OSTARA ALTAR

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Ava and I created the most magical Ostara altar yesterday to welcome in Spring. The elements just flowed together effortlessly once we started gathering. As much as I am an Autumn girl, I must say that I equally adore the energy of spring. Maybe even more-so in my current time-space. After we gathered + arranged the altar, Ava was ready to go play with her friends. I sat with it while the candle burned all the way down and wrote. At first a poem came out that I will share below, and then a list of all the things I want to grow in abundance over this next season. Today I will plant that list in the earth, cover it with some flower seeds, and tend to it everyday. I think my word for this year is TEND. It keeps coming up for me and it just feels life giving.

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OSTARA POEM

As the butterfly emerges from it’s cocoon,

I too unfurl and bloom.

I feel the sprouts of becoming

Tugging on my wings,

As the winds shift and welcome spring.

Teased out of my slumber

by sun kissed love letters,

Pulling me up from down under

with bird song and joyful flutter.

Beckoning blossoms begging to be seen

Reminding me of who I’m meant to be.

An offering of transformation and rebirth

A re-membering of my irridescent self worth.

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If you haven’t yet, go poke around your home and see what elements you can bring together for a spring altar. Maybe it will inspire you to plant some seeds within yourself and your life that you would like to see blossom in the coming months.

Did you notice the little butterfly talisman added to the candle bowl? My friend Jenny inspired this. She has a collection of my talisman necklaces and says that she uses them in her altars + rituals. Maybe one day she will come share all about it with us. Also, beautiful handpainted deer rock is by Lotus and Nightshade.

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WHERE THE LIGHT RETURNS

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A noticing of where the light is returning:

Colorful blossoms adorning my home, some gifted to me, some I bought for myself. Watching the way some are more resilient than others, some beg to be preserved, and some ask me to surrender and let go. Noticing how connected I feel to certain ones, and where I feel indifference, even to a beautiful flower. They guide me to tend… do they need more water? sunlight? to be weeded or cut? As the larger bouquets begin to wither, I often pluck the few thriving flowers out and place them in a smaller container, which instantly brings me more joy of extending their life. I think the beauty of nature is meant to make us feel something, to evoke a certain spirit within.

Real time with Ava. Being back home after 3 years of caregiving I am realizing just how much of my time was spent tending to things outside of my relationship with my daughter. She was there, doing life alongside me, yet our time to deeply connect and homeschool the way I always desired was not happening. I’m not sure I fully exhaled in that 3 year span to be honest. Now I have the time and space to create engaging + creative lessons with her. Ones that I am excited to learn alongside her. I am noticing her responding differently in her desire to learn. It’s like a whole new relationship connection is opening up right now. Also, I am watching her grow in so many big girl ways, and I am exploring her taste in colors, music + desires and it is tapping me into my own inner child in such magical ways.

Community forming. This has been such an inspiring new chapter for my life. There was a part of me that was so hesitant to move back to Bandera for many reasons. One being my lack of true community here. Living here before I would go weeks without seeing anyone but my child and husband. I had yet to find connections I didn’t feel like I had to mask or perform for in order to be accepted. This is one thing I felt very strongly about changing in this new chapter, and it is unfolding in the most natural of ways. I think there has been something I have attended in one way or another every week since being back b/c of the connections that are forming. And having a gathering of women sitting in circle in my own backyard was a dream come true. I am looking forward to many more of those.

The way I see myself. This might be the most important return of light. I didn’t realize just how much I was being self critical until I was visited by a turkey. I may do another post on that for those of you who missed it on my socials. It was a magnificently unexpected encounter with a wild creature that completely resurrected the way I see myself. Talk about medicine. I some how remembered that I am beautiful, inside and out. All of a sudden I started loving my hair that I have been loathing for months. I began dressing myself in ways that reflected how I was feeling inside. I started taking selfies again, witnessing the light shining in my eyes. I began loving my body again. I began to rebuild my confidence in showing up online and in the real world amongst people. I am finding my voice again in my partnership. I am speaking truth when it needs to be spoken. I am releasing judgements of what I perceive others to being feeling about me. Holy, this was.

I’D LOVE TO KNOW, WHERE IS THE LIGHT RETURNING FOR YOU?

HAPPY SPRING EQUINOX

GOLDEN WINGS

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The butterfly symbolizes transformation, growth, and beauty as it undergoes a remarkable metamorphosis from a caterpillar to a graceful winged creature. Its journey from crawling on the ground to fluttering in the air reflects the process of personal evolution and spiritual awakening. The delicate and vibrant wings of the butterfly represent the fragility and resilience of life, encouraging us to embrace change with grace and positivity. The butterfly is seen as a symbol of hope, joy, and rebirth, reminding us that even during the darkest moments, there is always potential for growth and newfound beauty to emerge. Just as the butterfly emerges from its cocoon, we too can transform and reach new heights of self-discovery and liberation.

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My friend Nakita wearing her Golden Wings necklace alongside her sweet boys.

Her review from etsy: It’s exactly as described, also it’s even more lovely in person! The butterfly is so sweet and delicate. Perfect for the minimalist. This was my Christmas gift to myself this year and it feels so special and meaningful to wear. Thank you!

GRAB A GOLDEN WINGS BUTTERFLY TALISMAN

THIS IS MY SANCTUARY

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I’ve been back home for 5 weeks now. Most of that time has been spent unpacking boxes of trinkets that are old and familiar and feel like home to my soul. It has stirred a mixture of nostalgia and overwhelm within me, and in James. This move made me realize just what a hoarder I am. The things I tend to cling to once belonged to someone I love, or they have a one of a kind feel to them, or were handmade or have a certain color or texture to them… They feel like treasures, not just stuff. Or, they have a purpose, which may not fit into my immediate present, but things I’m so grateful to have on hand when certain times arise, like doing an art show, getting crafty with upcycling clothing, or painting on a canvas. As an artist, I have supplies for just about every medium you can think of, and you never know when you need to bust them out and flow with the muse. Oh, and books… all the books. And handmade earthy mugs. And wicker baskets, for storage obviously.

Throughout this move I actually let go of so much. It’s hard to tell by looking around at the piles still needing to find the right nook to live. But we packed car loads for donation and I filled up my entryway with trinkets to give to my friends, who so lovingly took a ton of it! It felt so freeing to release those things. But now I am finding myself in the space after bringing home a few more car loads from my Nanna’s, of needing to let go of more. I understand the concept of creating space and a feeling of lightness from letting go. The less stuff around, the more space you have in your energy and mind to create. I’m at an impasse with my stuff. I think the joy that releasing all the items I did let go of will continue to inspire me to keep decluttering. It really did feel good. But I’m down to the good stuff, if you know what I mean.

It has been so fun to rediscover my things though. I had so much of it packed away for 3+ years, and I got to see it all in a new light. I didn’t put things back where they used to reside. I was very intentional about creating fresh spaces energetically. I didn’t want things to feel like they did before. I believe the way we choose to decorate our spaces creates the energy that surrounds us.

All this to say… I’m loving the way my bathtub sanctuary is set up now. It feels so warm and magical and pared down to my favorite objects for this space. I’m so unbelievably grateful to be able to take baths again!!! It is my evening ritual, and my space to ponder, to read, to write, to draw cards, to soothe, to cry, to wash away any stress of the day.