed up afterwards to chat and tell me all about the day. I am so grateful for their friendship, but also for being such a good example to the young women in our ward--my activity day girls. I also got a very sweet card in the mail from someone from my past. A sweet Grandma I once had when I was married. It was a beautiful letter. I also got an unexpected visitor at the door. It was a good visit, but a hard visit. It's sad how divorce affects not only one person, but both families and the sweet children.
Tuesday night after all my friends left I got a disturbing call from my mom saying they were leaving to Fairview to get the trailers and four wheelers off the mountain. The Seeley fire is the fire that could potentially affect our property. It didn't look very promising on Tuesday night with the Woodland and Fairview fires and then the Seeley fire just over the ridge. I joined the all night adventure and went with. During all of this I had close friends calling and offering to help me and my family. They know how important this place is to me and my family. Friends offering to come help and bring trucks and trailers. I was amazed at how many people care. I feel so blessed to have this around me. I couldn't miss out on possibly seeing the most beautiful place one last time and get everything of value and some things we had all worked so hard for. It seemed very weird doing this alone (not alone as in alone, but as a single person alone). This was something I would usually share with someone and we would be saving our memories and posessions together. I felt like I was going to get all these memories and items that "we" worked so hard for, but were now mine and only mine. As I pulled the four wheelers out to get them on the trailer I had to pause for a minute just to think about my life. It certainly puts things in perspective when you see fire surrounding you. So many people around me have lost everything due to this horrible fire. I too had lost something to a fire, but I still had my family and friends and I have them forever and for all eternity and someday I will have someone in my life to be with for eternity again, but I still have my family. What a sweet feeling to know that I will be with my family forever! The mountain was quiet. It was peaceful and smelled like smoke. There was fire all around us, but it was still peaceful. I have to admit it was very eery being in the mountains and knowing that the mountain on the other side was a raging fire and so many lives were being affected. It was just a surreal feeling. I honestly can't explain all the feelings that this night brought me. I am still trying to process it.
We got home at 4:45a.m. I took a little cat nap and then off to work I went. I had a good evening. I had a great Primary Presidency meeting. I am amazed at the women I serve with. They are such amazing examples of Christ. I want to be like all of them when I grow up--oh wait I am older than all of them. My secretary said something very profound and it was something I needed to hear. With fire comes cleansing and after fire comes growth and opportunities for growth. This is exactly what i needed to hear. I feel like the past 5 months have been all about fire, or losing special and important things. She said that this is an opportunity to grow and have new growth in my life. How amazing.
Last night I got to spend time with my family and swim. I love the late night swims in the pool out back and talking until all hours of the night under the pretty sky while looking at the stars and visiting with my family. Some of the special conversations about life have happened out in my parents pool. It has been a blessing to have the pool in my life this Summer. I have decided I am more of a fish than I ever have been and I have been a fish my whole life. It relaxes me and takes me to a happy place. That is a good thing right now. I also got to talk with one of the most amazing women in my life. Her name is Julie. She was my Activity Day leader, Young Women Leader, friend and example to me for most of my life. She has battled breast cancer and has to have surgery on Monday. Her and I had a good visit and it was a reminder to me of the person who I want to be. More like Christ. She is such a Christ Like example.
Oh I had a couple of firsts this week. I flirted. I flirted a couple of times. I am very rusty at it and it's going to take some getting use to and some practice, but I did it. I got hit on at one of our Public Program workshops. That was flattering. I am pretty proud of myself. Don't worry if and when I ever get asked out I will mention something, but for now I am just going with life. At this point I am just happy for the tiny baby steps that I am trying to take and consider them accomplishments if the step happens with out a fall. Heck I am just happy to crawl. ;)
