Mountaineer's Paradise

by -> jAh 092105

Once you told me about a place
A place where I can call paradise
Where green grasses grow full
With flowers blooming beautifully

Wind blowing like ocean breeze
Touching your skin so soft as cotton
With butterflies flying everywhere
In different hues and colors

Daffodils are dancing gracefully
While the wind blows calmly
And the bees buzzing with pride
Adding beauty and delight

This is the place you told me
Where I wish both of us could be
One with nature's grace and beauty
Where you and me as happy as can be

Sentiments of my heart

by -> jAh 092105


It was a fine summer afternoon
I was walking along the shoreline
Alone and barefooted I walked
With solace and serenity

The sun was almost setting
And the tide was low
I heard the birds chirping
As if they were singing

Trudging lazily on the sand
The warm breeze touched my face
The waves splashed my upon feet
I savored the moment of traquility

As I walked further
I saw you waving from afar
A sudden joy came through me
And my heart was beating faster

I wanna run towards you
But you seemed so far
You were so distant
And far beyond my reach

I tried to come near you
But you seemed miles away
I tried to reach out to you
But I fizzled and failed

Does it have to be this way?
So hard and burdensome
All I ask is to be with you
To have you here with me

But I'd still dream and hope
For that wonderful day to come
You and me together in love
Both happy even just for a time

I would never lose hope
For love is patient and willful
Always willing to sacrifice
And for you... I am waiting.

For you...Love

by: jAh-091605

How can I stop thinking of you
When all I can see is you
I see you in my dreams
I feel you in my arms

Can this really be love?
For I feel you in my heart
Can I kiss you love?
For I long to hug you tight

Though I tried so many times
To forget and ignore you
Still I can find myself
Wanting to be with you

Unabridged is my love for you
With no questions and no doubts
You always make me happy
Every time you smile at me

Being with you someday
Has always been my fantasy
I know love, you care for me
Because love has come my way

I am pissed!!!

I know I am short tempered, but I don't get upset when there's no reason at all. And when it happens, to hell with you!!!!

I know I can do extremely bad things when I am in rage. You can see me in my worse state. The other side of me that is not pleasant at all. That's why more often than not, I prefer to keep my silence. In that way, I can at least calm myself down.

I don't really like being upset. It ruins my mood, and my day as well. And yeah, I really do try to avoid it, but what can I do? Shit happens!

A conversation with a forumer

tindak_lang_gihapon: ...Unsay say kaha ni GMA ani noh? Indeed, this is the works of his favorite murderer, Palparan. I doubt, and no wonder, the number one recruiter of the NPA/s are the ARMY itself.
... ahaka bitaw! dili jud maayo nga gipahawa si Palparan sa Samar, kay na! adto na sd to mangihaw sa Central Luzon, maayo unta'g matuk-an to ang hanggaw oi, ahaka. maka ingon ko bah, nga ang demonyo diay wala sa impyerno, naa diay sa AFP, Brig. Gen. pa jud! ahaka!

lady_yuna: what's with you and the army tindak? coz i believe when you say "the army" it entails the whole oragnization. just my two cents.

tindak_lang_gihapon: me and the army? wala. no connection at all. but politcally they were suppose to be the guards of our sovereignity, indeed they are such a criminals under the bonnets and the fast rding motorcycle men, behind those who butcher the unarmed activists.

if we say army then they are, the whole organization, if somebody here is a member of that org, better to clear himself out from that generalization because sometimes generalization is not a fallacy, sometimes laws are not followed.

there is a bad army and a good army, the bad ones are those who speaks good but not doing it right...opinion ko lang ho...

@ lady_yuna

lady_yuna: again,generalization is a fallacy. it's a fact. why don't you just pin point those bad tomatoes from the army? like what you've said there is a good and a bad army. would the good army want to be called a "bad army" even if they're not?

tindak_lang_gihapon: hehehe, sakto tumpak, but what happened is the personnel nga i pin point nato is nahimong general pa man gani then mura rag ang bulok nga tamatis iglalabay na unta, gisagol na lang hinoon putahi.ok, generalization is a fallacy..walay lalis...the issue here is not the army. kundili ang mga gipanghimo niining mga talawan og bayaran nga mga tawo ilalom niining administrasyon.

lady_yuna: got your point. but the thought of what you've said included each and everyone from that organization. hate those tomatoes who generated the rotteness, not the whole org.

and one more thing,"better to clear himself out from that generalization", do they really have to do this? geez..

tindak_lang_gihapon: ok, my bad...satisfied na? para klaro, PALPARAN must be 6 feet under...

lady_yuna: that's better...i rest my case.

Shadow of darkness

by -> jAh 091705

Racing heartbeat

Difficulty in breathing

Feeling as though I can't get enough air

I know the shadow of darkness is here.

Terror that is almost paralyzing

Dizziness, lightheadedness or nausea

Trembling, sweating, shaking

I know you're just near.

Choking, chest pains

Fear that you're going to go crazy

Fear that you are about to die

You seem to rise from out of nowhere.

You surface without any warning

Without any way to stop you

You creep like a thief in the night

Lurking suspisciously with fright.

I see you as a devil's mate

Endowing danger and fear

But I know you're a fraud

An expression of make-believe.

You can't fool me

I won't give you victory

You can't control me

I won't let you rule me.

You're just an illusion

I won't lose to you

You're just a mere visualization

A figment of imagination!

My virtual home

This forum has been my home since I joined last june 25, 20005. I have been a member of forums way back in college. I even started one for my course mates. It is up until now, and has been the only means of communication and source of news from each other. In this way, we still keep in touch even we're miles away.

Anyway, with this new craze forum of mine started when someone sent me a message from the other forum, in which I am also a member. He's name is Duane. I wasn't doing anything that day so I decided to sign up with this new forum. It took almost two weeks to actually visit the forum. At first I thought "nah...this is just another forum I'd sign up and visit just for once". I finally logged in one day, checking out what this forum has to offer. I've skimmed through the pages and thought "it's not bad". So, I posted my first ever message saying "hello" to everyone. I visited the forum sporadically, for I didn't know anyone yet. And that one posted message lead to another, and another . It wasn't that long when I realized I made friends and I always find myself laughing and giggling while reading and posting messages in this forum. I have found friendship and camaraderie with the other members.

So guys..what are you waiting for? Sign up and start posting! :D

Unrequited Love

- jAh 091405

It was a day I could never forget
The day you told me that you care
I was taken aback, confused and stunned
You even caught me offguard, and muzzled

I thought I was in a dream
I never knew it was there
Not until you told me you did
Not until that very ordinary day

It took me for a while to believe
But somehow I felt the sincerity
I closed my eyes for a moment
Then I felt this enormous bliss inside me

I had so many questions to ask
How, when and why it happened
The answers were very hard to grasp
And it was only you who has them

After some time I came to realize
This happiness in my heart
It felt immensely hard to believe
This magical feeling of love

The next day I woke up thinking of you
I found you lingering in my thoughts
Most of the time I am filled with joy
Knowing that you care

From then on I started counting days
Of waking up in joy and happiness
With you in my thoughts
Embracing me with your love

It went that way fine and dandy
With us both happy with each other's arms
Exchanging sweet nothings and laughter
Stealing kisses and hugs

It wasn't long enough and this day came
You wanted out, an end to what we had
It was so sudden that I didn't realize
My heart was aching with much pain

You tried to explain it to me
You tried to make me understand
And yes, I did to and that's true
But why does it hurts so bad?

It took me days to wallow
I had no choice than to let you go
I know it's hard but I want to you know
I still love you with all my heart

There's no better time to end than now
The memories that you gave will be cherrished
They will be kept in my heart and mind
And you will always be missed my unrequited love...

ALDIONES

So great and overwhelming
Everything seems unreal
Never had the thought
Of seizing and and ending
Indescribable yet understandable
Deeply moved, I hope it would
Last for a lifetime
As we lay in each others arms.

Dejavu

Wind blows
Raindrops fall
Dusk turns night
Warmth becomes cold
Distance draws embrace
Love slowly grows.

Passion

If words could describe the way you make me feel
If mortal thoughts could comprehend the things I know are real
Then I could show you a piece of me
I could bare to you more than my soul
You could embrace me with more than thoughts
The things that make me whole.

As it stands we only have less than words can share
We have all the passion in our hearts
A love so true and real
And though we have no unfleshed soul
Or things seen with the naked eye
The wonders of the love we have could make and angel cry...

Earliest bird

I woke up awfully groggy today. I slept late last night, that's why. But I have to wake up early because my work starts at five in the morning! (goodluck to me). Well, I got up from bed started my morning routine. When I was done, I waited for my carpool to arrive. Finally they arrived after fiftteen minutes (there are five of us), I got in the car without saying a word then I closed my eyes trying to get some nap. I can't sleep because my mind was awake. When we arrived to the workplace, I was the one who got out from the car first, again not saying a single word. I logged in at exactly 4:47am, and thought "another day for me". I am working as an interviewer in an american market research firm. We conduct surveys to american households or business firms. The job is not that nice, but what can I do? it's my job (haha! I feel like a loser!). Well, at first it was "okay", we had a very lenient manager and my co-employees were fine. As the company grew, more and more people coming in and out in the office that I can only recognize them by face. I came to realize that the policies being implemented in the company was a little "pro-management", and there's a lot of "unsual" things that are happening only in this company (as far as I know). I can't elaborate more on that here, someone might read it! (hehehe).

Anyways, enough of it. I can't afford to let it in my thoughts epsecially when my day has just started. I might end up having a bad day :)

A "sexist"?

When I was is grade school, most of the boys were fond of teasing me. I didn't know their reasons, I was not a class clown, buffon, or even just a low profile lass that sits in a corner and have no friends at all! Man, I just hate it when they do stuffs. And when I got to my sixth grade, I started hating them, boys specifically. After I graduated from grade school, I still hated them that's why I opted to enroll in an exclusive school for girls (that's how I hated them!). Haha! I just realized that was so lame to escape from them. I wasn't really escaping from them, I just didn't wanna see their faces again. It was not until my third year in high school that I've come to realize I was missing something in my high school life. It was not really all to boys, males, or men, but I realized I am spending my high school life not in a "normal" or "unsual" way. At that point I started reminiscing some memories with my guy friends in grade school. What was it like to have a male classmate or a male playmate. And I started to notice that women are usually loud, noisy, chit chats here and there, spreading rumors in a split second. And for that, my alter ego told me "aren't you annoyed with them? They just can't stop opening their mouth for just a second!", and from that time on I got fed up with girls (sighs). Then my first day in college came and told myself "this time I gonna have an all male circle of friends. I was so determined to do it in the way I wanted, and during my first class I sat at the back (where males were usually seated) with males both on my sides. I made friends with them and in time I was one of them. Most of my female classmates were talking at my back (envious maybe) because I didn't want to go with them, not even mingling with them. I enjoyed being in a guys' circle then, I liked it because most of the time men don't put on some faces. They are transparent. It went that way until the semester almost ended, I was talking to one of my female classmate and she introduced me to the girls in my block. From that time on, I managed to weigh things out. Now, I have males and female friends. True friends, if I may add :)

Kagay-anon ko

I came from the southern part of the Philippines, a place called "City of golden Friendship". It is called as such because of the hospitality and warm nature of the natives living in this place. I live in a suburb area on an uphill called Patag (which ironically means "flat" or an "even surface"). I have spent most of my life there with my Ate (older sister), Manoy (older brother), Kuya (another older brother), and just most recently with our little brother next to me (which is fifteen years younger than me!), and our parents of course.

Now, I am here in the central part, way too far from my family, and my journey continues...

My first

Whew! Finally, I have just created my own blog site. I've been wanting to create one ever since, but due to time constraint I wasn't able to do so. Sites like this always fascinate me. I've always love writing or just scribble anything on a notebook, post-its, tissue papers, or anything possible.
I am so excited to post here that I don't know where to start and what to write. About me? Family? Friends? Life in general? Love Life? Politics? My work? My community? Hobbies? Hmmnn... I'd love to write something about all of the above! But I'm gonna need a lot of time, which I don't usually have. But I would do my best to at least spare some time sharing my thoughts.
Anyways, I think I have to end here for now. I still got some work to do. ADIOS! :)