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muddy blue

i spinned you between my fingers

forgive me

this conductor has given its coins

i don’t knoooooow where to go next

and it’s a twisted dark fantasy that i can’t escape

i am a shipwreck

looking for my siren

she led me dangerously

through the grass to stomp boots in

boots

what the fuck am i supposed to do with this

i am a sinner

i am a singer

please love me

the way i loved you..

unjustified, i want to claim some kind of truth

but it’s blurred in muddy bluuuuuEeeee

now i’m trying i’m trying to stay alive

my own dystopia that is so lonesome

but maybe it’s meant to feel this way

i guess love is a token to the strongest or the fucking weakest

and my reflection is screaming my naaaaame

the siren has left to it’s own defeaaaaat

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too familiar to be stunting the roof

tasseling hair caught its way through the golden flare of dawn

where we stood in ordinance of space and time

up the tallest slab,

we ran on command,

pushing, ripping, hectic in beat

slab to slab, we felted the streets with sweat drips and sniffles

running from seats

THIS IS MY TWILIGHT

a float of conduction held me in trance

to the face of such heights

every building around me, subjecting its leggy shadow

mustardy slabs correcting my vision over chipped concrete edges

the coldness was stretched on my armor

sweat dripped down to the knees

these are my people with golden rods in their fists

sun pulling itself up to reach us in this frozen moment of stride

the ballroom was empty and the doors shone darkness through its gaps

a secret was kept in between it all but no breakfast or dinner to share

every time its so different but its always left the same way

speckles of dust collecting in corners

the turquoise carpet stained in ash

running the halls of a night in closed walls

just to picture the sun in its waking of state

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i found you somewhere by the touch of ancient river

i found you somewhere lost, under the pink of fuzzy skies

i found you with your eyes closed laying on the greenest leaves of grass

i found you on your way home, past the berry bush

come, we’ll go somewhere not far from here

i’ll remember the steps back, the fluffy stain will bring us back

just hold my hand and we’ll fill our tummies with fruits of every color

we will explore the path to mine, spend the night and share words through eyes

the night gets a little cold, a little darker for the stars to show

i will honor your dreams when you fall into a quiet spell, or i

the wisest hum sings the wind through the passing of each cloud

we’ll lay under the sun, the richest soil nourishing our soles

you will have a new name every day,

i won’t stay the same but i’ll caress your skin until the very last day

to never be found, the trees don’t form doors here on this land

reincarnated in a past time where the flowers blossom for the very first time

liquid gold surround our union, alone with each other lost in the garden of life

the formless, the magic, color explosion

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closet dissonance

you’ll forget to turn the light on

don’t forget to turn the light on

write me a letter in the closet of ur room

chatter on the back of my neck

nostalgic feel of heavy rain

so vividly awaiting, the then

clear as blue skies, there is no fear

staring at peoples faces,

faces just like ours,

hair like yours

bubbling above the ethereal plane

little memories whisper at the back of my neck

back of my pocket, cloves of gingko leaf

destroy me through her, new skies no fear

i feel fine, i feel so lazy

lazy stride above cemented side walks

crispy year, crispy one year

recycling it’s energy through chills

2019

forever loved

forever loved

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777

i have listened repeatedly

i listened so carefully

i haven’t seen you in a while

your face, the expression of your body

your heart reaching towards me

i can feel it too

i remember the first time i watched you, this beautiful stranger perform and i couldn’t hold my cry, now here i am consumed by the whole of you

past tense, past life, you are so much

scribbled into the soft of my hands, you are a part of me

i wonder how you are, i wonder if it feels right

i am lost in your words

i asked and you showed me

i don’t know how to get to you in this haze of ocean tide

on the moon, just you and i

see me for the knowing of my soul, exchanged with only love

i reflect you, pieces they fall into

take my hand the way you used to

i see you, i can see you

i missed you so much

there are those arms i’ve gotten used to

the smell of your neck, the warmth

i missed you

your hair looks different now,

so does mine

we left them behind

old baggage feeding the flames

your face so delicate, the way i last left it

you are divine

i want to scream

i’ve tucked these in for too long, so long

please hold my cheek

show me this is real

spinning, spinning,

erase my memory,

an instant combustion

we have never left

my brain is crackling

malfunction of reality,

to fall back into dream

keep me here forever

glowing green numbers have always matched yours

i’ll share history’s eyes with you forever

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555

Ropes pressing me still

Tied against the coldness of my skin

Warmth teetering down from the creases of my mouth

Blink

Awareness

My hair is wet against my back still

What have we done

The wooden chair under my thighs

Soft wet wood pressing me in one

I didn’t think you would find your way

I remember meeting you against the sky

I turned you on towards me, shaped you into the size of my palm

callused feet dancing between the veil of dimensions

I was too lost

Liquid gold smeared all over my bed

We, too lost to understand

I fed you prudently

Now the colors bursting in low light

breathing particles of every color splatter against the shine of your eyes

breathing

.

Uncovered wholeness to each our own

Liquid gold leaking from your chest

Bare wide eyed we looked into each other

Your curls were soaked in the colors of this dream

Orbing flash of hues resting on my skin

Liquid gold running down my legs

Looking back into each others

Do you remember

We were equally aligned

Lost in between worlds, of yours and mine

Carry me I said

What have we done

Cold wet wood pressed against my skin

I can still feel your half combine with mine

We shared my dream, in between

When will you come back to let me go

Pressed against I could just stop

Lost within the process of my mind

Close my eyes back into that night of us against the sky

Between dimensions of parallel notice

Where have you gone

Liquid gold pulsing past the sky

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f1e2l2p1y9 and s2n1e5l2p0y

join your knuckles in with mine

i haven’t seen you in too long, so well with rusting time

i can feel the trim sleeves of your favorite plaid shirt

soften to dust underneath the static of my lucid choke

do you still remember how to get there?

pressed cotton on the brown of your wooden floors

glowing green numbers now mismatched against yours

red walls staring us whole, reciting a hum of a whole that once was

still buzzing from the space between us,

you know so well that feeling of “I feel it too”

I see your words scattering down past your eyes in powder blue

cutting the chord kept you in

backwards name pressed on my clumsy chin

tattered attempt to forget you

sake, in the end I almost let you

you know your cross is heavy heavy on my eyes

i know your sake is building building our demise

the shadow of your arms scaling up up up

don’t make me your enemy baby, it’s making me forget your name

and i don’t know how to replace you into words

you used them all

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madness

Screeching praise of oblivion

The chiming of a phobic Melody,

burn to soot eyed romantically,

Fractured monocle

Blink through my lens of misty poise,

Taste of dirt, earth of color and noise,

The words I use inside my head

Fight me with your sweet and mushy fluff,

Morphing collateral, my constant snuff,

the crinkle of my mirrored backscatter

so softly singing for my muzzled gag,

euphoric stretch of a empty drag,

Sonorous hush

—–/————– I ————–/——

Biography of old lovers,

Experiments of token love,

stuttering my whole, I slip into my self

in my dreams I saw you,

Man like you, beside you, illusionary friend

in my dreams I saw,

sanctuary self, bathed in salt water

Blurred beneath my skin,

Reflection of a phobic melody,

Old burned cassette dancing romantically,

———————— II —————————

Self proclaimed synchronicity discovered by the soul barf of my poetry

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Arcadian

Image

To be faced in the eyes of the lover I’ve never met,

There you are, stained on the limbs of my lucid body, on the tip of every edge.

You’re only a colossal of streams, of dreams I have only seen.

you always look the same, I keep you etched onto the back of my hands.

Spinning so softly on this bed of astral plane, you are always the same.

I’ve made you up in several lines, stretching, pulling, peeling.

you see me and it’s so hard to understand you, I’m grounded in a wakened state.

To make you up, I’ve known you so long.

I’ve traveled across the sea, lost myself in city streets just to meet you, you see.

I know the day I meet you, everything in me will shatter, I’ve known you my whole existence and every time before.

You are my severed half, and your within me all the same.

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I sleep with my back faced towards the sky

A sword strapped to my side, a warrior must never die

I greed myself a selfish love,

I’ve kept it stitched onto the seems of my bones

Because the echo of my darkness scoffs in timid groans

I slid my fingers across the dancing beam of light,

it shadowed my whole room.

A nostalgia of pulsing red, transfixed in heavy womb.

In darkness, I am blind but now everything’s a mess.

With liquid gold swallowing me whole, now I must confess.

My shadows screeching words to see, pretending to be me.

This light, I’ve seen it many times before but never breathed onto me.

If every sound to meaning, I sit in quiet spell.

I’m sorry to be so greedy but I’ve taught myself too well.

And I understand your meaning,

but it’s hard for me to speak.

My voice is almost there but it stumbled on your cheek.

Electric drip of sunlight, pouring on my skin

Smear your color gold on me, a marking I must win.

Let me hum you my favorite words, close your eyes and let me breathe.

I have much more to share with you, a whisper shared with teeth.

I know my hands are heavy but these promises, I cross my heart to keep.

A taste of liquid gold,

A reflection, ten times fold.