If I had a brain..

.. I'd be dangerous.

My fiance was asked to be an MC at a fundraiser this holiday season. He's good lookin', funny and has a downright sexy voice.. they chose the best man for the job. It is a semi-formal event and I had absolutely nothing to wear, so The Man.. being the kind soul that he is, decided to pick up a dress for me as a surprise.

He was all excited when he brought it home and wanted me to try it on right away. When I took it off the hanger I thought that the neckline was kind of low.. but, you never know til you try it on.. right? On goes the dress and the "V" landed right on top of my belly button. It also barely covered my [whisper]nipples[/whisper]. I'm thinking to myself.. self, you're no spring chicken.. but, could a 43 year old woman with double-sided tape pull this off? The Man must think that I am EXTRA hot.. my head began to swell. I put on some stockings and some strappy heels to complete the outfit before I went back into the kitchen to show him the goods.

He's sitting at the table with a cup of coffee watching me sashay down the hall. I couldn't decipher the look on his face, but he was smiling... then his shoulders started to shake and his face got all red. I'm thinking.. DAMN.. I must look good. My ego deflated as soon as I realized that he was laughing. Not the usual laughter, either.. the kind that brings tears to your eyes. The laughter that is so hard, it barely makes no sound at all. The kind that takes your breath away.

Then he got up from the table and gave me a hug while saying, "How did I get so lucky finding someone as funny as you?" I was at a loss til he said, "Who thinks of putting a formal on backwards?!!" What?.. backwards? No wonder! The only thing I said was something along the lines of "Aren't you glad that they broke the mold when they made me?" Then I turned around and walked back into the bedroom.

Ladies.. we will just let him go on thinking that I did it on purpose, now.. won't we? ;-)

Feeling guilty...

.. for some reason today, I am feeling a bit sorry for myself and I don't like it one bit. It makes me feel guilty. I am usually the happy go lucky, cheerful person that my friends and family go to to cheer themselves up. I have an uncanny ability to make people laugh. I consider myself to be blessed in that aspect.

Today, I am leaning on my blog to get things off of my chest. I really don't want to talk to anyone about it, because in my eyes.. it makes me sound superficial.

When my fiance and I lost our home.. we lost EVERYTHING... pictures, papers, family mementos ... everything. We also were extremely lucky in the fact that our family remains intact. We are closer than ever.

This is the second time in my life that I had to start over from scratch. The first time, I feel like I was a stronger person and NOTHING was going to get in my way. This time, however.. there are days when I look back to what we had.. and I miss them. I miss my Christmas decorations.. I miss my china sets.. I miss all the linen.. I miss the family photos.. *sigh*.. the list goes on and on.

I think I just need to shake off this funk that I'm in.. take a nice warm shower and go thrifting.

Blog illiterate...

Since I am completely computer illiterate, I have decided to use this blog to follow my favorites (at least for now.. y'know, til I can figure out how to post pics and stuff).

As of now, I do not know a soul in this wonderful community... so, if I add you.. please don't be offended. I mean you no harm. ;-)

Ok... off I go to try and figure out how to add your wonderful blogs.

Getting to know me...

1) ... I am a redhead, but my eyebrows are black. My brother found this quite amusing when we were growing up. He's a lil nicer about it now.

2) ... I am just under 5'

3) ... Two years before I met my fiance', I was married to an extremely abusive man. One night after he tried putting a cigarette out in my eye, I finally "woke up". I grabbed my daughter, my purse, the clothes on our backs and took off. We had to start all over from scratch... clothes, household items.. whatever. It was hard, but sooo worth it.

4) ... I am now (going on 5 years) with THE most wonderful man ever. It is like God made him just for me.

5) ... I have an off-the-wall sense of humor.

6) ... I am still not sure who I am going to vote for.

7) ... Our home may not be much right now.. but, with the feeling of security, love and stability.. it is, hands down.. my very favorite place on earth.

8) ... I can make a meal out of almost nothing.. but, my baking skills are practically nil.

9) ... Dusk is my favorite time of day.

10) ... and last, but not least (for now) ... I am a klutz. The floor could be completely flat, yet I'm still tripping. Someone (and I am not naming names), is always moving the walls, cuz it seems like I'm always hitting the corners of 'em ;-) . Thank goodness Grace isn't my middle name.


Here's hoping that y'all are having a wonderful day!!!
*cheers*

First post....

Since I am new to the blogging world, I'm not sure where to begin. As stated in my profile.. we just bought a tiny two bedroom place after losing our home.

LOL!! I'm not sure how to post pics on my blog yet.. but, I sure wish that I had taken some "before" photos to show y'all what a mess it was before we started (for instance.. cupboards were painted a dark, yucky green.. along with all the trimmings in each and every room). Now all the yucky green is painted a soft, warm white.

I'm not sure of my decorating style.. I love primitives along with the romantic country style. I'm trying to blend both into an aesthetically pleasing home. It's all touch and go from here.