So I am Following the crowd. I love how Blogger works. So If you would please link me on your page and follow me to…..
http://justmeamom.blogspot.com/
Its going to be a fun change for me… This will stay here for future reference… Thanks!
The Zoo!
Posted by Jenn on May 15, 2008
We were able to go to the Zoo on Saturday. It was fun to play and watch Emily and Zach see the animals. Zach had a hard time “seeing” the animals, We took him out of his wheelchair and he was able to see the Giraff. It was so fun to watch him. He couldn’t take his eyes off of them. It was so fun.
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My little wonders…
Posted by Jenn on May 7, 2008
I have been thinking about all the blessings in my life and the one that I cherish the most is the blessing I have been given to be a mother. Even when I feel like I am at my wits end I always find that moment when I love them more at that moment then I ever have before. Its a wonderful feeling to know that I am loved and wanted. The times when Emily lays with me and says “mommy lets just talk”. At that moment when our noses are touching and she looks into my eyes and wants to talk about anything and everything, is when I am filled with so much joy and amazement. Those are the times when I am in shock that those 2 little blessings are mine. What a wonderful thing Emily and Zachary are to me. And for the first time in his whole life that Zach as reached for me to hold him. Something that most mothers take for granted. Its only happened one time. That one time is something that I will cherish. It came right at the most perfect time. Watching them grow is so much fun. One that I have taken for granted and decided that I would slow down and be involved in, instead of watching from a far. They are “My little wonders”!
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Still Screaming like a 12 year old!
Posted by Jenn on May 5, 2008
I got this in my email today from a friend. I Love when people think about me and send me stuff that will make my night!
Thank You Thank You Thank You Jenny S. What a great friend you are!
FIRST LISTEN: ‘Summertime’ from New Kids on the
Block
Originally posted Monday May 05, 2008 12:45 PM EDT
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They’ve called their new single “Summertime” and the tune is, well, appropriately sunny. The New Kids on the Block will officially release the synth-heavy anthem on May 13, but PEOPLE.com has a first taste. Sweet and bright, the song finds the guys getting nostalgic, singing, “I think of you in the summertime / and all the good times we had, baby.”
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My favorite time with Zach…
Posted by Jenn on May 4, 2008
Some of my most favorite times I have with Zach is during his many therapy sessions. I love watching him make progress and the joy he has when he does something for the first time or the right way. I love the look he gives me. The look of “mom look what i did! Can you believe how smart I am!!” There have been times when I just sit in awe of him. It has brought tears to my eyes many times. I love that he is so much different than what we were told by Doctors he was going to be like. He is defiantly not the child I am still told on paper that I will have. Some of the best friends i have are the Therapists that come into my home. I love the friends I have made and the joy they get from helping my son grow. Its amazing that so many people are on my side when it comes to helping Zach get what he needs. I have been told by many Doctors and Professionals how wonderful and committed Zach’s therapists are. Making sure that they are at appointments with us and making time to just come and be with us after major medical problems. Not only do these wonderful therapists love Zach, but they love Emily too. They make sure they include her with the things they bring for Zach to do. Emily gets just as excited to have Sheralyn, Christene, Mandy, Susan, Julia and Lisa come visit or us go to them. So to those wonderful ladies that help me Thanks for your dedication and love.
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Blah!
Posted by Jenn on May 3, 2008
It’s been a really bad week for us here. Emily has thrown up EVERYDAY this week. I have gotten very little sleep. Chad and I caught it as well. Zach was throwing up all day yesterday and was not eating or drinking. We went to PCMC because my Pediatrician said he thought it would be a good idea. Zach was not able to keep down his meds and had not had a real wet diaper since that morning. So at midnight last night My mom and I took him in. We sat there for over 2 hours. Waiting for some one to take us back. All they were going to do it put in an IV to help get him hydrated. He fell asleep about half hour after we got there and was starting to get his color back. At about that point I started to feel absolutely gross. My stomach was turning. Watching other parents who’s Children were worse than Zach by far just sitting. Kids coughing and throwing up. A cute little mom with her disabled Daughter who was on oxygen had been sitting for over 3 hours. So I looked at my mom and said lets just go. If he has a seizure then we will call 911 and we will get straight back. I went up to the desk and asked how much longer it was going to be and the nurse said “Oh sister you have a long wait”. She told me that at the very EARLIEST it would be 60min. but it could be a lot longer than that. So I told my mom that we were leaving because I was going to throw up and He was sleeping soundly. I let him sleep in bed with me last night, just to make sure he would be okay. About 4:30 Emily woke up throwing up. I put Zach back in his bed. She threw up for the rest of the morning. I started about 6:30am. Chad started about 8pm tonight. Zach is totally fine. Its gross. We have slept most of the day and washed every blanket, towel, sheet and pillow we own. This is so not fun. I wish we could get over it fast. I hope that Emily stops tonight she just needs a break. Anyway. Thats been our week-end. I hope that others out there don’t get this. It sucks!!
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Zachs Fight with mac n cheese
Posted by Jenn on April 30, 2008
So being the fun mom that I am. I gave Zach his lunch today and let him just eat it. Well you say that sounds normal right. Well I gave him Mac n cheese. Its not one that he usually eats himself. The pic explains the rest.
Ohh my!!
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Fun milestones.
Posted by Jenn on April 28, 2008
I got some cute pics of the kids and a video of Zach’s new trick. Its so much fun watching him do the fun things i never thought he would do. He is such a fun kid to watch. He loves to play peek-a-boo and he is using the signs he knows all the time. He is such a smarty pants!! I hope you enjoy these pics as much as I do!
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Gross!
Posted by Jenn on April 28, 2008
So its 4am monday morning do you know where your children are? I do! One is sleeping peacefully like he should be and one is watching TV on the floor with a bowl and a towel next to her. BLAH!
Emily woke up yesterday throwing up. She spent most of the morning doing that. After a long nap she acted just fine. Then at 3 this morning we started the process all over again. Not how I wanted to spend my Monday but thats okay. This is a life of a mom huh! Its funny that before I had kids the sound of someone throwing up would make me do it too. Now it takes A LOT of that to make me gag. Ohh well. Its only suppose to last about 24 hours. If thats true then we only have 2 to go! YAY.
Other than that, things are okay for us right now. Zach is mostly back to normal. He still is whiny. But thats to be expected. Now that i have experienced the things i have with him. I have a firmer faith in myself that when the next seizure happens I will know how to handle it. Its not going to be any less scary to watch, BUT I will know what to ask for and what to expect. Its been a long road but i am okay with things now. I still hate seizures. I still hate to watch them and When they happen again I will still vent about how much I hate them. It will just be a sentence rather than a whole post. I do have an appointment set up with Dr. Lloyd for a neuro consult. He has been Zach’s Neuro from the begining. Its fun to see how many people love him as much as i Do. He IS an amazing Dr.
Anyway, I need to go make sure Em is okay. She keeps telling me that she has a huge problem up there. I better go figure out what it is. Its not to bad because i can hear everything she is doing. Wish me Luck!
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Stop and think before you type!
Posted by Jenn on April 23, 2008
** If you don’t like the things I say on MY blog then you DON’T have to READ** Thank you!
I know people mean well. I know they are only trying to help! The last month has been seriously hard for me. NO ONE understands this because they are not me. From the moment that I had Zach, I NEVER said whoa is me, why me or why Zach. I have ALWAYS been able to see his disabilities as a blessing. I know that having him in our family is the most amazing blessing I could ask for. I have ALWAYS put both of my kids first in everything that I do. I have always been the kind of Mom that would put her depression and anxiety on the back burner until I was alone, ALL BY MYSELF, not like the kids in the other room kind of thing. Like everyone is gone and i am the only one in the house kind of thing. I know that my kids did not ask for a mom that is distant or depressed. Its not their fault at all. They shouldn’t suffer because of me. I KNOW THIS! For most of Zach’s life he has had one thing after another hit him. The difference in this time as apposed to the other times is the same DAMN thing keeps happening and NO ONE is trying to fix the problem. People look at me like I did something to hurt him. Why would i do that?? If you ask anyone in my world that REALLY knows anything about me and my everyday life they would tell you that my kids are my world. They come first. Chad comes first. My family and friends come first. Then me.
Anyone that has a child with Special needs knows that for the rest of their life you go through a pattern that closely resembles the process of grieving. If you didn’t know this go HERE and read about it. It might help to explain why I feel the way I do. I am not throwing myself a pity party. Not at all. I just wish people could have seen what me and mom did yesterday. Watching my son fight for his life and basically stop breathing. Having NO control and having NO ONE want to listen to me. I KNOW what is needed for Zach. I do… Not the Dr. that has only seen him one time. Having to go through 3-4 days or more of crying and sadness. Having to hold him because he won’t stop crying. Wishing that just one time he could talk and tell me what is wrong. He doesn’t have to talk any other time. Crying with him because he just can’t get his brain to shut off. He CAN’T calm down. Nothing working. Having a Daughter that things you love your son more than her at the age of 3. Mommy leaves me so much and stays with Zach. So not only do I have a crying Zach but an upset Emily that doesn’t want anything to do with me. Ohh and throw in a husband that doesn’t know how to deal with stress so he is snappy with the world. You take a step in my shoes. Walk the path that I do before you point fingers.
Talk to me in a week. Things will be drastically different. It takes about that long for things to go back to normal.
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