Monday, March 2, 2026

13!

 I was not prepared for how aggressively this birthday would hit. I am now solidly the parent of teenagers, and my baby has transitioned from being an actual baby to being this amazing little human with the most incredible brain. This year has not been easy for any of us, most of all Averson, and while I feel nostalgic about their babyhood (man, they were a fun Little) I am blown away by their grit, their tenacity, and their perspective and I feel so honored to be a part of their process. Blogger loaded the pictures in a weird way, but I also kind of feel like that's fitting. Happy Birthday, Averson. I'm just obsessed with your little brain and I can't wait to see what the next year brings < 3



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Monday, February 23, 2026

Things I want more of

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Inappropriate clothing items. And teen drivers who are pretty good drivers

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Puppy naps

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Snow adventures with new friends

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Homesteading hobbies (and Greek Yogurt you could eat like cheese)

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Book sales. SO MANY BOOK SALES

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Date nights

 

Saturday, February 7, 2026

That was pretty cool

 Last week as part of my new job I got invited to a press event being held by the Pro Football Hall of Fame to honor "Healthcare Heroes." I got to tour the group around one of the clinics I oversee, and then got to meet four football legends; Rick Jennings, Warren Moon, Darrell Green, and Fred Beletnikoff (who I admittedly did not know until running it through C) and Iman McFarland (who I also did not know but now I'm kind of obsessed with her.) C sent me with a football and the cards he had so I was able to get signatures from everyone. Warren Moon told me to tell my husband "hello" and I book-needed with Iman McFarland, who is a book AND space nerd (I recommended The Six). AND, I saw and touched a Super Bowl Ring. It was such a cool and random experience and it was really neat to see how much they appreciated the work that the center is doing too! 

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Monday, January 26, 2026

Banner Day in the mountains

 

It's been 8 million years since MLK Day, but I don't want to lose sight of what is good in the midst of all the things that are definitely not good. Sydney has been asking to hike, so on MLK Day we packed up Posie and some snacks and headed out together. It was a delight. Posie was adorable and alternated between walking on her tiny little legs and being carried. The weather was gorgeous and even though it was crowded, it wasn't overwhelmingly so. The girls were fun and silly and it made my heart so happy to see them enjoying themselves and each other. 
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I have very few socially appropriate pictures of them. Mama tried and all that.... 


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I like this guy


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And then! We stopped at Goodwill in the little mountain town and C excitedly found me to say that they had two pairs of Doc Martens in my size. You guys? The ankle boots are BRAND NEW and I got them for $60. The lace up ones fit like a glove and are perfectly broken in and, because it was a holiday, I got them for TWENTY DOLLARS. I've committed to making Docs my entire personality now, obviously. 

Monday, January 12, 2026

What I Read: 2025

A little late but it's not February! 

For 2025, I set a goal of reading 70 books and ended up with 73. It was a solid mix of audio and physical books, leaning REAL heavy into the smutty and/or fairy genres. I've become proficient at smashing the pause button in the car when my bluetooth autoconnects and my kids know that they should ask before browsing any books I have lying around. It was a tough year. A girl does what she has to to get through. I read some really great books this year, but if you're looking for highbrow, this isn't the year.  If you want to go back to see past years' wrap ups, they're here: 201720182019202020212022,  2023, and 2024. Though looking back, there's still not a lot of highbrow options.


Books I loved with my whole heart and would recommend to anyone:

The Names by Florence Knapp. Oh my goodness. This book broke me. I cried in public and I still think about it often. 

We Begin at the End by Chris Whitaker. I loved all the characters in this book so much, and I was rooting for all of them in various ways.  

Wild Dark Shore by Charlotte McConaghy. This is another one that hit me deep. I wanted it to end a specific way, and yet when it didn't, I knew that it ended exactly how it should. The characters were so well developed and the story was beautiful and tragic and inspiring all at the same time. 


Fun books that I could read in public without lying:

The Long Way to a Small, Angry Planet by Becky Chambers. This is categorized as a "Space Opera" which brought me joy in and of itself. The science fiction is pretty straightforward, meaning it's not a slog if you're not a sci-fi fanatic, and the characters are just lovely. There's true romance and all the other stuff (wink wink) happens off the page. I got this book during my book fair party and it was such a fun discovery. 

The Grimoire Grammar School Parent Teacher Association by Caitlin Rozakis. OMG. I read so much fantasy this year and it just made this book all that much funnier. The main character is a "normal" woman whose child is a werewolf. She starts kindergarten at the school for magical creatures and her mom has to navigate both species dynamics and the PTA. Ridiculous in the most perfect way. 

Lula Dean's Little Library of Banned Books by Kristen Miller. Southern clutch my pearls and a lot of comeuppance. Totally lived up to the hype. 

Best Hex Ever by Nadia El-Fassi. This one is a teensy bit spicy but it was recommended to me when I specifically asked for something I could read on a plane with my teenage daughter next to me. Shout out to Lovebound Library for knocking it out of the park! This is the first of a series and I'm so excited to continue reading it. 


Cozy witch books that made me wish I drank tea: 

The Very Secret Society of Irregular Witches by Sangu Mandanna

A Fellowship of Bakers & Magic by J Penner

A Witches' Guide to Magical Innkeeping by Sangu Mandanna

The Spellshop and The Enchanted Greenhouse by Sarah Beth Durst. OMG. If you liked House in the Cerulean Sea you'll probably love these too. Magical librarians, sentient houseplants, ridiculous wizards. It's all there and it's perfect and lovely. 


The old classic, "What the fuck did I just read, and why did I kind of like it?"

These aren't the smut books. These are the mindfuck, I can't believe that story lived in someone's head, books. Read at your own risk.

The Better to Eat You With by Amber Garza. You guys? I know the author. She's lovely. Her other thriller books are great. This one is amazing and seriously made me question her sanity. It's so fucked up. My brain, and my search history, will never be the same. 

Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke by Eric LaRocca. OMG. That's all I've got. Just OMG. This was less than 200 pages and I still think about it sometimes. 


Non-Fiction books that I couldn't shut up about:

Only Say Good Things: Surviving Playboy and Finding Myself by Crystal Hefner. This was fascinating. I remembered a lot of it from when it was in the news and it was so interesting (and heartbreaking) to hear it from her perspective. Which then led me to...

Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny by Holly Madison. Everything I admired about Crystal Hefner's writing style was contrasted in Holly Madison's book. She was petty and mean in places she didn't need to be, and where she could have been more impactful she was underwhelming. I'm only adding this because it paired well with Only Say Good Things. 

Everything is Tuberculosis by John Green. Everything truly is Tuberculosis. 


We listen/read and we don't judge:

PSA: Know how to pause your audiobook if you're going to listen in your car. Or... be prepared to have some VERY awkward eye contact with your children and the drive-thru staff.  

Lights Out and Caught Up by Navessa Allen. Morally gray...everyone

Morning Glory Milking Farm and Moon Blooded Breeding Clinic by C. M. Nacosta. Minotaurs and werewolves. I saw someone opine that these are either the cutest smut books or the smuttiest cute books and that tracks. 


I'm sticking with about 70 as my goal for this year. My TBR shelf is already pretty full so I'm off to a good start. The other thing I'm excited about is the inclusion of not one but TWO book clubs this year. One is through my gym and I've attended twice thus far. I really like it, and because they do an anonymous vote for the monthly book, it's already exposed me to some books I might not have found on my own. The other is with some of my friends who are very cerebral and socially aware, but also silly, and I'm hoping to be able to join their next meetup too. 




Wednesday, December 31, 2025

Christmas Photo Dump

 Christmas was about as low-key and perfect as I could have hoped. My brother came up and we spent the day in our PJs. My cinnamon rolls turned out so awful that I had to doordash Pillsbury ones on Christmas morning, but my chili was especially good to make up for it. 

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A skateboard!!

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We are in our "unhinged t-shirt era"

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Deep in our "unhinged t-shirt era" SMH. 
Eli's laughing so hard he's crying.

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The one single picture where we look halfway respectable

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aaaand. We're done. 

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Christmas lights in a deluge. These guys were troopers. 

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Posie! 

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Saturday, December 27, 2025

Posie Chai






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 We got a puppy! Because obviously that's what life needed was a little more chaos :)

Sydney has been wanting a small dog for awhile, and specifically she's been wanting a puppy. In a fit of insanity, fueled a bit by the adage "You're only as happy as your unhappiest kid" and some really tough news, I finally gave in and the search commenced. Having been a rescue family, it's really hard to figure out where to find puppies, especially if you're looking for a specific size. 

We were all very clear, because Sydney constantly reminded us, that this was Sydney's decision and we were not to influence her in any way. So while I started perusing various rescues and showing her pictures, she chose which dogs she was, and more frustratingly was not, interested in. Just FYI, puppies go FAST. We met a couple earlier this month and driving over, she wisely opined that if it was her dog, she'd know. She was set on not wanting to pick a puppy just because it was there. We met two adorable little puppies, both chiweenie style, and she liked one, but didn't want to commit to it, and we'd already submitted an application for another rescue that was supposed to schedule with us later that week. So we left with the promise that they would let us know if anyone else was considering adopting her. *Spoiler alert: They did not let us know

On Wednesday I was checking Rescue #1's website at work to show off the puppy that Sydney had all but decided on, and OFC the dog was gone. A frantic text later confirmed that she'd been adopted. We still hadn't heard from Rescue #2, meaning that we'd now gone from two birds to none. Sydney was devastated, but rallied back to being confident that her dog would be obviously HER DOG. 

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Looking back, this is so obviously not her dog


Thursday night, Rescue #2 finally called and I completed a THIRTY MINUTE phone interview where I assured them that, yes, I have met puppies before. No, I definitely do not expect the puppy to come fully trained. Yes, there are humans in the house willing to take care of the puppy. Then she explained that there had been 26 applications for 5 puppies, and that after they phone interviews, five families would be randomly selected to come meet the puppies on Sunday. YOU GUYS. I do not have the mental fortitude for this. I am very pro-rescue but FFS. I was ready to find the closest puppy farm and throw money at this problem at this point. Also, it should be noted that ten days earlier I had not been pro-puppy. I am fully aware of how my competitiveness plays out. 

So back to nail biting while we waited to find out if we'd been "randomly selected." Friday night comes and at about 8:00 pm I get an e-mail that says we were selected (followed by a clarification that we'd been "randomly selected")! The rescue asked us to come on Sunday morning at 9:30 to meet the puppies, and also said that if multiple families selected the same puppy, and all things were equal, then THOSE families would be randomly assigned. At this point my faith in the Universe was getting near fanatical. 

Sunday morning, at a respectable 15 minutes early, we show up to the rescue at the exact same time that the puppies arrived. I'd assumed that we were being given timeslots, since they'd told me that the meetings would be between 9:00 and 11:00. Not wanting to impose on another family's time, we waited patiently for about 37 seconds before going in. Sydney immediately saw a puppy in the crate and declared, "That's my dog." IMMEDIATELY. 

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Come to find out, the meeting was for all five families together. The other adopters were lovely, and it was such a challenge to balance wanting Sydney to be able to take her dog home and not wanting to be a giant asshole. I settled on pointing out frequently how smitten she was with the specific puppy, dropping her "chronic medical condition" into several conversations, and then enthusiastically narrating how much other puppies seemed to love the other families. Imagine, "Oh my goodness! Look how she snuggled right into your neck! That's your dog. I can just feel it." We were doing great for about an hour. Sydney, C, and Averson were as charming as ever and everyone seemed to be falling in love with different puppies. AND THEN. The cutest, sweetest family that ever existed walked in. Walked in CHANTING OUR DOG'S NAME. They'd had to travel so they didn't get there at the same time we did and I'd all but forgotten there was an unknown variable. And when I say cute, I meant CUTE. Mom had on a big red bow, and it didn't look silly. They had two kids, a three year old and a seven year old, and both were sweet and well-behaved. They brought their dog, who was the ugliest, most endearing little pile of dryer lint. THEY BROUGHT THEIR ELF. We were so screwed and we knew it. But I persisted. I pointed out ALL the cute puppies. I kept handing other puppies to them. I doubled down on the chronic medical condition. And I was first in line to submit our choices. 

Each family was allowed to choose up to three puppies they were interested in, so that if you didn't get your first choice you had a back up selected. I talked with Sydney about who she might choose for her second and third choice, since the odds weren't looking great, but she was adamant that she only wanted this one dog and if it wasn't meant to be, she didn't want a back up. So that's what we did. All the chips on red (aka Spot). Slowly other families left to submit their choices, and from what I overheard, we were still the only ones who'd ranked Spot. Then comes Cute Family. They huddled together to go over their rankings and after a brief conversation, all agreed that they'd made the best choices. They'd also ranked Spot #1. 

Once all the families had chosen, we were told that once the puppies were assigned we could take them home right then. I think no one totally understood that, so we all had to borrow crates etc. C super helpfully started putting them all together, while Averson and Sydney went through the donated puppy clothes and toys. I took a walk. Sydney was such a champ and so mature, but everyone in the room could tell how nervous she was. Finally, the volunteers walked back in to announce the choices. The sweetest woman, who was there alone, and had taken to Sydney, sat down next to her and held her hand. It was like the puppy version of Miss America. The cute family sat across the room, hands held, while the kids excitedly whispered. And then there was a speech. The groans were implied. They said that four families got their first choice and one family got their second choice. We hadn't made a second choice, but suddenly I regretted my off-hand comment that we might be willing to reconsider. But all the worry was for nothing because right after that they announced that we'd been chosen for Spot! They hedged it by saying that they'd picked us because our kids were older, but I'm saying it was the Universe. The woman next to Syd hugged her and celebrated. Sydney (and I) cried. The cute mom was as gracious as anyone I've ever seen and immediately said to me across the room, "I'm really glad you guys got her." Then promptly whisked her toddler away before she had a tantrum. I can't overstate what a decent human she was. I hope her pillow is always cool and the puppy they took home (who was also adorable) never chews anything or poops in the house. 

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Sydney's face after finding out Spot was coming home with us. She was crying, I was crying, Averson was crying. I think strangers were crying. 
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And we came home with Spot. Who has since been renamed to "Posie Chai." She's adorable and wonderful and I don't know that I've ever seen Sydney happier. I was worried about Scout, but I think because Posie is so small, Scout doesn't feel at all threatened and instead seems more curious about what this tiny barky thing is. We didn't need to add another element of chaos to what is already a very busy house, but I'm really glad that we did. 

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Scout isn't sure about this tiny little creature, but she's been so patient!

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Could she get any cuter?