
Two important things happened yesterday–the palindrome day:
1. After weeks under the permacloud of winter in the Mitten, the sun came back. I pulled the car over to grab this shot with my phone as evidence of this miraculous event.
2. I found my voice in a book I hadn’t realized I’d already been writing for several years now. When I heard it, it didn’t sound snarky, impatient and annoyed but joyful . . . as if whooping from the bottom of a well where it had waited for so long to be hauled up in a bucket full of everything I need. I couldn’t see it before . . . but yesterday I could . . . with complete clarity.
From these two amazing events, here’s what stands out:
1. All day, I was rolling my eyes at the big deal everyone was making of the palindromic date: 02/02/2020. But upon reflection, maybe a palindrome creates a portal for a rare and perfect balance of the present with a full 360 degree view of one’s past and future. Maybe it’s taken 909 years to be ready to write my own book in my own voice.
2. Clearly, I don’t give a rat’s ass about the Super Bowl.





Keats barely moves since the drama with Shelley two days ago.
Before dark, Keats went back to the river where he’s been hanging out in the shallows by himself ever since, keening quietly. He’s not feeding. Today, he hasn’t moved a feather–I would know because I can’t stop watching for this. I feel like I’m sitting Shiva with him. How long can this last?







6 July 2018, South Haven, Michigan













