Cautiously Optimistic

That is the détente I’ve reached with the new job. We will be together at least another couple of weeks, then re-evaluation. For now, it is the best I can do.

On the Job

Have you ever walked in on the first day of a new job and thought, "Oh, yeah! This is right, exactly right; this is where I should be."?

My first day on this new job I didn't have that feeling. In fact, I spent last week either holding back tears, or just plain ole cryin'. I ended up 3 nights in a row at my favorite restaurant drowning my sorrows in giant margaritas. I now, I don't know what I should do.

Part of the not-rightness about this job is that my boss is not in the office for another 2 weeks, and I'm torn between sticking it out, waiting to see if she can make a difference, or looking and leaving as soon as possible.

Another part of the dilemma is that I have to spend a year in this position before I can apply to transfer to a different job in the same company, and I love this company. I love the benefits, the corporate attitude, the opportunities. I don't want to leave at all, but don't know if I can stick this out.

I'm at a loss, and very unhappy. I just don't know what to do about it.