Note: this is an attempt at humor, written while I was being too serious about myself. Spo

According to my app that monitors my activity, I’ve had some sort of exercise every night now for an over a fortnight. I thought a break would be good. I planned to go home directly after work, which I did, knowing there was work-to-be-done tasks at home. To my happy surprise Someone (the dear!) did them: the dishes were done and the laundry was all folded and put away. Even the kitchen was all tided up. So there was nothing pressing to do. Hot puppies! I had a free night! The opportunities are endless; I could do all sorts of put-off projects and pleasures. So what did I do? Nothing, that’s what. After taking off my work clothes I fell into bed and did noting. No, I did worse than nothing, I doom-scrolled and played mindless games on the phone, neither concluding with a sense having had a pleasant past time. What a waste – or is it? Sometimes Psyche decides if I am not going to sit still she will plot me having a heart attack or a nervous breakdown she hasn’t determined which.

Sitting still is hard enough for Urs Truly but sitting still and ‘doing nothing’ is even more of a challenge.* It’s times like this I wish I had some Ritalin or something like it. Bourbon is a close second but I do not drink when home alone. Some archetype sitting at the inner board of directors needs to out-vote (or slap silly) the inner Midwesterner who finds doing nothing so horrible. If it can’t see reason then locking him in the walk-in closest could do. Truth is, even if I thought of something to do I feel too tired right now to do anything. It’s 8PM and I am nodding off as I type this. I’m turning into an old man who wants to retire right after dinner and wakes at 4AM.

Let your body be the guide, is a good rule but what if you body wants to eat an entire thin crust pizza (which I did) and get into bed and nothing else? When Someone comes home from work he’s going to find me asleep like a beached whale and no fun that. If he wants to talk we can do so at 4AM; I will be awake to do so.

*I could try meditation but my motives are wrong. I’ve hear tell The Dali Lama discourages Westerners doing meditation as they do it to feel good and not to make the world good.