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Lookism

ImageFinally, the wine finds a topic it likes and the conversation changes to his blindness…from a gunshot during his gang years in LA…a look he wears very well behind his Ray-Ban’s at night in the sweater from the National Theatre Company of Norway where he just completed a tour of his one-man-show…I ask him what is the best thing about being blind… his face loosens, one corner of his mouth lifting a smile…a curtain peek…he says he’s glad he’s beyond “lookism” altogether…that he doesn’t even wonder what people look like any more, in fact, he long ago stopped asking his friends to describe women to him, too…none of that mattered any more…he’d finally reached a calm resignation…this is the best thing, he says…that it doesn’t matter to him what anything looks like…then we go quiet…he adds that lookism is a blind thing…an attitude…and I say, well, it sounds pretty evolved to me…he shakes his head and shrugs

…we sit quiet for a while longer…sure, I can take his picture he says…finally, he speaks again from that quiet place where the wine has settled…that maybe it’s just that he is so bad at imagining what he can no longer see…that he is really lousy at it and tired of not knowing and worn out with asking, so, like all blind people, he adopted the mantra of not caring…and I don’t know what I should say to that…but it’s too late cuz the wine already blurted out “the linen on this table is white and the plates are black”…he doesn’t respond, he doesn’t move a muscle…so the wine goes on… about what the Kapowitzes look like…the Jewishness of their short, sturdy bodies in warm coats with wool scarves and the fringe around Isaac’s bald head like a tonsure and Moira’s bright eyes always scanning the crowds…how they assess asses in seats…report to each other with knowing glances…lean into each other later…after the show when they took us to dinner at the Iridium…buzzed and soaked with Freda Payne crooning Summertime … while he and I sat there like February… cuz it is February

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…then I add that Freda has aged well and the boys in her band watch her trancelike, their fingers blind-touching the keys and strings the way their eyes caress her…the room heating up eazy…then I describe the lighting in the bar where we now sit, near closing time… all stark chromed sophistication with dozens of clear vases mounted in wall sconces holding a single bloodred rose like in a mausoleum…that the inset lights are purple and orange fusing the air into fuschia…the exact color everything blurs to in this city…it’s blow on your eyes at 2am in Times Square…the neon stepchild of Dr. Seuss and Andy Warhol…now he leans forward, bending his head towards me…yes, nodding, he could feel all of that, he can’t see it but he can feel it…and the wine smiles slowly into the direction of my voice …it asks him what I look like, and he sits back, stretching his long legs out, he puts his hands behind his head, takes a deep drag of Manhattan and blows it out with a whistle… he ventures that I am a tall brunette with dark eyes…  and the wine says, well… I’m not all that tall…

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© Liana 2012

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blue and green

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we don’t belong to each other

we belong together          some poems

belong together to prove the intentionality of subatomic particles.

some poems eat with scissors.

some poems are like kissing a

porcupine.

God, by the way, is disappointed in some of your recent

choices.

some poems swoop.

when she said my eyes were
definitely blue, I said, How can you see that in the dark?

how can you not? she said, and that was like some poems

some poems are

blinded three times.

some poems go like death before dishonor.

some poems go like the time she brought cherries to the movies;
later a heedless picnic in her bed.

never revered I crumbs so

highly.

some poems have perfect posture as if hanging by

filaments from the sky.

those poems walk like dancers,

noiselessly.

all poems are love poems.

some poems are better off dead.

right now I want something I don’t believe in.

~ James Galvin

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sunshiny

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www.poetrycurator.wordpress.com blew me a little kiss with the SUNSHINE AWARD.  I’m embarrassed by how much this pleases me.  I love her blog, and just ambled through her recent post on Emily Dickinson’s home from a poet-POV camera angle, which was fun.  I’ve done the pilgrimage to Amherst, and spent the better part of one Saturday afternoon sitting in her garden all covered in “yellow sunshine noise” as I pondered her fate…her sad fate. The interior of the Dickinson home wasn’t on tour, so I just sat there listening to the bees, her busy bees, in the ghosty-garden.  I felt an uncanny connection to her mind and motivations, maybe we all do and that’s why she works.  I was so obsessed with her in college that I actually looked up what happens to the body during kidney failure (her cause of death) and that’s how I learned about “urea frost.”

For the record, I have never had call to use that information, not even in a trivia game.

Thank you, Poetry Curator, for the Emily post–the very thing I love visiting your blog to see.

The requisite fact-romp thru me efficiently combined with five blogs (hard to limit this) that I highly recommend:

1.  When I was visually touring Emily Dickinson’s home via poetrycurator’s blogpost, my mind jumped ahead of the camera as it moved up the steep stairs.  I knew the second door on the right was her room, although I don’t know how I knew that.  My thought upon looking around the room (via the camera) was that they had her bed in the wrong spot.   According to the narrator, Emily wrote all her poems in this room, but trust me, this is not true, some were written in the garden.  And some were written and are still hidden away.

Here’s the link: http://poetrycurator.wordpress.com/2012/09/23/emily-dickinson-angles-of-a-landscape/

And here’s another poetry blog I follow: http://kvennarad.wordpress.com/2012/09/22/fragment-216/

2.  My fifth grade teacher told us that a study of the English language had been made to discover which words sounded prettiest in combination.  She said the results were:  cellar door.

—  I have absolutely no idea why I remember that story, except maybe that it’s sort of remarkable that I know this to be the exact experience that taught me what “subjectivity” is all about…
At any rate http://ngtolentino.wordpress.com/2012/08/05/the-kiss/ is from Neal whose pretzellogic is entirely sound.

3.  Random fact: I wrote a book about a kitty when I was five years old…I made a cover for it out of tin foil wrapped over cardboard.  I also did the illustrations featuring this cat with a little bouquet of flowers hovering perpetually over its head.  I gave this book to my dad, who say he still has it.  Some girls are just writers.

It’s one of the reasons I like http://writingthegirl.wordpress.com/things-i-wish-id-thought-of-first/

4.  Sometimes I see a picture that needs to be taken and I’m the only one there who can do it… but I’m such a novice/newby/greenhorn/pretender that I do this little intake of breath, hold it and try to channel a real shooter whose name is a bit similar to mine, which on the metaphysical plain might mean I get to draw on her energy:   http://leannecolephotography.com/2012/09/23/country-markets/

5.  I just like the thoughtfulness of this writer…and his pictures:  http://burungaar.wordpress.com/2012/07/26/chance/ and I like that he’s in Brussels now, because I was there once for one night and don’t know how I’ll ever make good on the promise to myself to go back.

6.  I do get to go lots of interesting places with my work.  Wherever I go, like everybody else, I like to have a souvenir.  But I’ve long-since stopped buying the t-shirt.  Instead, I’ll bring back an ordinary kitchen utensil or tea towel so when I use them back at my own home, I remember where they came from and smile inside.  When I was in Venice, I bought an absolutely awesome cheese grater.  Here’s a blogger who loves Venice as much as I do–I pretty much love everything he posts:

http://bogdandanphotography.files.wordpress.com/2011/11/sighi-turn.jpg

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Manifesto: The Mad Farmer Liberation Front

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Give your approval to all you cannot
understand.  Praise ignorance, for what man
has not encountered he has not destroyed.
Ask the questions that have no answers.
Invest in the millennium.  Plant sequoias.
Say that your main crop is forest
that you did not plant,
that you will not harvest
Say that the leaves are harvested
when they have rotted into the mold.
Call that profit.  Prophesy such returns.
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Put your faith in the two inches of humus
that will build under the trees
every thousand years.
Listen to the carrion–put your ear
close, and hear the faint chattering
of the songs that are to come.
Expect the end of the world. Laugh.
Laughter is immeasurable.  Be joyful
though you have considered all the facts.

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So long as women do not go cheap
for power, please women more than men.
Ask yourself: Will this satisfy
a woman satisfied to bear a child?
Will this disturb the sleep
of a woman near to giving birth?
Go with your love to the fields.
Lie easy in the shade.  Rest your head
in her lap.  Swear allegiance
to what is nighest in your thoughts.
As soon as the generals and the politicos
can predict the motions of your mind,
lose it.  Leave it as a sign
to mark a false trail, the way
you didn’t go.  Be like the fox
who makes more tracks than necessary,
some in the wrong direction.

Practice resurrection.

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~ Wendell Berry

(excerpt)